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2011 - Getting Rid of Fluffy

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

and no I don't mean the rabbit or the cat or any animal. I mean my "fluffy" body. I tried on clothes this past weekend. Yes I was one of those crazy people hitting the after Christmas sales and yes there were some VERY good bargains. But somehow it also turned into bra shopping. Well, needless to say you see a whole lot when you're bra shopping.. in yucky mirrors. I'm fluffy. I don't like fluffy.

So, this year, I'm not making "weight goals" and I'm not even making inches goals because I'm not sure where I should really be. I'm making TIGHTENING goals. Yes I would still like to be in that size 4 by March, but since I haven't lost an inch or a pound since July, I'm probably going to have to re-evaluate that one. The first goal is to try and relax and quit stressing over everything. I'm getting ready to do five week long trips in four months, so working my working out into this will be interesting. I have to get over this tendinitis in my right arm and work through it. Make sure I wear my brace.

Goals:
Relax - things will work out
Strength train MORE - hit the body parts a minimum of one time per week, preferably two
More protein in the diet. (already started this with protein powders in the morning)
End my affair with Pepsi
I love the fact that I can say I'm not one of those that has to set the goal to drink more water. I drink 100 ounces a day minimum.. and that's just water, not the other liquids I put into this body.

The biggest goal - GET BACK into strength training and PUSH myself. I know when my elbow went out (with the tendinitis) I really had to pull back. I think that's when the plateau hit major drive and because I wasn't hitting the weights, the depression really, really started taking hold of my brain because cardio wasn't cutting it. So I'm going to work through that.

Anyway, what I did find out this weekend... I REALLY LIKE CLOTHES. I could be a clothes horse. My clothing is very minimalistic.. I've always been that way. Put the kids and the husband first. I asked him if he was okay with me buying what I bought this past weekend. He reminded me.. You of all people need clothes. I don't have a problem with it. Yay.. I have a great husband.

  
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DITTY1013 12/28/2010 2:24PM

    I know what you mean about the fluff! For what it's worth, Bob Harper's workout DVDs really seemed to make a huge difference in both my physical strength and in toning up some problematic areas. So, if you're looking for a solid program that incorporates both cardio and some pretty intense strength training, you might check those out. Good luck with your goals! :-)

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PAIGESMAMA 12/28/2010 10:12AM

    Yeah, I am glad to hear someone else that isn't looking for a number on the scale. I really don;t care what the scale saying I have an idea of what I want my body to look like. I know that it isn't what it looks like now.

So did you find any bras or just the fluffiness? lol

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ARCHIMEDESII 12/28/2010 9:54AM

    You're a woman. You're supposed to have a certain amount of *fluff* . ;)

I'm a firm believer that a woman should never EVER look at themselves in the harsh light of department store three way mirrors. That's because we tend to judge ourselves too harshly. In short, we become our own worst critics.

Now, engaging in a good strength training program can help tighten you up a bit, but since you are female and if you want to have curves, you've got to accept the fluff. And it really is okay for a woman to be fluffy, as you say.

Fluffy rules !

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THINAGAIN66 12/28/2010 9:52AM

    Good luck on your goals! Sounds like your work schedule will be busy. I need to follow some of your goals like giving up the pepsi and getting more protein. Haven't defined my goals for 2011 yet, but these may have to be in there. Have a great 2011!

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Thank you

Monday, December 27, 2010

I just wanted to thank everyone who has checked in on me, given me goodies or reminded me I still have support out here. Christmas was okay. Some things are slowly working out with a little bit of discussion. NO money actually rolling in (I wish), but we're doing okay. Job is changing so I'm interested to see how that works out.

Thank you each and everyone of you who has supported me through this crisis. It's still ongoing but I"m feeling a little stronger.

  
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LITTLEFARMMOMMA 12/27/2010 11:54AM

    I am so glad you're hanging tough and staying with it for YOU! You can do this--we all are here for each other--and just don't give up! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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HILDABRAND 12/27/2010 10:01AM

    Glad you are doing better. Praying everything will get worked out and that you will find peace even in the midst of trials.

