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Writing prompt challenge #1

Friday, August 24, 2012

Prompt #1 is from IAMLOVEDBYYOU: Bright white light greets her as she finally exits...

He pushes back the curtain, slowly taking in the sight of her sleeping form. It shouldn't be this way. She was always the one taking care of others, but now machines and doctors are taking care of her. Still, no matter how long it takes, he won't give up on her.

The doctor enters. "The scans appear normal, so hopefully the coma will only last a few days. Can you tell us if she's ever had a concussion before? That would affect her prognosis."

"No, not as far as I know." He walks closer to his girlfriend, hesitantly reaching his hand out to her cheek. "As long as I've known her she's always been healthy."

"Then hopefully she will be fine soon." The doctor checks the monitors for a moment, noting a few thoughts on her chart before heading towards the door. "Feel free to spend some time with her. Talk to her, touch her, and sit with her, because she will know you're here."

He bends down and kisses his beloved on the forehead. "Please, I can't do this alone." Reaching back, he pulls a stool up to the side of the bed and sits. One hand is running through her hair while the other is stroking her arm gently. It's not long before he succumbs to the sleepless night and stress.

Yet, as small shards of sunlight slice through the silence, she begins to stir. Her entire body is stiff and foreign. Jumbled memories poke the backs of her eyes, trying to make her remember where she was. She tries to draw a deep breath, but is hindered by something in her mouth, or in her throat. Her hand brushes something as she pulls it to her face, gently touching hoses and bandages. As her heart rate jumps from the realization of her condition, a hollow voice penetrates her thoughts.

"Sweetheart, wake up. You're in the hospital. You were in an accident, but you'll be okay." She feels a hand pulling hers away from her face as the voice gets louder. "Nurse! Nurse!"

Feet fill the room, followed by more hollow voices. There's a flurry of activity around her, calling for her attention. As the sun bursts free of the horizon, the doctor pulls out his penlight. Bright white light greets her as she finally exits her coma.

Okay, I took a little over 15 minutes for this one, with about 5 minutes of revisions (grammar, logic, etc). Since the story came to me with the prompt as the ending, I couldn't stop at 5 minutes and leave it hanging.

Thanks for all the ideas! It'll take me awhile to get through them. I hope you like this first one. Feedback is totally appreciated!

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EVWINGS 8/24/2012 11:29PM

    You have done a good job. I hope you'll continue and post more of the prompts with your writing. It would have been nice to have named the three characters.

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JAMER123 8/24/2012 11:09PM

    emoticon emoticon You have done a great job!! Keep it going!

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JOYCECAIN 8/24/2012 3:32PM

    It is different, but it is good..You do have talent for this sort of thing. Keep up good work. Sending sparkmail.

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LIVINHEALTHY9 8/24/2012 8:15AM

    Nice job.

Keep it up!

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PRUPLEBEAR 8/24/2012 6:01AM

    very good!

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IUHRYTR 8/24/2012 4:05AM

    "Then hopefully she will be fine soon." The doctor checks the monitors for a moment, noting a few thoughts on her chart before heading towards the door. "Feel free to spend some time with her. Talk to her, touch her, and sit with her, because she will know you're here."

He bends down and kisses his beloved on the forehead. "Please, I can't do this alone." Reaching back, he pulls a stool up to the side of the bed and sits. ...
I liked it, thinking at first it was going to be about a play when the curtain pulled back and the bright light. It would have been nice to name the characters. That would have personalized it a bit more and eliminated the brief confusion I had with the above two paragraphs. At first I thought the doctor bent down... until I read further into the second paragraph above.
Keep up the good effort! -- Lou

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Please provide writing prompts for my challenge

Wednesday, August 22, 2012

I've gotten so many wonderful responses to what I wrote from the writing prompts at the writing seminar that I thought I'd start a challenge for myself. I'd like my sparkfriends to help me out with this challenge. I need to get my brain back into writing form (or at least closer to it), and prompt challenges can help with that. So here's what I need from you:

Respond to this blog with a writing prompt. This means a short, 1 or 2 phrases or sentences, idea that doesn't have depth, but can be expanded. (See the prompts in my last blog for examples.) You can post several if you'd like, but I can't guarantee I'll get to them all if I get a lot of them.

