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Tuesday, December 29, 2009

I did it. I "done myself in".

I gained 1.5 pounds, which is not all that terrible, but not good either.

What I am mad at me about is what those 1.5 pounds added did to my measurements.

INCREASE!!! Everything INCREASED including my neck!

How can a measley little 1.5 pound gain increase all of my body so dramatically?!

I'll tell you why.

I gave up honestly tracking my food, gave up doing my workouts and gave up eating wisely for the most part during December.

Sure, I got some good walks in, but not enough. I didn't touch my bike or rowing machine or weights. I did not dance.

Instead, I ate. And I ate. and then I ATE. Piggishly, I ate many times. Especially snacks that I have no business eating in the first place, not to mention repeated helpings of them!

Today I did 15 minutes on my rowing machine, and 45 mintues of strength training.

It's been so long since I did strength training that I forgot how to even do most of the ones I have on my favorite list.

While on the rowing machine, I looked at my arms. Good grief! They were flapping away so much I am amazed I didn't get air lifted! I intended to do 10 minutes on the machine, but watching the arm flaps, I increased it to 15 minutes.

I chose to work out with Bob Marley's Reggae music today. It actually has a better rhythm for strength training that my usual choice, Rock and Roll. I don't go as fast as I do with R&R, which gives me a better workout.

I weight lifted, exercised with the ball and full body stretch.

I need to get back on the beam and get back into shape.

I am considering....................remember, I said "CONSIDERING" putting a goal of walking 700 miles in 2010. That equates to 1.92 miles per day.

I can do 3 miles rather easily, so this number seems quite reasonable to me, considering some days I will not be walking at all due to varying weather conditions, family visits, vacations, the like.

So YES. I will commit to 700 miles in 2010. There you have it.

I will clear my charts on January 1, and begin my new year out with a clean slate.


I will behave myself for the rest of the year, Promise! Just get the goodies out of my sight!

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KAROUSELL46 12/30/2009 11:39PM

    I know what you are talking about. I'm afraid I gained back the 4 lbs I lost b/c I only went to the gym once so far this week but have done alot of walking. Went to Silverdale. I think you may have something there -- a clean slate. So look out 2010--here we come!(walking not flapping)lol

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NOTFATCAT 12/30/2009 7:29PM

    I believe you have 'seen the light'..........!
Good luck with that walking goal.
I want to walk a large section of the ODT this summer. Perhaps you would be interested in joining me, or getting some of the PA team together to do it.
Either way, good luck. You have a doable goal that will really help you.

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Jig, Jig, Jiggling

Monday, December 28, 2009

I have not been doing my Spark program well at all these past couple weeks.

I had all kinds of excuses, but they all fell rather flat when I thought them. None were valid.

Not walking was excused by saying "It's too cold". That is baloney, because I have warm jackets, gloves and furry earmuffs. The truth? I didn't FEEL like it.

Not eating correctly was excused by "It's the holiday season." The truth? I wanted to eat all the yummies of the Season with impunity. And I did, knowing all the while what I was doing, but just didn't FEEL like stopping.

Not tracking my food. "I'll do it later" or "I've already spent too much time on the computer." Truth time: I don't WANT to know or SHOW my Spark buddies how much I am pigging out.

No Strength Training. Again, I didn't FEEL like it. Truth? I didn't FEEL like taking the time.

The past few days I have begun FEELING little jiggles that used to be there, but had been Sparked off. My butt began to look like it was ready to grow again. I can feel jiggles coming in. My stomach doesn't look as trim as it had. I can see little jiggles there. My arms seem like they have more to flap about.

If I don't get out of bed, pee and then immediately into my walking shoes, I put it off and don't get around to it at all, other than walk over to my neighbor's for coffee and to the mailbox.

The past two weeks I have even had DH walking to get the mail.

Winsten has been wondering when he and I are going to hit the road. I ignored his messages that it is time. It is really pretty ridiculous when you start ignoring your DOG so you don't have to walk!

