I have heard that you have to hit your lowest point before you will actually do something to turn things around. I think I finally found my lowest point. The one that has motivated me to get going and stay going.
A few weeks ago I went to a play with my family. I couldn't keep up. I couldn't walk from the car to the theater, my husband had to drop me off at the door and then go park the car. I couldn't walk up the ramp to the second floor where our seats were. I had to stop and rest several times on the way. I was so worn out by the time I sat down I couldn't breath for 10 minutes.
Our grandson was with us and I couldn't even start to keep up with him. He was so fun to watch. I wanted to walk around with him and be part of what was going on but all I could do was sit in my seat and watch.
I spent the evening fighting tears as we watched the play. At the end of the play my husband had to go get the car and come pick me up. We couldn't even walk to the car together.
This seems to have been my lowest point. I started setting goals that weekend and haven't stopped. I seem to finally have found the motivation I needed to get busy. I want to be able to be active with my family and be part of what they are doing rather than just sitting watching everyone else play and have fun.
I have been tracking my meals in a notebook. Hopefully will convert to Spark People tracking once I get things going a little better. I got rid of all soda pop - just water, and lots of it. Once in a while I treat myself to some juice or flavored drink with lots of ice. I started exercising. All I can do is walk from the house to the road and back, but at least it's a beginning. Next goal is to go up and down my stairs at least once a day. I haven't seen my basement for over 3 months.
I'm slowly working changing eating habits. Healthier food and snacks. I have a long, long way to go but at least I think I'm finally headed in the right direction.
I'm not consistent with blogging or recording things on Spark people. I am so grateful for the web site and all the encouragement that I can find here. I have read and re-read articles and blogs for ideas and support. I love it here. This is a wonderful place to find help and ideas.
Thank you to everyone that shares and offers encouragement to those of us who are slow learners and shy about talking.
I usually don't share what's happening in my life. I decided that if sharing my mess will help someone else then it's worth it. I'm not very consistent so there will be stops and starts as I plug along.
I stayed up late with my husband last night (he is a night owl). I'm paying this morning. Since starting a serious exercise schedule I'm more tired and staying up late cost me big today. Too tired to do anything, went back to bed after breakfast and that helped a little. I'm going to set an alarm on my phone for 9:00 p.m. to give myself some time to get ready so I can be settled in bed by 10:00 p.m. Hope this works.
Lesson # number 5 million - Sleep is important, especially when making life changes and trying to reach goals.
It's been a crazy week. First my grandson has had a falling out with his day care and I will soon become the replacement day care. At ate 57 I hope I can keep up with a 6 year old. At least he will be in kindergarten in a few weeks so I only have 2-3 hours a day to try and keep up. His mom had a banking mess yesterday and I had to go help her get a loan and walk her through a new financial part of life. Today I found out I have a virus on my computer and now I get to reformat, YUCK. This is when I would usually throw in the towel and give up trying to find time for me for anything. I still plan to take time to exercise even if it means leaving a partly formatted computer sitting waiting. Trying to give time and care to myself is new and uncomfortable. Have to keep reminding myself that I matter and need care along with everything else. Computer will be down for a few days, hope I can keep up on my tablet.
It's been a while since I bogged. Still new at this and not sure how much to share or when to share it.
I have been going to physical therapy most of the year for back pain. I running out of visits that my insurance will pay for and I need something to keep me going. SOOOO, I joined a gym at the same place I've been going to therapy. The therapist says she will keep track of my progress in the gym even after therapy ends because she knows my history. If I need help I can still ask her questions. I've been going to the gym nearly every day since I joined last week. It's keeping me tired but I'm not quitting. I have therapy on Tuesdays and do my gym routine on Mon, Wed and Fri. When therapy ends I'm thinking of 5 days a week in the gym.
Haven't really addressed diet yet. Trying to get off the soda pop and eat healthy but not pushing this. One thing at a time. Once I get the exercise into some type of routine that sticks then I will work on the food area.
I have never stuck with any program as long as I have stuck with Spark People. There is so much here you can always find something new to try.
Thank you so much for all your support. Don't think I will ever stop being surprised by the wonderful responses to my reaching out. I'm seriously not used to this.
Several people mentioned depression, I have fought depression for years. I get really discouraged easily and it gets hard to keep starting over. With the wonderful support I'm getting here it helps me stick with my efforts to keep trying.
My long term (seriously long way away) goal is to be one of those positive people that offer motivation and support for others. Have I long way to go but on the path at least.