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Friday, May 11, 2012

oh my my today reading a spark article hit a milestone for me!!!!!!!! unbelievable! I'm reading about how you need to stop condemning yourself-self hate.... the things i have done all my life. I have in the past 2 years soooo many times to honestly come up with one-just one feature i liked about my body and never could-ugh, not even one! this morning as i'm reading about how models are airbrushed,use 2 people in one shot, so on and so on. I've heard all that before-certainly wish they'd stop that, maybe we could have less stress in people. ( I truly believe the public would lighten up-wouldn't make the world a perfect place by any means, but it just couldn't hurt having a few people have a few less hang ups) ANYWAY, so as i'm reading the word triceps, a little voice in my head says "that's one part of my body i actually like!" and boom breakthrough!!!!! ah ha there is one thing!!!!! now i have to admit i stayed soooo focused on the hanging flab on my arms, i just overlooked my great muscles in my arms and shoulder! wow, 55 and i FINALLY found something!

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KAZNIC 1/6/2013 8:53PM

    Oh how I relate to this..Cant think of one part of my body I like either. I will have to keep thinking about that one. Does your hair count?? LOL guess not! Oh well....

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SPARKLISE 5/11/2012 7:29AM

    emoticon One little thing at a time and you'll soon love your whole body!

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sick, sick, sick

Monday, November 28, 2011

oh my my, i really tortured myself over the 4 day weekend over stuffing my poor belly with baaad food. I am so disgusted with myself-need to figure out why i keep punishing my body. its just sad. spent a year doing great-then last fall BAM something set me off and I have spent the last13 months trying to destroy all that great effort. today i'm going to a zumba class-dreading it but going. its supose to be a fun work out, but made my poor knees hurt for a week. i used to love (really like) my treadmill but i think its worn out-the track keeps slipping, and i just cant afford a new one. ok new day new attitude new goal one step at a time....

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BAKERICLISA 11/28/2011 6:26AM


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Tuesday, August 02, 2011

I've been eatting healthy most days of the week, but for the last 9 months the weekend comes and I settle into my husbands bad eatting -I try to go places with him and do a few things he likes to try to get us closer. The sharing the bad eatting seems to help our relationship but ruins my good efforts and then I go overboard with the bad attitude that oh well i guess if i'm blowing it-then find as many things that i try to limit normaly and cram as much possible down-feeling sick by bedtime. ( I think I'm punishing myself for bad eatting-but don't get why I feel the need to always hurt myself) so the viscious cycle continues and on mon the dreaded scale and facing the fact of my damage. by thur I'm feeling better about myself with very good intentions for the weekend. on fri, I talk to myself all day and tell myself I'm going to be good and in an instant i'm eatting unhealthy. I would love to get some counciling to try to sort this madness out, but even with insurance I simply can't afford it. any suggestions for a weekend binger????



Friday, July 08, 2011

today i'm heading to the goodwill, time for a few more pairs of summer pants for work. As for me, in my opionion there is no better place to shop than the good will, last year i was losing weight quite steadily and changing sizes to often to be blowing the money on new. did you know that the closer you get to your goal weight how it takes less amount of pounds to change a size than when your heavier?

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DOLCEVITA256 7/8/2011 10:06AM

    That's a great idea! I'm in the same boat, I don't want to invest in any clothes until I reach my goal weight. Thanks for sharing.

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new tattoo

Sunday, June 12, 2011

I just got a new tattoo today! I had been wanting a tattoo on the side of my neck for about 6 years, finally went and did it!!!! (this has nothing to do with goals, weight -its all about ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

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NEEDTOLOSE100LB 10/31/2011 8:32AM

    I am wanting to get a tattoo. I think it is part of my personal rebellion lately! What did you get?

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CARBONCAT 6/13/2011 11:41AM

    MMMMM that sounds sooo good! The watermelon, not the belly, haha!

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