Today I turned away from all that nonsense. I got up, peed and put on the walking shoes. Grabbed the pedometer and timer, and out the door we go.

Yes, it is briskly cold out, but it felt good. We charged to the road, noticing that there are icey patches on it, and noting to stay on the side where the gravel is a little crunchy. Don't want to fall, you know!

We are cruising right along, and I notice that my breathing is more labored than it was when I was walking daily.

I keep pumping my arms to maximize my cardio workout, and notice the arms don't swing QUITE as freely as they did before. harumph!

Mile Two: Brain begins to kick in that "perhaps two miles is enough to begin again" when Smarmy Bitch kicks in for her comment. "Two miles?? TWO miles??? What are you THINKING? We will do no less that THREE miles, Chicky Babe!"

I haven't heard much from her lately, but today I actually smiled when she challenged the distance. Yes, we would do three miles.

Mile Three: My butt is really jiggling along. Now I can really feel it. I feel the muscles trying to push the fat away. My legs are straining a little more than usual, too.

But again, I feel the muscles trying to force the jiggles off my body.

Then I reflect on when I first started walking in September, 2009.

It was a true strain to get in one mile in about 35 minutes. EVERYTHING hurt and BOUNCED, not jiggle.

But I had committed to accepting a mile a day challenge for September with my Spark buddies. I doubted I could do it, but I was sure going to give it a try.

To my utter amazement, I learned to look forward to those walks. Then, even MORE astonishing, I INCREASED the distance, while cutting down the time!

Walking was becoming a wonderful thing for me.

And today, I learned that it still IS a wonderful thing for me! From experience, I know the jiggles won't take long to go away. But more importantly, I now know how easily they slip back.

Thanks Sparkies! You are changing my life..............for the better!

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BEA-N-ME 1/3/2010 11:27AM

    OK. I have no excuse! Even through the Rochester winter, I WORK AT THE MALL!! So, back to doing two laps on my lunch break. Two laps=two miles/half hour lunch, it all adds up! Thanks for helping me remember! Now if I could just start logging my food again....

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NOTFATCAT 12/28/2009 9:57PM

    Your poor dog!

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SCOUTHARPS 12/28/2009 9:39PM

  Yeah for you! Now I need to follow your example.

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DARCEYOH 12/28/2009 5:45PM

    I have trouble getting into the walking mood during winter. If I stay in the cold for too long, my teeth will start bothering me. Even if I'm bundled up, blocking the cold away from my face, It'll still bother me. I commend you on your walking efforts. Trust me, I'm right there with the excuses.

But it's time we get back in action and back to jiggling away!

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KAROUSELL46 12/28/2009 5:06PM

    Walking? I am a procrastinator when it comes to that. I was just talking to DD about I wish I could like walking. The main reason I don't is b/c I'm afraid I'll fall and can't get back up. Its happened to me before. I'll just have to recruite someone to go with me. You are an inspiration to me for all the walking you do. Keep up the great job! emoticon emoticon

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SEWINGMAMACDS 12/28/2009 4:40PM

    Walking is great and easy~ Glad you are back - and is is so easy to make up flimsy excuses - I think we all do it. Stay focused!

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ISEW4UANDME 12/28/2009 3:20PM

    Yes, walking is crucial. I, like you procrastinate. But I feel so good afterwards, so why don't I just do it!?! Well, I'm going to !! You're doing great!

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ROSEMARDORF 12/28/2009 1:30PM

  Glad you are back to walking!! Wish i could say the same for myself!!!
You are back on track with your walking, and walking 3 miles: you are amazing!!

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Monday, December 21, 2009

Believe in the goodness of life. Believe in the power of time to heal and to renew. Believe in the power of forgiveness and gratitude. Believe in the gift of rainbows and butterflies. Believe in the laughter of children.

I found this when I was reading my emails. Isn't it wonderful?

