Saturday, April 24, 2010
YOU CAN'T LOSE WEIGHT AND KEEP IT OFF WITHOUT CHANGING YOURSELF!
In terms of eating right and following the spark system, this week was challenging to say the least. I had a goal at the beginning of the year to cook dinner at home 5 out of 7 nights a week. I've done pretty well all year up until recently. And this week we were out nearly every night due to ribbon cuttings, and special events, etc. Thursday at noon we had a ribbon cutting at a new hospice company and they provided us lunch from Sonny's bar-b-que. I sat down to pulled pork bar-b-que, beans and slaw and chocolate cake with icing. That was just one meal. Last night we went to a nice restaurant with the barbershoppers and I had 3 beers! Food was all right but 3 beers? How am I expected to lose weight when I eat and drink like this? So I am fessing up here and vowing to be accountable this week.
I haven't tracked all of my nutrition for several weeks so today I decided to track yesterday, including the 3 beers and everything else I ate. Surprisingly, the whole day only netted 2147 calories! I expected much worse but I guess my meals during the day were low in calories which made up for it. So you see, if I track daily, I might find out that what I thought was a bad day, actually wasn't that bad.
I need to do this. I am on the verge of retreat. The time in everyone's weight loss journey when they give up and gain it all back. I've only lost 5 to 7 pounds, 5 today. As the 2 lb fluctuation is back and seems to be staying. There's a new team, Eating Without Compromise and I've joined up. There is lots of daily info being sent to my mailbox and I read the part about making a vision statement on why I want to lose and what do I want my life to look like. So I am going to concentrate on that today. In addition, I never did a vision collage so I need to think about that. I will focus on what I CAN do and I won't get down on myself. I think when we get down on ourselves, we allow ourselves to retreat back to our old ways. So that is out of the question.
I am setting goals for this week only. 1. Cook dinner 5 out of 7 nights. 2. limit sweets to a special evening or occasion. 3. Examine exercise options and figure out why I am avoiding them. I'll try out a DVD to see if I can get it to work and maybe come up with a simple routine to do each day. 4. Work on a vision statement. 5. Weigh in on Monday and record the actual weight. 6. Complete nutrition tracking daily.
I must be truthful to myself. Number 1 step to weight loss and good health. Sneaking food and not recording it is a lie. I don't lie to others, why do I lie to myself? And God who knows all?
I'm looking forward to an inspirational day today!
Thursday, April 22, 2010
I CAN LOSE WEIGHT AND KEEP IT OFF BECAUSE I AM CHANGING MY ATTITUDE TOWARD FOOD!
I changed my mantra into a more positive one. My old one started with you can't lose weight so I'm ditching that and making it I CAN LOSEWEIGHT. Okay, I've been reading Geneen Roth's new book and it is hard for me to get an ah ha moment from it so far. However, last night she finally hit a nail. She is talking about "inquiry". I call this analyzing. When you inquire, you begin with whatever is happening now. She uses the example of eating a whole pizza. Inquire or analyze the real reason why you are eating that whole pizza or the reason you are sleeping all day. She says for you to become curious about feelings and sensations and listen to your body. And stop bossing yourself around! Like, telling yourself, I am not going to cheat anymore!
I was at a ribbon cutting yesterday afternoon with great food and I was confronted with a dessert table laden with paperbags made out of chocolate and chocolate covered strawberries falling out of them. And tiny cheesecakes and key lime tarts, chocolate tarts, assorted cookies, fresh fruit and a cheese tray and fudgie brownie looking squares. They even had a beautiful decorated cake but lucky for me, they hadn't cut it yet when I left. So I stood there and had about 5 choc covered strawberries, and 2 tarts. I was really proud of myself because in the past, I would have had one of each cookie, tart, brownie, strawberry and then gone back for seconds on the one I preferred the most. Really, I would have. And I would have stayed around for the cake cutting and had the corner piece with the most icing. And all this after I had tried all the other food as well, stuffed mushrooms and eggs, roast beef sandwiches, chicken salad etc. I only had one small plate of other food so all this is progress.
BUT! And the big BUT!! is; Aren't I trying to lose weight? If I am trying to lose weight, why am I eating the dessert in the first place? Why am I having the bottle of beer or the ice cream in the freezer or the cheese balls in the cupboard. Why am I doing this? I guess that is what Geneen is saying about making an inquiry about your feelings and sensations. I think I ate the strawberries and tarts so I could say I had fewer desserts than I would have had last year. This is true but am I being true to my desire to lose weight? Am I really making that effort a real and true one? Sure I made progress but that kind of progress isn't helping me to lose the pounds I keep saying I want to lose.
