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Slightly Discouraging News

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

We had a health screening today at work to help keep our insurance premiums down for next year. I figured I would be okay except I know the weight is still a little high. Thought the body fat would be in the 20s somewhere, albeit high. Oh no, 33.1%, I was NOT happy. Now I realize as a 47 year old woman, that this is in the healthy range. Not healthy in my mind. So I guess it's time to ramp up the intensity of the workouts and decrease the fun of the foods for a little while and get that down. Cholesterol, HDL, LDL, all were rocking beyond healthy limits. BMI of course was up, which it will always be up in my case, or if good, at the high end of healthy. and my blood pressure, usually always very low and in the old days, was actually normal, but no, they have me as pre hypertensive.. with 128/78???? What? I have a resting heart rate of 55 and I'm pre-hypertensive because you lowered the scale? Crazy.

So I went out and busted a pissed off workout, even without my music because I left it of course in the office after charging it. It just angers me. Glad they didn't measure me 24 pounds ago.

and... omygosh.. this doesn't happen to most women but it was just ugly. I know this woman strength trained... let's go as far as to say WEIGHT lifted, but she was so veiny, it was freakiung ugly. I hate it on a man, much less a woman. I love weight lifting, but I will not get to that extreme and I've got some good veins that might want to show, but if it came to that.. they can keep that little layer of fat.

  
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PATTYKLAVER 10/19/2010 4:55PM

    I know it is difficult to have someone tell you those figures, but I'm glad you went to have your health checked. Don't be disappointed - you are a work in progress. You're doing great!

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SHARONGD 10/19/2010 4:44PM

    don't sweat over the fat measuremnet! You just keep working out and eating right and the rest will follow...and excuse me 128/78 hypertinsive? give me a break!!!!! My doc is ok with the old measuement of 120/80 otherwise....the pharmacuticals would just love putting everyone on their expensive drugs so they can get richer.....I don't buy into that at all!!!!
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40PLUSANDFIT 10/19/2010 2:49PM

    I thought I had heard those inaccuracies with the hand held. I have calipers at home, but it's kind of hard to measure oneself. Yeah, the numbers were good cholesterol 171, HDL 71, and blood sugar 91 2 1/2 hours after eating.

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ARCHIMEDESII 10/19/2010 2:43PM

    How did they measure your body fat ? If they measured body fat with either a hand held meter or one of those body fat scales you step on, take any measurement they give with a grain of salt. Those devices are notoriously inaccurate. If you want a better estimate of what your current body fat is, you should have a caliper test done. Getting a 9 point caliper test is a much more accurate way to measure your body fat percentage.

Personally, if someone measured me with one of those devices and said my BF was that fully knowing those devices are inaccurate, I would have gotten on the floor and given them over 100 military style push ups. Then I would have made THEM do it !!! Remember, if your BMI went up, it could be a result of increased lean muscle if you've been engaging in regular strength training for the last few months.
BMI is only one way to measure health and it's not the best because it doesn't take lean muscle into account. It's just a rough average.

Just as an example, my own BMI hovers between 25-26. For some, that's the high end of healthy, bordering on overweight. Well, like I said earlier, I can drop to the floor and do 100 push ups without batting an eye. BMI can't measure that !!

Your blood pressure is awesome !! Your cholesterol, blood sugar, etc... are all rocking. That's great !! Trust me, your body fat is lower than they said.

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Project from He**

Monday, October 18, 2010

Thank goodness the weather in Texas has been awesome because I in my infinite wisdom took on a project that I've been ignoring for two years. Figured I didn't have a truck to take stuff to the dump, might as well ignore it. Well, it all started two weeks ago (really back in May but you woud have to go back in my blogs for that), my hubby and neighbor cut down my very old, and well established tree. While they were doing that I decided to clean the flower bed alongside the house. Let me preface this with I have a flower garden around the WHOLE house which is a 2000 square foot ranch style one story house and the garden is at least three feet wide. and my side yard (which is where I started is very.. very long).

