Thursday, September 23, 2010
i hate em!!
i have chicken arms - you know what i mean... the upper arm has all this FLAB just hanging and jiggling all around and i can't get rid of it!!
i hate to wear sleeveless shirts because of it. it is just not very eye catching, well it is, but in an eyesore kind of way.
my upper legs are the same way. they just bulge with FLAB!!
every time i see my arms i feel like i have made no progress -- in that area.
i do lots of arm (and leg for that matter) strength exercises.. what more can i do? and do not say surgery... i vowed i would do this the natural way.
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
BLC update = i seem to be able to do the veggies and exercise thing without fail (so far) but the loving me part is tough when you don't see any action on the scale for a week. i have been at a standstill practically since my last challenge ended. not particularly thrilled about that and not sure why this is so. i just know is doesn't feel good or very motivating to me.
i'm sure it won't last. there is always a light at the end of the tunnel... it's just a matter of making sure it is not a looooong and dragggged out tunnel. lol.
i walked into the gym yesterday and molly, one of the attendants there, was like --- oh my god kat, you look ABSOLUTELY AMAZING!!! -- and she said it, like, 3 or 4 times. it felt soooooo GOOOOD!
we are having an employee appreciation week at work this week. i organized a bunch of activities, something for each day. today was POT LUCK. employees were encouraged to bring in their favorite foods to show off thier cooking talents and culture with each other. oh my god, the food was soooo amazing (as it is every year i do this) and there was sooooo much of it. i did my best to hold myself off and i did pretty good (i broke down with the spanish rice -- yummy) and then i was saved!! one person brought it a huge FRUIT SALAD with all my favorites in it. someone, somewhere, was definitely looking out for MY BEST INTERESTS today ... LOL!!
AND i was proud of myself. i made my famous peanut butter fudge (it is DEMANDED every year) and i didn't eat any while i was making it and only had a sliver of it at work. ok, ok i may have licked the spoon once or twice after i was done making it, but that is all you are getting me to confess!!
well, i'm sure today did not help my biggest loser challenge efforts any. i am sure i gained 10 lbs just looking at all the yummy food!!
have a great night everyone -- i for one, am going to try to get more than 5 hours of sleep tonight. wish me luck!!
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
as i think back to last year, before i started my journey, i am amazed at the changes i have gone through.
my whole thought process is revamped, and now, it is not a thing i need to think about. it is natural. i used to spend all day thinking of my next meal and everything i wanted for meals, well, it was far from healthy.
how does chinese, pizza, subs, 16 oz steaks with potatoes, chips, popcorn (loaded with butter), bacon (not just one or two slices either, hubby and i could cook and consume a whole package for breakfast along with amazing amounts of other stuff). chips were my snack time weakness - yeah, i could do a bag by myself.
i could go on forever with that list. suffice it to say, things have changed. i have changed.
now - i love fruits and veggties - apples, blueberries, cantelope, strawberries, bananas, salads, cukes, tomatoes, celery, carrots, grean beans, green peppers, onions. i go nuts if i don't have these things handy for dinner and snacks. toss in healthy lean turkey breast, chicken, 4 oz cuts of filet mignon, yogurt and tons of water -- and i am in heaven.
who ever thought eating healthy could be so yummy?
and exercise --- whoooaaa, not me. i had trouble getting up the front stairs and there are only 7 of them!! i was tired just walking. i could never get enough sleep and t.v. was by big adventure for the day. i just could not wait to get home and watch my favorite t.v. shows. and that is alllllll i did besides play games on my computer. being active was nowhere in my vocabulary.
and now. i can't even describe the difference. i LOVE the gym. i LOVE exercising. i LOVE the way it makes me feel and how i feel when sweating it out. i seriously have withdrawls if i miss the gym or exercising. i literally get depressed if i don't work out for days - so needless to say -- i rarely skip more than one day at a time. i go to work, and i can't wait to leave so i can get to the gym. who cares about t.v. shows, that's what the dvr is for, lol. i record what i want to watch and watch it when i have free time. and my computer time is mostly spent on sparkpeople.
i record my food daily. i record my exercise daily. i do those without fail because those are the 2 things that really opened my eyes and gave me a fighting chance to win this battle. i was amazed at the calories i WAS eating. i eat less calories now, more healthy and feel so much more satisfied than i did before.
i really do try to keep up with my spark friends, though it does not always work out that way. i work really long hours and it takes me an hour and a half, sometimes 2 hours, to get each way ---- that is 3 to 4 hours travel time a day. that really cuts out on the time i have for myself and things i WANT to do. i leave the house at 6:30 am and get home (via the gym) around 8:30 or 9:00 pm.
i value all of you so much, i can't even tell you. you have all been here, supported me, cheered me on, gave me great advice and simply just listened to me -- good or bad. friends like you do not come around every day. i am geatful for all of you and the time you put forth for me. i hope that i have been there for you during your times of need. none of this would have been possible it i had to do it all alone. you are truly awesome friends and i thank you from the bottom of my heart.
i started this journey the last week of december 2009. i was at 352 lbs. today, 8 months later, i am down to 229 lbs. i lost 121 lbs so far --- heck, that is a whole person!!
i was at a size 34 pants -- now i am in 18/20
i was at a size 32/34 shirt - now i am between 16/18
i can climb stairs without a problem
i can go 60+ minutes on an elliptical machine
i can go forever on a treadmill
i have more energy than i did when i was in college
i can buy cloths at a normal store
i can pass up things i used to crave with no problem
i can limit myself on anything, so if i want pizza, i can have it and not go overboard
i can put my shoes on standing up
i can tie my shoes standing up
i can put my pants on standing up
i can use the seatbelt in my car, no problem
my stomach does not touch the stearing wheel anymore - heck, there is a huge space between me and the wheel now
i walk with pride in my step
i can go place myself now... i do not feel like everyone is staring at me
bottom line..... i am beginning to feel like a real person instead of a huge eyesore.
life is good
life is just beginning!!!
Sunday, September 12, 2010
i had a great day today.
i was up early and out of the house by 9:30
went to walmart to get some pants for work.. lol, others were beginning to sag (yayyy)
went to best buy and got a new GPS and battery charger for camera batteries since my 2 chargers disappeared. had $100 in gift cards i won at work, so that was relatively cheap on my wallet
went to b/n to see if i liked this weeks free book of the week and .... no, i did not like it so i did not download it.
went to avenue to get smaller jeans (wahhooooo again) i started back in january at a size 34.... today i bought a size 20 and an 18 !!! my shirts used to be a 32 (3 or 4xl), and depending on the type of shirt, i am buying 16 or mediums/large now.
i then went to the grocery store. needed cantelope, blueberries, cukes, salad and did NOT get tomoatoes, they were too soft for me. did get yogurt and a filet for dinner, my treat for myself since hubby is not home for dinner. still need to cut up my melon since my slicer is not here at the moment. where is he when i need him!!!
then i went to the gym and hooked up with a friend. hit the elliptical for 46 minutes and then strength training for another 44 minutes. tomorrow i am taking off from the gym.. will probably to wii or ride my bike -- i feel like i've been neglecting my dog lately so tomorrow is HER day (ya, after work, that is)
well, got things to do. thanks for stopping by. hope you are kicking butt with your goals and staying focused.
enjoy life, it is too short to do otherwise.
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