So now I inquire, do I really want to lose those pounds or do I just want to look and feel good at the weight I am at? Am I really sabotaging myself by cheating and saying it is okay? Why do I think I want to weigh 160? Why why why. I'll have to think about all of this. But one thing for certain, I am reallly going to make the effort to track all of my food today and monitor the caloric intake and not cheat. Just for today. And then tomorrow I'll start again.
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
I CAN'T LOSE WEIGHT AND KEEP IT OFF WITHOUT CHANGING MY OUTLOOK On Dieting!
I rewrote my mantra above to reflect what I should be saying about myself and not others in general. I like to get up, have my coffee and then blog, spending a little early morning time Sparking. Today I had a meeting and then an appointment which was a very nice one, all windows which is my favorite. So I'm late on my blog and the day is half over. What will I talk about?
I've been reading Geneen Roth's new book and I'm having trouble digesting it. Here is a quote; "Your relationship with food, no matter how conflicted, is the doorway to freedom, says Roth. What you most want to get rid of is itself the doorway to what you want most: the demystification of weight loss and the luminous presence that so many of us call "God." HUH??? I'm on page 63 but I might have to read this several times unless someone out there can decipher it.
I just went looking for the previous book I had by her and I must have given it away. But I did find about a dozen other weight loss digests, Dr. Phil, Dr. Oz, Weight Watchers, the cholesterol cure, etc. etc. I have discovered something while I've been on this site. Yesterday I commented on someone's blog about their recent 10 pound weight loss and how I wish I could get to 10 pounds. How selfish of me. This person needs to lose over 100 pounds and I'm worried about a few. I am fortunate in that I have so little to lose and there are others that really have a problem with their relationship to food. In fact, I feel that I look and feel pretty good. What's driving me to the weight loss is the number 160. Yearning for that # 160. Feeling it is so out there. Unreachable. I think what Geneen is trying to tell me is that there is something inside ourselves that we disrespect, don't like, and that we turn to food to fill the void. IT is only after we come to terms with that inner self can we lose the weight. I think that might be what she is trying to say.
Anyway, my stomach is growling and I'm trying to ignore it. I had lunch and I had some yogurt. I shouldn't be hungry and there isn't anything out in the kitchen that I feel like eating. So why is my stomach growling? Is it acid reflux? I'm drinking water to fill the void. Maybe that will help. Anyway, I'm rambling but it feels good. Tomorrow
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
YOU CAN'T LOSE WEIGHT AND KEEP IT OFF WITHOUT CHANGING YOURSELF!
That's me, throwing the scale out the window. I still had to lean left this morning to read 180. I looked longingly at the 160 #, 20 lbs away. Will I ever get there? Not if I keep having ice cream in the freezer. I think I need to have a talk with myself about ice cream. What is it that I'm attracted to? Flavor doesn't really matter. Any ice cream will do. It's cold and smooth and easy to eat. I love every bite and scrape the bowl and wish for more. Oh, why ice cream and not pie? Or something else. I think I am going to just have to not buy it and insist that hubby not buy it. But you know, summer is ice cream time. We always went for ice cream in the summer after our dinner. There was a place in Maine on a farm where they made homemade ice cream and the line to get it was always soooo long. But we patiently stood there to get it. It was so good. I loved it when my mom would make home made ice cream. Yum! If I didn't have the ice cream , I would replace it with yogurt. I think it will be gone after tonight so no more ice cream in the house!
I got Geneen Roth's new book, WOMEN, FOOD AND GOD. Haven't gotten too far into it but she writes so well. She was always super overweight and was on every diet there was. Then she just gave up dieting and just ate and slowly lost the weight. So I'm anxious to read what she has to say. Maybe she'll talk about ice cream.
I made a nice furniture sale last night! Yea! Business is picking up! I had to order some new woven wood and shade samples. They are so expensive but you have to have them and I'm seeing a client tomorrow with a brand new home and lots of windows and she wants woven woods. I unpacked the box today and that thing is heavy. The sample bag is 25 pounds! I got on the scale with it. It needs wheels. How on earth am I supposed to drag that thing around. Yesterday was bad enough, I had to take 5 large wallpaper books back to the store. And today I need to put back all the upholstery samples I don't need anymore. Does all that count for exercise? Then I have to climb into the garage, around the T-bird packed there, to find the old woven wood sample book and get rid of it. Also, the old price book and toss it as I got a new one of those. Then I got a four page update of upholstery fabrics from another company and I have to go through all those fabrics again to delete the bad ones. It never ends, keeping your samples updated. And then you have to find space for new ones. I used to sell wallpaper but no one wants it anymore so I have a bookshelf full of books and half are probably discontinued anyway. If I dumped those, I'd have more shelf room for those new sample books and easier to get to.
I can't bear to throw out fabric books and samples. My love of fabric prohibits that and now that I'm making bags and other projects, I may need them. SURE!!
If anyone can suggest a way for me to give up ice cream and start losing pounds, I would appreciate knowing the secret! Later.
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