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Thursday, June 30, 2011

I need a sponsor. Someone to call when I have an overwhelming desire to consume something that I know is bad for my body. Like AA. But EE instead. Emotional Eating.

Here I thought I was “knowledgeable” about dieting, healthy eating, and what is/is not good for me.

Well, knowledge isn’t everything. Sometimes you need a connection. An eye opener. A EUREKA! Moment. Something has to hit you on the head, bite you on the leg and drag you kicking and screaming into reality.

Emotional Eating. It just slapped me in the face yesterday, with a cold wet rag. And I woke up.

Having problems with my mother. Everyone pretty well knows I moved her down here a year ago to be close to me so I could help her in her old age. Anyone who has an elderly parent and tries to do the same knows how difficult that is sometimes. So, I won’t go into that.

But, BUT, didn’t I get into my car and drive myself to the store yesterday afternoon about 2 pm, solely to buy myself a pint of ice cream???? YES I DID. And didn’t I come home and eat every last bite of it???? YES I DID. Thank Goodness I didn’t buy a gallon carton, because I have no doubt I would have eaten all of it!

I thought about buying some salad veggies while I was there. Even walked through the produce aisle. I could NOT even contemplate a lettuce leaf. I was focused and obsessed on ICE CREAM.

AFTER I got home with it, ate it, felt guilty about it, I had this MOMENT when light came into my tiny little brain and drew a line between Mother-frustration and eating ice cream!!

Good grief. How long have I been doing this every time I get frustrated with her? This past year, for sure, which how long she’s been living here.

Have you ever had a EUREKA moment? There’s no doubt why that is shown in cartoons as a light bulb over a person’s head. The LIGHT does DAWN and you can see clearly. Then you are amazed that you haven’t made the correction before!

How can we delude ourselves like that? Apparently, it’s pretty easy. Then when we do see the light, it’s a “slap the forehead” moment. DUH. I feel like both Dumb AND Dumber.

But hey, Knowledge is power. The wrong emotion can drown it out, but the right emotion can turn it into an action packed plan.

So now I am working to stay AWARE. Yes, I know what the desire for ice cream feels like. Yes, I know what the taste of ice cream feels like. NOW I fight to remember what I feel like AFTER I’ve eaten it. Not just emotionally, but physically. My body, which seems to remain healthy despite what I put into it, lets me know that what I just poured into it is not optimum fuel and it’s working very hard to do something with all the stuff I just sent it.

I think of it as the Boys in the Belly. Yep. The Belly Boys. They shovel everything into special little places for processing and storage. They tell me when the storage bins are pretty full or when they are stuffed with corrosive junk. And they send me some good feelings when I send them the good, healthy stuff, too.

So. Trying to keep the Belly Boys happy. Trying to take immediate action when I get one of those emotional food cravings. Trying to figure out what that action will be and train myself to go to it immediately.

Trying to keep that light bulb burning. Eureka!


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ZEEDRA 7/8/2011 9:39PM

    Love your blog, Karen.
I see somebody else has already mentioned OA, Overeaters Anonymous.
I started going to online meetings in April and now also go to a couple of face-to-face, but I'm still not 100% committed to attendence (I think committment is one of my fears...or failure? or success?). But it's exactly what I need...the Twelve Steps cover everything "problem eaters" need. We begin by admitting our helplessness over food, which sounds negative but it's pure honesty. I'm not preaching (How would I dare???)...just sharing...because it's the famous "one day at a time" concept and it's still difficult for me to get three days in a row.

It's good to be getting down to the crux of the matter. I'll never leave Spark but I think I've hit on a great combination.

Still so glad you're back, Karen!

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SILLYHP1953 7/1/2011 2:41PM

    I love having an epiphany! I even named my cat Epiffany. She is Burmese and I had always wanted one...

There is an EE group, except it's called OA - Overeaters Anonymous. It's based on the 12 steps just like AA.

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DEMETERSCO 6/30/2011 6:50PM

    Great blog, Karen - gotta love those Belly Boys!
Me, too, to the ice cream!
Me, too, to elderly Mom pushing my buttons like no one else can.

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SOUPY18 6/30/2011 6:22PM

    Oh can I relate. If it isn't ice cream then a loaf of crusty bread will do just fine. Maybe we should start a chapter of EE. It would be overcrowded.