The project.. oh the project. Remove all the lava rock from the flower bed and put in mulch. Sounds easy enough, right? Should take a few hours, a weekend at the most. No, it doesn't work that way. The first fun part of it was removing the older mulch, that wasn't too bad because it was all on weed tarp and I rolled most of that up hit and miss over the past few months. So I started raking rock and found more tarp and every time I found more tarp, I found more rock. Do you know how hard it is to rake rock? Not fun, especially when the ground is dry (which mine is baked). To add insult to my poor fingers injuries, the mulch came and part of it was dumped... yes you guessed it .. on a place where I hadn't raked up the rock. So, had to move all that mulch, dig up the rock and then spread again.

While on this endeavor, I looked at the bushes. Hmmm, they have leaves and stuff under them, let's go ahead and take that out. Guess what, more rock. So raked that out. There's this vine thing growing in and out of my bushes, what is it. Pull it out. OH my gosh, there's an empty space under my bushes when the vine crap is gone. Now I can really get to the leaves. Let's just say, this was my third weekend of doing this. Friday I have the ab workout from hell, woke up with sore abs, started raking at 8 am and couldn't move by the time I finished for the day at 5. I actually hit and missed watching the Rangers play. I passed out in the tub (soaking my soreness away) and was asleep by 9. and Sunday started it all over again. I have raked up probably three pickup loads of lava rock and am still not finished. Just finished the side yard.

and you know what irritates me the most about this. I've gained five pounds during this three week span. I have no idea what to attribute it to. I haven't eaten or drank that much extra in calories. I'm sure it has something to do with our change in schedule (used to go to work at 8 or 8:30, now am there at 6:30), working a whole bunch of muscle groups that don't get hit in the gym and my stress levels are through the roof because of finances. But seriously this has got to stop. No my clothes aren't looser, no I haven't lost inches. I've actually gained two inches on my stomach. I'm a hip weight carrier. I can't figure it out. No, I'm not pregnant (that requires sex, yes I"m married but that's another story). I'm going to blame it on cortisol but how do I fix that. I don't need this frustration on top of my others.

Anyway, just to top this off. My side yard looks quite lovely and clean and since it's the one I see most of the time (garage is in the back and that's where we come in at), I'm happy with my progress so far. It's not as perfect as I would like it to be, but my body won't let me do any more. I still have probably at least one, maybe two, more truckloads of rock to rake up and then spread mulch. If the weight keeps going up at the rate it is, I'll be back to where I started and will be a mean vicious cranky person. Cruella D Ville will have NOTHING on me.

So that's my rant for the day. Wish I could have something more fun and motivating, but I'm just venting.

  
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PAIGESMAMA 10/19/2010 9:07AM

    I would love to see a picture of the side yard now that you have it done.

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GODS_CHILDREN 10/18/2010 9:06PM

    Could be you didn't eat enough and your body went into starve mode! What ever the case you will lose it now that you are thinking about it!

Congrats on the yard!

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40PLUSANDFIT 10/18/2010 2:32PM

    That's what I'm trying to attribute it to, and hoping I'll get that miraculous loss as I've had this insane gain... overnight. Yes, part of my yard looks pretty darn good. Naked though since we lost the tree, I can't hide anything on the wall.

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NEWANNC 10/18/2010 2:27PM

    Cortisol is the only thing that I can think of that's casing the weight gain, other than maybe your different schedule is causing your digestion to be out of balance, causing bloating etc. The stress can also cause this, or perhaps hormonal, no pregnancy but other hormones, of which cortisol is one.

Just take comfort in what you HAVE achieved in your yard, I'm thinking that it must be looking good now. emoticon

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The Goal of the 4

Thursday, October 07, 2010

I've never worn a size 4 in my life. I actually don't really remember what size I wore in high school. I've seen a picture where, I really was kind of thin, but I don't remember being thin. I always thought I was the chunky, ugly girl. I always swore I went from a girls size 14 to a size 9 over night. I think that's the truth. But then again, I've blocked so much of a my childhood out (that's another blog).

