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Life isn't fair, but it doesn't need to be downright rude!

Sunday, May 08, 2011

Hundreds of phone calls to the radio station, a tank of gas to events giving away the tickets, and still I can't win. Yeah, winning contests isn't easy. Yeah, just because I really want these tickets since it is my friends who are direct support doesn't mean they should just be handed to me. But when half of the people who won didn't even know what they won or know who the bands are it is a real kick in the teeth. If you don't know what you're going to win, don't freaking sign up and take it away from those who really want it. If you don't know a single song by any of the bands, why are you signing up to go to a concert you might hate?

I've tried every trick I can think of: at the drawings I did weird folds, I've tried different timings for calling in, I've asked for a little divine intervention, I've wished on my necklace clasp, etc. Yet apparently I'm just not meant to be at this show.


Still no luck

Saturday, May 07, 2011

6 more chances down, still no tickets. The last place only had a couple people entered (1st drawing probably 10-15, 2nd probably 15-20) and I still couldn't get it. GAH!

I'm starting to wonder if I'm just not supposed to be there. It's making me sad.

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MANDI99P 5/7/2011 9:17AM

    Sorry you still didn't get them. Hope you had fun anyway.

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Can you get luck in pill form?

Friday, May 06, 2011

I went out tonight to try to win tickets to see Lifehouse and my friends Quietdrive in concert. The only way in is to win them from the radio station sponsoring it. 6 tries in 4 hours between 3 bars and I didn't win (it is a simple drawing). I need an infusion of luck if I'm gunna make it to this show. I have 6 chances between 3 bars tomorrow, then possibly 4 chances between 2 bars on Saturday (but those two are really far apart so it will be tough).

I'm late getting to bed, so that's all I'm posting for now.

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MANDI99P 5/6/2011 9:21AM

    Good luck! hope you get the tickets. I know how you feel though, if it wasn't for bad luck I'd have no luck at all. lol

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I am confusing (to doctors)

Wednesday, May 04, 2011

I saw my endocrinologist again today. He admitted that I have him completely confused so he doesn't know what to do. I seem to have reactive hypoglycemia and type 2 diabetes (which are opposite conditions) but every test he has run to figure out what is causing it or how to correct it has come back normal (I have no risk factors for diabetes by the way). He had diagnosed me with type 2 diabetes 2 weeks ago, but he's now removed that diagnosis because it makes no sense because the only sign of it is my 3 hour glucose tolerance test showed my insulin was through the roof and yet my glucose stayed high for 3 hours, but plummeted to hypoglycemia a few hours later. Yet 2 weeks of testing my blood sugar at random intervals during the day, tracking when I ate and what my numbers were, showed reactive hypoglycemia (my glucose returned to normal within 30-60 minutes and dropped too low several times over the 2 weeks).

I'm staying on the mega dose of vitamin D for a few months then I'll see him again in September to check my blood glucose again and a few other things. In the meantime, he's going to share my case with a few colleagues because he can't figure me out!

So my next step is a neurologist to attempt to figure out why I've had headaches every day for as long as I can remember and why I'm having numbness in my fingers and problems with my legs going numb and lifeless (no, this has nothing to do with diabetes - please reread the first paragraph if you're thinking that). I also am hoping to pick his/her brain about his/her knowledge of the vagus nerve.

I'm working on paying off over $1500 in medical bills from the last 2 months. My insurance will start paying part of the bills now, but I'll still have bills coming in. Once I've got these paid off (hopefully by the end of the month or sometime next month) I really need to go buy a new (used) car. I think I know what I'm going to get, but I definitely can't afford a car payment and medical bills.

Work has me ragged lately - I keep putting in little bits of overtime and the boss is starting to question it. Well, it has to get done and she said I could work some overtime, plus no one realized how much work our new acquisition was going to be. So now I have to figure out how to cut back on the overtime and still get it done. (As much as I'm not liking putting in the extra time at work, the few bucks extra on each paycheck is definitely a good thing!)

I'm debating going out to a couple bars the next few nights in an attempt to win concert tickets. My friends Quietdrive are direct support for Lifehouse at a radio station promotional show, and the only way to get into the show is to win the tickets. I've been trying for 2 months and I've had no luck at all.

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ANDREWS_MOM 5/5/2011 6:27PM

    Hoping & praying the the dr's can get something figured out for you soon. I know exactly what you're going through- as I keep getting told that I'm quite puzzling to my dr's as well. Today I was told by my GI office that basically I'm too far gone for them to have any kind of advice or help to offer me and that I need to wait til Temple.

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Some doctors blame us to save their egos

Saturday, April 16, 2011


Sometimes doctors really don't know what's going on. That's okay - you can't expect everyone to know everything. Yet when someone who doesn't know what's going on decides to claim that 8 million people are being starved by their own malfunctioning bodies because they are just lazy, that is detrimental to our entire society. To have a "doctor" blame people for something that happens for any number of causes or none at all shows that we really need a change to our health care system.

Some children are born with gastroparesis and have to be tube fed for years or their entire lives. Are they lazy? Did they not do enough exercise while they were in the womb? Or could it possibly be that things happen to the body that we haven't been able to explain yet, and by blaming people instead of studying the disorder, we are condemning MILLIONS of people to a life of continuous pain and suffering, just so a doctor (or a few) can attempt to save face and their egos.

For anyone who reads this who knows anything about gastroparesis and pseudo-obstruction, please comment on the blog and let Dr Oz's people know that having a member of his team spreading falsities will not be tolerated. Those of us who suffer from this disorder will be grateful.

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MOM2ACAT 4/17/2011 3:49PM

    emoticon Agreed!

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