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    I can relate as well. Family members can really drive you crazy. We have to find a way to deal with them that doesn't harm ourselves. I struggled with it for years and it resolved upon my mom's death.

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JUSTJO66 6/30/2011 1:42PM

    I can definitely relate, too. It seems there are a lot of us emotional eaters out "there". It really doesn't even matter with me what emotion it is....just any old emotion will do. :o(. You are right...Knowledge is power......we will win this war. Sometimes when I get really down on myself (by the way it seems ice cream is a biggie for me, too) ...I try to remind myself of all the times in my life and other things that I have done "right" or been successful. The devil would have me believe that "this impulse eating and emotional eating is not controllable and that I will not win". But I remind him that "I AM in control of my body" and "I Will not let food or any other "thing" have control over my life except all mighty God, of course. :o)

Just keep on Karen....you will tear down these strongholds in your life ....and when you look back you will grin and even laugh at how "that big bad ugly monster" was only a wimpy dirty little insect. :o). Together we all can squash him for good. We are here for you.

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DGAIL51 6/30/2011 1:41PM

    Karen, I am your sister in the Ice Cream Cravers Club! That is without a doubt my biggest weakness. I have eaten a 1/2 gallon over 3-4 days, maybe quicker. I do always feel guilty afterward and will skip meals to try to make up for it, but that does not really make me healthier. Big Duh! My other weakness is chocolate. I know I am alone in that one (yeah sure)?????

Anyway, I have realized that I am an emotional eater as well, trying to feel some big hole while I dig myself deeper with the poor eating habits. I often wonder, what is wrong with me? What happened to the person I used to be who would never let food control me. Nuts, I guess. But this site does help, and of course, my SP pals. Being aware is half the battle.....or more.

We will make, one step, one decision at a time. I try not to buy that ice cream because I know the rest of the story, but sometimes I have a "oh what the heck" moment" and I do. That should be my warning, when I have that feeling or thought. Sorry for the book I just wrote, but I know you are strong and we can do this .
Donna G emoticon

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PJSTIME 6/30/2011 1:16PM

    There is going to be alot of company on this EE. I'm right there too doesn't matter, bored, sad, lonely, tired I fight it too.

BTW I loved the way you wrote about it in this blog. Belly Boys LOL

Ice cream is a downfall especially when it is so HOT.

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JEANNE229 6/30/2011 12:34PM

    Boy howdy! I could have written this one (not as well, but as emotionally charged!)

EE! We need a special group!

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NOMIS1 6/30/2011 12:18PM

    Boy can I relate to this. Ice cream is my "go to" food when I'm upset. Its also my "go to" when I am happy and feeling really good.

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FISHINGLADY66 6/30/2011 12:04PM

    Well it looks like I'm not alone either Karen. I had to chuckle reading this, because just last night I sat down to a bowl of Ice Cream. Something I haven't done in over a year. Right now I can't figure out what triggered it either. Maybe it was the heat. I worked in my flower bed several hrs. yesterday in 100 degree heat. Bless you sweetie. As Kay said "that's life". :0) lol

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VINGRAM 6/30/2011 11:18AM

    Glad I am not alone! I have gained about 5 lbs or so and am still waiting for the "eureka" moment. I haven't come all this way just to go back up again - - and I don't have the excuse of an elderly parent! Hang in there.......this, too, shall pass (or at least I HOPE it does!)...

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KAYYVAUGHN 6/30/2011 8:37AM

    Karen, that's not unusual. We all have them. You are just normal. If you never ate anything that wasn't healthy, I would worry about you. That's life.

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BELTONWALKER67 6/30/2011 8:26AM

    Boy, can I relate! We will win the battle with those "Belly Boys" one day at a time. Stay Determined!

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Friday, June 10, 2011

I made a trip to my childhood home this week. Have you ever heard the expression, “You can’t get there from here. You have to go somewhere else first” ??? Sometimes it’s true. Especially in the country roads of Texas. I need a toll road that takes me straight there without traveling back roads with only one lane each way so that I’m always behind a farmer on a tractor or 3 dump trucks!

