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Train of thought from an ice cream truck...

Thursday, May 26, 2011

I've lived in my house for a year and a half (since Sep 09) and I just had a first...

An ice cream van (not truck, VAN) just went by outside, with it's little happy jingle playing. I had the door to my deck (which faces the street) open for some fresh air and I heard the music.

So here are my thoughts when I got up and looked at what it was, in order:

1) Ice cream truck? It's like 64*.
2) (Saw the van.) Van not a truck - that's kinda creepy.
3) Who drives an ice cream VAN? There aren't a lot of kids in my tiny out-of-the-way neighborhood, but there are a few - who are mostly of a susceptible age.
4) I wonder if that is even a legit vendor... MAJOR CREEPY!
5) Wait, did I want ice cream? I've never gotten ice cream from a moving vehicle before, well, except Schwann's.
6) Neighbor (who is most likely a drug dealer) is outside with his crew - not worth dealing with them to get ice cream.
7) I didn't need ice cream anyways.
8) I hope the freak who was wrongly touching a teenage boy outside my neighbor's house last summer didn't come up with a new plan.
9) I wonder if I should call the cops? But by now, it is long gone. Of course, the cops wouldn't think anything of it - they think it is a safe neighborhood.
10) Forget it - I'm going to watch tv.


I don't like being sick - my temperature drops

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

I feel horribly sick, and it sucks. But this is what's weird about me getting sick: I don't get fevers anymore. When I feel sick, my temperature drops into the low 96* range. During high school my temperature was pretty steady at 96.8* (not a typo), then when I put on a couple lbs (I've never been overweight) I was closer to 98.6*. After I lost some weight due to my gastroparesis, I'm now around the low 97* range. I had a massive infection in my face and another in my intestines about a year ago and my temperature never went up. It doesn't make sense unless my immune system isn't working - a fever is your immune system trying to kill off infections and viruses.

Heading to bed early and hoping I can make it through an entire day of work tomorrow.

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MOM2ACAT 5/26/2011 4:54PM

    emoticon I hope you feel better tomorrow!
My temperature usually runs low too. I rarely get fevers; I never thought about it being related to my GP before.

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Prejudice makes me so angry!

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

I just need to make this point:

it is really sad when people say (paraphrasing) 'Im a minority - I was bullied once many years ago - making a (hurtful) 'joke' about someone isnt prejudice - youre just too sensitive'. really? stepping up and pointing out prejudice is being sensitive? how bout you get stabbed and I tell you that you only feel the pain because youre too sensitive. except physical wounds can actually heal.

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HANKENSTEIN 5/24/2011 11:52PM

    Me too. It's the root of so much evil in this world.

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I'm doing a bit of ranting here.

Monday, May 23, 2011

Obviously, the world didn't end. Of course, the guy actually predicted that the devout (estimated at about 200 million people) would rise, followed by a massive earthquake. The rest of the population would then have until Oct 21st to repent and be taken up before the final destruction. So by his prediction, there still could be something... but probably not. Especially since there wasn't any news about churches being completely empty today.

MN had some terrible storms going through this afternoon, and a few neighborhoods around Minneapolis were badly damaged from tornados. I'm in the southeast metro and I've had on and off downpours all day, but nothing severe. Yet, this is just the beginning of storm season, and last year MN had the most tornados of all states, including breaking a long-standing record of the number of tornados in a single day. So during spring, summer, and fall you can never let down your guard for bad weather.

I was watching Sister Wives tonight. I like this show. There is too stinking much hate in the country and in the world, and if society just took some time to understand each other, I think there could be such a chance for peace. Whether you believe in a faith, lifestyle, etc or not there is no reason to destroy others' lives because you disagree with their choices. It is one thing to physically hurt and/or kill others, to emotionally destroy someone by abusing them and constantly telling them they are less than human, and to force someone to live in a way you choose for them. It is another thing when someone is just trying to live as best they can, in their own choices, without hurting anyone else around them. Watching this show gave me a chance to see that while I don't think I could handle that lifestyle, they are not all that different from anyone else.

This goes along with what is happening in MN right now - republicans are attempting to make discrimination of the GLBT community a constitutional law. It reminds me of the severe discrimination of blacks and women in years past. Why does our society make hate so central to our lives? If we accept our differences, instead of wanting stepford families, then we can learn and grow together. I've been treated like I'm less than human by more people than I could ever count through all of my life. I've had a half dozen people try to kill me because they felt I didn't deserve to be alive. If you ask them why, they have no answer - they just attack verbally or physically all over again.

It makes me realize that prejudice isn't about the person being victimized - it's about the person attacking needing to find ANY reason to take their problems out on another. They don't really care if you're a different race, a different religion, a different size or shape, or anything that differentiates you from someone else - they need to feel superior and they've chosen their victim.

I believe if the world spent less time trying to take away the rights and lives of others who are different and instead made ourselves better think of how much happier we would all be! Why do some spend so much time attacking those who are not hurting anyone, while letting drunk drivers off with a slap on the wrist, or murderers off with a few years served, allowing society to continuously shame and blame sexual abuse victims, and allowing bullies of all ages - from 3 to 103 - to destroy the lives of everyone around them? Many still believe if you're victimized, then you ALLOWED yourself to be victimized and even asked for it. Passing on that mindset to the next generation is what allows them to feel superior and believe they have the right to hurt those who are just trying to do their best without hurting others.

So to those who believe they are victimized, harassed, and judged because of their weight, please step back and realize that there are many others who go through the same, and often much worse, for hundreds of other reasons, or no reasons at all.

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MOM2ACAT 5/23/2011 6:52PM

    I watch Sister Wives too. It's not a lifestyle I would want for myself, but they have a great family. I hope the law will leave them alone in Nevada. They are not hurting anyone and neither are they trying to force their beliefs on others.

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HANKENSTEIN 5/23/2011 1:43AM

    Amen on all counts. Great thoughts.

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SUNSHINE99999 5/23/2011 12:11AM

  That was both eye opening and very much true at the same time. Thank you!

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Will the world end? I'm not convinced.

Thursday, May 19, 2011

I wonder... if someone predicts the world will end, are they certain that the entire world will end, or just their own world? But if Saturday is the end, I never have to turn 30. haha

The world is overdue for a polar shift. This much is true. Yet it could be another 1,000 years before it happens, so why worry? It's not like we can do anything to prevent it or stop it once it happens, so there's no point in freaking out. I have a massage scheduled on Sun - I'm planning on being there.

If you choose to believe that the world may end at any time, then you should be at peace and just waiting for it to come. If you don't believe, then why wase your time on it. Or you can just live your life the best you can and when it is your time it is up to you to accept it. When it isn't your time, you also have to attempt to accept it.

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MOM2ACAT 5/20/2011 6:32PM

    I agree with you!

One of my Facebook friends joked that she might leave some clothes and shoes laying out on the lawn to freak out her neighbors, lol!

I figure when and if the world ends, there's nothing we can do about it, so why worry about it.

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