Monday, August 23, 2010
This weekend I went to Ohiopyle State Park with some friends and paddled the Lower Youghiogheny river in Pennyslvania.
This weekend for the first time the Park has begun a trial period allowing people to run Ohiopyle falls more than one day a year.
We ran it on Sunday, the day after the race. The video is of my drop. Yes, those are platforms of spectators on the shore in the background.
Here is another angle. You can see my friend Aubrey on the rock in the background, shooting the video.
The whole series can be seen here:
After running the falls we continued on for another 4+ hours, running the river and playing along the way. I burned well over 1000 calories both Saturday and Sunday, according to my heart rate monitor.
It was a good weekend.
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
Well, after that depressing "struggling" blog, I guess I should mention that things have perked up. I'm back under 170 and holding pretty strong. Would like to get back under 160, and if I'm consistent I know I'll get there.
Some of the depression was almost certainly due to that "time of the month" (Sorry BREWMASTERBILL, I have to call it like I see it), and some of the weight (water?) gain might have been as well.
Saturday I swam 1.2 miles in Cayuga Lake chop for hospice and beat last month's Musselman time by 10 minutes.
Partly because I had a following wind pushing me and partly because I wasn't saving anything for a 56 mile bike ride afterward. LOL
The waves were so fun that when I got out out of the water I ran to my car and grabbed my whitewater kayak which was conveniently in there and paddled back out in time to escort some 2nd wave swimmers in. I was hoping to meet LJOHN44 who said she was there, but I somehow missed her. I'll hopefully meet her next month on the 100-miile biking AIDS Ride for Life.
Then I drove around to the other side of the lake and kayaked around taking pictures of my friends wind and kite surfing.
Next I went to a friend's house and practiced my back deck roll and my hands roll in her pond and tried single-track mountain biking.
She had friends visiting and her live-in chef (it's a long story) cooked this AMAZING 4-course meal for us:
The writing is too small to read in the photo, so here's what it says:
Smoked Vermont farmhouse mozzarella
reduced balsamic syrup
farmers market garlic crostini
Lively Run goat cheese
Seared Dayboat Scallops
swiss chard with Piggery bacon
crispy fingerling potato chips (6 each)
dijon mustard pan sauce
shiraz-braised pork cheek medallion
Each course was small, like an appetizer. They came slowly while we sipped red wine, chatted about kayaking and other topics, and listened to music.
So tired that night I actually crashed on her couch. And when I weighed myself the next morning I'd actually LOST weight.
Next morning loaded the boat back into the car, drove home (via another creek to see the put in and take out - at some point it will start raining again and then I will run Taughannock), got home, took a shower, jumped back into the car and hied to church.
Briefly attended a vestry meeting and then drove down to Ithaca to pick up 2 Cornell students and their kayak gear so we could go to Watertown and surf the Route 3 wave.
Met my best boating buddy up there and the four of us surfed for hours.
The buddy's parents came and hung out with all of us and we grilled sausages and chicken right there on the shore. It was a great time. Played in the water until it got too dark to see and packed everything up and came back. Didn't get home until 1am and I don't regret it one bit.
It was the kind of weekend summers are supposed to have.
Next weekend I'm going camping with three friends to kayak on the Youghiogheny. I *might* even run the 18' falls, depending on how I feel.
Thursday, August 12, 2010
GEE-KNEE asked how I'm doing and commented that it seems like all the "big weight losers" have had a rough time lately. I wrote an answer in mail, and then thought it might be worth posting my reply as a blog entry. So here it is.
I'm not sure if there's a specific reason why so many of us are struggling.
For me it's a variety of factors, mostly revolving around weight loss no longer being my primary focus in life.
This is a problem I have with the model proposed in the spark book and on this site. They sell the idea that you solve your weight problem and then go on to challenge yourself to improve in other areas.
In my experience it is not that simple. The weight problem isn't solved just by getting the weight off, even if you do it slowly, even if you do it in a "healthy" or "natural" way or "lifestyle change" way. For me it appears to be a natural condition to gain weight unless I'm vigilant. Period. I've been less vigilant in the past six months, so I've been gaining weight.