Anyway, I went home in more ways than one. My mother and I were going to the funeral of my aunt, her younger sister. She was 82 and lived a very dynamic, sassy life. No regrets! Now my mother and her youngest sister are all that’s left of 10 siblings. While there, I visited with all the cousins who were such a big part of my childhood they kept me from realizing I was an only child. I had a wonderful childhood, thanks to them and all the aunts and uncles. It was good to share all our memories.

I especially enjoyed seeing my cousin Michael who was the Fonzie of my life. He was Fonzie from Happy Days long before there was a television Fonzie. Michael was so cool. He had the long combed back greased down hair and the leather jacket. I used to sneak into his room and read Mad Magazine. I was thrilled when he spoke to me. LOL. He marvels at all this now that I tell him about it.

We never know the impact we have on the people around us, do we?

Anyway, on my return trip, I used my GPS. There are so many possible routes, I can never figure out the best one, so I decided to have faith in my GPS. It always has a plan.

I reached a city that was the midpoint in my journey. There were some construction detours so I followed my GPS faithfully, even though the street names were unfamiliar. Finally, I approached an intersection with a highway I knew was on my way back. Happy to hear/see a familiar road. As I came up to make the left hand turn, there WAS no left hand turn. Just a pile of rubble and concrete barriers.


If you’ve ever used a GPS, you’ve heard that, lol. And doesn’t it sound like it has a little attitude? The more you hear it, the more it has. Don’t you talk back to it now and then? Admit it, lol.

Of course, the next alternate route was to turn right and I was still in the left lane and had to pass that up, too.


On and on we went. I wish I had counted how many times I heard - Recalculating!
But you know, it never gave up. It always found a different way. Sometimes I felt I was going in circles. Sometimes I felt I was going backwards. Many times I knew I just wasn’t going anywhere. But I did.

My GPS kept on Recalculating! And finally, we got out of that hole, that whirlpool of circling. We arrived at our destination.

Doesn’t this remind you of our Spark People journey? Lots of false starts, wrong turns, backtracking, and recalculation.

So let’s don’t stop Recalculating!

Eventually we’ll arrive at our destination.

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SHASTA11 6/16/2011 11:22AM

    Too bad we don't have internal GPS's, although I'm sure some of us do. I need one.

I'd love to try a GPS just to have some fun. What a dull life I lead.


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MORTICIAADDAMS 6/10/2011 10:33PM

    Loved the blog, GF. LOL.

You can't get anywhere in Southern Illinois right now due to road construction.

I'm so sorry about your aunt. My grandmother was the oldest of 10 children who were up to 17 years apart. She and the baby were the last ones alive.

I loved Mad Magazine as a child.

I have my own internal GPS.

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FISHINGLADY66 6/10/2011 3:36PM

    Great Blog my dear friend. I never have used a GPS, but I know people who have. My dear hubby likes to look up different routes on the Net and try them. We have detours on the way to our lake now, because of bridges being replaced, so dear hubby looks up a new route. About 2/3 the way there, there is another bridge out. We had to somehow turn around, not easy to do, and go all the way back to where we should have taken the original detour. :0). LOL. Glad you had good memories with your cousins. I really enjoyed your blog. Hugs.

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PJSTIME 6/10/2011 2:48PM

    What an adventure you had I dont' have a GPS but have seen those commercials about "Recalulating" so you finally made it home.

Yes we do recalulate on this journey too.

I bet you made your cousin smile when you told him he was your Fonzie. Did he know you snuck in his room to read the Mad magazines?

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SILLYHP1953 6/10/2011 2:40PM

    I love your analogy! And from now on I'm going to think differently when I hear those words "recalculating"!!

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MAMALAW 6/10/2011 1:25PM

    OOOOOOh so true! Seems as though I'm always recalculating my life with or without a GPS...lol

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VINGRAM 6/10/2011 10:48AM

    Love the comparison - and yes - the GPS does have an attitude! vista emoticon

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KAYYVAUGHN 6/10/2011 8:38AM


The GPS and our journey are great comparison. I agree with Linda that this should be published. You are quite a writer.

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BELTONWALKER67 6/10/2011 8:14AM

    I agree, this should be published! What a perfect comparison for our Spark journey. The GPS lady has provided entertainment on many of our road trips! Great Blog, Karen.

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DGAIL51 6/10/2011 8:04AM

    Yes, