Sunday, May 08, 2011
I know it is Mother's Day and supposedly special but I'm not having a good day at the moment. I'm angry and allowing myself to feel that anger. I won't discuss why but maybe it is a good thing as I tend to hold things in. I'm feeling a lot of anxiety this morning and I just went and took an extra pill for that. Rarely do that but I feel so edgy. My medication is kicking in but I see my doctor on Thursday and will definitely have some things to tell him. I'm swallowing tylenol like it's candy. Headaches abound. Am I getting enough medication?
One thing I've noticed is that coffee doesn't seem to taste good to me anymore. I used to drink 2 and sometimes 3 cups every morning and now I can just get through one cup and that is about it. Same with alcohol. Especially wine. Yesterday, hubby and I delivered some chairs to a friend and took a bottle of wine. She poured a glass and it went straight to my head, couldn't even finish it. Didn't want it.
Afterward we went shopping at Coldwater Creek as I wanted to get some new crops that fit me. IF I'm not losing at least I need a pair I can close. Hubby kept insisting that I buy something, pulling things off the racks and I ended up with a pile of stuff that I am probably taking back this week. Nothing reallly excited me and the pants were a size bigger than I wanted them to be. What I reallly wanted was some new t-shirts with 3/4 sleeves but they didn't have any. So I didn't get anything I wanted. And still spent a pile of money so back they will go on Tuesday. What I really need to do is pull everything out of my drawers, try them on, and off to the Salvation Army if I'm not going to wear it.
Since I have been struggling with medication the last month, my diet has been whatever I feel like eating when I feel like eating it. In the mornings I usually have a pop tart because I seem to want the sugar and something for my pills to land on. Later, about 10:00 or so, I've been craving protein. We had some ham left from Easter so a ham sandwich on whole wheat bread was good. Ice cream is something that comforts me. A klondike bar in the afternoon seemed to be a must and dinner was dinner. Whatever it was. Snacking did not exist in the evening. No desire.
My body aches and I seem to want to walk. I will try and get out with the dog before church but I also have some other things to do. The last 2 nights I have been waking up at 2:00 drenched in sweat. ANd then try to fall back asleep. I don't want to be any fatter than I am right now. I think the fact that I have been on many diets over the past 10 years or so has kept me from getting up over 200 pounds. I seem to continually lose and gain the same pounds but it is better than not losing and gaining. My taste buds are changing. I hope that when this medication finally gets regulated that I will be among those who lose weight and not gain.
Did anyone even read this? I want to be so positive but I've got so much garbage to dump. And get a handle on. Hope you have a good Mother's Day.
Saturday, April 30, 2011
Last night we attended the Rotary District Conference and sat with 6 visiting Rotarians from Brazil and the local International Rotarian Liaison. They had a Low Country Boil. The 3 Americans had 2 plates, one for the net bag of 8 huge shrimp, 4 steamed clams, 3 big new potatoes, 1 ear of corn and a sausage quarter. The other plate held potato salad, coleslaw, fresh fruit, garlic bread. And we three thoroughly enjoyed ourselves, although I left the new potatoes and most of the sausage but the huge shrimp was outstandingly delicious! And then we had key lime pie.
All of the thin Brazilians passed on the boil except one. Their plates held one piece of grilled chicken, potato salad, cole slaw and fruit. There was space around each piece of food! Not piled high like we would have done. And they commented on how big portions were everywhere they went! So there you go, a lesson learned, we eat more!
Today will have to be slim although we have another dinner tonight. I should have taken a picture. WE were at a large resort in Destin, Florida, sitting on the balcony around the pool. The weather was beautiful!, About 70 degrees, no wind or humidity. We were right on the Gulf of Mexico and saw the beautiful sunset! And Fireworks! I truly live in an awesome place! Later. P.S. I am feeling great! Guess my new meds have kicked in.
Thursday, April 28, 2011
I am finally feeling better! They say it takes 2 weeks for medication to take effect and today is 2 weeks! I've had 2 nights of taking my new medication at night instead of in the morning and that seems to have done the trick. I've had boundless energy today and been very busy so I hope it keeps up, both the energy and the business.
Now I hope that I am in the majority of people taking pristiq that lose weight and not in the minority that gain weight! It is too early to tell but I don't seem to be as hungry so maybe, here's hoping. I don't even want to go near the scale as for the last couple of weeks, I grabbed anything to eat that I felt would make me feel better.
When i was having the nausea, a diet coke seemed to settle my stomach. And I rarely drink diet coke. One day I even had to have the last real coke in the fridge.
So here's hoping that I can progress past this point and get on with my life. Later.
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