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Stress at work and Coldstone moderation

Saturday, June 11, 2011

I got a bit of a shock today at work. The day was going okay, though very busy. Then the boss's boss comes over and tells us that a certain person, that some of us got along pretty well with and some of us actually shared work with, no longer works there and if she tries to get back into the building, we're not to let her in. W.O.W. My jaw dropped. I didn't understand it. I didn't think there was a problem. I started getting a little worried - just because of the uncertainty of it. But then quietly a few people started talking. I found out she had received several warnings, was working a TON of overtime and handing off some of her work (like to me) and still couldn't get it done, and apparently 'gossips' a LOT. So I had no idea. I was also told that she had an inkling it was coming and that once the decision was made, her desk was cleaned out of personal things immediately by someone else then her paperwork was gone within about 2 hours. Well, they don't have time to waste I guess, but wow.

At the same time we got notified she's no longer there, 2 girls in the office had left for the day and everyone else made an obvious note of their discontent that at least one of them (if they're also upset about the other, they can't complain about her, because she's the boss's boss's niece) always tends to come in extra early every day so that she can leave early on Fridays. I know it drives the boss crazy. Well, everyone else made it know they don't think it's right and either it should be we work our scheduled hours or we work overtime (within reason of course - making up for an occasional doctor appointment is one thing, I think). I didn't say anything - I don't think it is really my business. My work is done and I often have to put in overtime, plus I'll make up for leaving because of a doctor appointment, but I don't put in extra time just so I can leave early on Friday. It sorta worries me that some people are ruining the relaxed rules for the rest of us who won't abuse it.

My birthday was this past weekend (30). Last year I signed up for some freebies from restaurants and such, so this year I got them again. Coldstone Creamery (ice cream store) gave me a BOGO free, and since it expires on Sunday, after work today I went and picked up some ice cream. Well, not ice cream. Due to my health problems I have to be careful with what I eat, so I had printed out nutritional information and had to see what flavors that had available and figure out what I could get. After about a half hour, I chose a large watermelon sorbet with white chocolate chips and a small fat free sweet cream ice cream with brownie pieces and black cherry pieces. No, I didn't eat it all at once. I took containers to put the ice cream in (they only put it in a paper cup, which is hard to not spill in your car - they liked my idea!), brought it home, had dinner, then split up the watermelon into 4 servings and the sweet cream into 3 servings. Yes, I had one serving of each tonight (not only did I not get a cake on my birthday, but I didn't get a party and barely even got 'happy birthday' messages - I want to enjoy something). The rest I'll have over the next several days. It's all about better choices and moderation, right?
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MOM2ACAT 6/11/2011 7:06PM

    emoticon Wishing you a belated Happy Birthday!

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ANDREWS_MOM 6/11/2011 8:40AM

    Hope things calm down at work for you! Stress isn't good for your condition.
Hope the weekend brings you some peace & happiness :)

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SUNNYBUNNY112 6/11/2011 1:34AM

    Happy Belated birthday :) I miss Stone Cold's birthday cream...with sprinkles...and yes, moderation! a lil lick at a time...

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HANNAH_CALM 6/11/2011 12:46AM

    Wow, it sounds like your work's a little too exciting right now. I hope it calms down soon. Good for you on splitting up your birthday treat into several portions!!! That really helps. Happy Belated Birthday!!!

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Something to think about

Wednesday, June 08, 2011

When you look at someone and judge them, your prejudices are showing. Also, what you choose to judge in others tends to fall in line with how you judge yourself. So when you make a judgement about someone with a comment, a joke, or even a thought, stop and consider what you are saying about yourself.

If you say 'look at that fatty', are you afraid of gaining weight and want relief from worrying about it because someone else is where you might end up? If you say 'she must be anorexic - go eat a cheeseburger!', are you covering up your insecurities by convincing yourself that thin means sick and since you're not thin you can't be sick? If you say 'what a moron' or 'how stupid can you be', are you concerned about your mental capabilities and how smart you are so if you can attempt to show you're smarter than someone else then there's no reason to worry? If you say 'God must hate them', are you actually being weighed down by your imperfections and need to believe that if you're not as bad as someone else then you'll be okay?

We know that bullies tend to use their insecurities against others to make themselves feel better, but do they consider themselves a bully? Prejudice is bullying - making a judgement without knowing someone is bullying even if it doesn't directly affect the person you are commenting about. "Let he who is without sin cast the first stone" and "people in glass houses shouldn't throw stones" are statements that remind us we shouldn't be judgemental, even though it is SO EASY to do.

I am not without prejudice, though I challenge it in myself because I've been judged by so many people in so many ways for so long. I know what it is to be called so many horrible things. The last thing I want is someone else to feel like I have. So if I say it about someone else, I had better be willing to turn the comment on myself as well!