Sometimes life gets going at such a rapid speed that I forget to believe. I get so focused on my little ant-sized world and don't remember to lift my head and look at all the wonders that surround me.

I hold a one person Pity Pot Party. It goes like this:

I have all these things to do, and no help
My knees hurt
My back hurts
DH is driving me nuts
It's raining
I don't like the music on the radio
My desk is getting cluttered, and I don't want to clean it.

AH! THAT's what is going on! I am ignoring the fact that I am ignoring something I am procrastinating about getting done.

Procrastination is an evil force, and it lives inside me.

It says "eat, and you will be comforted."
"Stay too long on the internet until it is time to make lunch."
"Avoid anything that requires substantive thought".
"We don't FEEL like it".

On and on it goes, until it is the end of the day, and nothing but making the bed, getting dressed and eating has been accomplished. Facts of some of my days!

Today is a brand new package. It has never been here before, and will never come again. I must remember to open the package entirely, and not let it sit beside my on the floor while I burn daylight at this computer.

That being said, I am signing off now so I can see what is in the box.

I believe I will see some wonders I have ignored for a while, and surely, there will be new ones added!

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ANUT4DISNEY 12/22/2009 3:20PM

    Great blog.

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KAROUSELL46 12/21/2009 5:20PM

    This is food for thought today. Some days I feel like the UPS guy ran over my package.

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NOTFATCAT 12/21/2009 4:03PM

    I like the package part of that. Thanks.

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DXTREME45 12/21/2009 1:08PM

    Thank you for this. I really have been sitting on my own pity pot today. I feel so much better after reading you blog. Thank you again.

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DARCEYOH 12/21/2009 12:13PM

    Ah the joys of procrastination. I'm procrastinating about my work here in the office. I just do not want to do it.

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Today I Am Sad

Saturday, December 19, 2009

Today I am sad. John, one of my "Ally Kids", passed away Dec. 17 at the age of 16. The photo above is the one I made for him, and it's name is "Let Your Light Shine". I received mail from John, and surely, His light was shining through this young lad.

It is very interesting that on December 17, I started another Ally Cat Quilts by Krackers. I was a bit "low" emotionally, so I pulled John's photo off the wall and sat it next to my sewing machine for inspiration.

John and I quilted together for many hours that day, and I could feel God's presence with us as we prayed to the recipient of this quilt.

I know John is with the Lord God now, and was while we were quilting. I just wasn't "awake" enough to realize it at the time. John and the Lord came to inspire me to keep on with my Mission.

Yes, we do lose some of our Ally Kids, but we also are given the gift of seeing some of these kids be restored to health and happiness.

I love the photos of my kids, and we talk every day while I quilt. Some are in Heaven, and some are still Earth bound. They bring me inspiration, peace and comfort, along with a re-newed sense of urgency to make the quilts for them.

So my Christmas gift this year has been delivered in two ways.

One is the news about John, that he has gone to the Heavenly Choir to sing with the Angels, as John loved classical music.

The other is from Colton. Colton is doing very well, and is preparing himself for a bone marrow transplant. I received this photo of him this week.

And so it goes in my life today. Thanks so much for being there and listening to me! It is wonderful to have friends like you who truly care, and are such strong supporters.

Today I can be found in the quilt room. I have two teenage girls to quilt for, ages 14 and 16. I think I will do some crazy quilting for at least one of them, using lots of LIME and ORANGE. The kids love those colors, and they are a real "pick me up" to work with!

Love and appreciation to all of you out there, and remember: If you find any kids between 8-18 who are battling cancer, PLEASE let me know so I can get a quilt made for them.

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KAROUSELL46 12/20/2009 10:44AM

    Prayers to you and John's family. You are such an amazing lady and you bring so much comfort to these kids. I have a friend who lost her grdaughter to cancer. Bless you for all you do for the kids and thier families. I am so honored to have you as a friend.... emoticon emoticon emoticon

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BEVPRESLEY 12/19/2009 9:49PM

    I am so sorry for your loss. I'm sure the quilt brought him great comfort. You have a wonderful mission, I know there are many stars in your crown and many years from now you will be welcomed at the pearly gates by many, many smiling faces.

