Monday, August 24, 2009
For six weeks Iíve been unable to put weight on my right leg without really bad pain. So Iíve been unable to walk without a limp. Iíve gone from wearing a pedometer and getting my 10,000 steps a day, to trying to get from the bedroom to the kitchen with the fewest number of steps possible.
You can imagine I Ďve done a lot of sitting; a lot of time in my recliner with my feet up, listening to books on my ipod with my cat Rosie by my side.
I only go places I really have to go and where I can get what I need with the fewest number of steps. Getting in the car is difficult because it really hurts when I lift my right leg to get in. Iíve started backing up to the front seat, sitting, then swiveling around until Iím in position to drive. Still some pain there, but not nearly as much. I can only get in and out of the car about twice on any given trip, then I have to go home. Some days I wait for Joe to get my mail and put out my garbage so I don't have to walk to the end of the drive.
Iíve lived with chronic pain for about 7 or 8 yrs. This is the first time Iíve had pain anyone could ďseeĒ. Ususally, pain is invisible, except to me. Now I canít walk, so itís visible. I really donít like that.
Iíve tried chiropractic, massage, ice, rest, and now am scheduled for MRI and Orthopedic appointments.
All this has brought me to a lot of thinking about my life. Iím big on counting my blessings and start each day that way. Now Iíve divided my paper into two columns - Good and Bad. The Good column goes on endlessly, being thankful for family, loved ones, good health, excellent blood-work, seldom ill, nice home, nice neighborhood, reliable auto, steady income which does not depend on me working ever again, many toys like HDTV, ipod, endless art supplies and books, etc.
The Bad side has only one entry - Pain.
After my last massage late one afternoon, the following day showed some improvement for the first time. I began to have an hour or two during the day when I could put weight on my leg and walk around the house without limping! Still some pain, some residual soreness, and I had to be careful not to walk too fast or over uneven ground. Next day, even better. As long as I interspersed an hour of rest in between times on my feet, I could get around a little longer, still with some pain but not enough to make me limp.
Itís so amazing how the act of putting one foot in front of the other can be such a great and wonderful thing. Pain brings you to a halt and gives you lots of time to think. Iím so grateful now for the act of walking which we usually take for granted and have added it to my morning litany of ďThank You for...Ē
Iíve gained about five pounds over these past six weeks of immobility. I wasnít able to exercise much before the limping began. Once it took hold, despair set in; fear of never being able to walk again without a limp, etc. etc. The only thing I can do that feels good, when pain is bad and Iím so down, is eat. Now thatís a hard habit to break, especially after eight years of it.
But, hey, thatís why Iím here.
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
Well, I spent a day reformatting my computer and re-installing and tweaking everything. The only major problem I had was I couldn't get back online. I called Time Warner RoadRunner, my cable, phone and internet provider, and a very nice lady there worked with me for over and hour! Everything showed I was connected but I still couldn't access any website or email server.
I called my son's tech employee and he very nicely spent almost another hour with me on the phone - still no luck.
Then the TW woman called me back and said she found the problem. TW had quarantined my account due to a virus problem they detected. All fine and good, the virus is why I reformatted to begin with, but I can't believe they didn't FLAG my account so their own employees wouldn't waste so much time trying to resolve and issue that only TW could fix!
Also, if you pay for cable tv, phone and internet, you'd think they could send you an automated phone message if you've been quarantined!! You can believe I'll be writing a letter to them about that. So glad that's over.
You may remember, I decided to undergo a month of electronic impulse acupuncture in the hopes that it would help me with the chronic pain I've been living with for years. The result is - It DID! My back doesn't hurt, my shoulders and neck don't hurt, and all the general body aches I used to wake up with are gone. I feel so much better!
However................. It's like finding a miracle cure for pain and in the middle of it - breaking your leg!
I didn't break my leg, but I have a badly injured ligament in my right leg, up around where my leg joins my body. Every time I put weight on my leg I have excruciating PAIN.
I started with chiropractic, massage, ice and rest. I then went to my M.D. who gave me Ibuprofen and x-rayed my lower back and hip. I go back tomorrow to see him again and will ask him to refer me to an Orthopedic specialist. I have all the symptoms of a loose ligament - the ligament doesn't hold the bones tightly enough, so they move out of alignment. It's like your leg is out of joint. VERY painful.
I've gone from wearing a pedometer, trying to get in all the steps I can, to counting and planning every step so I don't have to take more than absolutely necessary. I limp.
Joe has been so sweet, picking up things for me at the store, waiting on me when I need it. I've tried to keep on living life the same, just a lot more slowly. I've learned from living with pain that if I just stop everything when I hurt, I'll never do anything at all. So I keep going.
Ever optimistic that improvement is just a day away.
Happy to be back here with my SparkFriends.
Monday, August 17, 2009
I'll be down a few days. As soon as I'm back online, you can be sure this is the first place I'll be!
Saturday, August 08, 2009
Over the years I've participated in various on-line communities, both health and diet conscious.
I've met a lot of interesting and nice women in my age group along the way.
None of those groups compare to the Spark People teams here. I love all the interaction and advice, the support and sympathy when needed.
Most of all, I love the way that no one pressures you, demands an accounting of you, tells you when to weigh in and reports your loss or gain to the group, examines your food diary and critiques it.
In other words, no one is controlling or pushy. Gee, it feels like we're all grownups with a plan of our own helping others with their own plan.
I love it!
Thanks to all of you for friendship and kindness.
Saturday, August 01, 2009
If you share a home with a cat, you know that you belong to the cat - not the other way around. At least from the cat's point of view.
Cats are very patient in trying to train their humans. After a while we know what it means when they sit in front of the door, or in front of their dish, patiently waiting for us the get the idea, lol.
Rosie sits in one certain spot every evening and gives me a buzzy twirping sound that means, "It's time for you to throw the mousies so I can chase them." If I don't do this, she refuses to come to bed with me unless I pick her up, carry her in there, and put her on the bed. Humph!
My good friend Joe is owned by Solomon. You can see their photo on my Spark Page. Solomon the King, runs to the counter in the dressing room in their house and jumps up there waiting to be brushed. He loves being brushed more than any cat I know and purrs really loudly during the whole procedure. He has patiently trained Joe, and later, me, to know just what we're supposed to do!
Neither Rosie nor Solomon thinks sitting on the sofa is acceptable, for some reason. Sitting in the recliner with their human is good, but never on the sofa. Joe and I accuse them of talking on the phone because they have never met, never been in the same house together, but have this thing about the sofa, lol.
I really started this blog because I need some thoughts and opinions about something. I often wonder if I should have another cat join me and Rosie in our home. Rosie is 3 yrs old and she's always been my only cat and is totally an indoor cat. Sometimes I wonder if she gets bored because I don't play with her enough. Or if she gets lonely for another of her own kind.
Have you ever BROUGHT IN A SECOND CAT to live with a cat who has always been an only child? Is it a good thing or not? Will Rosie adjust well? Should the second cat be a kitten?
I don't want to do anything to ruin Rosie's happy life, you know. She'd never forgive me.
I should also add that it's just Rosie and me living here. I wonder if it makes a difference, knowing that I am hers exclusively and not shared by any other critters - either the two legged or four legged ones.
Thanks for the comments so far!
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