Sunday, January 13, 2013
Enjoyed catching up with NIMNIX, WOLFKITTY, and GEE-KNEE this evening after hours.
Friday, December 21, 2012
So it's been a very good year.
I broke all previous records from 2010 and 2011 (the year I was on shoulder rehab) for number of rivers paddled (47), hours in my boats (366:37:03), days paddled (103), difficulty of rivers paddled (IV-V), calories burned on rivers (48,146) and calories burned boating overall (116,200).
I kayaked in NY, MA, WV, PA, Costa Rica, Canada, Argentina, and Chile.
I paddled the Bottom Moose (IV-V)
And I'm back from my trip to Argentina and Chile:
I got on some of the biggest white water I've ever seen (the Futalefu in Chile). For a glimpse of the kind of thing I saw, take a look at the White Water Grand Prix race run on that river a few days after I was on it.
I might not have been on the same sections shown. And I was not racing other boats; I just wanted to stay upright because I had ear infections and didn't want cold water in my ear canals. I also had a chest cold and lungs full of fluid so I was out of breath much of the time. And there was a fever and those night sweats. But it was all good, once I was on the water; I didn't notice those things. And I didn't flip, which taught me that I can stay upright if I really really want to. (Normally I don't care because I can always just roll up.)
But it was the same river and it was Very Big. A LOT of water. The current was so strong and fast we went 4.3 miles in 1.2 hours. And we were not hurrying. We spent a lot of time at the put in, warming up, practicing skills, taking photos between the rapids, checking the gauge, etc. That might tell you how much water was going through there. It was a pretty high level, "70," even for the Futa.
Here we are, between the rapids, all tossing our paddles in the air, for fun:
(There was no taking pictures while running the rapids, which you'll understand if you watch the Grand Prix videos.)
So now here I am, back at home, the cold mostly finished (just hacking the last stuff out of my lungs) and 10 lbs above where I like to be, partly due to the difficulty of eating right while ill in a foreign country - you get so drained you just eat what is put in front of you rather than asking for more veggies and protein and less carbs and sugar. And judgement is kind of impaired in those situations anyway.
And I haven't weight trained since I left, which is now a month ago. And my jeans are tight. And here are the holidays, with temptations all around me and all my normal exercise options disrupted.
This blog is for me. A kind of vision collage, if you will, of the things I am looking forward to.
I have some short term goals, like being in my +/- 3% range for the weigh in on Monday for the Mardi Gras Maintainer Challenge docs.google.com/spreadsheet/viewform
But I also have some other long term goals in mind. If I can stay in good condition (which requires eating right, doing strength training, conditioning, and working on flexibility) I may be able to step up my game this year.
Here are some of the rivers I have in my sights as possibilities, depending on how well I can train and improve:
1. The Rouge in Quebec (IV-IV+):
2. Great Falls in the DC area: (V+)
3. The Upper Yough in Pennsylvania: (IV-V)
4. The Upper Gauley in West Virginia: (IV-V)
5, This is in addition to more runs on the Bottom Moose (IV-V)
If I want to do this, I have my work cut out for me, because it is very ambitious.
That means, food ON POINT, including paying attention to macronutrients as well as overall calories, continued strength training (I'm at Stage Three for New Rules of Lifting for Women), continued conditioning (XC skiing, spin class and tae kardio), and continued flexibility (yoga).
And so, here I am, on the darkest day of the year, heading into my off season, and trying to keep the motivation alive for the spring.
My first step is to do an entire week with the calories under 2000 and to resume the strength training. I've got 3 days to go for the calories and plan to restart strength training tonight.
Don't wish me luck. Prod me, poke, me, bug me, annoy me, and otherwise get under my skin and help me remember why I'm doing this.
So I can boat better.
Thursday, November 22, 2012
Now and then people contact me and say that they are currently around the same weight as where I started, and they ask what it was like, and how I felt when I started, and how I even GOT started, and how I kept going.
Back then I would have been happy to get under 300 lbs. I don't think I ever really believed I could go under 200. But I tried (again) anyway, because I just didn't want to continue, in my mid-40s, feeling like an old lady, having trouble going up and down the stairs in my house, having trouble fitting into chairs, and feeling generally unattractive and unfit.
The links below are to excerpts from the journey I made from 335.6 lbs to about 200 lbs. Removing the last 50 was a different sort of journey. And removing and keeping off the last 10 has proved the most challenging of all.
(335.6 lbs, BMI = 52.6) May 2007 - Apr 2009
Apr 2009 - Jun 2009
Jun 2009 - Sept 2009
...and now? Holy crap, all you have to do is look at my most recent kayaking blogs.
Seriously, if you had told me in November 2008 that in four years I would be kayaking class IV-V rivers and flying to Argentina for a white water kayaking trip, I would have laughed and asked what drugs you were on, and joked that I wanted some.
And then I would have waited until I was alone and I would have cried, because something like that would have sounded so amazing and wonderful and so completely and ridiculously impossible.
Yet here I am. And next week I will run this rapid in Argentina. With style.
So when I say in my signature on every message board post, "Never, ever, EVER give up!" I really mean it.
Sunday, November 18, 2012
Whenever houseguests have stayed in the past I've whipped myself into a frenzy to try and make my home hygienic, if not presentable. Litter box and cat bathroom spotless, cat hair tumbleweeds swept out of the corners of the stairs, my bed made, everything vacuumed, dishes done and put away, kitchen clean, laundry folded and put away.
And I've otherwise pretty much neglected the house and yard the way I used to neglect my exercise and nutrition. I'm starting to see that this pervasive self-neglect leads to feeling badly about myself and my life, and that taking care of myself helps me feel loved.
I've recently been through the guest cleaning cycle and over the subsequent weeks especially needed to practice self-kindness due to hitting a very rough emotional patch. So when things went south and I found myself spiraling down into sadness, I took a different strategy. I continued the behaviors for keeping things the way I like them.
It makes me happy to see my bed made and the rugs vacuumed. It makes me feel like someone loves me. And you know what? Those are very good reasons to do it. These are not chores to be avoided, they are self-nurturing behaviors which bolster my feelings of self-worth.
Now of course these concepts are obvious, in hindsight. But given how I'm wired, it took an extremely painful situation for me to finally make the connection:
Feeling nurtured and loved removes one of the most powerful inducements to my binges, namely the idea that self-neglect is OK and appropriate because no one loves me or cares about me, least of all me, and they never will. I've carried this negative thought pattern with me for many many years and it's even more powerful than my desire to continue to fit in my kayaks.
Now that I've made that connection, and since my fitness and health are indirectly at stake, in a twisted way I can finally appreciate the value of this concept. Making my bed will make me happy, and if I'm happy, even just from the little things, I'm less likely to spiral into that sort of negative thinking. And therefore less likely to binge, and therefore more likely to continue maintaining my fitness and health.
So, yeah. Add vacuuming, cleaning the litter box, and yes, making my bed to my list of anti-binge strategies.
Because you know what? This isn't about the guests. *I* am worth it.
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