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Come to my Sparkpeople vitual pool party!

Tuesday, June 05, 2012

Today's my 31st birthday and I'm celebrating by throwing a SparkPeople virtual pool party! I gave myself a swimming pool goodie and I'm asking others to join in the party! To take part in the fun, give YOURSELF a goodie to celebrate what you've done better today and post on my sparkpage why you chose that goodie. I hope you'll join in and celebrate with me!

Forgive yesterday, hope for tomorrow, do better today - because every day is a chance to do a little better!
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MISSCUS 6/7/2012 3:30PM

    I'm a day late too, sorry, I gave myself balloons, so if I had one too many margaritas I could use them to float in the pool.
Hope you had a wonderful birthday, and maybe got to eat a bit of cake and ice cream.

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SHIRAROCK 6/7/2012 6:04AM

    Happy Birthday... Dang, I am late! I'm like one of those guests that show up late, sleep on the couch, and leave the next day (after getting you to make breakfast, lunch, and etc.)!


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ANDREWS_MOM 6/6/2012 11:08AM


I hope you had a wonderful day!!!

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NFSISTER 6/5/2012 8:41PM

    Happy birthday!

I gave myself some knitting supplies because I was assertive today at work and need to relax.

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LIVINHEALTHY9 6/5/2012 8:22PM

    Happy Birthday!!! Sheri!
I hope you are having a great day!

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AYLEA56 6/5/2012 8:18PM

    Hi Sheri, Happy Birthday Today! Thank you for inviting me to your virtual pool party and the lovely beach towel.

Yesterday, June 4th was my 58th birthday. So for my birthday and doing one thing better today I bought art supplies. I recently purchased a new cross-stitch kit of a pair of lions on the African Savanah, it will arrive in the mail soon. Very similar to a picture I once took while I was in Africa. Cross-stitch is my favorite way to spend my time these days. I love creating and having something to show for my time plus it is very meditative for me. Some of my pieces are given away as gifts and some are for decorating our home which the one of African Lions will be when I finish it.

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SUNRISE14 6/5/2012 5:42PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon gave myself drawing pencils because i love to draw and i started back doing my 5 min chair exercises ! emoticonHAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAR FRIEND HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU ! emoticon

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A little inspiration for my 31st birthday!

Monday, June 04, 2012

Tomorrow I turn 31. I could do a ton of reflecting on my life, think about all that's happened to me, what I've accomplished or failed at, what I want for the future or what I still want to accomplish. Instead, right now I want to post a couple songs that I've been jamming to lately, in hopes that they will inspire others: either to believe in themselves or to get up and dance!

I love the chorus of this song:

I can bless myself
There's no need for someone's help
There's no one to blame
There's no one to save you but yourself
I can justify
All the mistakes in my life
It's taught me to be
It's given to me
And I'll survive
'Cause I have blessed myself


The energy in this song and the idea of "I can be anything, anything, anything" and "I'll make you believe in me" just pumps me up and makes me want to believe in myself and know that I can accomplish my goals!


This song has such an infectious beat and makes me want to get up and dance! The moves aren't incredibly difficult, and with a few tries at least some of them can be done in a way that will help a woman feel sexy. The song is all about the power of a woman to know what she wants and to go for it! Hard to disagree with a powerful woman, right?


Honestly, if Ian Somerhalder can learn this dance, so can you!


Then I've got to add in a little inspiration for anyone who is dealing with a chronic illness but knows that there's always a chance for new, brighter days ahead.


Of course, there are tons more I could share, but those will take up enough of your time for now. Remember that it's so important to celebrate YOU and your accomplishments. Don't get hung up and held back whenever you fall on your journey - that will turn a fall into giving up. Instead, find a way to move past the error while learning from it. Even so, when things seem too difficult, focus on doing your best in one thing until you can move to something else. If you think your life is getting too hard, focus on small changes that will make things better. No one can be perfect, but we can all try to do better.

Forgive yesterday, hope for tomorrow, do better today - because every day is a chance to do a little better!

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JOYCECAIN 6/5/2012 7:18AM

    I liked the blog. I was checking in to huddle, and caught this. emoticon

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MISSCUS 6/4/2012 11:30PM

    What a great blog and collection of birthday thoughts and reflections that are so positive. You inspire me. AND, I think Ian S. can do anything he wants to do and do it well. He is so fine. LOLOL.
I still have to get back to you on a couple other emails, blogs. This week!
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ANHELIC 6/4/2012 11:25PM

    Happy Birthday and you have a Blessed Day with family and friends. I wish I could go back to 31, no go, next year is 70. I'm still counting my blessings and I have a lot to be grateful for even though I have a few medical problems.
Just remember, Count you blessings, count them one by one.
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Going out tomorrow for my birthday!

