Tuesday, June 11, 2013
Well, I am just all about blogging the last few days- I have had so many emotions pouring out of me that I just have to put them somewhere- so basically, I found out that a lady that my husband has been working with for a long time- who I had SERIOUS reservations about- turned out to be a villain to my family- I cannot tell you how many conversations that my hubby and I had- and I told him....I do no trust her.....I dont know why- I just dont- he assured me that I needed to squash it- that it was all in my head- turns out it was SO not in my head- He abruptly quit working for her about 6 months ago- he told me that it was over some money/ hours breakdown (he is a contractor and she is an interior designer- who hired him to help on jobs she was working on)........she is single, after being divorced twice- and she has no kids, nothing to do but owrk, make money, remodel her home, take care of her dogs....etc etc etc.......well, my husband and I went on a marriage retreat last weekend- and while we have a great marriage and an amazing relationship- I could just tell that he had been struggling with something and finally this weekend he set me down and told me that she had been begging him to leave me and our 2 little girls for months- and finally she waited until everyone left one day and went after him- I am so upset- I want to hunt her down and just take her in my hands- but I have been reaching out to my girls for advice and comfort- and trying to realize that there is nothing else to be done- my husband did all that needed to be done- he just walked away- I wish that he would have left her sooner :( that kind of breaks my heart- but now I am left with all of these emotions- he waited 6 months to tell me- he said that he knew he had to tell me, but he knew what a hard time I would have with it- and he jsut wanted to wait until he felt like it was the right time- so now that all this time has passed- it is somewhat old news to him- not that he is taking it lightly, but to me it is like it happened yesterday- I do have to throw in the inevitable- and I am sure that you all can identify with this- she has a great body- no scars from babies- no stratch marks- no nothing- and now, with the info that my hubby has given me- I know that she made sure that he saw all of her before he even had a chance to register everything- it makes me want to cry thinking of all my loose hanging skin- and the thoughts that there is no comparison- God, I am crying my eyes out right now- how could someone do this to my family? To my babies? To top it all off, my husband is one of the sweetest nost caring people that you will ever meet- that being said, I know that we have passed by her a couple of times and they have waved to each other- and said hi in passing- of course, I have to be honest...not sure how I will handle it if I ever lay eyes on her- but I want him to hate her as much as I do- to know that she tried to ruin not only my life but my babies- I am sorry- I just had to get the poison out!!