Tuesday, February 22, 2011
Instead of talking about me tonight, I want to see how many people will respond to a request. I would like anyone who reads this to respond with answers to 2 questions:
1) What makes you a good person?
2) Do you believe good things happen to good people and others receive their karma eventually? Or do good people suffer as bad people get away with everything?
Write a sentence, a paragraph, a huge note - whatever you would like. If I answered this for a specific friend of mine, I would answer: 1) She is always giving time, effort, and support to charities - more than anyone else I know. 2) She believes that doing positive things will bring positives effects to your life.
I was talking with some people today about this and would like to see what my fellow sparkers have to say. So give your opinion - negative, positive, neutral, whatever you have to say about this. I want to know what you think!
Monday, February 21, 2011
Because of the incompetence of my HOA, it looks like I will unfortunately have to lose several pounds (that I can't afford to lose) as my vagus nerve is once again being messed up. The really crappy part is this time it is also affecting my heart rate and my breathing.
The snow had been falling here in the Twin Cities, MN, for about 24 hours when I woke up this morning to get ready for work. The plow team had still not come through to clean the 19-20" of snow off my driveway. I called the emergency number to say they need to get someone out there - of course I was met with attitude and told 'they will get to it' which is one of the worst answers someone in customer service can give to a customer. An hour later when I had to get on the road I spent 20 minutes digging out a space just wide enough to get my car out - and cussing and screaming up a storm. When I got home they had done a half-@$$ job on my driveway, but it again had about 4" on it that I had to clean off. They still haven't come back through to clean up the common driveway. It has now been snowing for around 40 hours (still falling by the way) and they still have not dug out my walkway - which is the only way in and out of my house. I've shoveled the smallest path possible 4 times but now I have 22-24" on the rest of the path and can't do any more because the drifts are as high as my mid-chest.
Because of having to clean this up myself (even though I'm paying a lot of money to have it done for me) my vagus nerve is once again having pressure on it. Since the earliest appointment I could get with my masseuse was Sun, I'm assuming I'm going to drop around 5-10 lbs (10 lbs will put me to an underweight BMI - which I've been fighting to avoid) before I can have the ability to eat properly again - the 2400 stinking calories my body needs just to maintain my weight.
The HOA manager said they would be coming through several times through today and tonight to clean up the snow - of course, they haven't. They're under contract to clean up anything more than 1-2" (every time I try to get a straight answer they change the amount) but they won't even come through unless it is over 6" and anything over 12" they usually don't actually do it until 2-3 DAYS after the snow starts.
Honestly, I don't understand how people are so incompetent, lazy, and have no empathy for the people paying them to do a job. No matter what I've tried to get them to do their jobs, they refuse to do it. I just don't know what else to do.
So now I get to suffer severe pain, a severe lack of nutrition, and spend the next week or two (more snow is coming next weekend) worrying if I will be able to stay above being underweight and if I should be going to the hospital due to the fact that this time it isn't only my digestive system having problems, but my heart and lungs too. But before you start saying 'go to the hospital, get it checked out' please understand that I don't have the money for that, if I take off work I lose my job (can't take any leave for the first 90 days - which is mid March), and they are going to have a serious lack of answers and possible treatments, so they will feed me full of blood thinners (which will do more harm than good due to me being close to underweight, having low blood pressure, a low constant body temperature, already having problems with losing feeling in my arms and legs, etc etc) and run a bunch of tests to come back with no answer. I know the problem is my vagus nerve, but if you tell a doctor what is wrong, they will refuse to treat you (been there done that). So going to the hospital is the last thing that is going to help me. I can only suffer in hell until I can get in to my masseuse on Sun.
Seriously, I can't catch a break. No matter how much I try, something is always there to destroy me again.
No responses needed - I just want to vent because I am so livid.
Monday, February 21, 2011
MN is getting dumped on by snow right now. Around 6 pm I had about 9 inches (12" on my deck due to the wind and the enclosed area). By 11, it is probably 12-13". By morning I wouldn't doubt it being around 15". I really dislike snow - and this winter is making me question why I chose to live in MN. Plus, since I have to work in the morning, if the plowers and shovelers don't get out here soon, I'm not going to get out of my driveway!
