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Where I am...And what I plan to do about it.

Thursday, October 31, 2013



Where am I??? If you told me 20 years ago that I was going to be at the weight or fitness level that I am right now, I wouldn't have believed you. I used to LOVE to exercise. I used to get up most mornings before work and get out and walk or use my weight machine. I didn't struggle with it. I didn't always feel like getting up and doing it, but I knew I would feel so much better after, mentally and physically, if I did it. I felt good and healthy. I had energy. I always felt that I would be exercising for the rest of my life and would be in good shape, even in my senior years.

Fast forward to today. I'm no where near that same person today. My weight has sky rocketed and I have a hard time getting ANY exercise in at all. I struggle with being consistent with any healthy habits, from drinking water to exercising to eating healthy. I struggle a lot with cooking right now too. I just don't feel like doing it most nights. I'm tired and it just seems easier to have the DH pick something up, even though most of the time we don't even enjoy the take out food and we're tired of EVERYTHING because we've had just about everything. But at least it gets me out of cooking, right??? Argh!

I struggle with taking care of myself. I take care of everyone/everything else, but neglect myself all the time. I tell myself that I just don't have time to take care of myself. No time to exercise. I'm NOT a priority. If I heard anyone else saying those things about themselves, I'd say you ARE important. You need to take care of yourself first. But I don't follow my own advice. I feel like I've really lost myself and don't even recognize myself anymore. emoticon

In 2009, my weight was up and I was miserable. So I decided to try to lose weight. I put my all into it and was within 5 lbs of my weight loss goal. Then life got hard in 2010, and I started putting weight on again. I put on what I had lost, and MUCH more. I'm at my highest weight EVER. And feeling just as miserable as I was back in 2009. Just as hopeless. I'm embarrassed to see people, that I haven't seen in years because of it. I hate clothes shopping now. It isn't fun anymore. I keep having to get the next size up. It's still unbelievable to me. Social events aren't fun anymore. I just want to hide at home and not face people.


So that's where I am. Not where I want to be...I am going to start making myself a priority this November. I need to/want to start turning things around. I can't go on like this. I don't want to go on like this. It scares me. It's scary how easy it is for me to put on weight right now. I can see me just going higher and higher. And if I feel this overwhelmed right now, how would I feel later??? It scares me when I see my Gram, and other patients, in the nursing home. So dependent on everyone to get them where they need/want to go. I see them struggle to walk, if they can even walk. I don't want that to be me. I want to always be as independent and as healthy as I can be. It scares meto think what I'm doing to my health. I worry about having a heart attack or getting type 2 diabetes. I don't want to go through that! I need to turn things around NOW.

My plan for November...
-----Get in atleast 10 min a day of exercise. I need to work on consistency, so I need to start out slow. I can do more than 10 min, if I want. But at LEAST 10 min a day.

---Drink at least 8 cups of water a day.

---Get in 2 Strength training wrkts a week. I really struggle with these wrkts and know how important they are. I don't care if they are only 10 min wrkts for now. I just need to get going on them.

These 3 things are going to be my focus for the month. I CAN do this!!! And so can YOU!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

  
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68ANNE 10/31/2013 8:33PM

    Those three things will do it for you!

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TREADIN4BSP 10/31/2013 2:12PM

    Your blog sounds so much like how I felt last December/January when I re-committed. That is what it has to be, a commitment to yourself. YOU ARE worth it and must make yourself a priority. It will be hard, especially at first, but stick with it...even if you have a bad day...don't stop. You will feel so much better about yourself and will find that at first it will make you more tired (not less) then all of a sudden, you will start getting energy from your new lifestyle! emoticon

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BUSYBEE37 10/31/2013 2:09PM

    I like that you are not over committing yourself on exercise. Yes, 10 minutes is always doable, I should look at it this way too and see if it gets me moving.

You can do this!!

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PIXIE-LICIOUS 10/31/2013 12:30PM

    I know you've got this! You know where you are, and you are ready to move on. Take it one day at a time and never forget that you are worth your best effort every day. I am here if you need support.