My challenge will be to take your prompts, one at a time, and write something from them. I'll take a short time to think then about 5 minutes to write my thoughts. Whenever possible, I'll respond to at least 1/day, maybe more. (Of course, this will be fluid because my health issues often make it hard to function some days and doctor appointments take up a lot of time.) I will do my best to remember to thank the person who gave the prompt.

I look forward to your prompts and I hope I can meet this challenge!

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KIMI_SILVA 8/25/2012 11:43AM

    How FUN!

1. Here's where it all began

2. The book was heavy in my hand

3. This is where it has to end

You are such a talented and imaginative writer. I'm am thoroughly impressed!

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JOYCECAIN 8/24/2012 11:18PM

    OK, let's see.

1. He came out of nowhere and stood in frront of her.

2. The train came into the station, and slowly came to a halt.

3. The dog stood on the porch, staring into the night, his fur standing up on his back.

Have fun. You have plenty of choices from your sparkfriends. Wishing you well.

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MOM2ACAT 8/23/2012 4:13PM

    I finally made the decision.

Winter came early that year.

I remember that day like it happened yesterday.

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EVWINGS 8/23/2012 8:57AM

    What a fantastic idea!

Here are two for you.

The air was damp and thick with the smell of rotting vegetation........

This winter seemed quite harsh.....

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ABBYSHARPE 8/23/2012 8:35AM

    How fun, Sheri! I can't wait to see what you come up with.

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PRUPLEBEAR 8/23/2012 5:29AM

    1. The children were lost
2. It was a dark and stormy night (had to do it Sorry)
3. My wife left me and took my dog!

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IUHRYTR 8/23/2012 5:18AM

    In a short story writing class we would always begin by taking the instructor's prompt of the day and writing for 20 minutes on it, then read what we wrote to the class. I still use what comes to mind to get me in the writing mode when I'm having trouble starting. Here are some from the class. Here's to your challenge emoticon!

1. It was a cool autumn day.
2. Number 118 is where it happened.
3. I didn't set out to kill anyone that day; it just happened.
4. Even the birds were quiet.
5. It was time. (This is one I used to start my mystery novel.)
6. She was bored.
7. Saying goodbye was the hardest thing I ever had to do.
8. Children played in the park and squirrels played in the trees while I played...

Have fun! -- Lou

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IAMLOVEDBYYOU 8/22/2012 10:35PM

    Let's see... Here are a few. Choose your favorite.

I never want to see him again...

Bright white light greets her as she finally exits...

Today is the day...

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Went to a writing seminar today and getting an eval for SSD

Thursday, August 16, 2012

Today I went to a local library for a 1 hour seminar about writing and getting published. I was there a half hour early because I took disability transportation, so I was by far the first one there. I got to talk to the author who hosted it at length, as well as talk with her husband and 2 small boys a little. She had some good information, though much was a reiteration of what I've been hearing from the writer's sparkteam I'm on. Still, I was glad I went. I did feel a little out of place because there were a lot of moms there with their kids, many knew each other and/or the author, and the author writes books for middle school kids and teens.

At the end of the session, she gave us a piece of paper with some prompts. Basically it's 4 simple sentences/phrases with suggestions about how to make them better, or add pizzazz. Most wrote just a few simple additions, but I like to go all-out. I couldn't finish the first one by the time they moved on to the 2nd, so I skipped the 2nd and moved to the 3rd. We ran out of time for the 4th. Here's what I wrote for the 1st prompt: "I wake up. It looks cold outside."
I wrote: "A chill pulses through my skin, snapping my attention into reality. As much as I don't want to exit my cocoon, I notice the open window and toss back the thick blanket's heavy weight to race the frost lines on the glass. I push on the frame, hoping the ice that's formed won't prevent me from separating myself from the dense overnight snowfall."
Here's the 3rd prompt: "She runs faster and faster."
I wrote: "Her head snaps back at the sound. Fear paralyzes her feet, but her legs heed the warning. With a deep breath, muscles explode and hurl her forward. She can't listen to the screams, but she can't hear anything else. Even her thumping heartbeat can't over-power the terrible screetch. Only when she's slammed the door shut behind her does she realize her bare feet are raw and bleeding, and her lungs are gasping for air."

