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What are you doing the rest of your life?

Monday, February 22, 2010

What things have you surrendered to your weight?
It seems that when we gain weight, it takes away the little joys that really matter. We avoid socializing (what outfit could possibly look good?), taking our children to amusement parks (we don't want to embarrass our loved ones), shopping for new/trendy clothes (who can look in those three way mirrors and not want to binge?), intimacy (yikes! Don't want to scare the spouse). Not to mention the health reasons of which there are many. The lists can go on and on.
I personally am tired of my weight deciding for me what I will or will not do, making me feel vulnerable, unworthy and unhealthy. I am committed to ridding myself of this deadly villain once and for all. I will not give my power to weight any longer.
So without excess weight, what will you do with the rest of your life?
For me, what will I do the rest of my life? ANYTHING I WANT!!!!!!!!!!!! emoticon

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SUCHAHOOT 2/22/2010 9:44PM

    This is EXACTLY where I am!! I cannot even begin to count the activities I have missed out on because I was not comfortable enough with my 'self' to go...OR I went, like to my daughter's ballgames, and have been so miserable with my 'self'.

FREELADY, I am not to that place in the book yet. That is such a great perspective. What am I missing out on if I continue eat like I have been?

Thank you two ladies soooo much!!

Let's do this thang!!


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FREELADY 2/22/2010 4:40PM

    What you say is so important in my life right now. It's the fill-in to go with a key concept in my Beck Diet Solution book: I may feel that I'm missing out on a certain way of eating or a certain food, by sticking to a healthy plan. ACTUALLY by staying overweight I am missing out on so much. YOU ARE SO RIGHT. I have surrendered a great deal to my excess weight. Thank you for wordsmithing this so aptly. What have I given up in order to stay overweight??? Now, NO MORE surrender!!! I join you in ousting the deadly villain! emoticon

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Self Esteem???? Where is it?

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

I have finally learned to add photos to my Spark Page with the help of one of my Spark friends. What I realized when finished is that the pictures of me are from 8 years ago when I was fit & trim, or of my dogs. I started looking for current pictures of myself and could not find any. I am realizing just how much weight effects everything. Obviously avoiding pictures, not looking in mirrors etc.
So it would seem that while you add weight pound by pound, your self esteem leaves pound by pound. Or, is it just buried beneath the layers?
It cannot be a permanent loss, because I want those pictures with loved ones, of vacations and fun times. I do not want to go on not fully engaged with my life.
My challenge to me is to stop avoiding the reminders of my weight gain and face them head on. I cannot change what I won't acknowledge. Therefore, I acknowledge that I am overweight, I accept that I allowed this to happen and I believe I have the power to change starting today.

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NANADERRICK 2/17/2010 12:52PM

    you have it by the horns!!! I am really proud of your progress and love this blog!! More of us should get a grip like you have. Keep us all inspired emoticon

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FREELADY 2/16/2010 3:58PM

    Wow, are you eloquent. This is powerful. Thank you so much for sharing it with us.

Regarding the self-esteem query, I have some observations even from these few paragraphs. You are a person who learns new things! You are someone who is loved by talented friends who like to help you! You are kind to animals! You are a person who is adventurous and takes vacations! PLUS you are honest, insightful, and courageous!

[Not to mention a biggie in my book: You are a person who is able to find photos that were taken 8 years ago!!!]

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KSUEY55 2/16/2010 2:36PM

    I have been a photo- dodger for several years now.. Finally on my 55th birthday, Jan 5, with my best friend over, I had my son take a picture of us together. When I looked at the pic I was dismayed- I was as big as she was- and she's always been bigger that me--I had to face reality! And that one picture was enough to get me started back in to my healthy weight loss regimen. I am more determined than ever to get back where I was (50 lbs ago!)
So take that picture and put it somewhere where only you can see it and study it for as long as it takes to get you moving again! Good luck! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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SPATTEN2001 2/16/2010 2:20PM

    You have done the hardest part ... taken the first step! I have a photo of me and my best friends in Maui and a picture of me and all my first cousins in front of me at work at all times. It is a very nice feeling when people come by the office and say that isn't you (I have lost 24 lbs since these were taken) and I say, 'oh yes it is!' Take a photo now ... put it somewhere that it will remind you daily ... you can be the woman from 8 years ago ... step by step by step!

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