I've been snacking at night and not logging it. I've been going away camping and kayaking for weekends and not logging, and eating things I normally wouldn't in quantities I normally wouldn't.
I haven't been locked into a predictable exercise schedule. I haven't been burning as many calories.
I haven't been logging my water. I haven't been taking my vitamins. I haven't even been taking my antidepressant regularly.
Is it any wonder I'm having trouble sleeping and am slowly gaining weight? I've let the house of cards fall.
I still fit into my jeans (barely - haven't tried the leather pants lately and probably won't until I get 10 lbs off) but I can tell the difference and I don't like it.
It takes a lot of energy to live life AND stay vigilant and manage my food and exercise. And frankly, sometimes it just starts to feel like a burden, and I get tired and I want to give up and just go back to eating whatever I want whenever I want and not exercising. Temporarily it's an easy trap to fall into, but it has unpleasant long-term consequences.
I'm not giving up the war, but I admit I've surrendered more battles lately than I'm comfortable with. I've begun making excuses: I'm injured, I'm too busy, it's too much effort, just this once I'll slide, etc. etc. etc.
This is why I would just love to see some kind of maintenance resources on here of the same quality as the loss resources. Maintenance is a big, ugly, hairy problem and most people really struggle with it. But the industry ignores it for a variety of reasons and so there just isn't any support out there of the quantity or quality there is for losing weight in the first place.
Until such resources are available I think all we can do is hold onto each other and push ourselves and each other to take each day as it comes, do the best we can, do damage control where necessary, and keep fighting.
1) Managing the depression
2) Purging the house of temptations
2) Taking the vitamins
4) Logging the water
5) Logging ALL the food
6) Getting back into a daily exercise regime
Thursday, August 05, 2010
I find it hard sometimes being altogether too human while sustaining a nearly superhuman weight loss. Yes, I did it. Yes, I'm trying to balance keeping the weight off while exploring my world as a smaller, fitter person. No, it isn't easy.
Yes, I've been able to take up whitewater kayaking. Yes, I've rapidly improved at it, but no, I'm not where I want to be in it. This past weekend the Deerfield River decided I'd gotten a bit too uppity (and it's true I had) and taught me a brusing lesson that kept me out of the boat half of Saturday, all of Sunday, and off my road bike today.
It's painful because I have no idea what my limits ARE anymore, since I've exceeded so many of the ones I used to believe in. So now I'm trying to catch up with my 20-something paddling friends (who started almost a year before me) and why not?! I mean, I've done things already beyond my wildest dreams. Why SHOULDN'T I be paddling class IV rapids cleanly less than a year after beginning the sport?
So what if I'm in my mid-40s and female (and they're male and in their 20s)? So what if three years ago I carried more fat on me than I weigh total now? I'm superhuman, right? I can clearly do ANYTHING, so I will, right?
I'm not a patient person. When I figure out what I want I usually end up wanting it yesterday. So I have a hard time when things in life give me a reality check. I mean, my recent transformation has been so unreal, I don't even know what kind of world I live in anymore. It's quite disorienting. And disappointing when things don't go the way I hope they will.
I'm resting up so I can paddle this weekend. I'm going to work on my skills, strength, and use this disappointment to fuel progress toward my overall maintenance goals.
When I first really discovered white water kayaking late last autumn I wasn't even to my goal weight yet, and decided I wanted to be the baddest 40-something ass on the river who used to weigh over 300 lbs. I'm probably close to that already but it's not enough anymore.
Maybe I didn't conquer the Dryway this weekend. But I will eventually, and when that day comes I'll be ready for it. Despite my age. Despite my gender. Despite my fitness history. Despite how long or not I've been paddling.
GRACEFULIFE asked what actually happened, so I'll paste my response here:
Well, let's see.
I left my house super early (4:30am), picked up my paddling buddy at 5:30, and we drove to Charlemont, MA (5+ hours) met up with some more paddling friends, and headed down the Dryway around 11 or 12.