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EWL978 10/31/2013 12:07PM

    You've got the plan....now to put it into action!! So tomorrow's the day? What's wrong with getting started today with at least part of the plan!! Try one thing...some of the water, maybe? emoticon

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Starting with a clean slate...

Monday, April 01, 2013

March was NOT a good month. I only ended up working out 7 days all month! ARGH!!! Could it get any worse??? I'm determined to make April 100% better.

I am still struggling with my insomnia, but I'm hoping that some exercise, along with the sleeping pills, will get me on the right track. I also found out that my thyroid is a little out of wack. So I'm taking something for that now. She said it is only slightly messed up and she thinks it might be because of the lack of sleep. So maybe getting that taken care of will help too:-)

I did lose a few pounds in March. Not a lot, but it does feel good to see my weight moving in the right direction again. And at least I can see that I'm still capable of losing, in spite of my slow metabolism emoticon

Looking forward to seeing what I can get done this month. Bathing suit season is coming! emoticon

  
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DOLPHINSINGER72 4/2/2013 6:51PM

    Seven days is better than zero days, and yes if the scale is going down that is a VERY good thing!

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FIT4MEIN2013 4/2/2013 10:39AM

    Yes, it could have been worse, you could have not worked out at all! As it was, you worked out 25% of the time. What was it before starting SP?

Ok, step it up this month. Great re-evaluation. Get going again. emoticon

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68ANNE 4/1/2013 10:44PM

    You will do it, make the move

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2BEHEALTHY2014 4/1/2013 6:53PM

    March wasn't a good month forme either. Let's make April a great month!

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BARCLE 4/1/2013 4:19PM

    emoticon emoticon keep up the great attitude and work - emoticon

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NOTSPEEDY 4/1/2013 2:06PM

    I'm with you on making April a better month. Being able to get outside more will help.
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REDBIRDFLY 4/1/2013 12:32PM

    Yes I'll join in on making this month count with you. I have a sleeping disorder but rather than go on sleeping pills like ambien my Dr gave me a antidepressant that acts like a sleeping pill if taken at night, I'm not depressed, they are not habit forming and can be taken long term if needed, with no side effects. It's called Trazadone and 25-50 mg
should be enough, they come as high as 150mg but that's if you've built a tolerance over many years of use and with my insurance my copay is only $10. emoticon
It looks like you've been at your goal weight before as have I, I'm so sick of not being able to get into my clothes, I wear the same few things everyday. I gained my weight so suddenly that one day I could wear stuff the next day I couldn't, my downfall was alcohol, I was literally gaining almost a pound a day before I stopped at 40 lbs.

So here we go.... emoticon emoticon emoticon Robin

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EXHAUSTED:-(

Friday, March 15, 2013

I was plugging along, doing well. I had a 6 day fitness streak going but that came to an end yesterday. I haven't been sleeping well all week and it was killing me. Wed & Thu were the worst. I didn't have any energy to do ANYTHING, let alone exercise. I did get on the elliptical for 45 min on Wed, but it took everything out of me.

My sister finally convinced me to give my DR a call yesterday and see what they could do. I know this has to do with menopause. I think I am in it now. I always slept well before and the last few years have been harder. This week was the worst. Nothing was helping:-( Anyway, she gave me a prescription to try, so hopefully, eventually, I will get this worked out and get my energy back. It's SO frustrating. I'm sure losing weight will help my symptom a lot. But I need to be able to sleep or I'm not going to be able to put anything into any wrkts that I do. I never know what kind of night I'm going to have and how I'm going to feel the next day. At this point I wake up every morning feeling lousy and exhausted. I'm so tired of feeling this way. Sleep has always been important for me.

