Saturday, June 09, 2012
I want to thank everyone who participated in my vitural pool party! There's no such thing as late to this party - that's the beauty of it being virtual! You get to participate whenever it works for you! I hope each of you took to heart the need to celebrate your accomplishments and be PROUD of all you've done! Learn from mistakes and celebrate successes and you'll go far.
Now that I'm nearly at goal weight I'm trying to add just a little exercise. This way, if I start dropping weight again I'll have a little muscle again to hopefully slow the process. Last night I pulled out my pilates mat, wiped it down good, and did 2 sets of 5 modified pushups, 10 crunches, and 5 (each side) bicep curls with 2 lbs weights. The pushups are hard for me, the crunches were pretty easy (that's why I did 10 instead of 5 per set), and the bicep curls weren't hard but I think I didn't focus on isolating the muscles as much as I should. I'm hoping to do these every couple of days and see if I can keep it up. Of course sticking to it completely depends on my health. When I was done I took a painkiller (new prescrip, to help me sleep when the pain is bad enough to keep me awake) because I was just feeling achy even before these exercises, and once I was asleep I was out cold for awhile. I barely had the energy to wake up a few hours later for a bathroom run (because of the TPN). It's still dragging me down 24 hours after I took it (one of the reasons I hate painkillers!) to the point I ended up taking a nap this afternoon because my brain just shut down. Though because of the heat (high 80s in MN - prolly low 70s in my living room) I started getting nauseous and had to fight blacking out when I walked into the kitchen to get some ice to curl up with. Yeah, dysautonomia sucks!! I'm still woosy even now, so I'll probably not do any exercise tonight, but hopefully I'll be able to fall asleep right after I change my TPN bag around midnight. I need to get some paperwork done tomorrow for my next appointment in Milwaukee on Tuesday.
Monday, June 04, 2012
Tomorrow I turn 31. I could do a ton of reflecting on my life, think about all that's happened to me, what I've accomplished or failed at, what I want for the future or what I still want to accomplish. Instead, right now I want to post a couple songs that I've been jamming to lately, in hopes that they will inspire others: either to believe in themselves or to get up and dance!
I love the chorus of this song:
I can bless myself
There's no need for someone's help
There's no one to blame
There's no one to save you but yourself
I can justify
All the mistakes in my life
It's taught me to be
It's given to me
And I'll survive
'Cause I have blessed myself
The energy in this song and the idea of "I can be anything, anything, anything" and "I'll make you believe in me" just pumps me up and makes me want to believe in myself and know that I can accomplish my goals!
This song has such an infectious beat and makes me want to get up and dance! The moves aren't incredibly difficult, and with a few tries at least some of them can be done in a way that will help a woman feel sexy. The song is all about the power of a woman to know what she wants and to go for it! Hard to disagree with a powerful woman, right?
Honestly, if Ian Somerhalder can learn this dance, so can you!
Then I've got to add in a little inspiration for anyone who is dealing with a chronic illness but knows that there's always a chance for new, brighter days ahead.
Of course, there are tons more I could share, but those will take up enough of your time for now. Remember that it's so important to celebrate YOU and your accomplishments. Don't get hung up and held back whenever you fall on your journey - that will turn a fall into giving up. Instead, find a way to move past the error while learning from it. Even so, when things seem too difficult, focus on doing your best in one thing until you can move to something else. If you think your life is getting too hard, focus on small changes that will make things better. No one can be perfect, but we can all try to do better.
Forgive yesterday, hope for tomorrow, do better today - because every day is a chance to do a little better!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!
Friday, June 01, 2012
My birthday is coming up next week. On Tuesday I'm turning 31! I'm excited to be doing something on Saturday with a friend and her kids to celebrate. I'll let Chris Shaffer from WCCO weather tell you about it!
Yep! We're going on a Mississippi riverboat cruise! It's a huge riverboat, so I'm hoping it won't cause any problems with my dysautonomia (just-in-case I'll take some anti-nausea meds) and I shouldn't have to worry about any spray from the water getting my dressing wet because the boat is slow-moving. I'm sure being in the fresh air and sitting up for the 90 minute trip, plus the drive there and back will exhaust me, but I'm looking forward to it. Afterwards, we're going to Coldstone Creamery because I have coupons. If I pick non-fat ice cream or frozen yogurt and have low fat mix-ins then split it into 2-3 servings I can savor some. I'll bring along tupperwear containers to put it in then split it up into several containers at home so I don't overdo it. Though with 2 kids there they might help me eat it up. hehe
Then on my birthday, this will be the 3rd year that I'll go to Denny's for a free breakfast. I'll plan what I'm having ahead of time to have as minimal amount of fat and fiber as possible, but I'll get to enjoy something I rarely get (even if it means taking a nap at home afterwards to be able to digest it)! I might head to the movie theater in the afternoon for a matinee using a gift card I have, but I'll probably stay home and watch a movie rented for free from the library (something I've been doing a lot lately). I might also head to DSW (I have a gift card for there also) to see if I can find a new pair of shoes that will be comfortable this summer, since I keep having the chilblains and sores on my left foot making walking painful. Of course, if it's a nice day and not too hot I'm hoping to spend some time sitting on my deck reading a book. The highs in the mid 60's we've had the past few days has been a little chilly to do so. Just because I have no money doesn't mean I can't celebrate myself in a nice way.
Thursday, May 31, 2012
I've been on SP for 600 days (since Oct 9th, 2010) and I've never missed tracking a single meal. Sure, there were days that it seemed too annoying to get on and do it, but because I have a partially paralyzed digestive system it has become very important to know exactly what I'm eating every day. I need to know the information to share with my doctors, but also I can track my symptoms and then I know what foods my body will digest and what it won't. Without having tracked EVERYTHING for these past 600 days I wouldn't be where I'm at with treating my medical conditions and trying to get healthier. I'm not on SP because I'm trying to lose weight - I'm fighting to gain weight because the inability for my body to accept adequate nutrition has caused dangerous weight loss that has actually risked my life and caused me to be underweight for most of the past 6 months. Now that I'm on alternate nutrition (TPN - IV nutrition) and getting a large portion of my daily calories from that (up to 1600 each day) I'm finally nearly at my goal as set by my GI doctor - which is a BMI of 20. This is wonderful! I have some energy for the first time in nearly 2 years! I spend most of my days laying on the couch, exhausted just from being awake. I've fought a tough fight for a long time, including through the prejudice of people looking at my thin body and thinking there's no way I'm not on a strict diet and exercising constantly.
I'd like to put a challenge out there to anyone who's interested: track your food HONESTLY. Either take a few minutes after every meal to enter it in, or write it down and enter it at the end of the day. You might think you'll never hit 100 days or get anywhere near 600, but with a little effort, those days add up quickly! I've tracked during hospital stays and days where I was so weak I couldn't sit up without passing out. I made it a priority to log on and do it, and that's what it takes to get it done!
My journey is different than most people here on SP, but tracking nutrition is a large portion of learning about what food is for - to fuel our bodies! It is something that everyone can do!
Share with me how many days in a row you've tracked your food and what you've learned from it!
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