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Weekend in NC

Sunday, May 22, 2011

My friend Sharon got married this weekend.

We blew bubbles at the reception.

We roamed around the cemetery where her ancestors-in-law are buried.

Got to see some old friends and make new ones. Lots of fun!

Now back to regularly scheduled programming (and eating...)

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JENNSWIMS 5/24/2011 4:22PM

    I'm glad you had a good time!

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ANNE7X7 5/24/2011 11:04AM

    Looks like fun! Weekends, especially fun ones, go by WAY too fast, don't they??

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OVERHAULING-ME 5/23/2011 7:20PM

    I'm glad you were able to go enjoy this special event in your friend's life! Hope your shoulder is mending nicely.

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DDOORN 5/23/2011 8:58AM

    Nice to blow out of town and enjoy folks you haven't seen in a while!


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    hey sounds like you had fun, holds the shoulder going? I found out the name of one of the books. "No time for fear" by Paul de Gelder

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BCARSON11 5/22/2011 10:52PM

    Looks like you had a fun time!

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Pain versus Suffering

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

While stuck at home yesterday I read Jennette Fulda's latest book


I was stuck at home because I was in so much pain from my shoulder I just couldn't face work. Or spin class in the evening. I strapped on the BREG 500 ice water circulator www.breg.com/cold-therapy/polar-care
and lay there. None of the computers at home were working. My new 64G iPod had died due to rain in the tent Saturday night.

I managed to resurrect my original (and also damaged) 8G iPod enough to pipe music through the speakers and read books on Kindle, which is how I downloaded and read Fulda's book.

I first heard of Jennette about 5 years ago when I started my most recent weight loss journey. She had a blog named "Half of Me" pastaqueen.com/ (she apparently just moved this week to a new one www.jenful.com/ )

At the time I was almost 350 lbs. Jennette had started at almost 400 and had made fabulous progress. I remember avidly reading her blog entries and thinking "if she can do it, maybe there's a chance for me, too." She was the reason I took at look at the South Beach diet plan. She was the impetus to investigate and buy a scale that would actually weigh my enormous 300+ self.

Since losing the weight Jennette has written a memoir about it www.amazon.com/Half-Assed-Weight-Los
and become very active in the blogging conference community. She also developed a headache that has plagued her nonstop. The latest book is about her attempts to deal with this condition and come to terms with it.

In the book at one point she attends a seminar on pain and the speaker makes a distinction between pain (which you often can't control) and suffering (which is your reaction to the pain). You do get to choose your degree of suffering, and with practice you can experience less of it.

Being sidelined with this shoulder injury has been painful. But Monday and Tuesday I slid in to depression and suffering. Six months is a long long long time to undergo rehab. It is pretty much my entire kayaking season. This is a bitter thing to accept. And at the moment I'm still not well enough to even bike on the road. Last night I wasn't even well enough to go to spin class and bike indoors.

I had to face the fact that right now my depression is my worst problem. Worse than the recent overeating, worse than the pain, worse than the physical weakness. Because until I get the depression under control I won't be in a position to engage in the things that lead to a healthier me.

In the end of the book Jennette's headache is not gone. But she's figured out how to work around it, arrange her life and her work so that she can still be productive and have happy moments.

Here is a guest column she wrote before she'd had the headache a year. It points out the need to do what you can for your health, no matter how little that is, when you're suffering from chronic pain:

My shoulder situation is temporary. There is an endpoint. I will eventually be able to kayak again. But for now I need to take care of me, manage my emotional state, keep things in perspective, and not let the prospect of months away from my boat discourage me.

Eventually I'll be able to road bike. Heck, eventually I'll feel well enough to exercise routinely. But I need to admit where I am right now, and that's pretty low. So my expectations need to drop correspondingly so that I can make progress.

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MALCONTENTION 5/27/2011 8:53AM

    I know how you feel--I broke my collarbone skiing in 2003, and it took me 8 months to recover--I won't subject you to the long story. I was quite depressed and eventually started taking an anti-depressant. I know they're not for everyone, but I have to say they made a big difference in helping me emerge from my depression. And when I was in a better place, I went off them.

Good luck. Things will get better!

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JENNSWIMS 5/24/2011 4:24PM

    I hope the wedding was just what you needed to put an end to the suffering. I'm sorry you are missing this year's season, but I think you will tear next year's up!

