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TRYING TO GET MY LIFE TOGETHER!

Sunday, May 08, 2011

I know it is Mother's Day and supposedly special but I'm not having a good day at the moment. I'm angry and allowing myself to feel that anger. I won't discuss why but maybe it is a good thing as I tend to hold things in. I'm feeling a lot of anxiety this morning and I just went and took an extra pill for that. Rarely do that but I feel so edgy. My medication is kicking in but I see my doctor on Thursday and will definitely have some things to tell him. I'm swallowing tylenol like it's candy. Headaches abound. Am I getting enough medication?

One thing I've noticed is that coffee doesn't seem to taste good to me anymore. I used to drink 2 and sometimes 3 cups every morning and now I can just get through one cup and that is about it. Same with alcohol. Especially wine. Yesterday, hubby and I delivered some chairs to a friend and took a bottle of wine. She poured a glass and it went straight to my head, couldn't even finish it. Didn't want it.

Afterward we went shopping at Coldwater Creek as I wanted to get some new crops that fit me. IF I'm not losing at least I need a pair I can close. Hubby kept insisting that I buy something, pulling things off the racks and I ended up with a pile of stuff that I am probably taking back this week. Nothing reallly excited me and the pants were a size bigger than I wanted them to be. What I reallly wanted was some new t-shirts with 3/4 sleeves but they didn't have any. So I didn't get anything I wanted. And still spent a pile of money so back they will go on Tuesday. What I really need to do is pull everything out of my drawers, try them on, and off to the Salvation Army if I'm not going to wear it.

Since I have been struggling with medication the last month, my diet has been whatever I feel like eating when I feel like eating it. In the mornings I usually have a pop tart because I seem to want the sugar and something for my pills to land on. Later, about 10:00 or so, I've been craving protein. We had some ham left from Easter so a ham sandwich on whole wheat bread was good. Ice cream is something that comforts me. A klondike bar in the afternoon seemed to be a must and dinner was dinner. Whatever it was. Snacking did not exist in the evening. No desire.

My body aches and I seem to want to walk. I will try and get out with the dog before church but I also have some other things to do. The last 2 nights I have been waking up at 2:00 drenched in sweat. ANd then try to fall back asleep. I don't want to be any fatter than I am right now. I think the fact that I have been on many diets over the past 10 years or so has kept me from getting up over 200 pounds. I seem to continually lose and gain the same pounds but it is better than not losing and gaining. My taste buds are changing. I hope that when this medication finally gets regulated that I will be among those who lose weight and not gain.

Did anyone even read this? I want to be so positive but I've got so much garbage to dump. And get a handle on. Hope you have a good Mother's Day.

  
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SERENEMOM71 5/8/2011 11:21AM

  I'm glad that you are letting your feelings out as the only way to deal with them is to go through them. I don't know what medications you are on but most of them aren't compatible with alcohol - check with your doctor. You are in my daily thoughts and prayers, my dear! I do care about you.
Love, your sister in Christ,
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AMBERLEIGHM1 5/8/2011 10:14AM

    I always believe in not supressing what you feel; if you are angry then that is fine. As long as we don't let our feelings cause us to become destructive to ourselves or others then feel what you need to feel.

I'm sorry you needed the extra medication but I'm so glad you had it on hand and I hope it works well.

I'm praying you the get the good side effect from the medication. I hope the rest of the day is gentle on you. Thank you for the warm thoughts today.

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-CHERYL 5/8/2011 10:09AM

    I've been a chronic dieter since I was about 13 when I noticed my cousins were fat and I didn't want to be. I think all the yo-yo dieting has messed up my body so losing weight is difficult. I have been doing Spark seriously since October and have lost 36 pounds so far. This is the longest I have been consistent with working on losing weight and I have been able to see how my body loses weight. It's difficult to lose when you take certain medications but it's not impossible.
I hope you can get a handle on your stress's. I've found that my eating and exercise is the only thing I have total control over in my life and it's nice to have control over something!

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KASEYCOFF 5/8/2011 9:47AM

    You know I read 'em, hon, each and ever' one....
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WHAT I WANT TO DO!

Saturday, May 07, 2011

This is so silly but I would like to take my quilting to the next level and develop patterns and quilts and sell them. I know I could do this as I've owned my own decorating business for 27 years and I know how to run a business. I see these really young women like Julie Herman of Jaybird Quilts who is making quilts, selling patterns, and is showcasing at the quilt show in Salt Lake City this weekend. I don't want to do this on a large scale, just a bit and when I want to. I don't have to make a lot of money but I see this as a very fulfilling thing to do in my retirement.

Just thinking and musing. I've been working on 2 quilts that I made without patterns. I did take my inspiration from pictures and patterns I had seen but did not follow exactly. Both have turned out beautifully although I'm not finished. I have to see clients today so I can't do my quilting, maybe a bit later this morning and before I have to go out at 2:00.

I have a new sewing machine on lay away. Haven't told hubby and it doesn't matter anyway as I'm paying for it through my business. Just figured I'd have it paid for before I tell him. Later.

  
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AGILLASPIE60 5/14/2011 12:07PM

    When my boys were little and I was a stay-at-home mom, I quilted a lot. Now I work full time and don't have much time for my hobby....I miss it! So I say, research how to get your patterns published and go for it! Do what you enjoy most and fulfill your dreams....It's never too late! Quilting is such a fulfilling hobby, why not make it a business?!

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KASEYCOFF 5/7/2011 10:00AM

    Oohh, a new sewing machine! Love the layaway plan - and now you've given me an idea, lol...
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BACK AMONG THE LIVING! I HOPE!