Anyway, I was looking in the mirror a few minutes ago. I'm feeling okay right now. Still a little financially stressed, but the scale is now moving and dropping the water weight I gained and probably stress/cortisol weight. I feel in my heart of hearts that adding back my upper body strength training is a definite plus and I believe that may have had something to do with my plateau. I've doubled up on the leg workouts during the week because that is my weakest link, but if I work it, it's my strongest link and sexiest emoticon

Again, I digress. I've never worn size 4. Hmmm, I've seen an 8, really never been in a 6, but 4 sounds so magical, especially for someone 5'7". Can it be done? Man, that's probably 4 more inches off that booty. That's a lot of work. Hmmm. But.. I can go into the junior department if I want and possibly find stuff there because although I may be 47, I DON'T do frumpy any more. I like sexy clothes. Hmmm, so a size 4 butt will balance out the lack of upper body, but if I work that the chest muscle might give me a little bit of boobs.

So whatcha think? Did I just challenge myself to a size 4. So, I need a date to finish this. My birthday? That's in March, or sooner? Four inches, man that's a bunch. Barely lost two in six months.

March it is. For my birthday, I will be a size 4... and I will go CLOTHES shopping for my birthday. I needed a mission. emoticon emoticon

  
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GODS_CHILDREN 10/18/2010 9:10PM

    You crack me up LOL! I could never get into a size 4 even at 110 lbs...it is because my hips are wide so no matter how small I am I can't make the bones smaller! AHhhhh I say if your body will allow it then sure why not! Just don't make that a goal that drives you insane! You look great and you have inspired me! Thank you

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TEENY_BIKINI 10/15/2010 7:12PM

    Awesome. I love this kind of moxy. You can do anything, gorgeous. Anything!!

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Bring it on March!

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ALWAYSCHANGING 10/10/2010 8:20PM

    I think, no I KNOW! you can do this! I never thought of setting a clothing size goal, only a weight goal...hmmm you've given me something to ponder. Can't wait to see you get to your goal though!
Hugs all around cause I know you've got this in the bag!

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DITTY1013 10/7/2010 4:28PM

    I hear you about going from a girls' size 14 to a juniors' 9 overnight. Seems like that's exactly what I did, and then I spent most of high school in 10/11s. I was fit due to all my sports activities, but my athletic build was different than most of my skinny friends, and I always felt like the big girl, even though I was far from it. Until I was the big girl anyway. :-)

I'm kind of shooting for that size 4 myself. I'm currently in a pretty loose 10, so hopefully actually an 8, and I'm just really, really curious to see what I'd look like as a 4! :-) So, good luck to you! I'll be striving for it right there along with you!

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PAIGESMAMA 10/7/2010 1:44PM

    You can do it if you set your mind to it. I was a size 5 in high school. I never remember wearing anything smaller that that. My goal is single digit jeans. I might change my mind when I reach that, but that is my first big goal.

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SHARONGD 10/7/2010 12:10PM

    You can do it! I went from a 14 to a 4 and I'm 5'5" - and boy do I feel better! It is achievable!
If I can do it anybody can...lol!!! Go for it! emoticon

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LHIEBEL 10/7/2010 11:59AM

  Also, try Bebe (www.bebe.com) if you don't have a store close--talk about NOT dowdy! My favorite place for clothes...

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NOTABOUTHEFACE 10/7/2010 9:50AM

    There's nothing wrong with shooting for it! I know you can do anything you set your mind to! Just be careful setting "timeline" goals because what looks good on paper doesn't always translate to the body and can make you feel like poo about your efforts even though you gave your all. Just keep on trucking and you'll get to your magic number!
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Old News but a picture

Wednesday, October 06, 2010

So a few weeks ago I did reach a milestone, I got into some pants that haunt me from my closet regularly. Thought I would show a couple of pictures. That's about it. I'm a little flustered today trying to figure out what the heck happened to my husband's overtime, so I'll keep quiet for the most part.

