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7 Year Itch

Saturday, July 26, 2014

I can't believe I have been on SparkPeople for the last 7 years. I weigh 40 lbs more now, than when I started, and nearly 80 lbs more than my lowest weight. To be quite honest, I haven't been here in over a year. I actually threw out my scale one day, and gave up. I have pretty much eaten whatever I wanted. Luckily I haven't really gained any weight in the last year, but you have to eat a lot, to be where I am. I really would like to lose weight. It's becoming more difficult for me to find fashionable clothes. I'm too embarrassed to even meet up with old friends when they are in town. I miss going out (not that I have the chance), but I wonder what I would wear, or if people would make fun of me. I don't really have a plan this time. If I get really structured, then I tend to form very unhealthy ideas about food and eating, so I don't want to go that route. I think I am just going to make little changes here and there, and hope that they counteract my bad choices. My coal is to lose around 25 lbs this year, but even if it's 10, it will be a success.

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PATTYKLAVER 7/28/2014 9:26AM

    You've done it before and you remember what works and what doesn't. Sometimes our bodies just need a break to get used to the weight that we are at. I understand not having a plan - I have gained back a little and don't have one. But...you hit the nail on the head. Start making small changes and go from there. emoticon

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KITT52 7/27/2014 7:52AM

    good luck

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Let the Meds Begin

Sunday, March 03, 2013

So after my last labs were high and my historically low blood pressure has become high ( IMHO due to my job), They informed me it was genetic and no amount of diet change was going to make much difference ( we tried). I agreed to add two more meds into my repertoire. I will be taking Simvistat and Niacor each night...on top of the ambien. I HATE taking meds. He seems to think I will magically start feeling better after 3 months. We will wait and see. I currently feel like I am on itchy fire. He said it couldn't hurt to exercise when possible either.O On the good side, I am going to meet with the sleep specialist this coming week. My insurance kept denying my sleep study, but with seeing the specialist, I should be good to go! I still feel jealous of all my friends that have had the gastric bypass. They got skinny and their quality of life improved. They met people and had more babies. Except my dear old friend "Jane ", who passed away 3 days after her surgery from a blood clot. That's what scares me. I need to stop for a minute..This girl is on fire....oooowwww even my brain is burning. I was warned about the Nicaor, but didn't think it was this bad. So I hope these things help and some stuff starts to go back to normal for me. Hope everyone is doing well

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1MOUNTAINMAMMA 3/3/2013 9:08AM

    Thanks! He knows me well enough, that if the side effects bother me very long, it's gone. :)

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2BFREE2LIVE 3/3/2013 12:33AM

    Keep an eye on your reaction to this new medication it may not be for you. There are other things on the market if the Dr. thinks you really need this med. Give the kids a hug from me. Sandy emoticon

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It's a Long Way Down

Saturday, January 26, 2013

I obviously didn't keep up with my food blog. It was partly because of the weird stares from coworkers when I capture my food shame on film, and partially because I was too tired to get on here at night. However, I have been in here entering my weight about once a week. I actually was losing for a little. It wasn't because of my great new outlook on life, but stress. I've had tons o drama with childcare issues, and the list goes on. When I get super stressed....I just stop eating. That was why I lost like 5 lbs, that I have already gained back. I am getting relay frustrated with this whole weight loss thing. I'm about in tears at this point, and considering the idea of bariatric surgery. I have seen several friend slim down, and become the people I always knew they were on the inside. I have also watched them have chronic health problems like ulcers. I even had one friend pass away hours after her surgery ( the part that scares me). I have two kids, and that is such a huge risk, but I also feel like I'm on a road to self destruction over my weight. I have pain everywhere in my body, I'm always tired, I can do the things I sued to even 30 lbs ago, and it's frustrating when nothing looks good on you, or you can enjoy doing things with your kids. Blah.
I have inquired about bariatric surgery in the past, I'd say about 6 years ago. I was told that once I lost 10% I would n longer be big enough. I'm fairly certain that now I would possibly qualify, and my health factors would play into it this time as well . I just feel like it's cheating, or that people would think less of me because I did it. I would love to have my old life back. Hec, I'd like to walk on my feet without pain, and not have a fat face. I'm sure if I bring it up the Dr will just try to give me advice in how to change my lifestyle. I know all this already, but it obviously hasn't worked. I just want to be the person on the outside, that I know I am on the inside. What do you think?