She had people reading aloud what they wrote so I decided to read my response to the 3rd prompt. I could tell no one was ready for it, as I heard "wow" and "oh my word" and "that's great" from a few people, including the author. Obviously there's a reason why I plan to write adult fiction! haha It came out a little dark, but the 2nd prompt was "At night, a hungry creature appears on my back deck." I know that added a little to what I wrote because others were reading their responses (including little boys with scary, magical creatures) to that while I skipped ahead. That way I got about 5 minutes to handwrite what I wrote, instead of about 3 minutes.

If only I could focus on writing for awhile instead of dealing with all this medical junk and disability red tape. Speaking of, I got another piece of paperwork from social security disability today. It isn't anything difficult. They're sending me for an evaluation of depression at the end of the month. I'm the first to admit that I have depression - considering what I'm going through if I didn't there would be something definitely wrong! So I'm not sure if they're sending me to find if I have depression causing worsening of my other conditions (or faking them?), or if they want another reason why I can't work. I didn't talk about any mental health conditions in the paperwork I did before, excluding when they asked if I had any. I've literally worked through panic attacks. One day I held one off, though I literally sweated through my underwear, bra, slacks, and shirt, until I could leave for my hour lunch. I drove home, had the panic attack while showering, put on new clothes, got back to work on time without anyone realizing I was in different clothes or what happened. I mean, who does that? I've fought through ridiculous things, but I can't do it anymore. Of course, the panic attacks stay away as long as the anti-depressants and anti-anxiety meds are kept out of me, but I still have plenty of days where I sink back into the depression to where I can barely function enough to go to the bathroom. So I don't know how I should be approaching this evaluation. I'm not going to lie, but I'm concerned about the depth of the evaluation. I have a hard time with people poking around in my head when I don't trust them, so I'm also worried that I won't feel safe enough to force myself to be graphically honest.

Tomorrow starts my first day of PT for my neck to try to combat this constant migraine. I think it's a waste of time, but it's better to prove it than to say it. I also picked up the prescription of nasal spray DHE, just to find out it has 10mg of caffeine per dose! Caffeine not only causes migraines but it also causes panic attacks, heart palipatations, and can cause bleeding because it dilates the blood vessels. Sure, that helps get the DHE in quicker, but I'm terrified of what it's going to do to my other conditions! I currently have about 10 open sores on my foot from the chilblains because the blood vessels in my foot keep bursting and leaking, causing blisters that I have to keep popping so I can walk. If this dilates my veins even more, it could mean real trouble! I'm not going to be trying it soon, but I'm not really sure when I should be trying it. The whole reason the doctor in Milwaukee wanted me on IV DHE was to break the status migranosus, or constant and continuous migraine that is affecting far more than my head. But the local neurologist is ignoring the recommendation. Whatever. Not like she sent me all the way to Milwaukee for a 2nd opinion for a reason, right? (Yes, that's major sarcasm!)

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JOYCECAIN 8/24/2012 11:21PM

    You are really good at writing. You should keep up the work, and try to get published. Love

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KIMI_SILVA 8/22/2012 11:18AM

    You are a WONDERFUL writer! You really have what it takes, and as another poster said, I too wanted to keep reading.
I know what you are going through with a stupid doctor to deal with. GAH! I have Myasthenia Gravis and in 2008 I had spent 2 months in the hospital totally paralyzed. The neurologist said it was all in my head because I take meds for depression. What a quack! She wouldn't even look at the labwork I had brought to her. Well . . . I wish you well dear. I truly hope you are able to get better and find a doctor who will treat you properly.