Friday, June 01, 2012

My birthday is coming up next week. On Tuesday I'm turning 31! I'm excited to be doing something on Saturday with a friend and her kids to celebrate. I'll let Chris Shaffer from WCCO weather tell you about it!


Yep! We're going on a Mississippi riverboat cruise! It's a huge riverboat, so I'm hoping it won't cause any problems with my dysautonomia (just-in-case I'll take some anti-nausea meds) and I shouldn't have to worry about any spray from the water getting my dressing wet because the boat is slow-moving. I'm sure being in the fresh air and sitting up for the 90 minute trip, plus the drive there and back will exhaust me, but I'm looking forward to it. Afterwards, we're going to Coldstone Creamery because I have coupons. If I pick non-fat ice cream or frozen yogurt and have low fat mix-ins then split it into 2-3 servings I can savor some. I'll bring along tupperwear containers to put it in then split it up into several containers at home so I don't overdo it. Though with 2 kids there they might help me eat it up. hehe

Then on my birthday, this will be the 3rd year that I'll go to Denny's for a free breakfast. I'll plan what I'm having ahead of time to have as minimal amount of fat and fiber as possible, but I'll get to enjoy something I rarely get (even if it means taking a nap at home afterwards to be able to digest it)! I might head to the movie theater in the afternoon for a matinee using a gift card I have, but I'll probably stay home and watch a movie rented for free from the library (something I've been doing a lot lately). I might also head to DSW (I have a gift card for there also) to see if I can find a new pair of shoes that will be comfortable this summer, since I keep having the chilblains and sores on my left foot making walking painful. Of course, if it's a nice day and not too hot I'm hoping to spend some time sitting on my deck reading a book. The highs in the mid 60's we've had the past few days has been a little chilly to do so. Just because I have no money doesn't mean I can't celebrate myself in a nice way.

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ANDREWS_MOM 6/6/2012 11:09AM

    Hope you had an awesome time!! Sounds like a alot of fun!!!

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EVWINGS 6/2/2012 5:16PM

    Sounds like you are going to have a wonderful celebration. I'm fond of saying about my hubby and me, "We may not have a lot of money, and we may not have a lot of material things, but we have our faith and our love!"

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MOM2ACAT 6/2/2012 3:57PM

    That sounds awesome!

I am prone to car sickness, but I have never gotten sick on a boat, I wonder if it's because I am sitting in fresh air? Hoping the fresh air will keep you from feeling sick and will energize you instead of making you feel tired. It sounds like you are well prepared for your day.

Enjoy your birthday!

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SUNRISE14 6/2/2012 9:21AM

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MISSCUS 6/2/2012 1:42AM

    Sometimes money cannot make you happy. As they say, the best things in life are free. Being on a limited income I share with you some of the same ways of entertainment, cost nothing but I get a lot of enjoyment from.
I feel happy for you that you have great ideas of how to celebrate your birthday. Kudos for your creativity for your birthday pleasures
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    Happy birthday! Have a great time on the river.... and at Coldstone...lucky!! emoticon

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600 days - never missed tracking a meal!

Thursday, May 31, 2012

I've been on SP for 600 days (since Oct 9th, 2010) and I've never missed tracking a single meal. Sure, there were days that it seemed too annoying to get on and do it, but because I have a partially paralyzed digestive system it has become very important to know exactly what I'm eating every day. I need to know the information to share with my doctors, but also I can track my symptoms and then I know what foods my body will digest and what it won't. Without having tracked EVERYTHING for these past 600 days I wouldn't be where I'm at with treating my medical conditions and trying to get healthier. I'm not on SP because I'm trying to lose weight - I'm fighting to gain weight because the inability for my body to accept adequate nutrition has caused dangerous weight loss that has actually risked my life and caused me to be underweight for most of the past 6 months. Now that I'm on alternate nutrition (TPN - IV nutrition) and getting a large portion of my daily calories from that (up to 1600 each day) I'm finally nearly at my goal as set by my GI doctor - which is a BMI of 20. This is wonderful! I have some energy for the first time in nearly 2 years! I spend most of my days laying on the couch, exhausted just from being awake. I've fought a tough fight for a long time, including through the prejudice of people looking at my thin body and thinking there's no way I'm not on a strict diet and exercising constantly.

I'd like to put a challenge out there to anyone who's interested: track your food HONESTLY. Either take a few minutes after every meal to enter it in, or write it down and enter it at the end of the day. You might think you'll never hit 100 days or get anywhere near 600, but with a little effort, those days add up quickly! I've tracked during hospital stays and days where I was so weak I couldn't sit up without passing out. I made it a priority to log on and do it, and that's what it takes to get it done!

My journey is different than most people here on SP, but tracking nutrition is a large portion of learning about what food is for - to fuel our bodies! It is something that everyone can do!