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JACARD 1/28/2013 10:26AM

  I don't know if bariatric surgery is the way for you, but I do know that you need to make your decision based on YOU and not on what other people think.

Several people in my wider circle have gone the surgical route. However, none has sustained a weight loss with it -- except the one where the surgery was poorly done and her body could not absorb any nutrients at all. She was lucky to survive... And I know myself and my demons and if I do not deal with them I will end up right where I started. So surgery is not the answer for me.

On the other hand, I can see where it could be for you -- or for me, in other circumstances. I don't think it is a cop-out. I don't believe it's a choice between surgery or do the hard work as surgery also requires huge amounts of hard work. It's really a question of which kind of work will work better for you -- and only you can know, really know, whether surgery will help.

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1MOUNTAINMAMMA 1/27/2013 9:12AM

    thanks so much :)

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MAKINGHERPROUD 1/26/2013 11:51PM

    I know how you feel. I struggle everyday being stuck in this fat body. I know there is a thin person in here just trying to get out. You need to do what is right for you. It doesn't matter what anyone thinks. Those people that will be quick to judge you have no clue how much you struggle. They would never survive a day in your shoes. If you qualify for the surgery then go for it. And if your doctor isn't supportive even after knowing that you have tried to change, then I say it is time for a new doctor.

Good luck!

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Monday, December 31, 2012

This took a lot more time during the day than I thought it would. Hunting down my phone every time I had a whim to eat, was usually followed by an all out expedition to find my phone became tiresome. I managed to make it though. This just a representation, because today I had several helping on occasion. I'm not sure when the candy idea came from, because I distinctly remember feeling sick of sweets. I also seem to be binging here lately. So here it goes.

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BALLOUZOO 12/31/2012 11:33PM

    I will be happy when the holiday foods are officially gone from the house!

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BABY_GIRL69 12/31/2012 6:45PM

    Ghiradelli's caramel & chocolate, orange tic tacs & red vines....

God bless & Happy New Year!!


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2BDYNAMIC 12/31/2012 6:41AM

    oH WELL ......... Time to turn the page .......... saying goodbye to all of our temptations and possible bad habits and begin fresh ........... emoticon Never too late to make it day one and then keep goin. Happy New Year to you and wishin you all good things .........

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Saturday, December 29, 2012

SO this is my pre new year blog. I love to blog, but have neglected this and my regular blog for a while now. I like to put time into my blogs, but I am so busy with work and the kids, I clearly don't have time for all this. So for my first goal of the year, I plan to blog photos of what I eat. This is much easier that entering all the info into the calorie tracker. It also might shame me into eating better, for the sake of your eyes. I am also a visual person, so seeing just how much crap I eat might shock me into making changes.
I have also been making some changes over the past months on my own that I am proud of. I have cut down a lot of my fast food consumption. I am only allowed to eat out 1 week day for lunch. I have done quite well with this, and it has saved me a lot of money. I just wish it would do more for my waist line. I have also started eating out dinner less. I did this for my kids, as well as my wallet. I have been feeding them more real food. We do have hamburger helper or frozen pizza, but these foods are still better than the local fast food drive through. I am also putting more veggies on the kids plates. The Crock pot has been my salvation. I can cook chicken in the crock pot while I am at work, or overnight while I am sleeping. This is great because the last thing I want to do after work is cook for an hour, and waste money using our old oven.
So starting tomorrow, I am going to keep up my fast food challenge, and add in my photo blog food diary. This probably wont be pretty as we have birthdays coming up in January, but this goal is about looking at what I eat and being accountable for it. No more denial! When I meet my blog goal, I will be able to purchase an app for my phone as a reward. Here is a test pic of my Christmas food choices. Eeek

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