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DEE0973 5/24/2011 12:20PM

    stay strong---keep the good spirits

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ANNE7X7 5/24/2011 11:02AM

    Kudos to you for trying to be positive even if you are going through a rough patch! You blogged about it and you are trying to do something about it, which in and of itself is AWESOME! You could sit there and just feel bad for yourself, but instead, you are making the most of it! There will be good days, bad days and probably plain horrible days, but you WILL get through it and the reward will be worth it!

You are a great source of inspiration! Thank you for the links!

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SM-ARTGIRL 5/20/2011 10:14PM

    I have been following your blogs for quite a while and I want to check in to say I am amazed and inspired by your intelligent and healthy approach to this awful set-back.
I had a knee/hip thing for years that kept getting reinjured and I now know the difference between physical pain and the pain of suffering.
(but I need to remind myself on a daily basis lol).

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    Love the Pasta Queen. Haven't read the headache book yet, but read her entire blog and still keep up with her today (at the new site of course), and did read her weight loss book. Thanks for sending me the links to other maintainers. I'm going to need lots of help to keep it right here, and I think staying right here is the key to that!

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GRACEFULIFE 5/19/2011 1:00PM

    I'm sorry... things will get better for you. Yes, you're not 100% and that's OK. You / we will be back full force with a bit of time and patience.

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MRPLATSON 5/19/2011 10:40AM

    Time to catch up with your other hobbies you've been neglecting for a few months. Maybe you should go to some more events, take pictures, just stay connected so you don't feel completely detached from it.

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CARRIE1948 5/18/2011 5:36PM

    I know it doesn't seem like it, but this will end. Just remember me last year at this time. All I could do for 9 months was walk.

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DDOORN 5/18/2011 4:26PM

    SUCH a tough state to weather...! We all know this too will pass, but when one is in the throws...? Ugh! Just know that we're all "there" with you. Keep checking in with us!


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JENNSWIMS 5/18/2011 3:56PM

    I'm glad you were able to do something meaningful while you were stuck at home feeling icky.

Keep up the good work, I can't wait for the photos of you kayaking to begin appearing. I know it will be a while, but I also know that it will happen!

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250STRONG 5/18/2011 11:08AM

    It took me two years to accept the fact that I had a hip injury and I needed to back off my regular expectations for myself..... Thanks for the good read. :)

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TENACIOUSTIGER 5/18/2011 10:22AM

    Hi there sounds like you had a sh*******t day! As they say sh***t happens. Blogging is a good way to get it out, and of course ring up a friend or chat to mates at spark. When I was first out of hospital and my husband was away I had different people come and cook me dinner, cos it was just good to have someone to talk to (and wash up ) i could have made dinner(i had lots of frozen healthy meals in the freezer) but it was nice to have company so i didnt dwell on things. A friedn of mine who works in workers comp says that depression is one of the hidden issues of accidents often not addressed. When I was not having a good day i would search the net for stories of people dealing with adversity(often life threatening illness, death of a loved one or something worse) and then say to my self oh well i havent got x, y z wrong with me" yep petty i know but it worked, make sure that you are confortable, thepain meds are for that PAin your body will not be able to focus on healing if it is focusing on pain. Be kind to your body, i'm sure in years to come you will be hammering it down rapids so be gentle with it, let it heal, bodies are amazing things. I do GET your frustration, I was so excited about the 3 mth post op milestone (enough scar tissue to do more stuff)only to be told by the surgeon that i STILL have to be really careful till the nine month mark and then the leg is still "remodelling for 24mths post op" (meaning it could potentially be weak until after this time) So its a long slow road but your crazy, tough you can do it, there is no other option! emoticon emoticon
your shoulder after its fixed

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Those who can't... ...take pictures of those who can. :-/

Sunday, May 15, 2011

I spent this past weekend at a white water kayaking festival in the Adirondacks. The event was a benefit for a local kayaker whose daughter needs one of his kidneys.

A friend who did much of the organizing asked me to come and take pictures of people going over a rapid so we could sell the photos. I had to think about it before I said "yes." It is painful to me to be around paddling and not be able to do it. I would not have said "yes" if it wasn't for a good cause.

So I did.

Here's my favorite picture of the 1721 I took on Saturday:

Better resolution here: www.flickr.com/photos/47911494@N06/5

Don't be alarmed. This is a really friendly waterfall and these guys know it very well. No one was hurt. They were trying to flip the raft over like a hamster wheel and land on its bottom. That didn't happen but it was sure funny watching them go over like that.

Here are more pictures:

I managed to raise $30 and it looks like more people might order pictures too. Overall with a silent auction and donations we raised around $1000 which is a drop in the bucket but it will still hopefully help.

