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Wednesday, February 16, 2011


why do i feel like i am stuck in a rut?

i seriously need to shake things up!!

has anyone ever heard of taking cinnamon supplements?

i read an article in woman's world magazine about the benefits of cinnamon and i was amazed. i love cinnamon anyway and have a cinnamon stick in my coffee everyday and i sprinkle my squash with lite brown sugar and cinnamon too. well, apparently, cinnamon is proven to attack belly fat. it promotes sugar and fat metabolism and also has a host of other benefits, including helping with type 2 diabetes and lowering cholesteral.

i never knew any of this. did you all?

anyway. i'm thinking i need to shake things up somehow. i keep fluctuating between 189-190 and can't seem to get a move on. i'm fine with it as long as i do not gain... but i need to drop 4 lbs by the 28th for my next mini goal. i have not missed one yet so i'm hoping to seriously get a move on.

i am seriously stressed and hating my job right now. they want blood from a stone and i can't deliver. i'm tired of being responsible for everyone else and what they do or do not do. if i could find a job, out of food service that would pay me anywhere near what i make (heck i'd gladly take a few hundred a week less!) and not have to be repsonsible for making miracles happen, i'd jump at it. you can't add responsibilities, products and expected profit without adjusting the baseline guides that you are rated on. it does not balance out. it's like this: picture yourself 20 years ago living on a paycheck of $500 a week, all the expenses and cost of living go up over 20 years but your salary does not (in this example your salary is the budget i am given and rated on). it just does not pan out.

which brings me back to my original problem. the constant nagging of my job is probably why i cannot seem to get on the roll again with losing. i am going to need to find a way to not let that stuff interfere with my goals -- i have a european cruise to get ready for and i have about 30-40 lbs to go!!

thanks for checking in and reading my blog. any thoughts and suggestions are certainly welcome. i hope you all are kicking butt with your journey and reaching all your goals. i plan to have time this week end to check in on y'all

{{ hugs }}


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SIZE8NOTSOMUCH 2/21/2011 12:49PM

    Hi, I was rummaging through SP and found your site and blog, I am sorry you are stuck, but OMG you have done wonderful things, I am inspired by where you were and where you are now. You should be SO PROUD. Okay, you're stuck, but you will become unstuck, looking at all of your accomplishments. Maybe cinnamon works, but I think if you keep doing what you are doing, you will make the move.
I know having a job you don't love stinks, but this too shall pass, and before you know it you will be down another 40 and going on a cruise...

Best of luck, I'll check in again, (if that's okay)...

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4A-HEALTHY-BMI 2/21/2011 6:58AM

    I'm going to invite you over to the High Intensity Thinkers team.

If anyone can diagnose a plateau they can.

The loss game does really start to change once you get close to goal. I have had to adjust all kinds of things, from my exercise to my food.

In the meantime, do not give up! Never ever EVER give up.

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MOONBIRD 2/20/2011 9:52PM

    I am sorry you're so stressed. I hope you can get some time to unwind. I've been stressed a lot lately and I think it's affecting my weight loss too. I haven't been sleeping well and I feel hungry all the time. It's rough, and it seems the more weight you lose, the harder it is.

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MOCUEVAS 2/17/2011 10:26AM

    I think everyone here is right and you need to find some new ways to destress... do something fun and good for you., like the massage, a make ove,r something that will help you feel pampered... maybe that will shake things up in a good way. I have read about cinnamon as very good for you, I say why not give it a try... it probably can't hurt.
Hang in there!
Smiles, Mo

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CHAOTIC-KITTY 2/17/2011 8:47AM

  The stress you're under because of your job ~ could be keeping you in the rut you're in. I am so sorry to hear about how stressful things are for you. :( I have heard that cinnamon is *great* for you.. never heard of a cinnamon supplements before!

Hope things get better for you job wise & rut wise too.