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DRAGONCHILDE 8/22/2012 10:39AM

    Oh man, I feel you on the disability thing. My husband is going through the process himself, we just had our hearing Monday.

Always great to meet another writer. :)

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ADAGIO_CON_BRIO 8/18/2012 12:09AM

    I loved reading your writing responses to the prompts.

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CREECE1 8/17/2012 11:42PM

    You write in a fantastic way. I could never come up with that kind of imagination. The evaluation might be lengthy but you should do fine. They are trying to see if your mental state is cause for being on disability. You will have written work as well as verbal. But nothing you can't handle.
emoticon and emoticonin your writings.

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MOM2ACAT 8/17/2012 4:07PM

    I like your writing prompts! Those are great, you truly do have a talent for writing.

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ABBYSHARPE 8/17/2012 9:56AM

    That was fabulous! I am so bad at writing prompts when there's pressure. And reading aloud in a room full of strangers - you've got a lot of chutzpah!

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PRUPLEBEAR 8/17/2012 5:56AM

    Very cool! Great job!

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JESSICAMARIE12 8/17/2012 12:42AM

    You have an amazing talent for writing!! You sucked me in with just those few lines, and I wanted to keep reading!! I'm big into thrillers, paranomal, fanatsy books right now, and I felt like I was fixing to dive head first into one!!!

As far as the SSD, they can be completely dumb sometimes with everything they make some people jump through, but for others they can just slide on through with no real disability!! My mom's cousin is one of those, and it drives me crazy!! My grandma is the former, she can't work because of her carpal tunnel, and knee replacement, but they won't approve her SSD...they won't even give her a handicap sticker for her car!!! It'll all work out in time, just be patient, and it'll happen!!!

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EVWINGS 8/17/2012 12:00AM

    Your writing is terrific! I love mysteries and thrillers and you have what some of those authors do. I'm really happy that your attitude seems to improved. Keep hope about your PT!!

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JAMER123 8/16/2012 11:30PM

    You really do well with writing!! I read a lot of fiction that is suspense mysteries and what you posted sounds like the books I read. Good job!!

I will be thinking of you when you go to your eval. I hope all turns out to be of benefit to you!.Wishing you the best!!
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Woah, randomly came across a possible diagnosis...

Wednesday, August 15, 2012

I don't want to get any hopes up, but I just came across another condition for my doctors to consider. I have such a wide range of conditions that don't seem to fit together well, though the last genetics doctor I saw believes there's some 'umbrella' condition that links most of it together. There's a possibility what I just found could be part of the answer.

I'm not going to explain how I came across it or why it seems to fit (not unless a doctor gets on board and diagnoses it) because it's complicated and not a condition most will have heard of anyways. Plus it's another one of those 'scary' conditions that are incurable (though this is often treatable) and gets worse over time. Though it does answer several of the questions that are sticking out that the doctors can't figure out.

The problem is I have NO IDEA what doctor would be involved in researching this diagnosis. It's 11 pm and I don't want to spend all morning tomorrow calling a half dozen doctors' offices to ask questions, so I just left a voicemail for my neuro's nurse (in Milwaukee) to ask her advice about where to start with this. Of course, I could be totally wrong and I'm not getting my hopes up, but it's worth a consideration!

No one get your hopes up, but I wouldn't mind some good thoughts sent my way!

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KIMI_SILVA 8/22/2012 11:47AM

    I'm sending LOTS of good thoughts your way.

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DRAGONCHILDE 8/22/2012 10:40AM

    Where's doctor house when you need him? My husband's condition is like that. SO MUCH is wrong, there's no way to know what's causing it. I suspect potentially parkinson's or MS (both run in his family) but getting doctors to research anything on state insurance is tough, and now we incomed out of the medicaid program, so we're need to get him on disability for insurance.

We hope.

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JAMER123 8/15/2012 11:10PM

    Keep us posted on what happens. Hops all is going to work out for you!!

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MOM2ACAT 8/15/2012 4:04PM

    You are an inspiration, not giving up and showing us how we can be an advocate for ourselves to get things done about health conditions.

