Monday, June 04, 2012
Tomorrow I turn 31. I could do a ton of reflecting on my life, think about all that's happened to me, what I've accomplished or failed at, what I want for the future or what I still want to accomplish. Instead, right now I want to post a couple songs that I've been jamming to lately, in hopes that they will inspire others: either to believe in themselves or to get up and dance!
I love the chorus of this song:
I can bless myself
There's no need for someone's help
There's no one to blame
There's no one to save you but yourself
I can justify
All the mistakes in my life
It's taught me to be
It's given to me
And I'll survive
'Cause I have blessed myself
The energy in this song and the idea of "I can be anything, anything, anything" and "I'll make you believe in me" just pumps me up and makes me want to believe in myself and know that I can accomplish my goals!
This song has such an infectious beat and makes me want to get up and dance! The moves aren't incredibly difficult, and with a few tries at least some of them can be done in a way that will help a woman feel sexy. The song is all about the power of a woman to know what she wants and to go for it! Hard to disagree with a powerful woman, right?
Honestly, if Ian Somerhalder can learn this dance, so can you!
Then I've got to add in a little inspiration for anyone who is dealing with a chronic illness but knows that there's always a chance for new, brighter days ahead.
Of course, there are tons more I could share, but those will take up enough of your time for now. Remember that it's so important to celebrate YOU and your accomplishments. Don't get hung up and held back whenever you fall on your journey - that will turn a fall into giving up. Instead, find a way to move past the error while learning from it. Even so, when things seem too difficult, focus on doing your best in one thing until you can move to something else. If you think your life is getting too hard, focus on small changes that will make things better. No one can be perfect, but we can all try to do better.
Forgive yesterday, hope for tomorrow, do better today - because every day is a chance to do a little better!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!
Friday, June 01, 2012
My birthday is coming up next week. On Tuesday I'm turning 31! I'm excited to be doing something on Saturday with a friend and her kids to celebrate. I'll let Chris Shaffer from WCCO weather tell you about it!
Yep! We're going on a Mississippi riverboat cruise! It's a huge riverboat, so I'm hoping it won't cause any problems with my dysautonomia (just-in-case I'll take some anti-nausea meds) and I shouldn't have to worry about any spray from the water getting my dressing wet because the boat is slow-moving. I'm sure being in the fresh air and sitting up for the 90 minute trip, plus the drive there and back will exhaust me, but I'm looking forward to it. Afterwards, we're going to Coldstone Creamery because I have coupons. If I pick non-fat ice cream or frozen yogurt and have low fat mix-ins then split it into 2-3 servings I can savor some. I'll bring along tupperwear containers to put it in then split it up into several containers at home so I don't overdo it. Though with 2 kids there they might help me eat it up. hehe
Then on my birthday, this will be the 3rd year that I'll go to Denny's for a free breakfast. I'll plan what I'm having ahead of time to have as minimal amount of fat and fiber as possible, but I'll get to enjoy something I rarely get (even if it means taking a nap at home afterwards to be able to digest it)! I might head to the movie theater in the afternoon for a matinee using a gift card I have, but I'll probably stay home and watch a movie rented for free from the library (something I've been doing a lot lately). I might also head to DSW (I have a gift card for there also) to see if I can find a new pair of shoes that will be comfortable this summer, since I keep having the chilblains and sores on my left foot making walking painful. Of course, if it's a nice day and not too hot I'm hoping to spend some time sitting on my deck reading a book. The highs in the mid 60's we've had the past few days has been a little chilly to do so. Just because I have no money doesn't mean I can't celebrate myself in a nice way.
Thursday, May 31, 2012
I've been on SP for 600 days (since Oct 9th, 2010) and I've never missed tracking a single meal. Sure, there were days that it seemed too annoying to get on and do it, but because I have a partially paralyzed digestive system it has become very important to know exactly what I'm eating every day. I need to know the information to share with my doctors, but also I can track my symptoms and then I know what foods my body will digest and what it won't. Without having tracked EVERYTHING for these past 600 days I wouldn't be where I'm at with treating my medical conditions and trying to get healthier. I'm not on SP because I'm trying to lose weight - I'm fighting to gain weight because the inability for my body to accept adequate nutrition has caused dangerous weight loss that has actually risked my life and caused me to be underweight for most of the past 6 months. Now that I'm on alternate nutrition (TPN - IV nutrition) and getting a large portion of my daily calories from that (up to 1600 each day) I'm finally nearly at my goal as set by my GI doctor - which is a BMI of 20. This is wonderful! I have some energy for the first time in nearly 2 years! I spend most of my days laying on the couch, exhausted just from being awake. I've fought a tough fight for a long time, including through the prejudice of people looking at my thin body and thinking there's no way I'm not on a strict diet and exercising constantly.
I'd like to put a challenge out there to anyone who's interested: track your food HONESTLY. Either take a few minutes after every meal to enter it in, or write it down and enter it at the end of the day. You might think you'll never hit 100 days or get anywhere near 600, but with a little effort, those days add up quickly! I've tracked during hospital stays and days where I was so weak I couldn't sit up without passing out. I made it a priority to log on and do it, and that's what it takes to get it done!
My journey is different than most people here on SP, but tracking nutrition is a large portion of learning about what food is for - to fuel our bodies! It is something that everyone can do!
Share with me how many days in a row you've tracked your food and what you've learned from it!
Wednesday, May 30, 2012
Good news: the allergic reaction around my PICC line seems to finally have abated! My whole arm is still itchy, but it seems to be more because the skin is dry and peeling as it's trying to heal (my skin is normally incredibly soft and smooth because of my Ehlers Danlos). Hopefully in another week or so it will be back to normal.
Yesterday I did some errands. It totally wore me out (even with the TPN I still wear down quickly), but I got some awesome deals! I saved a ton of money by hitting sales and using coupons for things I needed. Today I got a few more things done, mostly a ton of phone calls. There's more I should've gotten done, but I wore down quickly after a trip to the library. I had chest pain and was lightheaded, so the trip was cut short.
There's something I'd like to share with all of you. Most of my life I've wanted to be known as a positive influence and hopefully inspire others to do better in their lives. Unfortunately, because I allowed others to influence me in a negative way and tie me down in depression and pain, I was always considered negative, bad, and not worthwhile as a friend. Since I started making better choices, including choosing to be more positive and believing that I can do good in the world even. I have several awful and incurable conditions, but I don't want to be defined by what I can't do or by something I have no control over. Instead, I want to focus on the better choices I am making.
That being said, I realized something even more important - nothing I can do will make negative people be positive and nothing I say can influence or inspire people who don't want to be influenced or inspired. There is no point in beating myself up if I can't get others to be positive. I can't expect it, I can't hope for it, and I can't focus on it. I need to be true to who I choose to be and as I come across people who I can help be more positive, then I feel privileged to do so.
news_detail.asp?health_day=665169 SP posted this health story. Seems like I'm a good path!
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