Wednesday, July 13, 2011
At this point my friends, I can not...or rather am choosing not to keep up with SP. I need to refocus more intensely on my own life, survival and find my motivation again.
Fracturing my pelvic last year, really through me for a loop and not being able to exercise for 6 months was challenging. The fact that I was forced to get a 2nd job and worked 90 hr/wk between both jobs, was devasting for me; emotionally, physically and mentally.
I've cut down on my 2nd job work hours, but lost the fight in me to get back up and work out like I was, or EVEN attempt to get my butt to the gym (free). It's gone, kaput, gonzo.
Not gone forever....just misplaced.
I don't know if I'll EVER ride a bicycle again out in public. The fear is overwhelmingly terrifying for me and that emotion makes me upset with myself for allowing such a weakness to engulf me.....hahahah....I say this and YET, I'm out riding my Harley!
August 1st is my Transformation Day. I am going to make a schedule of my training, start counting my calories, food input, exercise minutes and moniter my weight (I don't even OWN a scale).
Financially I will finally be back on my feet by August and not have to worry if I should buy a roll of TP or stock up on food from the Dollar Store...HA Food....WHAT A JOKE.
Right now....it PAINS me to get all the group updates, and SP messages, knowing that I'm a "Poser" and not a participant. That being said, I'm going to remove myself from the daily emails that SP sends out. I wont be checking my page, and am deciding if whether or not to remove myself from SP all together....still not sure.
If anyone wants, needs or desires to get a hold of me...here's my email address:
Hopefully I'll be back, better than ever, with the strength to plow through it once again.
P.S. Here's the most recent picture of me....Thankfully, I am sitting down and you aren't able to view the regression of the body composition.
Friday, February 18, 2011
I put in my 1-week Notice at the bar. I still have to work this Saturday, Sunday & Monday, and then THAT'S IT!!!
Told the bar boss, that is was taking it's toll on me, my vehicle and causing me not to be fully "here" at my Day Job-which is ultra important, especially with only 4 more years until I retire.
People ask me, "Oh my gawd, Debie, what will you do with all that 'spare' time"?
Here's my answers:
Here's my To-Do List:
-SLEEP more than 2-3 hours a night
-Finish putting my house back together
-Get myself to the gym again
-Re-training on the bicycle for that 10K.
-Want to recapture my hot and sexy toned body
-Involve myself once again in SP and be here for myself and others
-I'd like to go on a scuba diving vacation, sit on the beach, sipping tropical drinks with umbrellas in them.
-Have the freedom to take the bike out and go for real weekend rides
-Seriously start back to school this fall semester and work towards Masters
-Be able to watch a movie from beginning to end, without falling asleep
-Have the chance to not only date, but have a real relationship
The picture attached, is me with a couple of great friends, celebrating an non-drinking New Year's Eve dinner....I'm on the far right.
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
Ok Gang-a-roos. You all have been so ultra-patient with me, while piling on the support, while I stepped away. Here now is a briefing of what I've been going through....
-Got the ok from Ortho Dr in June, that my pelvis is totally healed. 1-yr later, I am doing so well, and have forgetten that I had broken bones...THANK GOD I was in Super Fantastic Shape at the time of the accident, otherwise, instead of 2-weeks later, it wouldn't have been until Aug that I would of been walking on my own.
-I have been riding my motorcycle constantly since then
-Took on a 2nd full time job-bartending, down in a real rural/ghetto bar, but I'm being paid cash, so it's worth it, even though I work 20 hours some days.
-Sleep is a luxury, and I still try to get out once a week for some sort of social acitvity or dancing.
-Dating is out of the question and at this time..HA....time....so little time, so desperate for sleep
-Was supposed to have gained 5-8 per month for every month of not working out, due to injury. After 12 months, I have gained 10. Not bad, considering I no longer workout at all.
-I miss being in the gym, and taking off for hours on my bicycle...soon, it will happen again.
-I'm getting myself situated financially and the 2nd job is helping
-Had to repossess my house. Spent $15k with Back Pymts, Lawyer & Court fees, but I'm back.
-The Meth-Heads totally trashed my house, and I now am living in a skeleton of a structure. My borther is living with me and helping me get it slowly put back together and hope to have the renovations completed before summer.
In conclusion: I am Happy, Healthy and have the best friends in my life; in-person, and here on SP!!!
The blessing that are bestowed upon me are incredible, along with all the positive situations that have been happening, make any challenges seem so small.
Thanks everyone for hanging in there with me. When I have some MORE "time" I'll actually right a REAL blog and not just throw out bullet points.
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
I had to get myself up on my bicycle again, since the horrific cycling accident in Jan. To ease back into the saddle a friend brought over his super delux Trainer and mounted my bike on it.
At first, I ignored the bicycle...if I ignore it, will the pain in my pelvic not start to ache, if I ignore it, will it make it all better, if I ignore it will I ever get back to riding my bicycle?????
Yeah, yeah...the only that happened with ignoring the bicycle was, I didnt exercise and gained weight.