It is likely to be the last white water festival I'll attend this season, or at least until I'm cleared for paddling again (6 months from now - which will be October). In a way it was fun but bittersweet. It was nice to see lots of my friends and it was fun to participate, but it felt a lot like saying "good bye" before going into exile, and that part hurts.

I'm a compulsive person (with food as with almost everything else) and when I want something I want it yesterday. It will be better for me to take the same strategy I've used to control my weight (i.e. remove temptations) than to spend time around paddling. Because sooner or later I would cave in to my temptation and would end up kayaking against the advice of my surgeon and PT and possibly damaging or slowing the shoulder progress.

So instead I think it's probably safest to re-cast my self image as a road cyclist and focus on that to deflect my disappointment and keep me working toward positive physical goals like getting the rest of the weight back off and increasing fitness and strength.

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S318830 7/8/2011 1:28AM

    Great shot! And congrats on getting them published! Sorry you're on a paddling hiatus for a while. But your biking will be great.

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TENACIOUSTIGER 5/16/2011 10:49AM

    wow you are hard core, great pics by the way, I can really relate to i want it and i want it now, apparently my leg is healing ahead of schedule but still seems excruciatingly slow, somedays I just want it to be completely fixed, but I doubt this will happen( i asked the surgeon when will i not have to think about being careful with it he said 9 months but apparently the muscle /tendon is still remodelling for 24months post surgery. Keep ticking off the days to recovery, I've been celebrating the months with small non food rewards, sounds like biking will be the go. all the best and thanks for dropping by

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ANNE7X7 5/16/2011 9:51AM

    That looks like SO much fun!! But I TOTALLY understand wanting to remove the temptation! It's really hard to watch other people do it when you are sidelined! I believe the words "I hate her" have come out of my mouth when I saw a girl I don't know running down my street during an injury period.

Keep on doing what you can do and thinking as little as possible about what you can't!! emoticon

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LADYGWEN25 5/16/2011 9:17AM

    i agree.. awesome photo's! :)

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BILL60 5/16/2011 7:33AM

    Great photos. Thank you for sharing.


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    That's a great pic. I lol'ed.

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CARRIE1948 5/16/2011 6:43AM

    Flexibility is important

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JENNSWIMS 5/16/2011 5:28AM

    That is a great photo! You should be proud of yourself for doing what you knew would be hard but doing it anywa, for all the right reasons.

I'm an organ procurement coordinator. Your willingness to volunteer for something that is so close to my heart means a lot.

Keep up the good rehab, Lance.

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MINNA72 5/16/2011 1:55AM

    Fantastic photos!
Sounds like you have a plan that could work for you. Sorry about the shoulder.

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WOLFKITTY 5/16/2011 12:58AM

    Ahh!! Sounds perfect. What a great plan.
You are awesome!


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Learning Inkscape

Friday, May 13, 2011

I had a few extra moments last night and started learning how to render images in scalable vector graphics using the free program Inkscape.

Here's a pattern I threw together using the spirals and gradients.

I had to put it on a white background; transparency isn't rendered right on these blogs. Not sure if it's the browser or the .asp that SP uses, or what.

These graphics are the kind you commonly see on articles of clothing and other merchandise; they scale (hence the name) and therefore don't have resolution issues when made bigger or smaller.

Next time I design a bike jersey it's gonna be really slick.

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MRPLATSON 5/19/2011 10:32AM

    I would start with how you are converting the image to a .gif (if that is in fact what you are doing) because .gifs are low fidelity images, like mp3s they truncate data. Try converting to a .png which is much higher quality but still not guaranteed to give you the results you're looking for.
Quite often I find with complex gradients it's just easier to throw a background behind it and make it a .jpeg

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    hey a cool way to pass the time, hope the shoulder is healing well, best of luck with your next PT session

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GRACEFULIFE 5/14/2011 12:35PM

    Learning a vector graphics package is on my to-do list.

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KAYOTIC 5/14/2011 12:08PM

    You certainly are making the most of your recovery time! What fun!

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CARRIE1948 5/14/2011 7:46AM

    I'm going to ask Kate if she uses that

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    Hey! I recognize that name ... it's on one of my softball jerseys. Nifty.

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Wednesday, May 11, 2011

Today BREWMASTERBILL posed a question to people who hate their scales:

I figure you might as well hate your blue jeans for getting tight rather than the scale for having a number that goes up.

The scale is just a tool. So is the nutrition tracker. So is my BIA device, despite its technical shortcomings. I don't resent these things, because I appreciate what they can do for me.

The scale can warn me of impending jean tightness before it happens.