Share with me how many days in a row you've tracked your food and what you've learned from it!

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AYLEA56 6/1/2012 7:35PM

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I almost always login all the foods I eat too because of my Gastroparesis. Though there have been some days on occasion I miss. So I don't know how many days in a row without going back through. I have only been on SP since April ? 2011.

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MISSCUS 5/31/2012 11:43PM

    The longest I tracked food faithfully was for 11 months. It was hard but I lost 30 lbs doing it.
I am so happy you seem to be doing better. I think of you nearly every time I go online. I pray you keep getting better.
Yeah, I found out the foods I can't eat either, one real troublemaker is StoveTop Stuffing, sits in my stomach for hours on end. Like 5 hours. I just don't eat it anymore, I used to really like it, it was easy to fix as side dish. Most foods that are processed I find I can't tolerate. Bet you found the same problem.
What foods are you able to tolerate the most and least, not all of them, just the common ones.
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Allergic reaction easing

Wednesday, May 30, 2012

Good news: the allergic reaction around my PICC line seems to finally have abated! My whole arm is still itchy, but it seems to be more because the skin is dry and peeling as it's trying to heal (my skin is normally incredibly soft and smooth because of my Ehlers Danlos). Hopefully in another week or so it will be back to normal.

Yesterday I did some errands. It totally wore me out (even with the TPN I still wear down quickly), but I got some awesome deals! I saved a ton of money by hitting sales and using coupons for things I needed. Today I got a few more things done, mostly a ton of phone calls. There's more I should've gotten done, but I wore down quickly after a trip to the library. I had chest pain and was lightheaded, so the trip was cut short.

There's something I'd like to share with all of you. Most of my life I've wanted to be known as a positive influence and hopefully inspire others to do better in their lives. Unfortunately, because I allowed others to influence me in a negative way and tie me down in depression and pain, I was always considered negative, bad, and not worthwhile as a friend. Since I started making better choices, including choosing to be more positive and believing that I can do good in the world even. I have several awful and incurable conditions, but I don't want to be defined by what I can't do or by something I have no control over. Instead, I want to focus on the better choices I am making.

That being said, I realized something even more important - nothing I can do will make negative people be positive and nothing I say can influence or inspire people who don't want to be influenced or inspired. There is no point in beating myself up if I can't get others to be positive. I can't expect it, I can't hope for it, and I can't focus on it. I need to be true to who I choose to be and as I come across people who I can help be more positive, then I feel privileged to do so.

Edit: www.sparkpeople.com/resource/health_
SP posted this health story. Seems like I'm a good path!

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MOM2ACAT 5/30/2012 3:21PM

    I know what you mean about being influenced about other's negativity; I ended a toxic friendship almost a year ago, and I did not realize how negative and depressed she was making me feel, and how bad a person she made me feel I was, until I was a few weeks out of the friendship.

I've had some bad times with health issues and of course losing my dad in August was very hard, but it was such a relief not to have deal with HER on top of that! I'm a much better person when I am surrounded by positive people.

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MISSCUS 5/30/2012 3:35AM

    To learn to be positive is a right and must be earned through trials and troubles. There is nothing you can do to 'make' others be positive, as they are on their own path in life and learning and it depends on how well they critique their self and try to learn from it and turn it around to positivity. Not all people end up doing this. This is not to say that you shouldn't try to give a positive lift to their day, it is now in your nature to do so. For your circle of friends and family I am sure you already know who is receptive and who isn't. Then it's how you deal with it, using compassion and kindness from your heart, this is your privilege. Continue to stand up for yourself even if you only have the strength to whisper what you need to say.

I feel good for you that you aren't letting your medical issues keep you from making good choices. That's being really positive.

My one question is about the chest pain, is this normal for you? Have you discussed this with your primary MD? SO HAPPY to hear that the PICC site is calming down, the nurses must have found the right combination of site care products. Hope it stays that way. I felt a bit worried for you a couple days ago when I read your last blog.

I can relate to the being worn down and just can't do anymore til you have rest. I am so deconditioned from being disabled, retired and sedentary that I get the same way after a shopping trip or going for groceries. Some day soon I am hoping to start going to the gym and play with the machines and try to do a little bit more each visit. That's my hope anyway. Heck just getting dressed and driving to the gym and I am tired out and sore all over especially in our horrible hot climate in summer which makes my heart pound and I get dizzy. Really. But no one seems to understand this. Grrrrr.

Tonight I am up with stomach pain, my stomach takes hours to empty sometimes and it hurts and cramps. So I got up out of bed to sit up and walk around some. Takes time but seems to help some. I think I told you already that I have mild GP and a few other problems as well with the GI tract.

Keep on being your positive self, keep me posted my sweet spark friend
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