Wednesday, May 25, 2011
I feel horribly sick, and it sucks. But this is what's weird about me getting sick: I don't get fevers anymore. When I feel sick, my temperature drops into the low 96* range. During high school my temperature was pretty steady at 96.8* (not a typo), then when I put on a couple lbs (I've never been overweight) I was closer to 98.6*. After I lost some weight due to my gastroparesis, I'm now around the low 97* range. I had a massive infection in my face and another in my intestines about a year ago and my temperature never went up. It doesn't make sense unless my immune system isn't working - a fever is your immune system trying to kill off infections and viruses.
Heading to bed early and hoping I can make it through an entire day of work tomorrow.
Tuesday, May 24, 2011
I just need to make this point:
it is really sad when people say (paraphrasing) 'Im a minority - I was bullied once many years ago - making a (hurtful) 'joke' about someone isnt prejudice - youre just too sensitive'. really? stepping up and pointing out prejudice is being sensitive? how bout you get stabbed and I tell you that you only feel the pain because youre too sensitive. except physical wounds can actually heal.
Monday, May 23, 2011
Obviously, the world didn't end. Of course, the guy actually predicted that the devout (estimated at about 200 million people) would rise, followed by a massive earthquake. The rest of the population would then have until Oct 21st to repent and be taken up before the final destruction. So by his prediction, there still could be something... but probably not. Especially since there wasn't any news about churches being completely empty today.
MN had some terrible storms going through this afternoon, and a few neighborhoods around Minneapolis were badly damaged from tornados. I'm in the southeast metro and I've had on and off downpours all day, but nothing severe. Yet, this is just the beginning of storm season, and last year MN had the most tornados of all states, including breaking a long-standing record of the number of tornados in a single day. So during spring, summer, and fall you can never let down your guard for bad weather.
I was watching Sister Wives tonight. I like this show. There is too stinking much hate in the country and in the world, and if society just took some time to understand each other, I think there could be such a chance for peace. Whether you believe in a faith, lifestyle, etc or not there is no reason to destroy others' lives because you disagree with their choices. It is one thing to physically hurt and/or kill others, to emotionally destroy someone by abusing them and constantly telling them they are less than human, and to force someone to live in a way you choose for them. It is another thing when someone is just trying to live as best they can, in their own choices, without hurting anyone else around them. Watching this show gave me a chance to see that while I don't think I could handle that lifestyle, they are not all that different from anyone else.
This goes along with what is happening in MN right now - republicans are attempting to make discrimination of the GLBT community a constitutional law. It reminds me of the severe discrimination of blacks and women in years past. Why does our society make hate so central to our lives? If we accept our differences, instead of wanting stepford families, then we can learn and grow together. I've been treated like I'm less than human by more people than I could ever count through all of my life. I've had a half dozen people try to kill me because they felt I didn't deserve to be alive. If you ask them why, they have no answer - they just attack verbally or physically all over again.
It makes me realize that prejudice isn't about the person being victimized - it's about the person attacking needing to find ANY reason to take their problems out on another. They don't really care if you're a different race, a different religion, a different size or shape, or anything that differentiates you from someone else - they need to feel superior and they've chosen their victim.
I believe if the world spent less time trying to take away the rights and lives of others who are different and instead made ourselves better think of how much happier we would all be! Why do some spend so much time attacking those who are not hurting anyone, while letting drunk drivers off with a slap on the wrist, or murderers off with a few years served, allowing society to continuously shame and blame sexual abuse victims, and allowing bullies of all ages - from 3 to 103 - to destroy the lives of everyone around them? Many still believe if you're victimized, then you ALLOWED yourself to be victimized and even asked for it. Passing on that mindset to the next generation is what allows them to feel superior and believe they have the right to hurt those who are just trying to do their best without hurting others.
So to those who believe they are victimized, harassed, and judged because of their weight, please step back and realize that there are many others who go through the same, and often much worse, for hundreds of other reasons, or no reasons at all.
Thursday, May 19, 2011
I wonder... if someone predicts the world will end, are they certain that the entire world will end, or just their own world? But if Saturday is the end, I never have to turn 30. haha
The world is overdue for a polar shift. This much is true. Yet it could be another 1,000 years before it happens, so why worry? It's not like we can do anything to prevent it or stop it once it happens, so there's no point in freaking out. I have a massage scheduled on Sun - I'm planning on being there.
If you choose to believe that the world may end at any time, then you should be at peace and just waiting for it to come. If you don't believe, then why wase your time on it. Or you can just live your life the best you can and when it is your time it is up to you to accept it. When it isn't your time, you also have to attempt to accept it.
Thursday, May 19, 2011
I am smarter than people give me credit for. I wouldn't say I'm incredibly smart, I just pay attention and remember things. Yet people tend to treat me like I'm incredibly young and just plain stupid. It has been this way since kindergarten when I asked the teacher why I had to be there when I knew my letters and numbers already. She yelled at me to sit down and shut up. This lead to me being bored and ignored from kindergarten through high school so when I got to college I had no idea how to study - because I never had to.
Yesterday I asked my boss if we should let everyone in our department know about a significant change that was happening and she yelled at me that it was for her to deal with and she will ask people questions and that I just needed to stay out of it. Today the exact person I expected to ask her the exact question I knew she would be asked came up to her and asked her what she was supposed to do with it. Of course, since my boss hadn't done anything about it or asked anyone about it or even though about it, she had no answer - just 'well', 'uh', 'I don't know'. I had to get up and leave my desk because I couldn't keep myself from laughing. If she had taken me seriously and just listened to what I said, she wouldn't have been backed into a corner and looked a little stupid.
Of course, later today she still treated me like I was stupid. Really, do I have 'idiotic moron' tattooed on my face with invisible ink? Putting me down and laughing while you criticise me doesn't make you a better boss - it makes you look like an incompetent fool.
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