Man I need some boobs. Front shot, the shirt is rumpled up a bit to show I am starting to develop real curves and the thunder thighs are reducing.

  
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LHIEBEL 10/7/2010 1:16PM

  I live in Victoria's secret "enhancing" bras--seriously--used to have a nice chest--but with age and losing weight--well--you know...the bras give you a nice shape--and people think you have boobs!

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ALISSAB2 10/7/2010 6:59AM

    Yep, boobs are the first thing that went on me, too(group rate on augmentation?? LOL!!!)! But look how flat your belly is.......wish I, could be the proud owner !!!!!! emoticon

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PAIGESMAMA 10/6/2010 2:38PM

    You look great. That is funny about the boobs. When I reach my goal I might have reduction surgery done. I am a 36g or 36H right now. I will probabaly get done to a 34DDD if I can even get that small. I hate carrying these things around.

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FROGHEMOTH 10/6/2010 2:03PM

    great work!

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LEASH119 10/6/2010 12:02PM

    whooohooo!

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ALLTHNGSPOSSBLE 10/6/2010 11:06AM

    You look great!

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MINENA1 10/6/2010 11:00AM

    You look great girl!!! emoticon
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OKIE2006 10/6/2010 10:57AM

    Awesome job! :)

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Seriously??? This is ridiculous

Monday, October 04, 2010

This plateau has GOT to stop. I've been on this same ride for over two months. I've got another tracker and at ONE pound (now that's a reasonable ONE pound) per week, I should be down at least six pounds from where I am. I haven't dropped ANYTHING. The inches are not moving either, although I'm back on the weights. I'm eating within range, I'm exercising. I've added my upper body weight training back in slowly so as to not re-injure the elbow. This has GOT to stop, because I need something freaking positive to happen in my life right now.

My personal life is in shambles. I despise my husband right now. ( I guess despise is a little strong, I'm tired of the some of his reactions to life including catering to his ex-wife and hurting me in the process). Financial life is totally in ruins. My work situation is stressful at best. I've managed to NOT stop exercising and my eating has been well within acceptable calorie limits. I haven't gone over enough to gain and I've actually been within loss ranges for the amount of exercise I do. I've shaken up my exercise routine more than once.

I'm beyond frustrated. and I know I shouldn't be comparing or stating my jealousy, but I see some blogs stating how oh my gosh, they aren't losing 3 pounds a week any more... puhleeze, I never even saw 2 pounds a week, much less 3.

I'm just ANGRY, ANGRY, FRUSTRATED, ready to quit this site, all sites and just do this on my own again. Last time I managed it on my own with no change in eating hab its and lost freaking 30 pounds in six months. I'm now at seven months and barely 22 pounds.

I've reset all my trackers as if I've lost NOTHING. It's the only thing I can think of doing. Just act like I'm starting all over. I'm just a freaking STRESS case right now with nowhere to turn. My friends are in their own worlds, I have no husband to count on and no family.. and I'm so tired of this.

  
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PAIGESMAMA 10/5/2010 9:27AM

    The closer you get to your goal the harder it is to lose the weight. The stress sure isn't helping either. Just don't stop trying.

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BOOKAYB 10/4/2010 1:04PM

  I'm right there with you... Please just stay focused and continue doing what you know is good for you! Don't let ANYONE tell you that stress-levels have nothing to do with weight loss - OF COURSE STRESS EFFECTS WEIGHT LOSS!!! And it effects your health - just stay the course and you will begin to feel better - and when you begin to level out emotionally, your whole being will regain some balance. Blessings to you!

