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I've been approved for medical assistance and other updates

Monday, October 01, 2012

Today I was approved for medical assistance after nearly 5 months of dealing with incompetent fools. The stipulations are that they will not reimburse me any of the COBRA I've already had to pay (through October), there's no guarantee they will reimburse me for it in the future (which is utter crap), and every 6 months I have to go through all this crap again!

Next step I'm working on getting utility assistance. I've got the paperwork for electric and heat, but I'm going to try calling the city about help with water. I'm also trying to find someone to help with my long term disability appeal. Unfortunately, the patient advocate I had been working with recently died. She had the same stomach condition I have (gastroparesis), so though I haven't heard the cause GP is likely at least partially at fault. The symptoms of GP are often very difficult and even the treatments can be fatal. Since I don't have the energy or mental acuity I can't do it myself and the other places I've requested help from won't/can't help. I don't want to have to hire a lawyer, but it might come down to it.

A few weeks ago I spoke at a fundraiser for the non-profit that flies me to Milwaukee for free. When I told my father about a week and a half later he had absolutely no emotion, was not proud, was not encouraging, and actually sounded appalled that I thought I could do it. Then I told him I had already given the speech and he actually sounded disgusted! Yeah, there's a reason why I grew up thinking I was worthless, pathetic, and could never do anything right. Well, today one of my favorite disability transport drivers picked me up and brought me home. When I told her about it she was so enthusiastic, so proud, so happy for me, and glad that I went through with it (she had suggested I try motivational speaking). Her support means a lot. It's just sad that strangers I barely know support me so much more than my parents ever will.

Now that I can no longer pay my mortgage, I can't afford the supplements my doctors want me taking, and will have to start selling whatever possessions I can get money for I'm thinking about trying to contact the Ellen Show again. I was thinking maybe this time having people email me their letters then I'll print them all out and send them all at once. It will make one heck of a statement. I'm also debating contacting a few other shows. I'm still debating this idea, though.

In the meantime, I'm enjoying the new TV season and looking forward to the Supernatural premiere this week, the Vampire Diaries premiere next week, and the series premieres of Arrow, Beauty and the Beast, and Nashville next week. There's a lot of good shows out there! Of course I'm also looking forward to the mid-season premiere of Cult (with Matt Davis). At least while watching TV I don't have to spend 100% of my time thinking about everything that sucks in my life right now.

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CTUPTON 10/4/2012 1:15PM

    More prayers sent your way! I thought my paperwork was bad! You poor thing.

I hope someone steps up and takes this burden away so you can just focus on your health!

I got some help from my state (Connecticut). They have an advocate for health insurance. She got some of my money back for me.


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JOYCECAIN 10/2/2012 8:57PM

    I am so sorry you are going thru all of this. How long can you stay in your place? Have you contacted the Housing people to help you find a place? I don't know what to say. I feel so badly. Take care. lol

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LIVINHEALTHY9 10/2/2012 7:26PM

    Glad you are finally getting some help.
I know it must feel like an uphill battle to get assistance but don't give up. Keep fighting to get it.
Unfortunately, all the red tape you have to go through is in place to discourage those who submit fraudulent claims.
It's a shame it has to be that way.

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SHANNISHELL 10/2/2012 8:47AM

    Sounds like you are heading in the right direction. I hope things will continue to improve for you. Sorry about your dad. He is just one person. Many more are proud of you. Including myself. Hang in there. emoticon

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SHIRAROCK 10/2/2012 5:48AM

    Omg. I am omg'ing over your dad not being proud of you for having the courage to speak at a fundraiser. I'd like to say, "you don't need him", but you do.

He is the only father you have. I hope you can get to the place where is opinion doesn't hurt you anymore.

So much 'not good' you've reported in this blog. I am sorry things are not 'golden', but I continue to be amazed by your strength, in spite of the utter crap that life keeps tossing you.

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PRUPLEBEAR 10/2/2012 5:24AM

    Hang in there!

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EVWINGS 10/2/2012 12:01AM

    Although the information could have been a little better, this is a HUGE thing for you to finally acheive for benefits.!!! I will continue to keep you in prayer that things will continue to be accomplished and you'll finally get ALL of the assistance you need.

