Saturday, March 03, 2012
Hi everyone, I'm new to this blog stuff, I'm not a blogger person. I don't really know how to start out,
I started out around 150 pounds when i got married 25 years ago. we lived a free life for 7 of those years, But We had three miscarriages during those 7 years,, so i changed Doctors, and he found the problem, we discovered I had a misshaped Uterous that was causing the miscarriages, so he went in and did a simple surgery and cut away the bridge that was keeping the baby from developing, then we finally had our first child. Our girl. then it took 4 years to have another our boy, then two more years and we had our last child a boy.
I have gained like 20 pounds since last year, I weigh 222 now, I want to weigh 185 lbs Again. That is what I weighed before i had kids. I haven't walked on the track for a while because a few years ago i broke my fibula, . and so any time there is snow or ice on the trail i don't want to go out. I'm afraid to go for fear of breaking my foot again. I don't have real motivation to go now,
I'm so ashamed of my body, I can't stand to look at my self in the mirror. I'm embarrassed with my weight. I wear bigger clothes just to cover the fat. then I look bigger than before.
I need someone to coach me, but i need a physical person to call me every day to make me do
it. I have a bad thyroid and high cholesterol, I'm on pills for the thyroid but not on the cholesterol now I cant afford it. My husbands checks have been cut in half for not enough work.
So therefore i can't pay for any weight loss programs. Is there any hope for me?
About 4 years ago i lost 30 pounds just walking every day with my dog. The dog was the reason I fell on the ice and broke my fibula, the weather is making it hard for me to get out and just do it now. I could feel it just melted off , I remember it felt good.
I want to feel that again, but i need the motivation.