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USFBULL 10/4/2010 12:46PM

    Drink more water, hope you are taking a multivitamin with B complex, extra B vitamins during This Stress Situation. Ever Try Yoga? Ever Try Meditation? Good suggestions have been made and I echo these but I would like to suggest you assign a day, one day that is just for you to do what you want. One day where you are not the responsible person... go for a walk... go to the spa.... go to the beach... go to the library.... go to the theatre... If you cannot make a whole day for yourself make a half day or at the very least 8 hours. All the other stuff will still be there and hopefully with a fresh look you can deal with it. Stress is a killer.
Work on a less stressful you.
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MOMMYBYCHOICE 10/4/2010 12:40PM

    Sheri,
sometimes life gets in the way, and the stresses we are experiencing really do affect out weight loss... TRUST ME!!! I am so queen of stress right now.
Continue as you have been doing, and I think being able to tell folks you are angry and mad and pissed is the benefit of this site- I mean seriously someone comes along and tells you look at what you have done.... look at what you have accomplished... and look where you can go... sometimes life seems like its thrown us a curve... best think though you don't need to swing at them all...

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ALISSAB2 10/4/2010 11:56AM

    Sherri, stress will "hold on" to the extra weight!! Believe me I know! But.....you in the size 8 dress.....think about how far you have come!!!! (That's an order!)

I don't know what your hubby is like, but Dave is not the lovey dovey type, (which I need him to be sometimes). I know he sees me as the "strong, I wont take any sh--, kinda gal", but we need support, too! Men are plain stupid sometimes, you have to tell him how it's going to be!

Hey, if you could win the lottery.........think about that, would your life be all you hoped? I daydream a lot, just to get by, sometimes! Fantasy is a great mood booster!

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LHIEBEL 10/4/2010 10:26AM

  Okay--tell the husband to start bagging groceries at the HEB to make some money--you take what's left in the bank account and take a spa day--SERIOUSLY!!!! Kill two birds with one stone--he will be miserable--pay for being a friggin idiot by catering to the ex (I have been in that situation in a past relationship--HORRIBLE--I couldn't go with him to his daughter's wedding because of the ex-wife going nuts)--can't believe I even stayed with him for that and some time after--but not long...AND...getting back to you--you can enjoy yourself and just relax for awhile---make him figure it out and take care of himself and his daughters for awhile...seriously--what would they do without you right now....? Do you ever ask him that? okay---just repeat after me....SPA DAY....SPAY DAY...SPA DAY...

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DITTY1013 10/4/2010 9:59AM

    To echo what everyone else is saying, it's very likely that your high stress levels are keeping you from dropping weight thanks to the hormone cortisol. I know things are rough right now, and we can't always change our circumstances to reduce stress. But we CAN change how we react to it. Exercise is a great way to relieve stress, whether it's something physical and cathartic like kickboxing or meditative like walking or yoga. Maybe even create a little meditative practice in your life, like making a cup of tea and sitting for 15 minutes, or reading a book, or whatever you can do to relax for a few moments. Plateaus suck, but being constantly stressed sucks more, so do what you can to address that first. Good luck.

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SILVERHAWK 10/4/2010 9:21AM

  It sounds to me like you're doing exactly what you should be doing. Have you looked at other success measurements, such as your waist measurement?

Honestly, I think it's possible that STRESS is interfering with your weight loss. Do you see a therapist? If not, is it possible (due to time, money, etc) to start? It sounds like you're going through a HORRIBLE time and having someone to talk to might help (especially if you can't talk to your husband, friends, or anyone else). The next best thing (or possibly better, if you don't have a therapist since it can take a lot of time to form a working relationship with one) is to take a good look at your friends, figure out which one YOU feel closest to, call him/her up and say "look, I need your help right now."

I don't know you, I don't know how much you have to lose, and I don't know anything about you other than what you wrote in this post, but I do know that YOU ARE IMPORTANT. If your friends/family can't see that and don't respond, that's a problem. However, you have so much stress right now that the last thing you need is the additional stress of trying to lose weight. Focus on what you can do to make your life better.

Edit: after rereading more carefully, it's fairly clear that a paid therapist is out of the question. I don't know what is available in terms of free therapists, but I still think it's a good idea to talk to someone.

