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Friday, January 25, 2013

What would I tell my younger self.

I want to go back to a young child, a very protected young child and very shy. My mom didn't make me eat my freggies, in fact for breakfast she let me have cupcakes. As a teenager I felt like I had the weight of the world on my shoulders, but looking back....I didn't; I was skinny. I just needed some self-esteem. Mom was a bit controlling and overly protective. She was an older mom too. I hated milk and only had it on cereal. Do you think that is why I'm so short...4' 8".

If I could go back, I'd talk with myself, but also to my mom. I'd tell her that a child needs healthy foods to help them grow. Being short caused a lot of my low self-esteem. A big time picky eater which has followed me into adulthood. I would tell myself that I can do anything I want to do, be proud that I am short, it could be worse. Also, I am proportionate. I would show myself that some foods are really good and to just taste it. After all 'You are me!' and I'm eating it.

I regret so much the things I missed out of in school and just to have a social life. I didn't go to a church youth group progressive dinner because of my picky eating. I didn't join girl scouts because I was afraid there would be eating and maybe sleeping over or as that only for boyscouts? Anyhow I didn't take part. Also, I didn't go away to college because of wouldn't find things to eat and I was afraid to move away from home. I had a very controlling and protective mom.

Back to Present: I still have a problem with freggies, a little more sociable and more self-esteem.

If I could attain my goal I'd have more self esteem and feel taller. Hard to believe, but when I am at my skinniest, I feel taller that gives me high self esteem. I would be able to eat better at restaurants instead of picking this out and giving special order to the waitress.

Working on me will be a lifetime project.

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FITNHEALTHYKAL 1/28/2013 12:06PM

    Court, working on us ALL is a lifetime assignment. May yours find continued blessings and reasons to celebrate and savor as you grow each day stronger and when you look into the mirror I hope you see the strong, beautiful woman that so many do in the reflection and BELIEVE!

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SHIITAKE 1/27/2013 10:30AM


You are a work in progress, my friend ! Just do your best ! emoticon

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LEXIE63 1/26/2013 6:35AM

    Interesting bit of self-reflection. I've been a bit controlling and over-protective too, with my kids, but with good reason as far as I'm concerned. What with one being badly bullied and mildly autistic, and with the other because I was abused as a kid, and then we both suffered at the hands of my first husband, which made me very scared about a lot of things. Sadly, how I was impacted my kids to a certain extent, but we have always helped each other through the tough bits, and they both understand why I am how I am. It helped, being able to talk about it with them.

Maybe your Mum had her reasons for being like she was?
Lex xxx

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DOOBRIE 1/26/2013 5:20AM

    I'm sorry to learn your mum let you down, although she probably thought she was being a good mum by being very controlling and protective. Also, probably thought she was making you happy by giving you cupcakes for breakfast! Some mums just don't get it right.

I can't see anything wrong with being 4 ft 8 ins. We are all different sizes. Why would any one of them be wrong or right?

I'm also sorry that learning to like foods that are good for you has been hard but pleased to see you are working on overcoming it. The best food, to me, is home cooked food and this is the best way to learn to enjoy fresh, natural food.

I would never have guessed you have problems with self-esteem. Your photos look like you are a beautiful and confident person.

I hope this insightful blog you have written will, in itself, help you to overcome your difficulties.


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NBARNES 1/26/2013 2:26AM

    Hmm, I'm curious about what brought on this stint of self-reflection. Makes me think about my own high school self. Plenty of mistakes, missteps and missed opportunities for sure - good topic, one we might all benefit from.

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LIGHTONMYFEET7 1/25/2013 5:53PM

    WOw..thanks for being so honest!! Good job putting YOU down on paper....and may we all take ONE step closer to being healthy after this BLOG Assignment!!!

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IRISHMUM3 1/25/2013 3:43PM

    Very interesting. I like your honesty. Remember - it is never too late to change or to experience some of the things you missed out on - you just need to find the means for doing it as an adult.

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HHB4181 1/25/2013 3:22PM

    as long as you're happy and healthy - that's what matters!

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SIL Update

Thursday, January 24, 2013

My SIL is home from the hospital with inhome hospice care.

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SHIITAKE 1/27/2013 10:26AM


My thoughts and prayers are with you all ! emoticon emoticon

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NBARNES 1/25/2013 10:16AM

    I hope the next few weeks can be filled with some good time together building happy memories. You're all in my thoughts. emoticon

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DOOBRIE 1/25/2013 2:16AM

    I shall keep your sister-in-law in my thoughts.


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GODZDESIGN95 1/24/2013 9:50PM

    I am. So. Sorry. Prayers.

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IRISHMUM3 1/24/2013 7:11PM

    Big hugs and lots of prayers for you and your family.

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Update on SIL

Tuesday, January 22, 2013

As some of you know, my SIL {youngest sister of my DH} has been battling cancer for about 10 years. My last blog had her gong to hospital, well she came home last Monday.
She is really having a bad day today and her son called 911. We appreciate all your prayers. Thank you so much. Prayers are what has kept her going. I'll keep you posted.

