Thursday, November 14, 2013
It's always been hit or miss with exercise around here. I use to be pretty good with my exercise goals but the depression and anxiety I've been dealing with for over 20 years got out of control and I lost a lot of time with my family and with myself. Meaning that the good times slipped away and I was just. . . . here, for over a year. I lost interest in exercise, diet, friends, family and activities I liked doing.
Now with new medication (for about the last 6 months) I'm on the other side of that depression and feeling a lot better. Although I feel their is still a part of me that I lost along the way. Now I'm exercising again and making goals for myself. It feels good to have pieces of me back that I thought were gone. I've become leader (again) with a team that I've been involved with for a very long time. My hope is that by leading the team I will stick to my goals and finally win this battle of depression, anxiety and obesity ( I really don't like that word), with support from sparkfriends and teammates.
My husband and daughter have been on the SparkPeople site with me for quite a long time.
My husband was by my side as always during this last bout with depression and has I think, come out of the situation with a new found understanding on how bad this illness can get. You know tho, he doesn't complain when I can't do what I need to do, he encourages me instead and holds my hand through it all. He's a very good man. He never lets me down.
Anyway, we spend more time with each other now, less time in front of the television. He helps me fix the things in life that get me down and even does the laundry. Now he's also back on board with SparkPeople. He exercises with me and listens to my suggestions on exercise and diet. He does this without complaining (well, when he complains he's usually teasing), even tho I know he works very hard and is tired when he comes home.
My daughter has continued making strides on her goals and is losing weight. She doesn't exercise with me as much as she did at first but she does exercise and tries to watch her food portions.
All in all, right now things are good. I hope they stay that way. I really don't like the person I become or the person I lose when I'm depressed. That's all for now.