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NEWANNC 10/4/2010 9:18AM

    I feel for you. Really I do. It's sooo frustrating when you're doing everything right, and it's just NOT happening!! It could be your stress level that's the problem though. Studies show that cortisol (the stress hormone) can affect weight. It might be an idea to look at the stress articles on here and maybe get some tips from them. There is a stress busting challenge group on here, some of the tips on there might be of use.

I know exactly how you feel re: you husband, I felt the same (he's now me ex BTW), we split but I couldn't afford to move out of FH, so ended up living under the same roof for almost a year until the divorce settlement went through!I really hope that you don't end up in that situation. Its' extremely frustrating as well to see my ex complain about money, when he earns at least twice what both me and my fiance earn together! He was like that when we were together. My aunt is the same, always moaning about how little money she has, but, in the last 3 years she has been on all inclusive holidays to Mexico twice, and I think it's Brazil this year, for 2 weeks at a time!

Moneywise, we get by most of the time, but, like you we can't help our kids much. My boyfriend and I have 3 between us aged 21, 19 and 17. My eldest daughter and her boyfriend struggle with my grand daughter, he's just had his hours cut from 40 a week to 16 a week, but at least he's still got a job, they're both trying to get additional part time jobs to try and make ends meet. We try and give them bits and pieces of shopping when we can, I'd rather not eat than see my grand daughter go hungry, and I did a few times when we first moved away from my ex. We are due to be married next year, we are very lucky that my parents are paying for most of it (second time as well), plus his mum is giving us money towards it, but I refused to take a loan out to cover it, I'd rather not have stuff than get into debt.

Reading your blog from a few days ago it makes me feel very lucky that I have my mum and dad, and my fiance to lean on. I've just basically sacked my maid of honour as she was supposed to be my best friend, sut I hadn't heard from her in over 5 months, so I know what you mean by your friends being in their own worlds.

I do hope that something positive happens for you. In the meantime you can always email me if you need someone to sound off to, my email address is whosthemumma@hotmail.co.uk.

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ROLLINGSTONEMOM 10/4/2010 9:06AM

    So sorry you are having a tough time. The plateau could be caused by the stress. Even though you are eating well and exercising, your body is stressed. Stressed bodies react differently than nonstressed ones. Instead of releasing weight, it is held on to "just in case."

I would suggest for you to find ways to lessen your stress. There are several factors you cannot control: your husband's reaction to things, previous financial decisions, your work environment (to an extent). But within all of these areas, there are things you can control. Your attitude towards your husband: Ok, he's not the nicest person, but you loved him for something at one time...find that reason and hold on to it (at least for now). Your finances...learn from what you've done wrong and work to correct the problems. Your work...go into work with the best possible attitude and remember that you control how you feel. You do not have to like the situation, but you can find something positive in it.

When it comes to the weight, exercise and eating, look at it as a journey...a lifestyle change, not "I've got to lose weight." If you want this to be a permanent change, than you have to permanently think it is a change...not just for ________. (Fill in the blank with whatever reason you are losing weight)

This is just my 2 cents worth. Have faith in yourself. You can do this. I pray you choose to stay with SP. It can be very helpful in keeping us on track. But the decision is ultimately yours. It is one thing you can control.

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ADELCASALE 10/4/2010 9:04AM

    Sounds like all things in life are giving you a run for your money! Maybe, you should stop looking at the scale and start to monitor non-scale indicators....like your calorie count, your exercise minutes, the impact of exercise on your stress level.

Good luck and hang in there.

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SG11505 10/4/2010 9:01AM

    You are a beautiful and wonderful person. You deserve to have the success you desire. I think you should continue to consider yourself as being successful every day that you exercise and eat within your ranges. Heck, some days it's victory enough that you got out of bed! Keep going. Good luck. You CAN do it. May your plateau come to an end or at least so you the beautiful view that is up next on your journey.

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