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Friday, December 17, 2010

Well, tonight is the last Christmas party I have to attend where there is gobs of food. This week, I didn't even attempt to be on any kind of a diet. Missed WW and tomorrow we are going away for 2 nights. Just because. A whole week left before Christmas. I had wanted to finish a quilt for my granddaughter but haven't touched it all week. THere is still time and I bet I could do it, just have to get to it. I could take my sewing machine with me tomorrow but that seems like work so I don't know. I just have to finish the top and put it together and machine quilt. Not that much.
Maybe I'll stay up all night Christmas eve sewing.
Hubby is talking about retirement again. I'm not ready for that! I'd like 2 more years but I don't know. He was pretty fed up yesterday. And he loves his job so we'll see.
Later. I'll try and sew a bit today! Not much going on in the work arena but have to make some deliveries.

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PRAIRIECROCUS 12/17/2010 2:50PM

    I hope that you'll have a nice time at the party, tonight !

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MARSHASTAR 12/17/2010 1:14PM

    I enjoy reading about your life. Mine is so dull. Happy Christmas.
Retirement gets boring after awhile, but you'd sure have time to sew quilts all day.
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DONNAEDA 12/17/2010 10:35AM

    Wow, lots of decisions to make. Is your dh old enough to retire? Its quite an adjustment.

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BEVPRESLEY 12/17/2010 9:49AM

    Good luck at the party, and hope DH's job gets better.

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Thursday, December 16, 2010

I started out the day relativity happy but hubby was on a rampage about something that happened at work and I got to hear about it. Pullleease. Give me a break. Starting out the day that way just gets me irritated. Now I'm gloomy about my own day coming up. BUT, I scheduled an 11:00 massage and that should fix things. I am so in need of a massage.
It's past the due date.
And I'm seeing a nice client this afternoon so that should perk me up.
Half way through the parties this week and haven't done so badly. One of the things I've noticed is that I have had complete access to klondike bars, fruitcake, pumpkin tarts, lemon tarts and peanut butter cookies. Instead of scoffing down one of each, I avoided all of it last night. Didn't even want any except I did sneak a bit of fruitcake. After all you only get fruitcake once a year. But last year, I would have stuffed myself with one of each. I had a lemon tart for bkfast yesterday and it wasn't all that good. So I assumed the pumpkin would not be either. So left it alone.
I didn't get to WW on Tuesday. Was on the way but I had to meet a client and by the time I got through the drivethrough at the bank, it was too late so I just went home and caught up before I went to see the client.
It doesn't seem Christmasy this year for some reason. It seems a long way off still. Got all my shopping done or most of it so happy with that. We just didn't plan to spend so much this year and we've kept to the bargain. Or at least I had.
Or local Salvation Army has what is called "The Empty Stocking Fund" sponsored by the local newspaper and they publish donations made daily. This money is used not only for Christmas but to fund the Army throughout the year for needy people. And there are plenty of those right now. Well, they were running short of their goal of $'s needed. Yesterday someone made an $84,000 anonymous donation which put them over the edge. What a blessing that was. And they still continue to collect funds through Christmas. There is a Santa Claus. Later.

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KASEYCOFF 12/16/2010 2:36PM

    WOW! Love it that somebody had $84,000 to give, and especially to The Salvation Army - it's one of my favorite charities! Re the massage... oohh, I could use one o'them my own self. Enjoy, kiddo! :-D

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DONNAEDA 12/16/2010 10:27AM

    I am glad you are getting a massage. that will settle you down. Take care of yourself, this is a stressful time of year. Be kind to yourself you need to put you number 1. Sometimes we are sounding boards for others, try not to internalize it, it really is not your problem. Have a wonderful day my friend.

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NANA2THREEGIRLS 12/16/2010 10:13AM

    Yes there is a Santa Claus...many years ago I was the single mother of two and working 2 jobs(one full time,1 part time) just to pay the rent. A week before Christmas my co workers told me instead of doing the regular secret santa we were all bringing an unwrapped toy to be donated. I really couldn't afford it but it made me sad to think that there were others even less fortunate than myself. I bought a toy and went to the party. You cannot imagine my surprise when all the toys the others bought were for MY children!! I cried then and I am crying now just thinking about it. My children are grown now and we always remember that Christmas as we deliver toys to as many agencies as we can each holiday season.

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SUNRISE14 12/16/2010 10:05AM

    Thankfully you didn't let circumstances ruin your day ! Sounds like you are pretty well under control with your eating! Keep it up ! emoticon

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Tuesday, December 14, 2010

I spent a lot of my life being a wallflower. In other words, when I went to a party or walked into a big room with a lot of people, I wanted to shrink away, to not be seen. I would go in and hope I saw someone I knew to sit with. Or that someone would talk to me and I wouldn't feel like a fifth wheel. Wasted a lot of time I did. I was shy and insecure, always wanted to be popular but never was. I didn't win homecoming queen or even get nominated. My sister did. I was always second fiddle to her although I was proud of her.