The nutrition tracker can tell me when I'm done eating for the day when my broken built-in Eat Watch fails.

The BIA device can give me clues about my internal body composition, my relative amounts of fat versus other kinds of tissue.

Here's what I resent.

I resent a culture where people are encouraged to consider unhealthy food as something to which they are entitled. A culture where grocery stores are the best option for traveling food. A culture where restaurants are driven [by profit] to pack in as much fat, starch, salt, and sugar they can, because that's what people will buy. A culture where physical activity and exercise are considered chores, not fun. A culture that heaps ridicule and blame on people who give in to it and get heavy. A culture that sells people the fairytale that if they do manage to get back to goal weight they will live happily ever after. [A culture that sells the concept of an "ideal" aesthetic body size or shape or weight in the first place, rather than putting a premium on health and physical ability.]

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    Great blog! I agree on so many levels.. particularly the "fairytale" that is promoted. Because, ya know, good stuff doesn't happen to heavy people (rolls eyes) emoticon

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TENACIOUSTIGER 5/12/2011 10:05AM

    some of us are still finding our way along this journey, and figuring out the best mix of diet nutrients and exercise regime.
It is interesting to read all the different opinions

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4A-HEALTHY-BMI 5/11/2011 3:38PM

I don't see anything wrong with eating fat per se; if you can fit it into your daily allotment without crowding out the necessary protein, then why not?

But most people don't have that many discretionary calories available. So for myself I try to limit my fat intake to healthy ones (fish and plant oils) and put a cap on it so I don't end up gaining the weight back.

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BUNPOH 5/11/2011 3:35PM

    Just to throw another log onto the fire, is it wrong to believe in eating fat? Because I kinda do, at the moment. I'm a fan of Mark Sisson, and all that Primal entails.

I may change my mind.

But I also want to say Hallelujah! to your post. I'm feeling just that rebellious. It's now up to us to forge our own way of thinking, eating, and feeling good about ourselves.

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CARRIE1948 5/11/2011 11:27AM

    I resent the concept that there is an ideal weight. I'm finally coming to terms with the concept that my ideal weight will be the one that lets me still be active and eat like a rational person (or how I did when I was thin).

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KENDRACARROLL 5/11/2011 11:19AM

    This culture was created and is driven by capitalism. It's up to the individual to discern what's good and what's bad for them. In order to do this you'll need education, which teaches the individual how to do that. Education in the home only works if parents can convey the right kind of knowledge. School education has an agenda of its own, which is, in my opinion, hardly conducive to free thinking. Raising little sheep who buy into what's being fed to them by government, by media, is a lot less strenuous.

Okay, I stop here...

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4A-HEALTHY-BMI 5/11/2011 11:05AM

"BIA" = Bioelectrical Impedance Analysis
See here:

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4A-HEALTHY-BMI 5/11/2011 11:02AM

The thought has crossed my mind and I would hope they'd find a way to de-fat the larvae before feeding them to us...

The amount of soybeans may be staggering, but less so than if you're processing them through mammals first.

Yes, it makes your calculations "worse" if you only consider the "useable" part of the cow (the definition of which is debatable, if you've ever seen Jamie Oliver's meat sludge demonstration. LOL)

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NINJA_SMOO 5/11/2011 11:00AM

  Great blog! And I really enjoyed the dialogue in the comments too :)

Question: What is a BIA device?

No scale-hatin' here. That's shooting the messenger. It's not the scale that made you gain weight; it just told you what's up - what YOU have done to yourself.

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BREWMASTERBILL 5/11/2011 10:59AM

    Anxiously awaiting the series.

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MRPLATSON 5/11/2011 10:59AM

    just fyi, I accounted for 'meat only' in my calculation, by that I did not count the 1000lbs. of the cow towards the equation but only the roughly 500lbs. of usable 'meat'. But I did not bother to do the math on how much of those 500lbs. is also fat.

So does this make my math better or worse? Suddenly 3 Billion cows sounds inadequate. Regardless - whether you're counting cows, pigs, catfish or edamame the numbers are still staggering.

Would you feel better knowing that we'd need to raise 1.4 million tons of mealworms a day instead? mealworms contain fat too emoticon

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4A-HEALTHY-BMI 5/11/2011 10:45AM

Eating mammals does not constitute a high protein diet. That is a high FAT diet. It is a common misconception, and another thing that makes my hair stand on end.

Just like people saying that legumes are a "good" source of protein when anyone who looks at what they are made of can see they have more starch in them than anything else.
(Some day I'm going to write a blog post on that topic. Grr. "meat" != protein. beans != protein.)

