Monday, May 30, 2011
I've been busy with work and gone for the last week! I went to Phoenix last Sunday for our anuual Decorating Den conference and then hubby flew out on Wed and we went to Sedona for 4 nights! What a fabulous trip! Weather was beautiful and sights were fantastic! Yesterday, on our Delta flight home, hubby wore his American Flag shirt in honor of memorial day! Judy, our hostess, asked him if he was military and of course both of us are retired from the Air Force. Then she offered us free meals! What a surprise that was but we graciously accepted. Then at the end of the flight, she requested that everyone stay seated and let all the retired military and active duty get off first! I was truly humbled and hubby especially because when he came back from Southeast ASia in 1973, he did not receive the same respect. As we made our way off the plane and through the business class, I passed a man who said, "and now some are taking advantage". I turned right around and informed him that I was retired from the Air Force and he sheepishly thanked me for my service. I guess I didn't look the part in my pink jacket, flowered pink shirt and white crops! It was an experience I'll never forget, never mind him.
There was a young Navy sailor onboard and we figured he was fresh from bootcamp. We talked with him and thanked him for serving. He said he was on the way to Norfolk to serve as a beach master for the marines. They are the ones who land on the beach first and tell everyone else where to go and what to do. Sean Connery did that in D-Day.
There is so much I need to catch up on and hopefully I can get some of my readers back! I am gearing myself up to go on a healthy eating plan and hopefully lose some weight this summer. Meds have kicked in and I'm feeling better but that is another blog! Later.
Saturday, May 14, 2011
I commented on another member's blog about her smidge of a weight gain and I advised her to "pay attention". And I should "pay attention" as well, to what I'm eating, to stressors in life, to committing to exercise. I should pay attention to myself to keep healthy, etc. etc. etc. Where did that term come from anyway and what does it mean, to pay attention? It rolls off the tongue. You were told in class to pay attention, your spouse wants you to pay attention, in church you need to pay attention to the preacher. ??? So I googled it and got directed to www.usingenglish.com for the correct way to use, always preceded by "to". Or after.
I surmise that if I hadn't paid attention to losing weight for many years, I would have easily ballooned up to over 200 pounds. On and off diets we go, losing and gaining, losing and gaining.
None of those diets helped me achieve my ultimate weight loss goal. I gave up because it seemed like no matter what I did, the lbs did not budge. At least not fast enough. So now I have a new opportunity for experimentation into the diet realm. It wasn't the diets fault, I gave up, I didn't stick it out. We blame it on the diet plan, "that one didn't work for me". Or was it I didn't work with it long enough? Or I didn't pay enough attention to the plan for it to work for me?
So where am I now. Ballooned up again with a fat pouch at the stomach and a size bigger. Last year I bought a size 14 pair of crops that fit nicely. I never wore them and found them in the drawer with the tags still on. So I took them back to the store and exchanged them for a 16. Sigh! Here's the deal, I'm going on my yearly trip to my conference in Arizona and I need something to wear that fits! This happens every year, I want to lose weight before I go and that doesn't happen so I plan to go on a diet of some sort when I get back and that usually does happen. The best results I had was when I went on the Sonoma Diet right after conference about 4 years ago and lost 10 lbs in the first 10 days. Then it took me 6 more months to lose 8 lbs. By that time I was frustrated and stopped. Why don't I just keep it up? This year I will. My new doc says 80% of his patients lose weight on the med I started taking for my depression and I want to be in that 80%. I don't want to go back and see him in July with no weight loss. Too bad he didn't weigh me in.
I need to pay attention to a healthy diet and exercise. I can start today with a healthy diet. Maybe I won't lose but I can start on the track so that when I'm out in Arizona, I won't eat too many tacos. I can walk too. I CAN!
I have a busy day today with seeing 2 clients, a pedicure and going to Mom's to fill her pill box. I'll have to eat lunch prior to the first client or at least plan something. Later.
Thursday, May 12, 2011
I visited my new psychiatrist today and finally, after a month of medication changes, i think the Pristiq has finallly kicked in and the other meds are out. It has been a trying month of adjustment. Nearly every day i had a headache that went on all day. I had nausea and drowsiness. I couldn't sleep. Tryed taking the med at night which helped during the day but then I was awake and if I took a tylenol pm to go to sleep, then I couldn't get up. Anyway, i am back on taking morning meds and all the symptoms are gone! Some interesting things are happening.