Anyway....I'm a lot more hopeful now that I can turn things around soon and really get moving again. I try to do things on my own and not go to the DR. This time I really needed some help. Wishing everyone some good ZZZ's tonight:-) emoticon

  
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FIT4MEIN2013 3/16/2013 2:59PM

    This, too, will come to pass! emoticon

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CVWORKNPROGRESS 3/15/2013 9:36PM

  I hope you get some great sleep soon and regain your energy!! emoticon

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DONNABRIGHT 3/15/2013 8:42PM

    I hope you can get through this and begin to feel better.

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68ANNE 3/15/2013 8:05PM

    I hope it helps you sleep better and things start turning around for you

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MHNGJR 3/15/2013 4:34PM

    Glad you were able to get something from the dr. Hopefully it will help you get enough emoticon AND here's to a new exercise streak! emoticon

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PLAELA 3/15/2013 4:00PM

  Oh, how I hope you get the rest you need. I have Lupus, so I know what you mean, by not having the energy to do anything. Baby steps, that is what it takes. I'm rooting for you, because I know you can do it. Thanks for a nice blog, and have a blessed weekend!

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Fun Day:-)

Saturday, March 09, 2013

Well, I definitely got some good exercise in today. My DH and I got out and did some snowshoeing. We hadn't done any in a couple of years, since last year we didn't even get any snow. We're not skiers, so this is the one thing that can make the winter more bearable, since I like to be outside. It's definitely good exercise. We were out there for 80 min and we were both really tired by the time we made it back to the car. The temp was perfect for it and the sky was blue, with no clouds:-) So perfect! My DH was in bed by 7 tonight! Lol. I really tuckered him out emoticon It felt great to get out and do something different. I've been struggling a lot with the exercise lately. I think I need to make sure I mix things up and keep myself interested. I'd like to get to the point where I really enjoy working out again. I've been there before. Just not in quite a while:-(

Here's to a GREAT week! emoticon emoticon

  
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BARBANNA 3/12/2013 8:05PM

    That would be a treat, but we have warm weather at tbis time. Thanks for your comment on my blog! emoticon

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BRIDGIEEE 3/11/2013 9:48AM

    What a fun way to get outside and burn some calories! I've skied a couple times and it is exhausting, I can only imagine how much more exhausting snow shoeing is!

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FIT4MEIN2013 3/10/2013 7:17PM

    That is GREAT exercise! It is even better when we have a good time with those we love. emoticon

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ANNIE1114 3/10/2013 5:48PM

  Sounds like fun!

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DONNABRIGHT 3/10/2013 3:13PM

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LYNNIERN 3/10/2013 5:43AM

    That sounds like it was an awesome day! emoticon

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TPETRIE 3/9/2013 9:11PM

  Glad you had fun snowshoeing. Thankyou for the comment on my blog. Also I live in Maine. Where do you live?

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NORWOODGIRL 3/9/2013 8:35PM

    Good idea. I haven't used my snowshoes in a few years. Thanks for the inspiration!

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New Habit Day 2...

Sunday, March 03, 2013

So, the habit that I wanted to work on this week is to eat consistently every 3 hrs without skipping meals. I've been doing OK so far. I had my breakfast by 8:30. Which was a little late, but something I can work on this week. I had a fruit smoothie around 11 and then my lunch around 1. So not bad. My meals don't have to be exactly 3 hrs apart, I just don't want to be over 3 hrs. Eating breakfast later threw me off a little. I plan to have an apple and 1/4 C of cashews for a snack around 4 and then dinner by 7. So that's my plan and I'm sticking to it! I think if I keep it up and get myself more active, I should be able to get my metabolism moving again. emoticon

  
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NUOVAELLE 3/4/2013 2:39AM

    This is a great habit you're trying to develop and it could really set your metabolism in motion again. Good luck!
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LESLIE_2B_LESS 3/4/2013 12:12AM

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BLUEROSE73 3/3/2013 5:01PM

  Good for you. You can do this.

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HAKAPES 3/3/2013 4:58PM

    Great plan!

What is the benefit you expect?

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KRISTYTROGERS 3/3/2013 3:00PM

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AZMOMXTWO 3/3/2013 2:59PM

  looks like a good plan to me

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