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JAMER123 10/1/2012 11:52PM

    Lou has the important info on the lawyers. That may work better for you and be a lot less frustrating. You can get legal aid for free or reduced fees. My daughter a few yrs. ago got free services. I feel for you and wish there was something I could do for you but can't. So I send a prayer your way that all works out for you soon!! Blessings!
Hang in there......Eileen
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IUHRYTR 10/1/2012 11:40PM

    Praying things improve for you soon. I can appreciate the frustration you must be feeling; it took 20 months for me to get approved for disability because of my back. At the end of that time I was financially and emotionally broke. The government workers who denied my claim two times had the same information the last one who approved the claim did. He actually chastised the first two. It finally took a call from the lawyer's office to shake things up. Their fee comes out of the back pay which can go back to a year prior to the application date. (In case you do talk to lawyers I thought you'd like some background, if you already didn't know.) Wishing you a great change of fortunes. Hang in there. -- Lou

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"My dad can eat 1,000 chicken nuggets!"

Wednesday, September 12, 2012

In Minnesota there are 2 new ads running that I wanted to share. These are so eye-opening and thought provoking. What are we teaching our children? Many adults in their 20s, 30s, and 40s were raised in homes where both parents were working for the first time, which (in some cases) meant the children were not properly taught about nutrition, fitness, or even how to cook. Now that we're adults, do we realize that we're doing the same thing to our kids? Check out the ads and ask yourself what you can teach your children (or grandkids, nieces, nephews, or any child you know) TODAY about how to be healthier.


Have you ever had an 'a ha' moment like this? Do these ads motivate you to change and/or help your kids to understand the consequences of an unhealthy lifestyle?

Remember, kids are little sponges that pick up everything that they see around them. This is beyond what to eat and whether or not to exercise, but also the words we use, how to love or hate ourselves, and even how we see other people (like prejudice). You can play the 'do what I say not what I do' game for a little while, but they will take on your mannerisms even if you don't see it right away. How many times have you stopped and said 'when did I turn into my mother/father/grandparent/aunt/uncle/etc?' Well, you picked it up when you were a kid and it manifested over years. So when you're upset, stressed, or doing something that's dramatically unhealthy, stop to ask yourself 'what would I say to my kid if s/he was in my shoes?' That will help you figure out how to deal with it in a productive way and offer a healthier option for your child to mimic. Don't want your kid to overeat, drink, smoke, swear, or have self-loathing? Then correct that in yourself while being honest with them that you make mistakes too and you'd like their support as you change for the better. This will help them feel a part of the solution and share in the successes you meet. It will also let them see how incredibly difficult it is to change lifelong bad habits, which will hopefully deter them from ending up with the same bad habits.

Forgive yesterday, hope for tomorrow, do better today because every day is a chance to do a little better.

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CAKEMAKERMOM 10/2/2012 12:34PM

    I love those commercials and the look on the parent's faces. I hope that this makes people take a second look at their habits so they can relearn what is healthy and how to teach their children the proper way to eat. I especially like the mom/daughter one where they were shopping and putting nothing healthy in the carts.

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PRUPLEBEAR 9/12/2012 8:55PM

    so very true! Thanks for the post!

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NIKI778 9/12/2012 9:55AM

    This is so true, I see it in my little ones all the time. My youngest especially, she is such an imitator and will often even change her tone of voice and style of speaking to mimic those around her. The other day she was telling me a story about something that happened between her and her cousin at school, and when she got to the point that she was telling me what her cousin said, she almost exactly mimicked her cousin's tone of voice and manner of speaking. I often see both of them say and do things that I or their father does. I realized from listening to my children speaking to me that I use the word actually a lot because my youngest started using it in every conversation that she had (lol). I also feel like there are so many ways that I have turned into my mother. I hated how when I was a teen she would notice every little thing, like if I had friends over after school, she had a hawks eye and could tell if the coffee table had been moved as little as 1/2 an inch of if a kitchen chair wasn't in the exact place it had been when she left for work in the morning. I am starting to notice that same trait that she had, and I now look forward to being able to catch my kids with what always thought was my mom's magic ability.

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Writing prompt challenge #5

Tuesday, August 28, 2012

Prompt #5 comes from MOM2ACAT: I finally made the decision.

I have two paths in front of me. Both could lead to great things, but both could lead to heartache. Down one path I see strength and satisfaction. Down the other I see comfort and care. There's tempting dark and thorough light. There's the left or the right. But whatever I choose, it must be tonight.