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ADAGIO_CON_BRIO 1/25/2013 7:53PM

    I am thinking of you all. emoticon

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GODZDESIGN95 1/24/2013 10:42AM

    Prayers going before the throne! emoticon emoticon

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STOPPLAYING2011 1/23/2013 11:55PM

    emoticon Sorry to hear that your SIL is sick all the best to you and your family i,ll keep you in my prayers emoticon we,re here for you........

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-SEVEN- 1/22/2013 7:14PM

    So sorry to hear that, Courti. I am praying that she is not in pain. This poor girl has been through too much! Hugs to you, your DH, BIL, and her son. emoticon emoticon

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MONIKA1948 1/22/2013 7:02PM

    So sorry! My thoughts and prayers are with you all. emoticon

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SHIITAKE 1/22/2013 5:11PM


My thoughts and prayers are with you all, my friend ! Big Hug!

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STLADEE 1/22/2013 2:10PM

    Positive thoughts to you and your family! emoticon

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NBARNES 1/22/2013 1:55PM

    Court, so sorry to hear about the latest relapse. It's so hard to find joy in days so filled with sorrow. My thoughts are with you, your dear sister-in-law and your families.

But don't forget to take care of yourself so you can help to take care of her... emoticon

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1MIN17SECB412PM 1/22/2013 1:50PM

    emoticon Sorrows upon sorrows for your family, especially her son and your husband. Dear Courti, poor Jill. Her battle is sooo HARD and I will pray for her. emoticon

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IRISHMUM3 1/22/2013 1:41PM

    Lots of prayers and big hugs.

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Just for Fun: Names for BLC

Sunday, January 20, 2013

Just for fun. I was trying to make up ideas for team names on BLC. They have to be a color.

I like fantasy, so what about the Purple Pixies {wait there is a Pixie group}, Fuchsia Fairies, Dusty Rose Disney, or for a western theme, the Red Ranchers. Emerald
Fitness: The Jade Joggers, Red Runner. White Wild Warriors, Violet Avengers,
Dark Blue Bull Dogs. Yellow Brick Roadrunnners. I know some are stupid names, but it was just for fun. Any other ideas.

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BECKYQUIGLEY 1/21/2013 2:53PM

    The Mauve Marauders! The Cerulean Chameleons! Rainbow Regents!

I like this game. emoticon

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1MIN17SECB412PM 1/21/2013 2:32PM

    THIS looks *fun* Courti!! Are you still working on it? Let me know what FAVORITES you come up with!! emoticon

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JBELICIOUS5 1/20/2013 10:27PM

    Cute! So fun! You didn't finish Emerald...Emerald Eagles? Emerald Epiphanies? Green Gypsies?

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ADAGIO_CON_BRIO 1/20/2013 5:00PM

    How about the Lapis Lazuli Losers? Or the Amethyst Admirables? Or the Mellow Yellow Magicians? Maybe the Goldenrod Genuises? Or maybe I just like alliteration too much! emoticon

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2LABS2LOVE 1/20/2013 4:35PM

    orange cheetahs.... (thinking of a fast animal)


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Re: Update on SIL

Monday, January 07, 2013

SIL going to hospital tonight. She has a terrible sore throat, weak, not eating, among other things, beside her cancer ills, side of face has been numb and MIL thinks her legs are starting to swell again. Please keep her in your prayers. Thanks.

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GODZDESIGN95 1/24/2013 11:10AM

    prayers going up!

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ADAGIO_CON_BRIO 1/14/2013 7:07PM

    I hope that all is well.

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    Prayers & Hugs! How is your SIL doing?

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SHIITAKE 1/8/2013 9:59AM


Hugs and prayers sent for all of you !

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PATTYKLAVER 1/8/2013 8:03AM

    Hugs and prayers are being sent her way.

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BARCLE 1/7/2013 11:57PM

    sending hugs and best wishes emoticon

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FITLIKENIC 1/7/2013 10:55PM

    Praying emoticon

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NBARNES 1/7/2013 10:14PM

    Yet another example to show us how blessed we are for our health. Good thoughts going her way.

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STLADEE 1/7/2013 8:43PM

    positive thoughts to you and yours!

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IRISHMUM3 1/7/2013 8:35PM

    Prayers sent! Big hugs to you all.

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DJ4HEALTH 1/7/2013 8:11PM

    emoticon emoticon

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KPACE7 1/7/2013 7:27PM

    Thanks for the update. She is in our prayers. emoticon

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-COURT- 1/7/2013 6:57PM

    No, when 911 gets there to take her, her son will call us and we'll leave to meet them at the hospital.

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1MIN17SECB412PM 1/7/2013 6:51PM

    emoticon Oh, Courti... emoticon Are you going with her? Poor Jill. I will lift her up, my friend. emoticon

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