Anyway, I know you know that, but I felt the need to say it for the benefit of anyone else reading these comments. I suppose the lingering shoulder pain from PT yesterday is making me a bit more blunt and testy than usual. LOL

I would hope that people who even KNOW to eat 1g of protein per target lb of body weight already know to count their macronutrients and keep the fat (and starch) under control.

(she types grouchily, while finishing her midmorning Greek yogurt and whey snack: 285 cal, 15g CHO, 52g PRO, 1g FAT)

emoticon != protein.
emoticon = FAT.

emoticon = protein.

emoticon != protein.
emoticon = sugar (lactose)

emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon = sugar.
emoticon = starch.

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MRPLATSON 5/11/2011 10:29AM

    you know what, let me know when this insect eating thing catches on in the US because I'm ok with that...I'd be first (ok, maybe second) in line. can't be that bad.

but if you're talking pure standard 'meat' as we know it today, if you were to assume that every human being should eat their body weight in grams/protein a day then you're looking at slaughtering 3 million cows - A DAY. That's 1 Billion heads of cattle a year, maintain a heard of cattle 3 billion strong and produce enough grain to feed it all. Not to mention clean up their poo.
It's a biological and ecological disaster on an epic scale.

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4A-HEALTHY-BMI 5/11/2011 10:10AM

Them's fighting words, my friend.
I happen to eat a very high protein diet. And most of it is either plant or dairy based, with some fish added in.

Protein can be a VERY sustainable nutrient to grow, depending on your chosen source...
And yes, if that were my best source available I would eat it. LOL

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4A-HEALTHY-BMI 5/11/2011 10:04AM

I was trying to think of one along those lines. I'll put one in. Thanx.

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MRPLATSON 5/11/2011 10:03AM

    I'll rephrase my position, I am by far not a vegetarian or vegan but I take the stance that a high protein diet is unsustainable on a global level. We can take it from there if you like...

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WOLFKITTY 5/11/2011 10:03AM

    OOOOOOOoooooooooooh. It's on!

One I'd add is a culture that values irrelevant, unattainable and altered body shapes over true body health.


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4A-HEALTHY-BMI 5/11/2011 9:59AM

Pick one and go from there!


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MRPLATSON 5/11/2011 9:58AM

    I could answer this post with a SERIES of blogs.
which point would you like me to start with?

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4A-HEALTHY-BMI 5/11/2011 9:45AM

My point in that sentence was that restaurants are driven to offer unhealthy stuff because that's what people will buy. I'm putting the blame on the consumer here, not the provider.

I know some of the blame needs to fall on the people providing the service, but as BB points out they do need to make a profit to survive. So somewhere consumers need to do their part to put down the fork and walk away from unhealthy crap. We need to vote with our wallets.

I hardly ever eat out anymore. When I travel I go to the grocery store.

When I do eat out I choose the healthiest item I can find.

If I can't find one I ask them to assemble one from the ingredients listed in their other entrees.

If they won't do it I pull out a protein bar and eat that while my friends eat the crap.

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    One item I take issue with "A culture where restaurants are driven by profit " ... as opposed to restaurants that don't make a profit ... oh wait, those are out of business. heh. Seriously, the restaurant only provides what the customer demands. Many big name restaurants are providing healthier choices because of demand. No company forces us to buy their products, so blaming the company is misguided, IMO.

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DDOORN 5/11/2011 9:34AM

    Love love LOVE your last paragraph and couldn't agree more vigorously! The worst part is that it just doesn't HAVE to BE this way!

Have had similar and related rants in the past:



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JESPAH 5/11/2011 9:21AM

    Understood - I think a lot of folks don't recognize natural fluctuations for what they are. It's not a goal WEIGHT, it's a goal RANGE, or at least it should be.

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4A-HEALTHY-BMI 5/11/2011 9:17AM

    I completely agree. I got your point. And I thought it was very well put.

But then, I run the Hacker's Diet team on here and rule the leaderboard over at Physics Diet. So you aren't going to get any argument from THIS rubber bag! LOL

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    Great response, btw. I wanted to clarify one point, I was really referring to day to day or even a once every few days weigher. There is some expectation that the scale always goes down day after day or even week after week. If it doesn't, somehow the scale is to blame. Often times this is fluid fluctuation and even though people seem to understand this (or so they tell me), the scale hate continues. So I tried to break it down into something very simple. Weigh yourself, drink some water, weigh yourself again. Does the weight gain invoke scale hate? Because that's really a lot of what people are hating on. Water. And I can't get my head around being upset over that.

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