Gripping the steering wheel a little tighter, images flash in my head as I consider options. Whichever I choose, that's what I would then be stuck with. There's no turning back and no do-over. My choice could be a dream or a nightmare, but I won't know until I turn down a path. I hear a honk behind me, realizing that the dark that's enveloped my car is sliced open by headlights blazing in my rearview mirror. I'm blocking traffic so I can't stall any longer. With a deep, cleansing breath I count down, somehow convincing myself I can choose in seconds what I've been debating for the last week, the last day, and the last several minutes at this stop sign.

"One. Two. Three. CHOOSE!" My hands pull to the right as my foot hits the accelerator. The car jumps and skids out, bucking my decision. Does my car somehow know I've chosen the wrong way? As the tires grab and houses slide past my window, I start to reconsider. Why did I choose this way? What reason did I have to turn right instead of left? My heart jumps in my chest for a moment and I jerk the steering wheel until my tires kiss the curb. Can I really make myself believe this is the better choice? Nope.

My eyes dart back and forth as I pull my car into a U-turn. The other choice is better. It must be, right? I'm still questioning myself as I backtrack to the other direction. The intersection somehow seems different from this direction and as I cross I suddenly have nervous butterflies in my stomach. Will this work?

I think back to last week, the moment I came face to face with a stranger. Every plan I had has been questioned since. Did I want what I have or what I wished? Which is better, comfortable or exciting? Right now I'm choosing exciting as I slowly squeeze the brake to the floor and silently pull into the parking space. This is my choice. This is where I should be. My car goes silent and dark as I step out, gently easing my door shut. I still have a chance to change my mind if he doesn't realize I'm here. Looking at the door in front of me, I know I don't want to leave. This is my choice. He is my choice.

My timid knock echoes and I hold my breath. Bounding steps assault my ears just before the door swings open and I'm greeted with open arms. Strong arms. My hands go to his neck as he lifts me up and dangles my legs like a pendulum. This is where I want to be. He leads me inside to the kitchen table.

"I'm glad you're here. I wasn't sure you'd come." There's a hint of questioning and disbelief, layering grime just underneath his smile.

"I finally made my decision." I squeeze his hand gently, searching his eyes for agreement and confirmation of my wishes. "I want to date you. I'm breaking up with him."

The idea of strong, dark, and handsome is more tempting than the comfortable static of constant video games and being forgotten. Besides, when you're barely an adult is the best time to enjoy romance over pizza stains on the couch!

This one ended up at just over a half hour after a re-read. I was enjoying trying to come up with covert descriptions so it didn't flow as quickly as some of the others. I wanted realizations of what was really happening to be revealed slowly, trying to build a little anticipation through questioning what was going on.

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PRUPLEBEAR 8/28/2012 9:43PM

    very cool

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EVWINGS 8/28/2012 6:37PM

    This one is great, too. I just love your writing!

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MOM2ACAT 8/28/2012 4:52PM

    I love it! Thank you for using one of mine.

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Writing prompt challenge #4

Monday, August 27, 2012

Prompt #4 comes from EVWINGS: This winter seemed quite harsh.....

"Wow. This winter seemed quite harsh." I said to no one in particular. Spending so much time cooped up in my small house made me long for bright sunshine and warm breezes. I remember two foot snow falls, snow drifts the size of school buses (and just as yellow), and feeling the ache of my rear end when I slid on the ice and landed in a heap. Even now, a snow drift nearly my height is still trying to melt behind my deck. I have a feeling it will be lingering until June.

As I sit down in my favorite chair, I close my eyes for a moment and breathe in. With a small cough I remember I haven't been able to open the windows and air out the stale scent in 5 months. Candles and air fresheners only help for so long before they make it worse. I reach for the book I've been reading, but I can't focus on the page. The words seem almost foreign as my gaze ends up back at the window.

"Maybe a few minutes of a cross breeze won't be too bad." I set the book aside as I bound over to open the patio door then head back to the window. As I flip the lock and pull it open, a blast of arctic air makes me quickly change my mind. 50 degrees is a nice day, but still too cold when you're inside! I close the window and door again then stare out, wondering why I chose to live in such a desolate wasteland.

All of a sudden a dark flash catches my attention. I squint and peer out into the waning light, wondering what is out there. Then another happens in the sky. I blink a few times, my brow lowering as I look closer. Finally, I realize there are birds flying, squirrels running, and a goose wandering in the yard across the street. A smile tugs at my lips as I see the wildlife running amok in the quiet of a snowy, late Sunday afternoon.

