Saturday, January 16, 2010
YOU CAN'T LOSE WEIGHT AND KEEP IT OFF WITHOUT CHANGING YOURSELF!
This morning I spilled the beans! Literally! I was making coffee and knocked the bag of coffee beans onto the kitchen floor! I'm just not good until I have my two cups of regular caffeinated coffee in the morning. And some of these diets tell us to kick the caffeine, oh, come on. Hubby cleaned it up with the vacuum and I got out the broom and finished it off. That's togetherness for you.
Anyway, I had planned a 3 mile walk with my friend Pat today and it is raining. Bummer, I was looking forward to that walk after a mostly cold and sedentary two weeks. I was reading chapter 4 of the book last night and Chris says, "Dieting without a lifestyle change is like patching a flat tire." A Temporary fix won't fix it permanently. That is exactly what I was trying to say in my mantra!! We think alike!! It has been 3 weeks today that I began blogging. And I've lost 2 lbs!!. In the past, I would have been so discouraged by now and given it up. Only 2 lbs in 3 weeks is not a quick fix but I understand now that this is a lifestyle change and while I'm learning, it will take longer to lose. It's kind of like having a new baby. By the end of the first month, you have your routine in place.
There is so much to learn on this site and yesterday I found the second step where it said to measure all of your food according to the portions on the label. Now that makes sense. I think I'm eating 1 cup of cereal but is it really a cup or more than that? Last night I had a bag of 3 cheese tortellini that said 2.5 servings. I cooked it and doled it out into 2 casseroles. Hubby got the most. Then I measured 1/2 cup of spaghetti sauce and and topped it with 1/4 c of mozzarella cheese each. Baked at 350 for about 15 min, it was like Olive Garden! Then I added 1 cup each of steamed mixed vegetables on the side. We could not eat it all. I have a full serving of tortellini in the fridge for lunch. In the past, I would have cooked the bag, nixed the vegetables and eaten the whole thing with sauce. Then I would have topped it off with a klondike bar and gone to bed stuffed with heartburn.
Now, here is the trick. This is almost like a full time job. There is a learning curve until you get it down and I'm still learning. No wonder people give up. This lifestyle change is a priority for me, a top goal. In addition, I am weaning myself off of those anti-depressants I've taken for years. For those readers who are on meds, this does not mean you can do the same. I am doing this under the guidance of my doctor and it is a slow process but I now know that I am ready. I am ready for a change. My goals in life no longer depend on having a top producing business where everything else goes to pot. For the first time in a lot of years I feel that I have balance and my family and health are my priority. My 25 year old business was the main income producer for my family for many years and the stress of maintaining that level of productivity took its toll. I felt like I was on a treadmill and could not get off. A hamster in a cage. Our financial circumstances have changed and yesterday I applied for social security. And guess what, now that the pressure is off, I bet my business will continue to fluorish, in spite of myself. And I'll have more fun!
I'm a writer and Chris tells us to write it down on page 52 of the book. By writing it, we can express our feelings and deal with it. The thing is, I never had a reader before and now I've got all of you. It makes me want to keep telling the story and by doing so, I'm learning so much about myself. I've got lots of excerpts of my life stored on the computer and in journals around the house. I found THE DIETER'S JOURNAL that I had purchased in July of 1993. In January of that year, we had purchased a commercial building and I had 2 decorators and we were on the way to our first year as the top franchise in retail sales for my company. In July of 1993, I weighed 160 lbs and my goal was 140. I kept track until July 16 when the next entry was November 1993. I still weighed 160 lbs. Then I quit until Jan 1995 when I still weighed 160 lbs. I quit again until Dec1, 1999 and I weighed 170 lbs. That was my last entry. 10 years later I weigh 185 lbs and my goal is 160. Isn't that sad? To think at 160 I thought I was fat? I was so miserable to be at that weight that over the coming years I gained myself up to 187 lbs and I was taking 7 pills a day for depression and high blood pressure. Just to keep sane. There are 133 pages in that dieter's journal and I have 7 years worth of entries on 19 pages. I never throw anything out so now I am going to have to go through all of my cupboards and find everything else I've written on in the past. I'm on the way to being a whole person.
There is a lot I have to tell you. I've got a Desert Storm story to beat all. Until tomorrow!
Friday, January 15, 2010
YOU CAN'T LOSE WEIGHT AND KEEP IT OFF WITHOUT CHANGING YOUR LIFE!
I'm learning so much everyday about diet and health. Sparkpeople is awesome, the articles are tremendous information. Yesterday, in the past, I would have said it was a bad diet day. I succumbed to food items that should not be on my list. However, when I input everything into my nutrition tracker, I was still within calorie range. I ran my report and even though the calories were okay, the carbs and sodium and lack of certain nutrients glared at me like a sore thumb. I haven't gotten to the diet and nutrition part of the Spark Book so my new goal is to start learning more about that to help me make better choices.