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ALICEM13 2/17/2011 1:25AM

    Kat, stress is a killer.The other Gals are right, it will keep the pounds on too. It's also one of the things that will cause an addict to relapse..........IT'S just no good for you!!!! I can share with you something that I say several times a day.
"Higher Power(some call this God), grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can & the Wisdom to know the difference"
Saying this,praying this, has "saved my life" more than once. Anyway, I hope You can us it.
And, no, I did not know this about cinnamon....I will surely give it a try, Everything is yummy with cinnamon on it emoticon emoticon..Alice

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ALICEM13 2/17/2011 1:25AM

    Kat, stress is a killer.The other Gals are right, it will keep the pounds on too. It's also one of the things that will cause an addict to relapse..........IT'S just no good for you!!!! I can share with you something that I say several times a day.
"Higher Power(some call this God), grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can & the Wisdom to know the difference"
Saying this,praying this, has "saved my life" more than once. Anyway, I hope You can us it.
And, no, I did not know this about cinnamon....I will surely give it a try, Everything is yummy with cinnamon on it emoticon emoticon..Alice

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ALICEM13 2/17/2011 1:24AM

    Kat, stress is a killer.The other Gals are right, it will keep the pounds on too. It's also one of the things that will cause an addict to relapse..........IT'S just no good for you!!!! I can share with you something that I say several times a day.
"Higher Power(some call this God), grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can & the Wisdom to know the difference"
Saying this,praying this, has "saved my life" more than once. Anyway, I hope You can us it.
And, no, I did not know this about cinnamon....I will surely give it a try, Everything is yummy with cinnamon on it emoticon emoticon..Alice

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SHANTELLE2010 2/16/2011 10:24PM

    Honey, you need to go out and get yourself a nice massage. Let some of that stress go and reconnect with your body. Maybe do it at least twice a month, if you can afford it. Sometimes if you have a massage school in your area there rates are much cheaper and can still help de-stress. I really think your stress is what's holding you up. Try to find a way to break it down and I'm sure you'll see your loss again. Good luck with all that you do!!

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MOORIAS 2/16/2011 9:28PM

  Really really try to let the stress of your job not get to you. They are now finding that even if you eat right and exercise, if youare stressing you won't lose weight. Or could even gain. Try to meditate, count to ten, slip outside and scream, but try not to stress! emoticongood luck!

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What is going on?

Sunday, February 06, 2011

i'm not sure what is going on with me lately.

i have been feeling really really blahhhh!

it's strange. it's like i don't care about anything anymore.

today, for example, i was totally bummed all day. i mean all day. hubby kept asking me what was wrong and i could not answer him because nothing was really wrong - nothing i could pin point, anyway.

we went out, and i just walked through the mall like a damn zombie. i barely spoke on the drive to and from the mall. i felt empty. my mind felt kinda numb, like i was sick and tired of everything and just couldn't be bothered with anything.

i went to the gym for the first time in 3 days. i played hooky the past 2 days... something i really NEVER do. i just haven't felt like going. i kept telling myself i deserved a break so i just didn't go. so, i went today. my usual 45 minutes on the elliptical was daunting. i forced myself to do my strength training stuff. literally forced myself. it was tough going.

i got home and asked hubby for a hug and just started crying. FOR NO REASON!! i can't even blame 'that time of the month' because that was last week.

i have been doing this snacking thing at night... the kind that leaves you feeling stuffed and regretting the choices you have made. i will have dinner and immediately head in to the snacking.

what is wrong with me!!!

i have not weighed myself in a few days, so i am not sure if i have done any damage, although, i do not think so. i have tracked my food and have stayed within calorie range - even though some of my choices have not been the best and hoarding calories to spend at night is not a smart choice either.

it's not a matter of depriving myself during the day either. i just eat low calorie things and save about 600 calories for night time. and i do not necessarily eat crap at night.... sometimes fruit/yogurt, sometimes wheatables, sometimes dry cereal - stuff like that. i think the part that makes it bad is i eat it within 30 minutes of having dinner.... then i end up with that gross overstuffed feeling and i regret EVERYTHING.

i do not know what is wrong. in the past, i have had really good control (well, the past year anyway) and made really great decisions and have felt really good about myself. perhaps my time is done. maybe i am just feeling inadequate or something.