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I wasn't scared at all and I probably should have been. I was tired from the drive and didn't take that into account. I was in my creek boat which I haven't used much these past few months. I have been paddling pretty easy water lately, too, and after a 2-week hiatus. And the stretch we were running starts out really easy with a bunch of fun class III rapids and then suddenly at the end it's three class IV rapids in a row. So it was kind of a recipe for disaster, but I was not experienced enough to recognize it.
I flipped a couple of times on the upper section and managed to roll up without too much difficulty. I noticed that my creek boat just doesn't maneuver like the play boat and I was having to adjust my paddling style to accommodate that.
I flipped in the first class IV rapid (Dunbar) and had trouble getting back up so I popped out. That wasn't good, but it wasn't fatal. Got me and my gear to the side, emptied the boat, and got back on the river.
The second class IV rapid (Dragon's Tooth) we scouted and I ran it OK but eddied out river right instead of river left where I was supposed to be.
That set me up for an awkward line entering the last rapid, Labyrinth. I got flipped, couldn't come up, and ended up popping out and swimming most of that one. It was really... something. Lots of water, getting pushed down, surfacing with barely time to catch another breath before being shoved under again.
So that was enough for that day. The following day I was back and ready to do the whole thing clean.
But I was kind of wigged out about the day before and hadn't logically thought through WHY I'd been having trouble rolling. (now I think it's because my head was coming up too soon)
So I paddled really conservatively and not quite aggressively enough for conditions.
Managed to get through most of the whole thing including Dunbar and most of Dragon's Tooth without even flipping, but flipped at the end of the second-to-last rapid.
Again I had trouble rolling up. And this time I was getting hit HARD by underwater rocks. It was ugly. My paddle was being yanked around in my hands by the current. It was too much. I popped out.
There was a raft right behind me on my tail and to avoid being run over I grabbed onto their webbing. My foot got caught in my boat's backband strings. The raft guide hauled me up onto the raft where I was stuck on my back with my leg hanging over the side still tangled in my boat.
And we started going down Labyrinth that way. With me getting thrown from side to side as my boat flailed in the rapids. I was terrified that my leg was going to get broken and started screaming to let me off the raft. The guide told me to "let my foot come out of the bootie."
This is impossible with the booties I have. They're ON, and for good reason. They're hard to pull off even when the velcro is released. I screamed that I couldn't, at which point she reached down and cut the strings tangling my foot.
My shoulder already hurt at this point but at least my leg was OK, thank God. I took my paddle and joined the raft customers paddling the raft down the rest of the rapid. Even injured I could tell by feel that only the guide and I were really paddling that thing. It was pretty funny.
I was reunited with my boat down below, got into it, and paddled to the takeout.
The whole thing was just really upsetting, especially the shoulder injury part, because we'd planned to run the river again in the afternoon and paddle the following day before heading home.
It was also disturbing because a bad shoulder injury (like a rotator cuff issue) can put an end to your season.
And I was worried that I was holding back my friends and that I wouldn't be able to paddle with them anymore, because I suck.
One of 'em is training to be an EMT so he used towels to make a sling. Another actually had ice in his beer cooler so I could stick some up under there. And eventually we got me back to my car where my pain pills were.
They got to run the river again, and my carpool buddy did get to run something the day after.
But it was painful physically and emotionally and I think the river got my attention, which is what needed to happen, given that I was oblivious to all the compounding potential signs of a problem. It wasn't so much the Dryway that bit me, but my own hubris.
What is actually hurt is my trapezius. I suspect that a rock hit it while I was upside down in Dragon's Tooth because it hurts most right over the place where my bones are near the surface.
I did ride my bike to work on Tuesday, but yesterday it was hurting again so I skipped the commute today and am icing it.
I really want to paddle again this weekend so I hope if I take it easy that'll be possible.
Older maybe, but not necessarily wiser than my companions. But maybe if I can learn some patience and restraint I'll get there.
The point of this post is that I don't KNOW my limits anymore. Unfortunately I really can't find out where they are unless I exceed them sometimes. Given a different set of conditions, I would have run that stretch fine, I suspect.
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