Let me tell you what I did right yesterday. I stopped at McDonald's and got their Southwest grilled chicken salad and used less than half the dressing provided. We attended the Chamber of Commerce annual banquet last night and it was a buffet. I passed on the rolls and potatoes and loaded my plate with salad, and a chicken breast. They had the most beautiful and delicious steamed green broccoli, green bean and carrot medley cut into large pieces and that was at least 1/2 of my plate and delicious!!! I selected red wine over beer as my drink and I had a spoonful of dirty rice. (I can hear the other diet program lady saying, "Oh, you shouldn't have had the dirty rice!") I could counteract all of this positive with the negatives of the day but I choose not to do that. Dwelling on the negative is not going to help me lose weight. Learning more about the postive things I can do WILL help me to lose weight and change my life.
I am a fairly postive person, always trying to look for the good in people and situations. But I must tell you that I have suffered from major and debilitating depression for the last 15 years. It was even suggested a couple of times that I go to a hospital but I declined and fought back. Then, as now, I devoured every article and book about depression that I could find. THis was pre-internet and I couldn't just google it. I have a very successful interior design business and for 3 years in the 90"s my franchise was the top in retail sales in the company of more than 500 franchise owners. To have the debilitating depression I had and to plow through it to earn the top designation in the company was an incredible feat, now that I look back on it. I didn't keep my illness a secret, Everyone knew about it and I'm sure they wondered how I could be so successful in sales and so miserable in my personal life.
I think I'm better, I know I am better and I am working with my new doctor to wean myself off of anti-depressants and it is working. Maybe when I get rid of those meds with the side effects of weight gain, the weight will come off faster. My previous doctor whom I loved died of a heart attack 2 years ago. At the same time, my mother-in-law was admitted to the psych ward for hallucinations, my daughter-in-law had a miscarriage and my once thriving business was struggling through the business down turn in the economy. I didn't crawl into bed and pull the covers over. I dealt with it the way I knew how, focusing on what I had to do.
Isn't that what Chris says in the book, FOCUS. I focused on what I had to do to keep my business going, help my mother-in-law, and generally survive. And I'm trying to lose weight through all of this???
I've often said, I would love to write a book. Maybe I can download all of my blogs and that would be a start. It helps me to write things down, thus this daily blog. My ah ha moment for today is that I need to focus on whatever I need to do for today. And that is to tend to my business. While I'm focusing on that, everything else goes to pot. Thus, the dining room table is loaded with stuff I just dropped there when I came in. My 2009 filing is on the floor beside my chair where it has been for at least a month. My unopened mail is in the in basket. The sheets need to be washed. There are no groceries in the house so I need to go shopping. The two bedrooms at the end of the house are piled high with decorating projects, fabrics, boxes, etc. waiting for me to get to them. NOne of that will get done except the filing and business needs and shopping for groceries. Everything else waits.
My question is to all of you who have read to the end of this blog, do you want to know the next chapter? Until tomorrow.
Thursday, January 14, 2010
I'm a slug. Well actually, according to NATURAL HEALTH magazine, of the 3 body types, I'm the earthy type or kapha. Oh, I so wanted to be the creative type - vata or the type A - pitta, but no I'm a slug, oops kapha. Here is the description:
Endomorph, large-boned and slightly overweight. Yes, that's me. Emotional tendency is toward depression. Right on there.
Well, I found out we are nice steady people, the "rock" that others depend on. We are slower by nature and don't like to do anything without a slow methodology about it. A kapha is also prone to inertia, depression and accumulation of fat, weight, phlegm, water and cholesterol with this excess creating a burden on the entire cardiovascular system. The heart has to work extra hard to pump against all that weight.
Lovely. It is really true, even the picture of the girl shows a chunky type athlete which we all would be if we follow the plan. Now listen to this, "Kaphas often use sweet, rich, heavy, greasy foods to sedate themselves and to cope with stress. They don't mind the stagnant feeling that junk food creates."
OOH! This is just like sooo true. When you are stressed or depressed, don't you just run for a gooey chocolate bar washed down by a coke? When you have cake, it's a large piece and you sometimes sneak back into the kitchen to carefully eat a few more bites with a fork, right from the cake itself, making sure that it looks like it was cut that way.
The exercises that we respond to best are yoga and walking. Now, I always knew that. Why on earth do we force ourselves to go to the gym and lift weights next to a vata whose body is thin, long and lean? We are better at slow methodical plodding. But the good part is that regular trips to the spa are good for us to release stress! YES! I can do that and I'm really good at it. I love massages and facials! And a deep-tissue massage is best! WHOO HOO!
Who writes this stuff? But it is all true. Never in my wildest dreams could I ever be long and lean, if only I had known that when I was a kid and believed it to be all right. And stress, boy, right for the chocolate.