i do know i am totally sick of my job and every day i just can't wait to get the hell out of there. last week was a killer, i had so many short days and i still couldn't wait to get out. this week i am not so lucky. all full days and i am not looking forward to it. i really wish i could make the money i make working from home or doing something different. i am sick of working with the public and with food. life has got to be simpler.

can anyone tell me why people who go out to eat think that food service personnel should be looked down upon? why do they think we are morons and do not deserve the same respect that they want? why are they so ignorant? nearly 30 years working with the public and i have just about had enough.

and if the customers aren't enough, the bosses expect blood. they expect you to make money for them no matter what. then, when something is not fixed or not perfect, you get totally screwed. they want their profit AND they want everything to be perfect AND they do not update things like the labor budget to go along with the past 3 mandatory minimum wage increases. so we are still comparing our labor numbers to a budget that was made when the average wage was like $4 less than it is now. how is that healthy for business?

yup, i'm just ranting now. that means it is time to go. besides, my puppy is whining for attention and it is disruption hubby and the super bowl. i guess i will go and rescue him.

thanks for listening to me rant and rave and cry and whine and vent.

life is good! right?

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CHAOTIC-KITTY 2/7/2011 1:06PM

  I've been feeling kind of 'blah' too... it MUST have something to do with it being winter... the winter blahs. Sometimes when you cry .. it helps a lot. I'm hoping you felt a bit better after your cry. I hope you get over the blahness feeling soon....


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.DUSTY. 2/6/2011 11:57PM

    I totally understand about hating your job. That can really make you feel down. Also maybe it's time for a check up (hormones, thyroid, etc.)?
BIG emoticon

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MRSPW2000 2/6/2011 11:30PM

    I hope you can pull through your blahs. Expressing it is a step in the right direction. You know there is something bothering you, now you just need to focus on what it is and in the meantime try not to give up. You've come a long way. Maybe its time you need to find something new to get excited about.
Sounds like you might be itching to find a new job.
Hang in there!

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GV0903 2/6/2011 11:29PM

    She is right - Winter can def make it worse, but I have to ask. Could you be hormonal for another reason? It sounds so typical!
I wish you a happy Monday!

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FATHOMGREEN 2/6/2011 11:23PM

    It sounds like you are feeling depressed . . . most likely it's just seasonal depression. Be patient with yourself. Be forgiving. Keep trying to do things you love, and keep blogging. It's just a rough patch and I'm sure you'll get through it.

Are you getting enough carbs? A low carb diet can contribute to depression.

If it continues more than a few weeks, you may want to consider talking to your doctor and/or a counselor. If it's truly seasonal depression, I've heard going for a tanning session can also be helpful.

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SOLSTICECHILD 2/6/2011 11:03PM

    Winter can make anyone feel bleah

and life IS Good!

Rant, rave, cry, whine and vent. Getting it out is so much better than holding it in!

AND (big and because it's important) you didn't give into the bleah. You did the work even though you didn't want to! 2 days off isn't anything. Sometimes you just need a break. You took one and got right back at it! Way to go!

Tomorrow will be happy. emoticon

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Food for Thought...

Wednesday, January 26, 2011


so i got to thinking the other day on the way home from work. i was thinking about food. i was thinking about what i was going to have for dinner and i realized that i spend tons of time thinking about food.

which, to say, is not far from where i was a year ago when i weighed 350lbs. back then i couldn't get enough of it. pizza. subs. chinese. pasta. 12 oz (sometimes larger) steaks. potatoes. rice. gravy. chips. popcorn loaded with butter. to sum it up i was always thinking about the wrong kinds of foods, and not just 1 serving, i would think of whole pizza's, large popcorn, huge portions of everything. after i finished eating i would start thinking about when i was going to eat next and what it was going to be. yes, folks, i did this even when my stomach ached from overeating.

seriously, if i ever tracked one day of food from my old life, i am sure it would be on the idea of 5,000+ calories. add those calories to a couch potato and what do you get? a very LARGE couch potato!!

i realized the other day that i still think a lot about food. but this time it is different.