1. I am an avid coffee drinker and it doesn't taste as good to me as before. Can barely get through one cup, let alone two. Doc said that caffeine tends to keep you from losing weight.
2. Wine turns me off. Used to like a glass or two but now not so much. Still go for the beer but not so much of that either.
3. I don't seem as hungry but while I was going through the withdrawal, I ate everything that I felt would help me feel better, especially sweets.
4. Doc said taht 80% of his patients that switch to pristiq end up losing weight! Hope I'm in that 80%.
5. He had given me a prescription for something to take at night instead of tylenol pm. Haven't really tried it yet but he said that it was non addictive and would allow me to go into stage 4 sleep which stimulated hormones that helped with weight loss. So I am going to take that and nix the atavan I was taking.
I hope that all this comes together and the lbs might actually come off. It has been so darn difficult and frustrating for me to lose weight as it stuck to me like glue. I guess the meds weren't helping and no matter what I did, could not seem to lose. Or lose so slow I gave up.
I'm not going to worry too much in the next 2 weeks as I am busy trying to finish a big decorating job next week and then I go to Phoenix and Sedona, Az for our Decorating Den conference. Can't wait! A mini vacation. Hubby is flying out on Wed 25 May for 4 nights in Sedona and we are going to the grand canyon via train in the observation car, visiting the canyon and the Navajo village and then coming back via bus. A Long day but we aren't ever going that way again. Been to the Grand Canyon twice. Once it was so fogged in we couldn't see a thing. The second time was with the High School Band and I was afraid the kids would fall over the cliff. So didn't enjoy it much. Hope to see something this time.
Sunday, May 08, 2011
I know it is Mother's Day and supposedly special but I'm not having a good day at the moment. I'm angry and allowing myself to feel that anger. I won't discuss why but maybe it is a good thing as I tend to hold things in. I'm feeling a lot of anxiety this morning and I just went and took an extra pill for that. Rarely do that but I feel so edgy. My medication is kicking in but I see my doctor on Thursday and will definitely have some things to tell him. I'm swallowing tylenol like it's candy. Headaches abound. Am I getting enough medication?
One thing I've noticed is that coffee doesn't seem to taste good to me anymore. I used to drink 2 and sometimes 3 cups every morning and now I can just get through one cup and that is about it. Same with alcohol. Especially wine. Yesterday, hubby and I delivered some chairs to a friend and took a bottle of wine. She poured a glass and it went straight to my head, couldn't even finish it. Didn't want it.
Afterward we went shopping at Coldwater Creek as I wanted to get some new crops that fit me. IF I'm not losing at least I need a pair I can close. Hubby kept insisting that I buy something, pulling things off the racks and I ended up with a pile of stuff that I am probably taking back this week. Nothing reallly excited me and the pants were a size bigger than I wanted them to be. What I reallly wanted was some new t-shirts with 3/4 sleeves but they didn't have any. So I didn't get anything I wanted. And still spent a pile of money so back they will go on Tuesday. What I really need to do is pull everything out of my drawers, try them on, and off to the Salvation Army if I'm not going to wear it.
Since I have been struggling with medication the last month, my diet has been whatever I feel like eating when I feel like eating it. In the mornings I usually have a pop tart because I seem to want the sugar and something for my pills to land on. Later, about 10:00 or so, I've been craving protein. We had some ham left from Easter so a ham sandwich on whole wheat bread was good. Ice cream is something that comforts me. A klondike bar in the afternoon seemed to be a must and dinner was dinner. Whatever it was. Snacking did not exist in the evening. No desire.
My body aches and I seem to want to walk. I will try and get out with the dog before church but I also have some other things to do. The last 2 nights I have been waking up at 2:00 drenched in sweat. ANd then try to fall back asleep. I don't want to be any fatter than I am right now. I think the fact that I have been on many diets over the past 10 years or so has kept me from getting up over 200 pounds. I seem to continually lose and gain the same pounds but it is better than not losing and gaining. My taste buds are changing. I hope that when this medication finally gets regulated that I will be among those who lose weight and not gain.
Did anyone even read this? I want to be so positive but I've got so much garbage to dump. And get a handle on. Hope you have a good Mother's Day.
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