Friday, February 11, 2011
Where do I begin? How do I describe what is going on in my mind? I am trying so hard to be positive, stay positive and on track! There seems to be so many obstacles and so much stress.
I really want this to work for me. I want to get healthier. I feel sometimes like I am my own worst enemy. I am trying to stay strong. Thinking about the future, and all the fun things to look forward too.
Being morbidly obese has taken years away from my life. If we could only see what being obese is doing to our internal organs, maybe we would try harder, or sooner! Today I learned that morbid obesity is the 2nd biggest killer , with smoking at the #1 spot!
For many years I smoked ( sometimes 2 packs) every day. My diet was extremely poor, mostly junk foods. I didn't drink much water (soda drinker). I didn't exercise.... unless I walked to the corner store to get my next pack of smokes. And I drank alcohol often.
I6 months ago I took a trip to the Emergency Room. I had developed pneumonia (again) this instance came from the Swine flu. Cat scan was sent to my regular Dr. who later called me in to her office. She felt obligated to recheck me and fill me in on what she saw. dun dun dunnn.....
What she told me scared the hell out of me for sure! I quit smoking with Chantix. It was the only thing that really worked for me. I had tried Nicorette gum, and patches. They didn't really help me. My loving, wonderful husband quit smoking too! He quit cold turkey!
We both gained some weight, but am so glad we quit smoking! It is so bad for the body! In a movie, I saw first hand how lung cancer kills people. Lung cancer literally tortures its victims. Not a good way to go.
I just want to get healthy. I don't want to be morbidly obese, and I don't want to die from lung cancer. I am praying that it isn't too late to turn things around for my body.
Like I mentioned earlier, if I could see what was happening internally, I would have tried harder to stop hurting myself and my family .