i think about chicken, broccoli, apples, cantaloupe, cukes, tomatoes, salad, green beans, meals that are portion controlled and not whale sized. i think about spacing meals and snacks out to benefit my body. i think of nutrients and balancing out what my body needs to maximize the foods i eat for both weight loss and health.

i think of ways to make healthy foods stay a part of my life, how i can add variety to them so that i will always want to keep them in my meal plans and not stray.

i think of trying new things so that my taste buds do not get bored. i tried grilled fish fillets tonight along with mashed butternut squash (OMG it is so incredibly yummy with cinnamon and brown sugar on top - it is to DIE FOR!) i had never had either one before. my sister is to blame for me getting hooked on these... so i called her up and gave her a piece of my mind (as i was chowing on the butternut squash, of course) lol. i also tried to make butternut squash fries, but they did not turn out so hot..... mushy and burnt... but hey, not all great ideas end well.

the way i see it. at least i tried a new twist on a healthy track. so what if it did not turn out well, i will just try something else the next time and keep building on my repertoire of healthy dishes. variety, as they say, is the spice of life, is it not?

as i write this i am sitting at the kitchen table -- my stomach is about to burst -- i think i OVERINDULGED on the mashed squash just a tad. it was so yummy and this was the first time i had ever made it or even had squash!! i think i was afraid it was going to disappear or something. i guess that is the next thing i need to ditch.

overindulging is not a good thing, even if you are overindulging on healthy stuff. you end up with the same result, feeling bloated, stuffed and guilty for overdoing it.

so, i am interested... do any of you have a favorite recipe for butternut squash or spaghetti squash (yup, just bought some of that today too, for the first time). bear in mind it has to be simple for me, i do not have tons of time to spend CREATING MIRACLES... i just need relatively quick and simple recipes. i would appreciate any ideas you can toss my way.

ok, i am off for now.... tonight i am sure that "visions of healthy foods will be dancing in my head" as i dream sweet dreams!

{{{ hugs to all }}}

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CHAOTIC-KITTY 1/31/2011 4:09PM

  you *should* share some of your recipes with us all! ;)

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MOCUEVAS 1/27/2011 5:06PM

    You are amazing... what an inspiration... I'm so glad you are inviting us to be a part of your journey... awesome! And I hope some folks send you great recipes, I don't have any or i would share them!
Smiles, Mo

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Creepy gym experience!!

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

hey kids,

so, here's the deal.

i went to the gym today, gym bag in tote. as i was walkiing toward the women's dressing room this guy was working out near the entrance to both dressing rooms and i noticed him glance my way, then turn his head and follow me as i disappeared into the dressing room...

i didn't really think too much about it until i came out and was headed upstairs. i had to face towards him to go up some of the stairs and i saw him watching me again. creepy.

i was upstairs on the elliptical machine for 45 minutes. i got off the elliptical to go get a towel to wash down my machine and i saw him slowly walking on one of the treadmills behind me (bear in mind, the wall HE is facing is one huge mirror). and you guessed it, again, i noticed out of the corner of my eye that he was watching me. he must have come up the back stairs because i was facing the other stairs and did not see him come up.

i meandered into the next room to do my strength training and i was on the chest press facing the big long window that stretches the length of the room. that's when i saw him walking down the hallway on the other side of the glass. i had stopped for a breather in between sets, i was facing the window and just glanced up and he was watching me again.... smiling.... he waved and gave me a thumbs up.

don't know what you all call that... but i call it creepy!!

i am certain i have seen him there before... hopefully the next time i see him, my hubby will be with me...

needless to say i watched my rear view mirror ALL THE WAY HOME!!

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4A-HEALTHY-BMI 2/21/2011 7:02AM

    You know, a few times I've worked out with my trainer at the same time as a whole group of post heart-op guys were in there for rehab. They were ALL staring at me, the whole time (well us - Tiffany of course is built).

At first I was weirded out, then I thought "look all you want, dudes. If anything on here is worth looking at, I worked d@mn hard at getting it." LOL

After being virtually invisible for so long at at a weight over 300 lbs, it's definitely been an adjustment.

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DOWNTOWNJEN 1/19/2011 9:06PM

    OMG - that's a tad creepy!