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LIVINHEALTHY9 8/15/2012 7:10AM

    Keep us posted on what you find out.

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EVWINGS 8/15/2012 1:12AM

    If this turns out to be the correct cause of your issues, I'll be dancing the happy dance for you!


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There's been a lot going on, so here's a long update.

Tuesday, August 14, 2012

I haven't blogged in awhile, even though I've been meaning to. I end up getting so focused on one thing or another that I forget other things I want to do.

So here's what's been going on:

My last blog I was so upset because I was told it was doubtful I'd get help from the county. The next day I got notice that I was approved for food support. Honestly, are they trying to make things more difficult for me by sending my stress level sky high whenever possible? The ironic thing is I can't eat enough food to spend the money they're giving me, and since I use coupons I'll probably have some money left over every month. Since I can't use that for the (expensive) supplements my doctors want me on, I'm not sure what I'll do with it. I'm also waiting to find out if I'm approved for medical assistance. In many cases you get put on state health care, but considering I'm averaging around $10,000 in medical bills each month so far this year (yes, around $85,000 by the end of July) they'll probably want me to stay on COBRA with them covering the $462.25 it costs. It will save the state a lot of money! But it will take awhile before I get the answer. I'm also waiting to find out about energy assistance, the (small) possibility of getting help with housework), and about cash assistance.

I saw my local neurologist last week and even though my neuro doctor in Milwaukee wants me put on a high dose of DHE to break this (probably decades long continuous) migraine, she doesn't agree. She's given me several prescriptions to try: imitrex (which I took when I was a kid and it didn't work), propranolol (which I have to be very careful because it can cause a drop in blood pressure, and mine is already on the low end!), and a nasal spray with a small amount of DHE. So far I've started the propranolol (which also can be used to treat PTSD right after a bad event or to ease the symptoms later on, so I'm glad to be trying this). She also wants me to be doing PT for my neck. I'm highly doubtful that will do anything but make it worse, considering all my other medical conditions.

I'm also supposed to be doing warm water PT (for my Ehlers Danlos, fibromyalgia, and orthostatic intolerance), but considering how far away I have to go to get to any place with warm water PT AND I have to find a doctor around here who is willing to set it up, I don't think that's happening! There's no way I'm doing PT twice a week at 2 different places - I refuse to waste that much time every week waiting for disability transportation or trying to drive myself to these places. Not when I have too many other things that need to be dealt with!

I've had several horrible frustrations lately, one of which being my neighbors. I live in a 4 corner townhouse and share a wall with some guys who have antisocial personality disorder and deal drugs to child molesters. Then across the common driveway is several more people who are sociopaths - but at least they're selling their house... or trying but failing as it's been on the market for months and no one wants it. Anyways, Saturday night there was a huge deal with the next door neighbors throwing a huge party. They had at least 3 visits from the cops (in groups of 4), got 2 tickets, will get at least 1 more from the association, and yet they argued with the police and decided to stalk outside my house to threaten me! This started around 10:30 pm and went until after 2:30 am. One of the officers even asked me to call his cell phone directly (bypassing dispatch) if it continued beyond the hour he sat at the road. I appreciate his dedication to what he called his 'project for tonight', as 2 guys there were drunk and one was clearly agitated. I wish they would've tried something so they'd be arrested!

Friday night I went and visited my cousin (well, cousin's ex-husband, but it was an amicable split, so he's still like a cousin) and his girlfriend, who recently moved to the suburb next to mine. I had a great time with them, even if it wore me out really badly. We're hoping to get together again, maybe even do some karaoke. My favorite part wasn't playing rock band, it was the wonderful conversation with her about books and her ability to at least somewhat understand my medical conditions when I talk about them (most people's eyes glaze over and they can't focus long enough to listen let alone understand).