The next time a not-so-nice comment goes though your head about someone, stop and replay it, asking yourself what makes you so perfect that you can make that judgement about someone else. Or turn the comment on yourself and it might be that you've had it said to/about you by yourself or someone else. You might be surprised what you find out about yourself when you challenge a snap judgement. Someone who is truly secure in him/herself will tend to not judge others, because they have no need to measure up to someone else.

  
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MOM2ACAT 6/8/2011 6:00PM

    I agree! It would be a better world if everyone if would stop and think before passing judgement on others.

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MICHAELA531 6/8/2011 12:16AM

  I completely agree and love this post! I've said the same thing for years. What a positive philosophy to live by!

As a teacher, its easy to be frustrated and annoyed with students for a variety of reasons. I am constantly reminding myself that before I even allow myself to think 1 negative thing about a student, I have to think of 5 positive things about that student. Often times I find that I can only, then, see the positive and it completely changes my mindset. A good trick when we feel like we are just filled with negative energy some days!

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Heat wave in Minnesota

Tuesday, June 07, 2011

Today we hit 97* in the Twin Cities (MN), a new record. My car was HORRIBLY hot so I just wanted to race home, get out of my work clothes, and into a tank top and shorts. I got home, said "wonderful air conditioning!", went downstairs, and before I could even get my clothes off the power completely went out. It was out for a half hour and my upstairs gets hot very quickly, so I just laid on my bed reading for over a half hour until it came back. Then my air ran for a few hours trying to cool the place down again. Figures, huh? Of course, now it has not only cooled down, but gotten pretty cold. Grr

  
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MOM2ACAT 6/7/2011 7:16PM

    We are supposed to be hitting 97F tomorrow.

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I will never enjoy my birthday.

Monday, June 06, 2011

I do not like my birthday. I never have. I doubt I ever will. But I'll share how my day was today.

I slept in late, skipping breakfast. Then I went to Denny's for a free grand slam for lunch. Next came laundry (which lasted all evening) and 15 mins laying out in the sun. I pulled out an old bikini I hadn't put on in probably 8 years and it didn't fit perfectly, but well enough to wear on the deck where I'm mostly hidden. (I need the vitamin D and to dry out my skin) I watched tv and movies while playing some games online. The day finished off with my mother calling - a very not good thing. She wants to 'fix' our relationship... I had to tell her that until she gets help for her drinking and other issues, we won't have a relationship.

No big 30th birthday blowout party. No one wanting to join me for lunch. I spent the day continuously reminded that I am alone... and 'I don't care'. 30 wasn't different from 29, 21, 12, or 2... every birthday sucks. It's no longer that 'I'm hoping this year will be different', but instead I just wanna make it through the day without sobbing or hating, well, everything.

Of course, everything was made worse because my weekend started off on Friday evening with me going to a bbq. Yeah, I never should've gone. I talk too much. So I pretty much ruined the bbq. I need to learn that silence is a virtue and if what I have to say could be considered less than positive by anyone I might as well tape my mouth shut. Basically I shouldn't talk around anyone who doesn't know me or they're either going to be pissed off or annoyed.

  


I need to put it on the line for a look-alike.

Friday, June 03, 2011

If you don't know who Drew Seeley is, go search him. He is really talented and quite good looking. His girlfriend Amy Paffrath is one of my favorite people.

I turn 30 on Sunday. I haven't had a boyfriend in 11 years (since July 00) and haven't had anything slightly resembling a date in 6 years (since Sept 05). It sucks. I go through spurts of wanting to date but not being able to figure out how to find someone (I do not want to pay for an online service) and wanting to stay totally single.

Today I took my car in for an oil change to a new garage that was recommended to me. Total shocker was that it is in the same building as a small warehouse for my company - I had no idea where it was! So after I got my oil changed I was going to leave, but decided to stop in the warehouse and check it out. I've been with my company since Dec, but I don't get out of the corporate office - we have 91 warehouse locations and I was curious. I went inside and talked to the guys for a little while. I didn't want to leave though because I didn't want to take my eyes off one of the guys. He looks strikingly like Drew Seeley and I was fighting to keep my chin off the floor. haha He is also pretty nice and was kinda funny (for the 15 or so minutes I talked to him). I walked out to my car, turned up the radio, and said "wow is he good looking!" Yes, I giggled a bit too.

I got home and realized I should have had a little backbone and asked if he was single. I have never been able to step up and ask a guy out. I'm just a fraid-y cat. Now I've been thinking that if I'm ever going to have a chance to go on a real date, I'm going to have to suck it up and ask someone. Yeah, someone who intimidates many other people without having any idea that she's doing it needs to step up and put it on the line. (Knowing my luck, not only will he be taken but somehow I will look a complete fool!)

Guess I'm going to have to come up with a reason to stop back in there at some point to see if I can do it! Wonder if I can come up with some cheap part I can replace on my car... haha

  


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