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PAIGESMAMA 12/27/2010 9:14AM

    That what spark is all about.

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PANFRIEDTROUT 12/27/2010 9:09AM

    Hey! Good morning! Glad to see you post but especially glad that you're feeling somewhat better & that things you're concerned about seem to be headed in a positive direction.

Marie


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Probably my last blog for awhile

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Well yesterday, I picked it up. The notice of how much my bank wants and the date before they start foreclosure. I just can't seem to get ahead. I've had a lot of tears this past week. Finding out some stuff from my past that I know has affected me for my whole life. My mother finally admitting to my brother that yes she and my father were trying to live through us and I guess we failed them. At least in my mind I failed them because I was never perfect enough, didn't have the right job (although I've been gainfully employed for 31 years except for two months of my life, I'm 47 now, do the math).

The day of course started with me looking at my electric bill and thinking I'm going to see a nice low $100 or less bill and it's OVER $600. Uh, I know that little heater doesn't pull that much current. Oh no, they decided that because we were behind (screw the recession) that we needed to pay a deposit. Okay, what point of we are already behind do you think I can afford a deposit that is THREE MONTHS of average billing?

So needless to say, my mental capacity is maxed out. I'm falling into a huge depression that I'm not sure I'm going to drag myself out of. My eating was out of control yesterday. I haven't worked out in four days. So all my blah, blah, BS about it's the only thing I can control.. yes it is.. and right now I can't control it. Life has beat me...

Anyway, all that to say is I can't do Spark any more. The Good news depresses me, the bad news depresses me. As much as I want to congratulate those meeting their goals, I'm sick to death of my plateau and my stresses that I can't be a cheerleader any more. So this is farewell for now

Edit: Forgot the best end of the day.. get home from work and the puppy (well he's a lab and 18 months old, so still puppy) had pooped all over his crate. Had one of those couldn't hold it any longer moments. So the house stank, the bed had to be washed, the crate had to be washed and he had to be washed. Perfect ending to the perfect day

For those of you still at it.. keep rocking it.

  
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TEJAS1291 12/17/2010 5:01PM

  Hang in there Sherri!!! That's all you can do sweetie!! Things will get worse before they get better,just the way life works.I'm sorry you are dealing with all of this especially at this time of year.Just remember sweetie,that exercise and eatind=g RIGHT are some ways to fight that depression and win that game!!! I wish there was more I could do,but all I CAN do is say that I'll be around here.if you need to talk,drop me a line!!!! I'm always willing to listen...
Donna

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PANFRIEDTROUT 12/14/2010 5:17PM

    Like Lori, I too am frustrated that there's nothing I can do in a "real world" sense to help you .... I can't write you a check or hold a fundraiser for you. It upsets me to read that someone who's worked their whole life is going to lose their home.

And also like Lori, I will be praying for you ....which right now probably doesn't seem very helpful or comforting to you & I'm sorry for that.

I hope that you don't out & out delete your account because at some point hopefully you can come back. Even if you do though, I hope you'll take everything you've learned from your time here and apply it the best you can on a day to day basis. Please don't get down on yourself as far as nutrition or fitness goes because it's the last stressor you need on top of everything else.

And no one (that I know of) expects you to be happy or encouraging to others ALL the time ~ you're a part of the community and now it's you who needs the pat on the back & that's an OK thing.

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VICTORIARENEE 12/14/2010 11:09AM

    Three years ago we were in the same position that you are, I promise you, as someone who has been there, that you will get through and it will make you stronger.

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LHIEBEL 12/14/2010 10:27AM

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I am so sorry to hear all of this---I am here for you, too...and I know you have my home email....

HANG IN THERE.....please....