I went to the gym today to have a half hour session with a trainer. I'm seeing her just a few times to get some help with stretching, mainly yoga and pilates type stretching. Most of them I've done before, so I'll keep working on them and when I see her again she will make corrections and hopefully show me a few more. The weird thing is, some of the stretches were not doing what they should be. For example, a stretch meant for the back and ribs was actually pulling the edge of my shoulder more than anything. No idea why. One more confusing thing about me that doesn't make sense. ugh
Sunday, February 20, 2011
The snow will be starting here tomorrow morning and even though most of it will fall between 6am Sun to 6am Mon, flurries are expected to last through the end of the day Tues. Totals in the Twin Cites, MN, are expected to be about 12-15". Even with the major melting we had last week, this is going to be horrible. It makes me wonder why I chose to live in MN!
I'm also not looking forward to going out in the snow tomorrow to meet up with a trainer at the gym a mile down the street. It is only for a half hour to learn some stretching and simple yoga moves. Though why do I get the feeling she will cancel on me for the 2nd time. grr
Saturday, February 19, 2011
You know those contests car dealerships have to bring people in, where they offer a chance at winning a free car? I got one of those and since I'm in need of replacing my car I thought I'd go. Well, long story short, the guy who helped me was adorable/very good looking, kept making me laugh, and did a little hitting on me. But he was also laying it on pretty thick, is from Cali and always traveling from state to state helping run these events at different dealerships, and with that much charm he could probably have a girlfriend in every state he visits. So eh, whatever. But it was fun to hear all that from an adorable guy. haha
I realized today my boss just wants to be angry about something. She makes stupid comments to try to jab at anything that makes her feel uncomfortable or that she feels is showing her up. So when I'm standing there saying that instead of spending several hundred dollars on a huge computer monitor stand that will not work for me (it puts the monitors so close I would practically be living inside them AND takes away too much desk space I need) that I would like to order a $50 stand that might work and if it doesn't we could probably just return. She threw a boss's form of a tantrum. She was pissed when I said I can't do the same setup that she has because I already bang my knees and that would make it worse. She had the nerve to tell me that I should just not wear heels and that would fix everything. Well, let's see, if I bang my knees when wearing flats also, how does that fix anything? Seriously, get over yourself! People think she is so great at what she does; she might know the job, but she is a fail as a boss. Cutting down your employees is not good. Oh and I am not a moron. Stop wasting everyone's time by continuously 'teaching' me things I learned 2 months ago. Stop 'teaching' me by explaining the most mundane and obvious things to me that I know more about than apparently she does. And she needs to get to a doctor because coughing up a lung 10x/day to where not only is she about to throw up but so is everyone else is NOT HEALTHY. She sounds like she's got lung cancer or emphysema - not even joking. It is incredibly disgusting, she is spewing horrible things into the air right to my desk, and when you hear liquid spilling, you can't just ignore it and keep working. DISGUSTING! (Sorry for this rant, but I seriously wanted to just slap some sense into her.) Oh and I think I'm either going to have to buy my own stand, or talk to the computer guy and see if he can give me any other options and if he can convince her to let him do it.
I'm sure a lot of you have heard about what is going on in WI. My sister is a 1st grade teacher in a small town in WI and I talked with her for a little while tonight to get her take on all this. I don't want to argue politics, but from what I'm seeing, this is not about the money - it is about the WI republicans trying to take away the rights of their constituents (the right to collective bargaining). According to some studies, this will not save any jobs, in fact for teachers it will cause a loss of tens of thousands of jobs across the state as the funding per student will drop quite a few hundred dollars per student and will force layoffs, schools closing, and destroy the education system to possible unrecoverable limits. It is disappointing that politics are being reduced to this level of threats from our elected representatives. Also, know that I don't believe either party is entirely good or bad, but some of the choices that have been made by one side or the other lately has been just ridiculous.
Okie dokie it is bed time for me. I hope my sparkfriends have a good weekend!
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