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GCHUNG 12/19/2009 7:29PM

    I am so sorry for your loss.

Look at that big smile - know that you were a part of that smile.

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WANNABEETRIM2 12/19/2009 4:54PM

    What a wonderful thing to do for these sick kids.
You are truly an earth-bound angel, bringing comfort and warmth to those in need.
May your life be filled with health, happiness, and blessings.

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MOMMA_BEAR_69 12/19/2009 4:13PM

    I am so saddened by your loss. How heartbreaking this must be for you but how fulfilling also!!! Blessings to you on all that you do for these children and I am sure their parents are blessed also through your selflessness. May God continue to bless you and them. What a great inspiration you are to all of us!!!
Blessings and hugs,

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MOMMA_BEAR_69 12/19/2009 4:13PM

    I am so saddened by your loss. How heartbreaking this must be for you but how fulfilling also!!! Blessings to you on all that you do for these children and I am sure their parents are blessed also through your selflessness. May God continue to bless you and them. What a great inspiration you are to all of us!!!
Blessings and hugs,

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MOMMA_BEAR_69 12/19/2009 4:11PM

    I am so saddened by your loss. How heartbreaking this must be for you but how fulfilling also!!! Blessings to you on all that you do for these children and I am sure their parents are blessed also through your selflessness. May God continue to bless you and them. What a great inspiration you are to all of us!!!
Blessings and hugs,

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SEWINGMAMACDS 12/19/2009 3:51PM

    What a blessing you are!

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LAVENDERGIRLL 12/19/2009 3:29PM

    Bless you. There are no words to express how I am feeling right now. I am saddened by your loss; but I am also humbled by all that you do for others and the children. It warms my heart to see someone like yourself who really does give everything she has with no expectations. You are the meaning of love and joy and what we should all look for in ourselves. Bless you and thank you.

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NOTFATCAT 12/19/2009 3:10PM

    You are amazing. I can't even imagine the sorrow and yhe joy you receive through your mission.
God bless.

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RELGRAM 12/19/2009 2:45PM

  Woman, you truly inspire many! God is blessing you as well as many others through what you do. Selfless service of others is what is really rewarding. Love and "You Go, Girl" to you.

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MARTYLYNN1 12/19/2009 2:30PM

    What a wonderful ministry you are doing. Such a blessing to the young people going through that horrible disease.

My husband & I have several elderly people in the area that we check on & try to help out when we can. We all have a gift that we can share if we just look for it.

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MRSJERRYBUSH 12/19/2009 1:22PM

    What a wonderful service you are doing! You are truly an inspiration to us all. Rejoice in the time you do spend keeping them warm and giving so much of yourself. THERE ARE INDEED ANGELS AMONG US!

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KAYDE53 12/19/2009 12:46PM

    Bless you in your service to these sick children. May God give you strength to keep doing this wonderful work!! And God bless those children, especially at this time of year when it's so hard for them to be ill. Merry Christmas!!! emoticon

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I Want to Share This Letter With You

Friday, December 18, 2009

Letter from Jesus about Christmas --

It has come to my attention that many of you are upset that folks are taking My name out of the season.

How I personally feel about this celebration can probably be most easily understood by those of you who have been blessed with children of your own. I don't care what you call the day. If you want to celebrate My birth, just GET ALONG AND LOVE ONE ANOTHER.

Now, having said that let Me go on. If it bothers you that the town in which you live doesn't allow a scene depicting My birth, then just get rid of a couple of Santas and snowmen and put in a small Nativity scene on your own front lawn If all My followers did that there wouldn't be any need for such a scene on the town square because there would be many of them all around town.

