Thursday, May 27, 2010
One week four hours until I get on a plane to Mexico. I am so ready. Although it's work related, we haven't been to the beach in two years. It's amazing how you get spoiled though. I had NEVER been to the Caribbean until we got married five years ago (we got married in Jamaica) and now that I've been I feel like I have to go every year or something is wrong with me. Don't get me wrong, we haven't been able to go every year, our next trip wasn't until three years later when we went to Mexico (Tulum in fact), but I just THINK that is part of my journey. I have to have a beach.. I have to see clear water and white sand now.
Anyway, I'm getting out of my funk. I just put way too much pressure on myself to be model thin ready (hahahahahah... me model thin, like ever??? no) and it didn't happen, but I do look better than I did. I will still shy away from the camera, but we will still have fun.
So, my conclusion for the past ten weeks... I don't think I ate enough. My body went into starvation mode and now I have to get it out. Well, um, yeah, we'll do that next week.
And although my trip is almost here... I'm not quitting because I didn't make this goal. I still have my July goal and then my whole well being goal. Going into this weekend with a positive attitude, going to have fun for awhile.
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
Weekly weigh in. I'm disgusted. I'm sick of counting calories and busting my butt in the gym and gain weight. I wouldn't be so frustrating if the inches were moving. I know I'm not cheating on the diet front. This is just so unbelievable. There I've vented.. and got my 3 points.
Monday, May 24, 2010
Well I admit, I had some slippage on Friday. I tried on a previous pair of shorts and my butt is just so darn big. I swear I thought I lost ten pounds. The inches are just barely budging (which I don't understand, but will be patient with) I ate out for lunch and was good, only ate half a portion of my order. But then Friday night happened. We went to the ball game and I just lost all control. But it was liquid calories than anything. I had a couple beers too many on the calorie chart. I ate pizza, I overindluged. I was a glutton. I of course justified it by saying I was carb depleted from two hours of cardio the previous day.. and weight training. No excuses. I did get a little back on track Saturday, at least with water and a little lighter on the food fare, back to my turkey sandwich and fruit. Sunday was not so good though. I didn't go over calorie count, I just only ate one meal that day. Bad me. We were busy though. Working out, then volleyball and then and then ... But I have to say, I did workout this weekend, so I'm still not totally off the beaten path.
But it's Monday. I've had my protein, packed my lunch, getting ready to hit my water some more. I plan on a good cardio workout. I am not going to let MY (I am taking responsibility ehre) unrealistic goals get to me. I am NOT going to get bummed out by the other people's progress. This is MY journey and if my body wants to take it slow, then I have to deal with it.
Thursday, May 20, 2010
It is exactly two weeks to go until my trip and I fully expected to be a lot closer to my goal than I am. Looking at my calendar and my "revised" goals, I am nine pounds short for this week. But, I'm not going to let that bother me. My clothes have loosened up some but not a lot but I think I was stuffing a lot into a little because unfortunately due to financial constraints, I haven't bought new clothes to fit the fatter me in awhile. I've stretched the
"excuse my french" CRAP out of my old clothes. Some of the "newer" ones do require a belt to hold up which is a good thing. My husband said my arms looked a little more toned when I was bowling the other night (yay). Seems my back is reaping the most rewards, which reduces my chest size and my back size. I guess that's a good thing because I am reducing the back fat spillage over the requisite bra that I have to wear to keep these little A cups from falling (hahahahahahah I crack myself up). I'm trying to notice things (other than the wrinkle of cellulite). My body is reforming itself again to a body builder physique (I'm a total mesomorph body type without the mesomorph metabolism). This is a good thing to me. My shoulders are getting toner and broader, my waist will never be thin, but it's flattening out, but I can't figure out what my butt is doing. I think it's rounding out so that's why I'm not losing inches. I guess lifting and rounding is a good thing. Since my husband proclaims to be a butt man, I guess this is good.
When I walk into work, we have glass doors that are somewhat mirrored... I have noticed I don't look as "dumpy" as I have in the past. The hips are narrowing (another yay), the thighs are fighting it, but they are toning.
Another thing I've noticed is I'm cutting calories big time and I know I shouldn't do that. I guess it's inherent that once you are in the home stretch to do "whatever it takes" to get to that goal. While I know I won't lose 15 pounds in two weeks (I WISH), I know I can lose a little more to make things look a little better and I won't be so afraid to take photographs. I guess those photos can be a mid point for posting in the future.
I won't stop once we take the trip, I do know that. I have a July goal for a lake trip of which I want to look better than I have at my husband's brother's house.
So all this to say, it's a slow process, but it's happening. Patience is a virtue I keep being told. Keep working at it. and for those of you having the same issues, that's all I can say, keep working at it. Change up your exercise routine to shock your muscles and keep plugging away.
Monday, May 17, 2010
Wow... the whole tree thing put me in a tailspin. Work went out for a celebration lunch and I ate too much there, then husband wanted wings and I ate too much there (actually not that many but, still) and then I was drinking beer like a fish. I was just frustrated with my whole life I guess. Had been to the doctor and he put me on some meds to help smooth things out, we shall see. Anyway, it's a new week. My daughter is home. We have fruits and veggies and lots of turkey and chicken in the fridge. I read that eating 18 ozs of yogurt a day helps lose weight, so I'll see if I can get it to at least 10-14 ounces. Eighteen just seems like an awful lot and I would rather eat other food. I have three weeks until my trip so I'm sure I'll do something drastic to up the weight loss in the next three weeks and then level out when we get home. I did put on my bathing suit yesterday and it wasn't HORRIBLE, but it wasn't great either. Measured myself yesterday, don't understand why I'm not losing any inches. I work out hard with the weights, maybe I need to up the amount of time or add more weight training days, not sure. Yes I'm older, but geeez, what has my BMR slowed down to 1200 or something instead of the 1800-1900 it should be at.. and that's WITHOUT working out. That's just a desk job BMR. I don't know. It's a new week, I weigh tomorrow, it will be great!!!
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