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LITTLEFARMMOMMA 12/14/2010 9:24AM

    OH, this is just breaking my HEART!!! Please, DON'T delete your account! You WILL get through this, and your SparkFriends are going to be waiting for you! You are such a dear, sweet friend! I wish I was in a position to help more than just wishing you well! I mean, of course I'll pray for you, but I sometimes wish people would not say "I'll be praying for you," and REALLY TANGIBLY HELP! Now, I can see that I am helpless to do that, but perhaps keeping you in my prayers will bring someone or something to your aid, something to lift your heart and calm your soul. Please know that you are very special and important, and you will definitely be missed if you quit your Sparking! emoticon emoticon

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PAIGESMAMA 12/14/2010 9:16AM

    Just know I am here for you if you need someone.

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The Battle Within

Thursday, December 09, 2010

Yesterday I learned some disturbing news about my boss; that he was really the instigator in trying to get rid of me last year. Whole long story, turmoil, anyway the inbetween guy got let go because he did more than try to fire me... he was just a plain idiot.

Then someone else just kind of pissed me off royally with attitude.

Needless to say I came in today with a bad attitude. Morale is down here at my company as it is with a lot of decisions that have been made, etc, etc. Yeah I know it's everywhere. But then they turn around and say "we're all about the employees"... "we made 20% profit", "we're capping your raises or not giving any at all".. you know those kind of stories. I'm fine if you're not about the employees, just don't tell me you are and then your actions speak the opposite. Hypocrisy, I believe is the correct word anyway... I'm on a total tangent here.

Oh someone told me they would give me tickets to the Mavericks game tonight, awesome tickets.. but instead they were given away to someone else. Oh, nice, thanks for getting my hopes up for something good in my week. Bastard!! (sorry if that offends anyone).

So I ate my lunch today... at 9:00 am... now I did get to work at 5:30 am so for some people that would constitute lunch. But.. I still have to make it until 3:00. Argh. Then I'm mad, I'm hostile, I'm depressed. My husband's birthday is Sunday, I was hoping to surprise him with that game tonight.

emoticon You know you need some boots, go to DSW at lunch

emoticon No Sherri, the scale is about to break the plateau, it's actually moved a couple of pounds, you might break 170 this next week.

emoticon No it's not you stupid logical thinker. It hasn't moved in four months, why do you think her fat body is suddenly going to give up some lard now.

emoticon You stupid devil, of course it's going to give up some ill gotten pounds because she's still been working although her mental state has been a little off. She's done pretty good at maintaining her exercise for someone with so much stress.. and it's probably YOUR fault she got sick enough to miss the gym for two weeks.

emoticon Of course it was my fault. I brought all this stress on her. She can't handle it. She's just going to start drinking beer, Pepsi and eating all that pasta again because she can't control her impulses. That and Rolos, you know how she loves Rolos.

emoticon Why are you so hateful? She's trying and she hasn't had Rolos in MONTHs. She gets one package about every three months when you and TOM gang up on her. What's YOUR problem.

emoticon I don't like to lose. You know I'm her competitive side.

emoticon No you're not. You're evil and manipulative. You won't let go of her past, keep her self esteem down, made her feel fat when she wasn't, kept her from going after her dreams, now she doesn't even know what those are because she's so messed up.

emoticon I'm not sorry. That's my job.

emoticon Fine then. It's my job to step on your head and beat you down. and you know what.. she's going to the gym at lunch and she's not going to go to Whataburger or Subway or whatever and spend money on junk food because she already ate her lunch. Because she has a can of soup at her desk. She's going to eat that.

emoticon Whatever.. I'll catch her on another weak moment

emoticon Maybe, but I'll be there to protect her and with me, we will find those dreams and beat you down some more. Get over yourself you freaking devil.

ME - Went to the gym, ate my soup. On my second 100 ounces of water. I guess I win for the day?

Keep at it guys!