I joined the Air Force 2 years out of college. I always would force myself to do things I didn't want to do or was afraid to do. I wasn't afraid to join the Air Force. I was very patriotic and it was during the VIetnam War. I wasn't able to find a decent job after college and kind of flitted around. Thus the Air Force solved a lot of problems for me. A job, answer to my patriotic dreams and a husband. I met him while at the bar in the officer's club early on in my first assignment. I had forced myself to go there, walk in the door and act like I was supposed to be there and happy for it. It was either that or stay at the BOQ by myself.

Where am I going with this? I spent a lot of years forcing myself to do things, attend a meeting, buy a business, join the chamber of commerce. THese were things I wanted to do but if I listened to my afraid and insecure self, I would have never gone anywhere in life. I was reminded of all of this Sunday evening when we went to the Egg Nog Party at the Yacht Club where we are recent new members. My sister had wanted us to join for many years but we were so busy with other things and obligations, we did not until this year. For some reason I finally decided I had the money and a little time and why not. We've made friends through her. They have a sailboat and are friends with all the sailors and boat owners. We on the other hand, don't have a boat and have no intention of getting one. But, we have lots of friends and acquaintances in the club already through the Chamber of Commerce where my hubby works and through my decorating business. Many are clients already. So during the egg nog party we at first sat with sis and our new boating friends. Then we started to mill around and talk to other people we knew. Hubby went off and talked to friends, making jokes, etc like he always does. And I found myself sitting with 2 old ladies, one I knew and her neighbor. The local high school chorus was singing and I wanted to hear them and so I sat in a vacant seat next to this woman that I knew.

Later on, hubby commented on that and apologized for leaving me while he galavanted around the room. I realized, for the first ime in my life, that I was completely comfortable with my situation, having made my choice to sit with these two "elderly" ladies. I didn't have to have anyone sit with me, or hold my hand, or get me into a place where I felt comfortable. I was already comfortable. Where did all this come from? I don't know but I'm glad it did.
While I was writing this, I asked hubby what her name was? He couldn't remember but he did make a not so nice comment about her. Yes, she was kind of crazy and weird but I'm sure that for her, that was normal.

I had an appointment with an elderly lady(80+ maybe) yesterday who wanted suggestions on slipcovering her chairs. THat didn't work out but while I was there, I noticed she had a beautiful quilt hanging over her staircase bannister. I commented on it and she said her mother had made it. Then I told her of my recent quilting experience and how I was enjoying it. Then she told me she had a box filled with her mothers notes and patterns on the quilts she had made and I told her I would love to see it. She was so happy, she brought it out and I looked at the yellowed papers and the tiny patterns, pieces of fabric. She didn't keep me as I think she felt she should pay for my time, which of course wasn't necessary. One day I will go back and she will pull out all of her mother's quilts and I will so enjoy looking at them. She did comment that she didn't think her children would want them. Now I visualize taking photographs of all the quilts and copying the notes and writing a book about them. Aren't I silly?

Got WW today. So don't expect to lose anything. Probably gain but I'm okay with whatever happens. Later.

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PRAIRIECROCUS 12/16/2010 5:49AM

    How nice, that you were able to meet, and visit with, a fellow quilter !
I'm sure that lady was very pleased to meet you, and show you her
quilting materials !
The two of you were indeed,blessed, that day !

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SUNRISE14 12/14/2010 2:23PM

    emoticon i to am different as they would say ! But thats ok i like me and most people put on a front but don't like themself or what they stand for in life ! God made me what i am and if people don't like it thats their problem not mine and i mean that respectfully but i spent to many years trying to be what everybody else wants me to be ! Keep up the good work! emoticon

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BUGGYS 12/14/2010 10:51AM

    Your journey probably has a common thread for all of us...certain situations causes me to withdraw and I am usually a pretty outgoing person...being a daycare provider for years, I often found myself more comfortable with children than I did with adults. In the past 10 years or so I have come out of my comfort zone and done some things that I wouldn't have tried before and I am totally comfortable with them. Maybe it's because as we age, we need to grab life and embrace it to its fullest...learning and expanding and growing!

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LADYBIRD82 12/14/2010 10:04AM

    When my mother passed away I was going through some of the things in her house and found two quilts that were not stuffed and bound. I took them and had them finished. I would say they are two of my most prized possessions. Not sure if she or my Grandmother made them but it doesn't matter. Love them just the same. Glad your no longer a wallflower, life is to short to spend all your time on the wall. From a fellow Air Force member!