Looking closer, I see bits of brown grass peering through some holes in the snow, waiting to wake and enjoy the warmth of spring. I remember the flowers that my neighbor likes to plant as soon as the last frosts end; just a few weeks from now her yard will be full of color. The trees that appear dead now will bud and bloom, throwing off shade on the hottest days so I can lay in the grass and read.

Sure, this winter might have been hard on me, making me feel lonely and locked away, but spring will be here soon! "I should probably start planning what vegetables I'll be putting in my garden." Finally I have a purpose, some hope to look forward to. No need to think about winter any longer.

So I think 20 minutes will end up being the standard here. haha I took inspiration from the person who provided the prompt, Evelyn. She helps remind me that even on dark days, when things seem bleak and hard, there is always a chance for a brighter day tomorrow.

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EVWINGS 8/27/2012 11:09AM

    Thank you for the compliment! I love your writing! ALl of us who write should take your challenge and do the same! Thank you so very much for sharing your work on your blog.

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IUHRYTR 8/27/2012 4:52AM

    I agree that possibilities of tomorrows that will indeed be brighter days is what keeps us going through the tough times. Your streak of stimulating pieces continues, as I expect it will until the end. Then it will be a dismal, dark day for us, your readers. emoticon -- Lou

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Writing prompt challenge #3

Sunday, August 26, 2012

Prompt #3 is from PRUPLEBEAR: My wife left me and took my dog!

"I can't believe she up and walked on out!" Grumbling to himself, he slammed the screen door shut. He takes a few steps then stops, realizing there is no dinner on the table. "Great, my belly's rumbling and I got nothing to fill it with." Stalking around the kitchen, he pauses at the fridge to peer inside. He's never cooked a meal for himself unless it was on a spit over a campfire.

Grabbing the phone, he dials his mother. "Honey, you knew better than to push her. She was the butter queen at the county fair for 3 years running and was smart enough that she almost walked away from you for a try at college." She scoffed at her son, "Did you really think she'd keep putting up with living in that junk yard you call a house?"

"So what time am I coming over for dinner, mom?" Of course he wasn't going to listen to his mother. She's always nagging him! He's greeted with the sound of the dial tone after his mother hangs up on him.

What's a country boy to do when his woman leaves him alone with no dinner? Time to go hunting! His hat's at the door, the gun's in the closet, and the dog is... Wait, where's his dog?

"Come here, mutt!" A few whistles should be all he needs for his trusty sidekick to come running, tail wagging with a load of barking. "Where are you?" He searches around the house, steps outside to call a few times, then sits on the porch steps with a huff.

"Oh, she wouldn't do that! That's low down and underhanded, taking a guy's favorite dog!" Slapping his hat on his leg a time or two, he sets the gun aside and considers what to do next.

Down the driveway he hears tires pull onto the gravel. He looks up to see his truck driving towards him, covered in dust. As it comes to a stop and the driver's door opens, his dog jumps out and starts running towards him. With a leap the dog jumps into his owner's arms, knocking him backwards.

He looks past the dog and sees his wife coming towards him. "Change your mind about leaving and taking the dog? Couldn't stand to be without your big man, huh?" A grin crosses his face as his dog licks his chin.

"No, you big lug, I told you I was taking the dog to the vet! Now if you're expecting any dinner you'd better get the groceries out of the back of the truck. Hop to it!"

I'm finding 5 minutes is not going to be long enough! This was another nearly 20 minutes. And, in case you haven't noticed, I'm trying to come up with ways to use the prompts in a way most people wouldn't think of. I like being unique and different, so I'm trying to throw in some loops and twists so you don't really know what's coming. That's what's going to keep this interesting. haha

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ABBYSHARPE 8/28/2012 8:54AM

    hahahah love it!!!

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EVWINGS 8/27/2012 11:18AM

    Twists? This has to be of the largest I've seen in awhile! Keep up thegood work!!

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READE2MOVE2012 8/27/2012 1:44AM

  entertaining emoticon

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JOYCECAIN 8/26/2012 6:44PM

    I really liked this.

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PRUPLEBEAR 8/26/2012 6:33PM

    OMG! I love it!!! to funny!!! and sound like most men! they never hear anything you tell them!!!

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IUHRYTR 8/26/2012 4:58PM

    Another interesting piece. Took me where I didn't expect. emoticon -- Lou

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EOWYN2424 8/26/2012 2:24AM

    I love dogs!

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