Today, after a lot of argument and attempts to stiff me, I was notified I'm getting a short term disability payment for Jan-April. Overdue, yes. Lasting, no. Helpful, yes. But it will barely cover 1 month of bills. Add to it the 401(k)s I'm pulling and I'll have enough to pay bills for maybe 3 months. Soon I'll have to decide to stop paying my mortgage and let my house fall into foreclosure. Then I'll have a place to stay rent-free for about a year before I'll have nowhere to go. My social worker is supposed to be trying to help me figure out where I can live, but she already said she'll be handing me off to someone else (for long term), so maybe they'll have ideas because she doesn't.

I still need to figure out how to appeal the long term disability denial. It won't be enough to save my house, but it will be helpful. I've also turned in the documents I've gotten (so far) from social security disability, so now I'm waiting on more requests or a determination from them. It could be months or more before I know.

On Friday I finally couldn't put off taking my car in any longer. My brakes were clearly metal on metal. I got new front brakes, had the caliper and brake assemblies on all 4 tires cleaned (this is the 5th time I've replaced the brakes in the 7 years I've owned the car - this assembly with this car is notorious for brake problems), and had the tires rotated. I wish I could count on disability transportation more (and it wasn't so difficult on me physically) so I could leave my car (which is 13 years old) alone so it'd stop breaking down so much. I also got an oil change. Together it cost almost $270.

At least my stomach is working better! I've been able to maintain my weight (and even add a few more pounds) since I was taken off the TPN a month ago. I'm trying to get back into some exercising, but it's very hard for me. Not only am I used to spending most of my days laying on the couch, but even gentle exercise exhausts me and any wrong movement is incredibly painful. Plus since I have to do everything for myself - including dealing with the doctors, insurance, transportation companies, and researching my conditions because half the doctors don't understand them - my brain power is usurped by all of this and can't be spent on what I should be doing for my health.

I've also been spending time on PCH (publishers clearing house), entering sweepstakes and trying to earn points to enter more sweepstakes. I also enter several other sweepstakes every day. If I can't make money the 'old-fashioned' way, maybe I might get lucky with a sweepstakes if I'm committed to it. (Probably not, but you can't win if you don't try, right?)

I'm also trying to do some reading and considering ideas for my own writing. Obviously I have too much going on to really focus on this. I promise I have ideas though! I just can't stand the thought of trying to put a half-effort into it. On Thursday my library system is having a speaker about writing and publishing, so I'm hoping to make it to that.

Unfortunately, I'm still not sleeping well. I still have headaches every day. I still have pain every day. There are still a LOT of questions about what's going on with my health. And I'm still not getting the help and support I need from my family. But it is what it is, so all I can do is keep trying to move forward and see where my journey takes me. I'm at the mercy of the universe for the most part, so what little I have control over I need to deal with.

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DRAGONCHILDE 8/22/2012 10:44AM

    I can second LADYDARYA's suggestion for MyPoints... I use them, and while it's not going to pay your bills, the odd $50 gift card is VERY nice. I've gotten about three since I started using them, takes a while, but I don't do the surveys or searches, so you can likely do it more often.)

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JAMER123 8/14/2012 11:51PM

    You must be feeling better. You sound like it in your blog. I know there are many hurdles to cross yet and I certainly hope they come through for you. I will keep praying for you and the resolution of your problems. Blessings! emoticon

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EVWINGS 8/14/2012 11:42PM

    This is one of the most positive blogs you've written in a while. It gives me hope that you are at least feeling better with your self esteem! I'm so proud of you i could burst!!

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LIVINHEALTHY9 8/14/2012 7:07PM

    You keep fighting the tough fight.
You are taking charge of your destiny and doing what you can to take control of your life.

Stay strong!


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LADYDARYA 8/14/2012 6:01AM

    Have you ever heard of My Points? It's a way to earn points towards gift cards by reading emails, taking surveys and on-line purchases. When I got my treadmill I got it through walmart.com and got 50.00 in gift cards - which you can use to get cards to Target or Amazon (among many). I am back up to having enough points for more gift cards and most of that is by emails and surveys.

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SHIRAROCK 8/14/2012 5:57AM

    I don't know how you stay positive with all that is going on. I am praying for you. That's all I can say. It was just wonderful to hear that the police officer showed he cared about you.

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