PS I still do need those boots and I have a coupon... but yeah, at least I didn't go at lunch

  
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LHIEBEL 12/10/2010 4:00PM

  I love rolos...My company never gives raises--and it is 'bout impossible to get a promotion--even if your boss pushes for one! We get a once a year bonus--which after it is taxed--is laughable--the top people here are horrible and no one can stand them because they treat people like crap...I have NEVER worked for such a horrible company or horrible people...but..I have a job--and I love rolos...

Have a great weekend and congrats on making the good choices (so hard to do!)

Leanne

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TEJAS1291 12/10/2010 3:42PM

  Such is life Sherri!!! Glad the good side won out on this little argument!! LOL Sounds like you are very disenchanted with the job right now!!! I hope things change for the better on that front! As for the 4 month plateau...stress can be a major contributor to plateaus...I don't know what your exercise routine is right now,but you might try switching things and mixing it up,that broke my plateau.Good luck!!!

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RACHGLAZE 12/9/2010 7:30PM

    Yeah, I'm glad the emoticon won the day!

Keep hanging in there. It sucks to work a job you do not like or the people around you are unlikeable!

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Sorry!

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HILDABRAND 12/9/2010 4:43PM

    Good for you! One victory at a time.
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Christmas Quiz

Wednesday, December 08, 2010

Christmas Quiz
Wednesday, December 08, 2010
Swiped from Notabout the face.

Just a note: No, I'm not asking you to do one but if you wanna!

Have you been naughty or nice this year? For the most part nice

What do you want most for Christmas? a heart rate monitor
Do you believe in Santa Claus? uh yeah sure.

What is your favorite food at Christmas? Honey pecan balls
Have you started your Christmas shopping yet? Not going to happen

Have you finished your Christmas shopping yet? Finished before it started

What is your favorite Christmas song? I'm fairly boring, Little Drummer Boy, Silent Night

What is your favorite Christmas movie? Home Alone, Family Man

What is your best memory of Christmas? I have 2 also. The year we went to grandma's house and although there were some presents, there was a note that Santa had gone to the wrong address, not realizing we were traveling and left them at our home. 2. The year I got my mother the rocking chair that she wanted.

What do you look forward to most at Christmas? Lately I'm Scrooge. It's been a rough couple of years. so nothing

What are you doing for Christmas this year? Not sure. May go see Grandma.

Who do you want to kiss under the mistletoe? Hubby... now if Jason Statham came in that wouldn't bother me one bit tehehe

What kind of Christmas tree do you have? Artificial

Do you take part in a secret santa? Not if I can help it.

Do you go to any Christmas parties? Not invited :-(.

Have you ever had a white Christmas? Last year it was awesome 11 inches of snow in Dallas

How early do you wake up on Christmas morning? when I get up

Do you still get a stocking? You know, that's the only thing that usually has anything in it

How many Christmas cards do you normally send out? I'm not a big Christmas card person

What is your Christmas wish? That hubby gets this supervisor job that's coming up.. It would alleviate our financial stress so much

  
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VIRGINIAGRETA 12/8/2010 3:52PM

    In the words of Tiny Tim, "God Bless us everyone." I hope all your Christmas wishes come true!

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PANFRIEDTROUT 12/8/2010 1:04PM

    whoops ... hit the "post" 2x

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PANFRIEDTROUT 12/8/2010 12:10PM

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I hope your husband gets the promotion and that you receive your heart rate monitor!



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STRONGERLEANER 12/8/2010 11:48AM

    Thanks for sharing this!

Hope all your Christmas wishes come true!!!
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HILDABRAND 12/8/2010 11:43AM

    Praying all your Christmas wishes come true. emoticon emoticon

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RAGGEDY_ANN 12/8/2010 9:45AM

    Hoping for a beautiful and memorable Christmas!
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LITTLEFARMMOMMA 12/8/2010 9:34AM

    I hope your Christmas wishes come true, too!
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ANDYINBC 12/8/2010 9:20AM

    Sure hope your hubby gets his job and you get that heart rate monitor! Merry Christmas!

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NOTABOUTHEFACE 12/8/2010 9:13AM

    Here's hoping your Christmas wish comes true! :)

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