Monday, May 02, 2011

Saturday night I did not sleep. Could not sleep. So at 12:30 I got up and took a tylenol PM which was not smart. Then I could not get up and was groggy all day. After church, I laid down and instantly fell asleep for 2 hours. Then last night, I decided that I would not take any meds and get up this morning, have breakfast and then take all my meds, including the new one that wrecked havoc with my soul for 2 weeks. I am determined that it has kicked in and today will be the day that I get back on track! I am going to get up and walk the dog and shower and get dressed for the day after I finish this blog! Today I WILL!

I is the most important word when it comes to weight loss and self improvement. Only I can do it! So here are my I's!

I will get up from my computer and walk the dog!
I will drink my water. I have put a container from which I will pass pennies from one to the otherwhen I drink a glass in order to ensure I actuallly do it.
I will eat 5 or more fruits and veggies daily.

These are just a few of the things that I am going to do. I have landed on a few teams that I hope will make a difference.

The Slowest Loser
The Mediterranean Way
Quilt and Lose (my creative outlet)
Pensacola Sparkers

With the above teams I hope to be able to get back on track and to be postive. Now I am going to go and brush my teeth, put on some scrubs and get out with the dog! Later.

  
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AGILLASPIE60 5/12/2011 9:45PM

    You've made a great plan! Go for it!

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SERENEMOM71 5/3/2011 12:00PM

  emoticon Just take one day @ a time! emoticon plan!

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BECKYI39 5/2/2011 10:57AM

    You can do it!!

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KASEYCOFF 5/2/2011 9:34AM

    Attagirl! It's all in attitude, determination, and choice - sounds as tho you are in the process of making some very wise choices!
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ANDI571 5/2/2011 9:31AM

    Kick some butt today Carol. You can do it..... emoticon

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JUST_TRI_IT 5/2/2011 9:27AM

    Sounds like a great plan for the day... and longer! Hope you have a great day :)

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WHY AMERICANS ARE FAT!

Saturday, April 30, 2011

Last night we attended the Rotary District Conference and sat with 6 visiting Rotarians from Brazil and the local International Rotarian Liaison. They had a Low Country Boil. The 3 Americans had 2 plates, one for the net bag of 8 huge shrimp, 4 steamed clams, 3 big new potatoes, 1 ear of corn and a sausage quarter. The other plate held potato salad, coleslaw, fresh fruit, garlic bread. And we three thoroughly enjoyed ourselves, although I left the new potatoes and most of the sausage but the huge shrimp was outstandingly delicious! And then we had key lime pie.
All of the thin Brazilians passed on the boil except one. Their plates held one piece of grilled chicken, potato salad, cole slaw and fruit. There was space around each piece of food! Not piled high like we would have done. And they commented on how big portions were everywhere they went! So there you go, a lesson learned, we eat more!

Today will have to be slim although we have another dinner tonight. I should have taken a picture. WE were at a large resort in Destin, Florida, sitting on the balcony around the pool. The weather was beautiful!, About 70 degrees, no wind or humidity. We were right on the Gulf of Mexico and saw the beautiful sunset! And Fireworks! I truly live in an awesome place! Later. P.S. I am feeling great! Guess my new meds have kicked in.

  
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JIBBIE49 5/3/2011 12:17AM

    I live down the road from Destin at Pensacola, so I get to go to that beautiful beach all the time. emoticon

Americans are fat because we OVEREAT and that is just the facts. There aren't fat people like that around the world. When I read blogs from people here on Sparks going on about it not being fat people's fault that they are fat, I just cringe. Dr. Phil says we are fat because it serves a need.
I know I have to see myself as thin again as I think of myself as being old, which isn't good.
Denial and excuses do nothing to change the situation.

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ILLINITEACHER52 4/30/2011 1:13PM

  The shrimp sounds great! I love seafood.

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KASEYCOFF 4/30/2011 10:13AM

    Sounds as tho you are doing great - and the wonderful locale don't hurt, lol... I would've skipped the boil my self, but mostly because I am very fussy about how seafood is prepared, plus there's much of it that I don't care for. Personally, I'd have ended up with grilled chicken and fresh fruit, and any green salads or fresh veggies they had going. That would've been true 'pre-diet' as well, but in the old days, I would've gone for the pie, no question, and maybe even have tried to cadge a second piece. These days - no pie, and if I was really tempted, I would 'snitch' a bite of someone else's.

I don't like foods on my plate touching each other, but that's a holdover from childhood - does that make me a picky eater, or Brazilian? lol!
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FROM THIS DAY FORWARD!

Thursday, April 28, 2011

I am finally feeling better! They say it takes 2 weeks for medication to take effect and today is 2 weeks! I've had 2 nights of taking my new medication at night instead of in the morning and that seems to have done the trick. I've had boundless energy today and been very busy so I hope it keeps up, both the energy and the business.
Now I hope that I am in the majority of people taking pristiq that lose weight and not in the minority that gain weight! It is too early to tell but I don't seem to be as hungry so maybe, here's hoping. I don't even want to go near the scale as for the last couple of weeks, I grabbed anything to eat that I felt would make me feel better.
When i was having the nausea, a diet coke seemed to settle my stomach. And I rarely drink diet coke. One day I even had to have the last real coke in the fridge.
So here's hoping that I can progress past this point and get on with my life. Later.

  
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AMBERLEIGHM1 4/29/2011 8:19PM

    I will pray you continue to do well. It is great when our depression lifts and things seem to come together.

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KASEYCOFF 4/28/2011 6:02PM

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SERENEMOM71 4/28/2011 5:03PM

  I am so happy that the Pristiq is going to work for you! Now you can tackle the food! Just go back to tracking your food and you will do fine! Don't worry about the past - it's over and done with!!. I love diet coke - no sugar! and calories!! I also love water, now, too!!
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