Tuesday, November 12, 2013
There are always some kind of decision to make. What’s for supper? What to watch on TV? What do I wear? What groceries to buy? What doctor to go to.
DH needs to get his stress test if the consulting doctor says he needs it, even though his main doctor has been wanting him to get one. Said something about his EKG, which someone said doesn’t make a difference for a stress test…..Who to believe in?
We went to our eye doctor yesterday for DH appt. Looking at his info, she noticed that a medicine, prescribed by another doctor ( infection specialist) was for MERS. DH told her the specialist only gave it to him if his infection came back. Well, the specialist didn’t say anything about MERS. Why didn’t she be more specific? It is all cleared up in a couple weeks of going every other day for IV treatment and wrapping the arm. That was a few months back. His doctor said even that for a diabetic it would be more harmful.
Being diabetic he needs to watch out for things more than I do. It is just weird that it took his eye doctor to inform us that he could have died. So much we take for granted, but need to take serious because of his condition. The thought that I could have lost him….
A lady in one of my Bible classes just lost her husband. She tries to put on a strong front, but I can see the sadness in her eyes and her stance. She is strong in her faith, but it is still sad. She misses him. I could be in her shoes.
I am a Christian…1 Peter 5:7 Cast all your anxieties on him, for he cares about you.
But the flesh takes over sometimes and so does the worry and at times overwhelmed.
I woke up 4:15am thinking about writing this blog and was still thinking what all I was going to write at 5:18am. What worries do I have? The thought that I could have lost my DH. is scary enough. We don’t realize that what I take for normal could be very harmful to him. He will need cataract surgery sooner than a non-diabetic.
Had our blood work today. I know my cholesterol will be up….it was last time. Do I stress eat….worry eat….boredom eat….yes, yes, yes. I worry because my DH has only one functioning kidney and his meds can affect that. It MAY HAVE been like that since birth, but who knows? He is tested every year and will have this year’s test on Dec. 9. But I have faith!!
Matt. 17:20 ….if you have faith like a grain of mustard seed, you will say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move, and nothing will be impossible for you.”
We’ll know what his doctor says the following week as to it’s functioning…..
Still, we do accept all prayers.
I’ve been doing way to much worry lately on other matters and why? If I have the faith in God that I think I do, I shouldn’t worry.
Spending too much time on the computer. I have over 400 pieces of mail in my personal e-mail that I share with DH, but most of it is mine. Almost 500 on Facebook e-mail, which I rarely get on. I was keeping just the mail for certain threads I frequent on SP e-mail, but it has gotten way out of hand.. Not to mention the Sparkmail. I try to keep certain mail that takes me to what team threads I need. Even that is getting overwhelming.
I so need to declutter. the mail, trash, and files. Seems like all I do is sit on my rump, which is getting wider…..gee, I wonder why, and type on the computer most of the day. I don’t take the time to exercise except to get in what few minutes I need for a team.
I have two main active teams and one I have almost put on a back burner, didn’t do any of the challenge for this week and it was for ST and cardio, which I so desperately need. (sorry Pink Panthers)
I can tell I need the exercise from the ‘love handles’ and my butt is taking up way too much room on the seat lately.
I need to take priority…I was thinking about just deleting my SP account, but don’t really want to. I find I don‘t want to get on as much, which in a way is good; I need to take in consideration what is priority in life, my health, DH’s healthy, and Bible classes that I attend on Sunday and Wednesday with homework to do during the week. (which reminds me I still have questions for tomorrow’s class to finish).
DH likes to get on and play his games, so I don’t mind stepping away from the computer then. I can take that time to work my peddler, but that still has me sitting.
I’ve lost some interest in some activities like watching my soap, Day’s of Our Lives. I could watch that on the treadmill.
I feel like I don’t deserve that ‘motivator’ on my page. I need to get back to that mind set. What I NEED is a drill sergeant who will get me motivated to get off my duff and workout. Is there a team like that? Is there a Drill Sergeant out there? Someone who will say, “did you do this or that today, well then get in there and do it!!”
I need to get motivated, determined and work on this body, that is a priority. Seriously!
I’m going to be on Medicare next year, so I need a healthy body.
1 Corinthians 6:19-20
19 Don’t you realize that your body is the temple of the Holy Spirit, who lives in you and was given to you by God? You do not belong to yourself, 20 for God bought you with a high price. So you must honor God with your body.
Needless to say, I’m sure I’m grieving my Holy Spirit
But alas, here I sit writing all this.