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DONNAEDA 12/14/2010 9:56AM

    the caterpiller became a butterfly. What a beautiful metamorphis for you. You really do love yourself, I could tell. When you open yourself to others you can draw love from around you. You did.

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SUNNYDAZE9 12/14/2010 9:06AM

    Thank you for sharing your journey with us. Also, thank you for serving in the Armed Forces for the United States.

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Monday, December 13, 2010

My dear friend who was only 40 died this morning at 3:30 a.m. in the arms of her husband. What a love story that was. She had only been diagnosed a month ago with terminal cancer and now she is gone. He stayed with her in the hospital the entire month and I imagine he is pretty well exhausted. Guess we will be attending a funeral this week in and amongst the parties. One of those parties might not happen.

So I am grateful for our health and also grateful that J. has passed onto a better place and is out of pain. My husband is very close to her husband, he is like a son to us. About the same age as our sons.

Don't know what the week will bring and I'm not going to worry about a diet for sure. Later.

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LEANJEAN6 12/13/2010 5:32PM

    Oh, I am so sorry fror you and your friend--too sad!!!--Sometimes it seems, life isn't faier! I do hope that you have good happy memories of this person--Hopefully y6ou can hewlp her poor husband too----- Huge hugs to you---Lynda emoticon

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BUGGYS 12/13/2010 3:46PM

    I am so sorry to hear about your friend and my prayers are with her family...a very good friend of mine dies a year ago at the age of 52...also too young but I will always remember her life and the blessings she brought!

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TURTLETALK 12/13/2010 12:39PM

    Hugs to you and your friend. emoticon

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DONNAEDA 12/13/2010 9:51AM

    My condolences to your and your dh. I know how devestating this can be. 40 years old is far to young to die. Our rabbi told us a story yesterday at the funeral of my cousin's husband and you might want to console your friend with it. A man came home from work and the wife served him dinner. After dinner she asked him, if you found two jewels and the owner came to you and said I want them back, would you give them back. Of course he said they aren't mine. Well God came and took our two sons. So our lives are in Gods hands and he wanted his 40 year old jewel back. May her memory be a blessing.

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JUDITHANNIE 12/13/2010 9:23AM

    Sorry to hear about your friend but you're correct, she is in a better place, my husband also passed when he was 40 was tough but after raising our 3 sons did find another wonderful man and am remarried again and am very happy, I count my blessings everyday.Did she have children? emoticon

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Sunday, December 12, 2010

There is never a good time to lose someone you love but now is definitely not the best time. I posted in Sept about the 24 year old girl who went to Spain on a vacation and ended up hospitalized with a respiratory illness that she eventually succombed to. Her parents had gone to Spain and were with her for over a month. She was the only child and they had a hard time conceiving her. Now her mother has been hospitalized with elevated blood pressure and I assume it is attributed to grief from losing her child. It is so sad and you just want to reach out and be there if you are needed. I have not seen her parents since they returned.

One of my clients passed from Leukemia a couple weeks ago. And another client's husband died suddenly of a heart attack right before Thanksgiving. Now I have very dear friends, newly married, and the wife, who is only 40, is hospitalized with stage 4 terminal cancer. Her husband has been with her by her side for more than a month but it is only time till she passes. They were so happy and had waited a long time to find each other. There is nothing to do except pray for God's will. ANd who knows what that is, except God himself. And another friend lost her husband this year.

You can always look around and see someone who is far worse off than you are. We shopped yesterday for a 10 year old girl for the Salvation Army and are shopping for a boy as well. We count our blessings we have employment and our sons and their wives are employed and every one seems to be healthy right now and my 91 year old mother-in-law is still with us. WE have food on the table and are able to buy healthy food that sometimes costs a little more.

We are so blessed. Have a great day! And be thankful for your blessings the next few weeks.

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4DOGNIGHT 12/13/2010 8:34AM

    My 40 year old friend passed this morning in the loving arms of her husband. So sad.

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ANDI571 12/12/2010 6:45PM

    I don't know what it is about November and December that we lose our loved ones. My dad passed away Nov. 10th, 2005, and mom was Dec, 29th, 2000.

But counting our blessings is what gets us through. You are right, you just have to look around and you will always see someone else worse off.

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LJCANNON 12/12/2010 4:33PM

    AMEN!! It is always good to have a reminder of how important it is to not only 'Count Our Many Blessings", but also to tell our Loved ones OFTEN that they are Loved!!
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PRAIRIECROCUS 12/12/2010 2:21PM

    I am thankful for my blessings, too !
Have a wonderful day !

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MERRY40 12/12/2010 1:45PM

    You're right-no matter how bad things seem to be, it could always be worse. I am very grateful to God for all He has done for me and given me. God bless you-hope you have a wonderful Christmas season.

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SWEETMOMMY41 12/12/2010 1:32PM

  i am very thankful for the blessings i have in my life. have a wonderful day!

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