Friday, February 08, 2013
Yesterday I was supposed to go and see a client but when I woke up, it was pouring down rain and so we rescheduled to next week. And so I just stayed home and ventured into the sewing room, working on nonsense things. Found a log cabin I had worked on and I finished a couple of blocks. I've been stripping, cutting 1 1/2 inch and 2 1/2 inch strips for future projects.
A friend and I have committed to motivate each other to finishe UFO's and projects each month. So far, last month I finished a quilt top that has been sitting here for months waiting for the last border to go on. Now I can take it to the long armer. My project/ufo for this month is to clean my sewing room. HOnestly, it is a fire hazard and I want to get my fire extinguisher charged up and kept in that room for emergencies.
I also want to finish my Bee in my Bonnet rows. I have 3 rows that are waiting on me, leaves, stars and mittens. Somehow, the mittens don't have much interest for me here in Florida but I do remember mittens.
As for the gym, I got a call from my "new" personal trainer to set up an appmt to see him. So I will stop by the gym after my appmt this morning. The biggest loser competition has been sidelined due to me being sick and the mother in law episodes. Just could not get motivated to go at all. And didn't feel iike it.
However, I have decided to at least watch what I eat and so last night, I bought a roast chicken from Winn Dixie for me and one fried chicken breast for my husband instead of a box of fried chicken which I would have devoured. So the delicious roast chicken, steamed green beans and corn on the cob were my dinner and it was great. Also, I bought a bag of pretzel sticks and they were my snack last night. ANd I had an apple. This morning it appeared that the scale was leaning left of my last weigh in so maybe I'm making progress in that area. I bought the book, EAT TO LOSE, EAT TO WIN by Rachel Beller of Biggest Loser fame. She talks about making sure to eat 35 grams of fiber daily. So I am concentrating on that. Fiber fills you up. I even went out for a 10 min walk with the dog before dinner last night. He loved it.
So yesterday was for me and it will continue for the next 3 days. By Monday maybe I'll be reconnected to life.
Wednesday, February 06, 2013
Yesterday was quite a day. I was all dressed ready to leave for the gym when my phone rang. It was the nurse saying that my MIL was unresponsive and her blood sugar was over 200. Dropped everything and hubby and I quickly got dressed to go there. We thought surely this was it but when we got to the nursing home, she was up, dressed and in her wheelchair waiting to go to breakfast. What??? Guess this is going to be our life for a while. She has lost 11 pounds in 2 weeks. She has lost interest in eating so they are taking her to the dining room to encourage her to eat rather than letting her eat in her room.
My nephew went to see her on Monday and she didn't know him. My son and granddaughter went yesterday and they acknowledged that she was loopy, rambling in her words, mumbling. This is maybe the last time they will see her.
My husband is now sick and last night we went to a Jimmy Buffet concert in Pensacola, Fl. It was fabulous but by the time we left, before the last song, his head was splitting. As we walked out, we heard Margaritaville through the building and into the parking lot so we didn't miss anything. Today my 3 year old grandosn is coming as he is sick as well. So our day is rearranged again.
I got a call from my new personal trainer at around 5:00. My previous trainer took another job so now I have to start over. Maybe he will be better and help me get restarted as The Biggest Loser is a Slow one right now. There are only 8 weeks left and I'm still hovering at 5 lbs lost. Just can't seem to get motivated due to being sick and MIL. And now hubby being sick.
My clients are clammering to see me. I have to go out this morning and rearrange one due to grandson's coming over but I'll manage. Yesterday, when I thought MIL was passing, I just cried warm tears. I think I need that release. Something. Thanks for listening. I know you are out there and I appreciate the encouragement. Thanks.
Sunday, February 03, 2013
Well, the whole month of January seemed like a bust to me. I was sick for almost 3 weeks and finally feel like I'm recovering and have a bit of energy. On January 16, we brought my MIL home to live with us, we thought. When she saw us that Monday, back from Disneyworld, her whole face lit up with a smile. She was so happy to see us and strongly walked out of the building, saying goodbye to everyone. The next day she started coughing and we found out that we were not suited for the continuous care she was needing. At her regular doctor appmt on 23 Jan, they sent her to the hospital and then sent her back to the nursing home where she will stay until the end, whenever that is.
She isn't doing well, not eating. She did say when she went back there that she knew that was where she needed to be. We just left her and the nurse said she did not eat any breakfast and was going to take her to the dining room for her lunch to make sure she eats something. Both my husband and I feel the end is near and I pray that the Lord takes her quietly in her sleep. Just some night, dont' wake up. She still coughs quite a bit but she is definitely failing. She has had a very good life and I"ve been grateful to have such a wonderful mother-in-law. We have had our differences but I always loved her. Hey, I had differences with my own mother who died when I was 30 and she was 60. So young to have died then.
So it is just a matter of time. My biggest loser contest has gone by the wayside in January but I am definitely going to try and regroup in Feb and at least lose 10 lbs more. I was hoping for 30 eventually. The competition has been a bust for sure. My friend and I are disillusioned about it but I will press on and make an effort. Later.
Saturday, January 26, 2013
So I'm in this Biggest Loser Competiton and been sick for almost 2 weeks, gone for a week and totally frustrated. I had to skip my personal trainer on Tuesday due to coughing my head off so today I'm feeling some better and decide to go to the gym to the boot camp. Dreaded the thought but forced myself to go.
I walk in and there is an old guy at the desk who doesn't know anything about where it is going to be and what time or should I have paid in advance. I see another biggest loser member wearing her t-shirt so I sit next to her on the bike. She is frustrated as well and more overweight than I am.
There is no visible clock in front of the bikes and so I just keep rolling along. I have to turn my head to see the clock and discover it is almost 11:00 and the bootcamp was supposed to start at 10:45. So I get up and look in the exercise room but those folks in there are too skinny to be in this competition. So I ask and someone says it is out back. Out back? What does that mean, where out back?
I run into Heather who is the nutrition coach and ask her. I tell her how frustrated I am and she says that most people go up and down in weight. Then she tells me to go out back. How do I get there? I finally walk around the buiding and there are about 25 people jumping up and down and sideways in the parking lot. Another woman comes by and says she is late as well and invites me in. I watch for a min and I am totally uncomfortable and embarrassed so I just turn and leave and go home.
So why do old fat women avoid gyms
1. Old fat men don't seem to care about them and certainly not interested in helping them.
2. When you go to a crowded gym, unless you have a personal trainer, you are helpless as to know what to do.
3. I might be old and fat but I am also a strong woman who likes to be in control. I am nowhere near being in control of myself at the gym.
4. I thought I was on a team. There is no team organization, no team leader, and I haven't been contacted by anyone. When you are on a team, aren't there supposed to be other people?
5. I've pretty much decided if its to be its up to me. I am going to go to my personal trainer on Tuesdays, tell her what I think and then I am going to go to the YMCA on the other days.
First I have to get over being sick.
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