So one day I sat on the cycle, still mounted on the trainer. The anxiety that came over me was such a panic; body broke out in a sweat, breathing was rapid and shallow, I felt like I was falling...so I jump right off. Boy Howdy, that was the hardest thing I've done in awhile.
Took to sitting on the sucka every day, then put my feet in the pedals, then did a couple of rotations, until one day.....I suited up, and attacked the bike with a vengance...VICTORY IS MINE (I yelled...and I'm sure the entire apt complex heard).
Cranked up the IPOD, and hit it for an hour. Did that a few days, then one day it was time to graduate to the Great Outdoors.
OHHHH NOOO...darn that panic..TOO BAD, I had already taken the bike off the Trainer and I didnt know how to put it back...FORCED to ride it outside.
The pains of panic were coursing through my hands, arms, and legs, I ignored them and started out on the street; hypervigilante of any crack or deformation in the road.
Having to pass my first runner, just about caused me to fall off the bike, and when others passed me, I almost swerved into the drainage ditch....30 minutes was QUITE long enough for THAT 1st day.
Today was my 4th attempt at riding. I've gotten up to 50 miles at times, but today I took my friend out for her first ride on her own bicycle.....the cruise was GREAT. I felt so in control...oh yeah, I was the Pro with my student....chick-a-boom-boom...Pardon me while the MASTER coasts through this pathway...thank ya....thank ya very much....THEN P=O=P!!!!!!!!!!....
Ran over a screw so badly, it was unfixable. So we walked a few miles, until a Good Samaritan (G.S.) stopped to help repair my tire. After two patches, it was determined the valve was broken and the tire no longer would hold air.
My G.S., Frank, happened to be a bicycle repair man and had a full kit on his bike (except had run out of tubes). When he couldn't fix my tire, he called his wife, who brought the van and picked the three of us and our bikes up and dropped my friend and I at my apt.
...it wasn't 5 minutes prior that I was complaining that usually cyclists stop and at least ASK if you need help....and lo and behold...TAAAA DAAAA...The Calvery arrived (so much for my faith-how emBAREarsing).
This didn't scare off my friend and once I get my tube replaced, we are going to start biking as much as possible.
Here below are some photos of our biking adventure....my friend snuck off with my camera, and had some fun
1st photo is me and my GS
2nd photo is my friend is glam'in it up....sheesh, that girl, too much fun!
Wednesday, June 09, 2010
...and so here is an update
Cervix biopsy came back NEGATIVE!! Follow Up Pap in 4 months w/ GYN-Oncologist. She said that my cervix looks good....WOW, a nice sexy-looking cervix, what female wouldn't be all a blush with THAT comment?!?!?!
Buyers of my house (sold on contract-Im dedicated to the loan x3 more yrs) paid the Balloon Payment F-I-N-A-L-L-Y! I was able to catch up on a few months worth of bills.....now I need to check if June's payment has been made.....only 3 more years of this constant, monthly checkin up on.
I got a 2nd job today!!!! Wal-Mart is hiring me! I am so excited. Sheesh, at my age, I was certain they'd throw me at the front doors as a Greeter, but NO, due to my excellent work history, my current position at the university, my skills, my experience and my most CHARMING personality, I am being placed in the Electronic dept, where it takes a level head, to hand the Customers.....hmmmm, good thing I didn't mention my concealed weapon in my purse.
Down side to 2nd job-Play Time will be cut down, if not eliminated all together-at least until I get a little more steady financial foundation under me.
Up side to 2nd job-I will have the extra money to pay bills AND buy food. I dont mean the cheap-azz, high fat, calorie ridden stuff...But FRESH veggies, and FRESH fruit, yogurt, grains, and all the things I USED to take in for my healthy body....and for those that know my weakness for ice cream...lack of extra funds has at least eliminated that naughty treat from my diet.
I went on another motorcycle ride this past Sunday. Same route, all-day trip. Getting more secure, skills are building, and I'm actually enjoying the scenery as I ride, instead of muttering the mantra...ok, ok, ok, you will be ok.
Workout has been....well....yeah, NOTHING for 2 weeks. yeah, yeah I had a horrid stomach flu for 10 days, but still...the desire has just not interested me at all. Kind of had other things going on, and yeah, yeah I know, exercise helps with stress, gets your mind off of "stuff".....but for me......I just needed to rest, play, and find other forms of release....and AHHHHH, it has helped give me a renewal of strength and peace.
Challenging moments, but really nothing horrible, and for that I am so thankful. I have the BESTest friends here on Spark.
You guys check on me, even though, I've stepped back, gone into my cocoon. Thank you for your love and support....even if I'm not interacting much, I am so thinking of each of you every day, and your Check Ins, Comments, and Emails warm my heart and I feel so cared for....Thank you my friends!
I am doing so much better, and can feel my old chipper self bouncing back!!!
Mucho Amor, mi amigos!
A "peek" of me attending Salsa Under the Stars...although it was still daylight here at this time
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