Stop worrying about the fact that people are calling the tree a holiday tree, instead of a Christmas tree. It was I who made all trees. You can remember Me anytime you see any tree. Decorate a grape vine if you wish: I actually spoke of that one in a teaching, explaining who I am in relation to you and what each of our tasks were. If you have forgotten that one, look up John 15: 1 - 8.

If you want to give Me a present in remembrance of My birth here is my wish list. Choose something from it:

1. Instead of writing protest letters objecting to the way My birthday is being celebrated, write letters of love and hope to soldiers away from home. They are terribly afraid and lonely this time of year. I know, they tell Me all the time.

2. Visit someone in a nursing home. You don't have to know them personally. They just need to know that someone cares about them.

3. Instead of writing the President complaining about the wording on the cards his staff sent out this year, why don't you write and tell him that you'll be praying for him and his family this year. Then follow up... It will be nice hearing from you again.

4. Instead of giving your children a lot of gifts you can't afford and they don't need, spend time with them. Tell them the story of My birth, and why I came to live with you down here. Hold them in your arms and remind them that I love them.

5 Pick someone that has hurt you in the past and forgive him or her.

6. Did you know that someone in your town will attempt to take their own life this season because they feel so alone and hopeless? Since you don't know who that person is, try giving everyone you meet a warm smile; it could make the difference.

7. Instead of nit picking about what the retailer in your town calls the holiday, be patient with the people who work there. Give them a warm smile and a kind word. Even if they aren't allowed to wish you a "Merry Christmas" that doesn't keep you from wishing them one. Then stop shopping there on Sunday. If the store didn't make so much money on that day they'd close and let their employees spend the day at home with their families

8. If you really want to make a difference, support a missionary-- especially one who takes My love and Good News to those who have never heard My name.

9. Here's a good one. There are individuals and whole families in your town who not only will have no "Christmas" tree, but neither will they have any presents to give or receive. If you don't know them, buy some food and a few gifts and give them to the Salvation Army or some other charity which believes in Me and they will make the delivery for you.

10. Finally, if you want to make a statement about your belief in and loyalty to Me, then behave like a Christian. Don't do things in secret that you wouldn't do in My presence. Let people know by your actions that you are one of mine.

Don't forget; I am God and can take care of Myself. Just love Me and do what I have told you to do. I'll take care of all the rest. Check out the list above and get to work; time is short. I'll help you, but the ball is now in your court. And do have a most blessed Christmas with all those whom you love and remember :



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POOH_BEAR_69 1/5/2010 7:39AM

    I'm VERY late, but wanted to say that this is beautiful and appropriate every day... Thanks so much for sharing!

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SCOUTHARPS 12/19/2009 12:06PM

  Amen, and thank you!

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DARCEYOH 12/18/2009 8:46PM

    Wonderful. Glad you shared it with us.

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MARTYLYNN1 12/18/2009 7:24PM

    Thank you for sharing. A lot of these are things we need to remember all through the year not just at Christmas.

God Bless & Merry Christmas to you and your family.

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    My friend Helen shared this with me, and I LOVE it! I hope you don't mind if I share it!!!!!

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MOMMA_BEAR_69 12/18/2009 6:27PM

    Thank you for sharing this wonderful letter. Wishing you a very Merry Christmas. Jesus is always the reason for the season!!! I wish more people would remember this!!
Blessings and hugs,

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MOMMA_BEAR_69 12/18/2009 6:26PM

    Thank you for sharing this wonderful letter. Wishing you a very Merry Christmas. Jesus is always the reason for the season!!! I wish more people would remember this!!
Blessings and hugs,

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KAROUSELL46 12/18/2009 3:10PM

    This is a great letter to share. Thanks....Karen

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MIMICOTO 12/18/2009 3:04PM

    This was really beautiful to read - thank you!

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BRENDAF761 12/18/2009 2:31PM

    Thanks for sharing your letter. I hope you have a Merry Christmas! Jesus is the reason for the season! Celebrate! emoticon emoticon

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