Friday, March 20, 2009
There are many, many things that cause me to emotionally eat. Emotionally eating is a biggie for me! It's how I put at least six pounds on in just a couple of months, which I have thankfully now lost, thanks to SP! I'm a stress eater - if the kiddos haven't napped and I'm tired, if I'm having trouble in my marriage (BIGGIE), if something's going on w/ my extended family, etc....I can find many, many reasons to eat emotionally. I just have to use will-power to get through it and to try to feel my emotions instead of feeding them. I do allow myself at least one treat a day and an occasional emotional eating indulgence, but I'm fully aware of what I'm doing, and know that it will not continue after - I know, like giving an alcoholic a drink. Can he stop at just one? Well, I make myself do it. I'm getting help with a counselor and my husband and I are seeing his psychologist together. I think the tendencies toward emotional eating will be something that sticks with me for the rest of my life, so I'm learning to keep it in check.
The main reasons I eat emotionally: stress, fatigue, failure, worry, sadness....There are probably more, but it's time for this busy mommy to hit "post blog entry" and deal w/ the home and kiddos. God bless!
Tuesday, March 03, 2009
Aside from emotionally eating, my biggest trouble goal is getting enough sleep. With two little kiddos under 4, the only time I get to myself during the day is after they go to sleep. That, coupled with the fact that I'm a night owl, makes it very difficult for me to get enough rest, as my kiddos are early risers. It's like a love-hate, make that love-hate-love relationship with sleep. As a tired mommy, I'm always seeking & desperate for more sleep. But, when it comes to 10, 11, and then midnight, I'm loving my alone time & am loving being up late. When the kiddos wake up, I'd do almost anything to get more sleep. It's like an addict craving drugs, alcohol, whatever. And, if I do get enough sleep, I find my head is clearer & I'm more patient w/ the kids, but I can never get enough to feel fully rested anymore. The week or two that I did get to bed by 11pm at least 4 nights per week (one of my goals on SparkPeople.com), I lost two pounds one week and a pound and a half the next week. I've never lost that much in such a short amount of time, and I haven't since then, b/c, I think, I'm not getting adequate rest. So, that's what I have to say about my trouble goal. :-) I should really get to bed soon!
Friday, January 23, 2009
My 3 1/2 year old did SUPER with the CT Scan today. The tech at the hospital was amazing! She suggested and let my daughter do a CT of her My Little Pony first - got to push the buttons and all, then let her pony sit on her tummy to watch my daughter do her scan, and told her a story the entire time. I was beyond impressed with the tech!
The pediatrician's office called me back by 11am to say they wanted her to see an ENT before the weekend, so I requested a doctor I've seen once before. The doctor was great. My daughter's sinuses are almost entirely swollen and full of gunk, with almost no air pockets, her left ear is very infected, her adenoids are so swollen that the ENT was surprised she can even breathe, and her tonsils are huge (which I already knew but nobody cared about until today). It was cool to see the CT scan results.
She's going to have her adenoids and tonsils out, as well as tubes in on Feb. 5th. They're also going to clean out her sinuses and ears while they're doing the procedure. She'll have to rest for 3 days after the surgery and then stay home and play lightly (ha!) for the next week or so after. This for my child who could live in a padded room to bounce off the walls...
Anyway, that's how it went and what the plans are. Thanks for the kind words, prayers, and advice!
Thursday, January 22, 2009
I'm SOOOO tempted to go pig out on junk food right now! I'm sleep-deprived...I'm a busy mom, so my sleep tank is running low, naturally...but my kiddos are not sleeping well. Not napping well and night time has become an issue as well. My oldest had trouble going to sleep last night (not usually a problem) and was up at 4am this morning, and couldn't/wouldn't go back to sleep. I do not get breaks and have been single parenting since mid-October, so there's no one to watch the girls while I catch a few zzzzz's in the back of the house.
My oldest has had an ongoing health problem and we're still dealing with that. My twin sis ended up back at the hospital last night or this morning, and is home resting now. I haven't been able to speak with her regarding this - just get info through my Dad, which is usually not the most reliable source of info - Better to get it from the source!
So, marriage is not going well, terribly sleep-deprived, and ongoing health issues with my daughter and family are draining me and the food is just begging for me to scarf it down to make myself feel better! I'm trying my best to keep that will power up and running, but the food is calling me more and more loudly as the hours go by!
Thanks for "listening" to my griping!
"God is bigger than the Boogie Man!" - VeggieTales
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
So, I've been excited about getting healthy and in shape again. I'm trying to avoid negative health consequences down the line - heart disease, high blood pressure, and diabetes - all are risks for me for different reasons.
A person I care about a lot and whose opinion I value a lot told me today that I look too skinny and I'm not taking care of myself. I was surprised! I'm taking better care of myself now than I have in a long time. I'm exercising, eating right, drinking lots of water, etc. Could use a little more sleep and a cleaner house, but that would be here even if I wasn't focusing on being healthy.
I'm down to 118.5 as of today. This is 1.5 pounds heavier than I was when I began my second pregnancy about two and a half years ago. It's 8.5 pounds heavier than I was when I began my first pregnancy almost four and a half years ago.
There has been a lot of stress in my life in the past 3-6 months, and I'm tired, so I don't know if that was read into my weight loss. I also had a bad headache which can make me nauseous, so I'm sure I looked a little pale and drawn. I also wonder if it's b/c I've lost 3.5 pounds in the last few weeks, which is faster than I've ever lost weight, so it might be more noticeable and concerning to others. My clothes are also baggy - Darn FLYlady talked me into giving away all the clothes I couldn't fit in and not be afraid that I wouldn't be able to afford them again. Well, I gave them all away in the past few months - nice clothes I can't afford now, so the clothes I do have are now baggy and WalMart brand, instead of the Talbot's, Petite Sophisticate, etc. that the other clothes were. Maybe I need to shop for my old clothes at Salvation Army?? :-)
Anyway, this comment has me a bit concerned. Maybe I need more sleep....don't know. I'm nowhere near the 95 pounds I was in college, and the 85ish pounds I was on my wedding day. That was not healthy (it was due to stress and meds I was taking at the time). I still feel that 110 is a healthy weight for me, as long as I'm eating right and exercising. I am NOT starving myself in the least! Just being healthier for my girls and me.
Before people freak out - I'm just under 5' tall and have very thin bones, so even 100 pounds would still be in the healthy BMI range for me. I was 125 pounds when I started this Spark journey, and that was just under the Overweight range, and I was quickly going there w/ my emotional eating.
On to being a healthier me!
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