You reminded me of "leg lift guy". This was in the late 80s - 300 people (99% women) would be working out and this weird older-to-college-students guy would come in and work out (he was a spaz). When we got to the floor exercises, several of us noticed that he was wearing no undies under his baggy gym shorts. EEEEEEWWWWWWWWW! We all complained and he was kicked out. Not that he didn't try to get back in again...

What's up with some guys?

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RUBYCLAIRE 1/19/2011 9:01PM

    I have to agree, that would totally creep me out, too. The gym where I use to go had a women's workout room which is where I always did my workouts.

I would let the management know if it should happen again.

Good luck!

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CHAOTIC-KITTY 1/19/2011 8:03PM

  totally creepy gym man!!! that would have totally spooked me out. heck.. reading about it in your blog - spooked me out & it didn't even happen to me.

i was at a store yesterday - and, there was this creepy guy who keep on staring at me... and, watching me a lot! and it was very creepy!!! :(

maybe it's that time of year... LOL!! who knows.. why there are so many creepy people out there. :(

hopefully your hubby will be with you next time to protect you from the creepy gym man!!!

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Pasta without the Guilt!!

Sunday, January 16, 2011

hi kids,

glad you could stop by today!!

sorry to say that my gym experiences are becoming ho hum.

not sure exactly why, well, i'm pretty sure my sleepless nights have something to do with it. i have been getting about 5 hours of sleep a night - but i am always interrupted. either i have to hit the potty or i am hot or i am cold or i am just uncomfortable. there is always something.

and what's even funnier is.... i have better workouts lately if i work all day first vs going to the gym on my day off (like today). i had zero will power for the gym today. so what did i do? i went to the gym and FAKED it.

how does one fake going to the gym you may ask. i'll tell ya. i went to the gym. hopped on a treadmill and walked for 88 minutes. never once did i break a sweat. i didn't even bother to check my heart rate and usually i am a stickler for getting it up over 150. and after that.... i went home. NO SWEAT PEOPLE!!! that was a complete waste of my time.

then, to top it all off, i came home and had pasta and chef meg's slow cooker marinara chicken and veggies. PASTA!!! well, almost pasta.

have you ever heard of MIRACLE NOODLES? well, they are 100% soluable fiber. zero calories. zero carbs. and 2.5 grams of fiber per 3 oz serving. this was the first time i had tried them. i bought them on the internet after following a link that was on an advertisement here on the spark.

they come in little plastic bags (about 7oz) and they are floating in liquid (ok, so the liquid has a slight fishy aroma to it, but once i got over that i was ok, lol). here's all you have to do:

1) open bag and drain noodles in a strainer or collandar
2) rinse for a minute or so under cool water
3) boil for 1 minute - and 1 minute only! (so make sure your water is boiling before you put them in)
4) pat the noodles dry with a paper towl (yeah, i had my paper towels all set and ready to go, spread out and everything, and i forgot this step. grrrrr)
5) use the noodles in any recipe you would normally use them in.

i had them with the marinara sauce - used chef meg's recipe with a few of my own additions.

mine were angel hair. but they come in different shapes and even rice. since they are all fiber they soak up whatever flavors you use them with really well. they have a similar consistency as normal angel hair pasta, just don't forget the paper towel step (my error added water to my sauce so it did not stick to the noodles very well)

hubby was my guinea pig. he thought they were just like regular pasta. i noticed a certain pasta flavor missing, but overall i think it was a really good substitute. i'm thinking they would be great with asian dishes.

my plan is to be in bed by 9pm. hopefully i can get a great nights sleep and be on top of my game tomorrow at the gym and really bust a gut!!

thanks for stopping by.

{{{{{ HUGS }}}}} to ALL !!


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DARKTHOR 2/18/2011 11:45PM

    Thanks for the info, I'll have to look into those. I love pasta, but they can do serious damage to my daily calories.

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CHAOTIC-KITTY 1/16/2011 10:36PM

  I wanted to know about those noodles... but I'm not into fishy smells though. LOL!

Hopefully tomorrow you won't have to "fake" the gym. ;)

Have a good sleep! :)

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