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Quick note before bed

Friday, April 01, 2011

So my mother is coming up to take me to my test on Saturday. And I get to leave work early tomorrow after putting in extra time the past 2 days - 1 3/4 hours extra. Good thing, since I have to stop eating at 8pm it will be nice to be able to get home early to shove food into my face to try to get enough calories. UGH!

Hope everyone has a good April Fool's Day tomorrow! Play some fun pranks, nothing destructive or hurtful please. I'd love to hear what pranks y'all pull and/or have pulled on you!

  
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MOM2ACAT 4/1/2011 4:40PM

    I hope your tests go well!

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ANDREWS_MOM 4/1/2011 8:40AM

    Wishing you lots of luck w/ your tests tomorrow!
So glad your mom is going with you; those things are almost always easier when you have someone there for support.
You'll be in my thoughts.
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How I will celebrate April Fool's Day

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

Just 1 more day left until April Fool's Day! For those of you who like some good laughs, check out one of my favorite websites on Friday: www.thinkgeek.com

Some of last year's AFD prank items were canned unicorn meat - 100% of your daily recommended allowance of sparkles!, the plush talking bacon, and the icade - turn your ipad into an arcade game! The best part of thinkgeek is that the more people who click on a fake item to buy it (it will tell you it is a prank if you try to buy it), the better chance they will make the product! All 3 of those products are now real items you can buy (the unicorn meat is actually pieces of a plush unicorn haha). Check out other items that were pranks - some of which were made real: http://www.thinkgeek.com/stuff/looflirpa/i
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I suck at pranks so instead this is my fun for AFD. Anyone out there planning any good pranks?

And just so no one thinks this is a weird ad or something (I just really love thinkgeek - where else can you get caffeinated everything and weird bacon-flavored products and cube warfare and binary clocks and etc)... Work today sucked; I stayed an extra hour and a half because the boss was so insistent about me doing something before I left. The good thing about that is now I get to leave early on Friday - which will help me out as I will have to pound a lot of food early Friday evening since I will be fasting as of 8pm for the tests on Saturday.

  


Cancelled my gym membership today

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

Continuing the tradition that pretty much everything that is good and healthy for everyone else is totally bad and unhealthy for me, I cancelled my gym membership this afternoon. I haven't been able to work out for weeks so I've been paying for pretty much nothing (I did get some help with stretching from a trainer a few times last month). The guy who signed me up last summer happened to see me and came over and said if I had something from one of my doctors he would put me on medical hold for next month so I wouldn't get charged (it is a 30 day cancel, so I would've gotten charged for 1 more month). I had my blood test results from 2 weeks ago showing my absurdly low blood sugar, and he said he thought he could make it work.

Even though I got a massage yesterday that felt great and toned down my GP, my upper back and shoulders are killing me! My masseuse said my trapezius muscles are seriously tight - and that's what's hurting so bad (just to be clear, I knew they were tight and painful, but she said they are even worse than normal).

Plus, now that the GP is toned back down, my hypoglycemia is coming back. This morning I had very mild crashes, but they've been getting a little worse all day. Hopefully by Saturday I will be back to full on blackout crashes so I can get the most out of the glucose tolerance test.

I'm also a little worried about what's happening while I'm asleep. Last night my cat woke me up several times. Usually when he wakes me up he wants food, but I filled his dish before bed, and if he wants food he keeps trying to wake me up until I either really yell at him or lock him out of the room. Last night (and a few other times in the past few weeks) he dramatically woke me up then once I rolled over and looked at the clock, he left me alone. Some animals can sense different medical conditions in their owners like seizures or high blood sugar - I wonder if my cat is sensing a hypoglycemic crash while I'm asleep and waking me up. Considering he didn't wake me up the several nights before while I was having a GP flare and thus my crashes were really dulled... I just don't know.

Still debating on if I want my mother to come up to take my to the appointment on Saturday (or even a few days before).

  
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ANDREWS_MOM 3/31/2011 8:40AM

    Hoping & praying everything works out & that you get some real answers from your glucose test.
Sometimes not knowing what's wrong is scaries than knowing. Once you find out, you'll be able to take the steps neccessary to hopefully get you feeling better.
I am so sorry you are going through all of these different things at once and praying that the doctors will be able to find what they need to get you some peace that you certainly need.
Hang in there & it will get better :)
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Today is over, 4 days until my tests

Monday, March 28, 2011

Bad day - what's new? Annoying coworkers getting pissed at me for no reason whatsoever - can some people do anything but? Idiot drivers wanting to hurt someone or wreck someone just to get ahead of you to go slow - one of these times I will let them slam into me then I'll just lay on the steering wheel (literally) and let them think they killed me.

Did get a massage though, which should help but also is so much pain! She is excellent - it's my body that sucks majorly! haha I'll see tomorrow if it helped. Otherwise I'm going back again before my tests on Saturday.

  


Sucky weekend

Monday, March 28, 2011

This weekend sucked. I completely lacked energy (yesterday if I spent 5 minutes off the couch I was close to passing out from exhaustion). Today I was able to finish my state taxes and prepare them to mail in tomorrow, as well as load/run/unload the dishwasher and I just cooked an actual dinner (hamburger helper w/ lean ground chicken is an actual dinner for me right now) for the first time in a week. I am so sick of having to use every ounce of my energy at work then coming home and wanting to just pass out.

Tomorrow night I get a massage to ease the current mild GP flare so I can have a few days of plowing through mountains of food until I have my glucose tolerance test on Saturday. I'm really worried what is going to happen this week, as when my GP is not flaring the hypoglycemia is getting worse almost daily. My mother offered to come up to take me to the appointment (since the test will probably really do me in) - I kinda want her to come up for the week. Unfortunately, my mother only makes things worse - she makes EVERYTHING about her and then stresses me out to the point where I start shutting down completely - physically and mentally. My father can't come up this weekend because he will be fishing, so I really don't know what other choice I have. The worst part about being me and being sick is that friends don't stay in my life and my family isn't too good, so I have no support system.

So I'm expecting the worst and hoping for the best this week.

  
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MOM2ACAT 3/28/2011 4:39PM

    I know what you mean about the energy! I'm going through some chronic fatigue myself, and I also am having a GP flareup which started yesterday. I hope you are feeling better soon.

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ANDREWS_MOM 3/28/2011 3:03PM

    Your in my thoughts & prayers!
Wish I lived closer to help out.
hoping you have a good week & the dr's are able to start you on some treatments that provide some relief.

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HOLLIE90038 3/28/2011 12:28PM

    Thinking of you and hoping for the best.

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