This morning my breakfast is two Mary Bee's biscuits. We are totally out of food and desperate for grocery shopping so my husband bakes biscuits. Okay, I ask for one but I get two. Have to clean my plate so I eat two. I did leave off the jelly though. Why, am I succumbing when I pledged to be healthy, stress of course. Last night, my 90 year old Mom in law fell down in her kitchen, hit her head and broke her nose. Hubby spent 4 hours in the emergency room and this morning I have to go over and help her get a shower and get dressed. Her whole face is black and blue. Just another day in the life of a caregiver. I'll do better for lunch. Nothing in the house to eat but I'll find something healthy to counteract the biscuits. Just wish I had a big glass of milk to wash them down.
You can't lose weight and keep it off without changing your life. How true.
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
I'm late with my blog today. Had an early meeting, a decorating appmt and take mother and me to get our hair cut. Always a necessity. But I did take Panda for her walk and I've clocked my food intake so I'm still on track. Yesterday was my ah ha moment day. I realized that you can't lose weight and keep it off without changing yourself. What a revelation!
I'm a reader and an analytical person. Not with numbers but I want to read and learn about things and analyze them to death. So I am reading anything that sounds like it goes along with this plan. This morning we had Relish Magazine in our newspaper, www.relishmag.com. It talked about the famous Senate Bean Soup that is made from Navy beans and the reason they call them Navy beans is because the Navy used so many of them. DUH!
I read more of the SPARK last night when I went to bed. It is interesting how the cornerstones of the plan have a criss cross effect in all aspect of our lives. I find I am applying things to my business and the way I do things and it works. It's like there is a record player going around in my head from one thing to another, all criss crossing each other.
I have not lost weight yet and I'm a little moody about that. But I lose weight very slowly and I must concentrate on establishing the program and the weight loss will come.
I find myself eating between 1200 to 1500 calories a day. Is this right? Also, when I run my diet analysis, my pie chart is very similar to the recommended pie chart. So I know how to eat a balanced diet.
One of my major goals is to cook dinner 5 out of 7 days a week. We were finding ourselves going out 4 or 5 times a week instead of cooking. In the Relish Mag this morning, Harry Balzer, a top food marketing researcher offers a brilliant diet plan. "It's short, and it's simple. Cook it yourself!" Doesn't that make a lot of sense. I've been browsing through the recipes and trying them out. There are so many, I can't wait to try as many as I can. Maybe I should set a goal, Okay, how about 2 Spark recipes a week! I've already had potroast last night and I'm sure I tried two others last week.
"You can't lose weight and keep it off unless you change your life. "
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
I came back from Disneyworld with so much enthusiasm, I can't type fast enough to share it. I've been excited about other diet programs in the past, the most recent being the Sonoma Diet. And it is a good one and I still follow the principles. I had an 18 pound weight loss but never got to goal and last year, I slowly gained it back. Why? Because Sonoma Diet and all other diet programs out there focus only on one thing, Weight loss. YOU CANNOT LOSE WEIGHT AND KEEP IT OFF WITHOUT CHANGING YOURSELF!
Whoa, did I really say that? You cannot lose weight and keep it off without changing yourself!! It just rolled off the keyboard and it's my new mantra!!!!!!!! I believe it!! For the first time in my life, I KNOW I have to change to be thin! I understand, I get it!
Losing weight is not depriving myself of the pleasure of eating anything I want. If I want to lose weight, I have to give up some foods temporarily and then learn to eat them in moderation, for the rest of my life!
Honestly, I didn't know that when I began typing this morning that I was going to have such a profound revelation! I read my horoscope everyday and this is what it said for today:
Pisces: If the opportunity that's presented to you is not exciting enough, create your own. Ideally, it will be something in line with your long-term picture. Where do you want to be in five years?
Boy, if that doesn't go along with what Spark Guy says in the book! I've been working on setting goals and where I want to be in five years is something to look forward to. On the 8 hour drive back from DIsney (yes, we live in Florida and it is still an 8 hour drive) I formulated my first long term goal in my mind.
" I want to be a good grandmother to my four grandchildren and be able to spend time with them and travel when I want to. "
In order to be able to travel when I want to, I have to set some goals for my 25 year old business. I am an interior decorator and this type of business has been hit hard by the economy. I've seen many go under, just last week hearing about 2 interior decorators locally who have folded up. I"m not ready to give up, I still have lots of giving to do, to share my knowledge with my clients, to help people get what they want and need for their homes. I have two credit cards I use in my business. One of them has a small credit limit and I manage to keep the balance down each month and occassionally get it paid off. The other one carries an amount of debt that is impossible to pay off in one or two months. It would take a solid year of not using it and sending a hefty check each month to pay it off. I would really like to be able to pay off these two credit cards and be completely debt free by the end of this year.
I can do that. All I need to do is stay committed to running my business just as I have always done. Being creative, providing quality products and great service to my clients and being mindful of my expenses. I can do that. Thanks Spark! I'm already on the way to achieving my long term goal of being a great grandmother and being able to travel. Have a great Day!!
"You cannot lose weight and keep it off without changing yourself!"
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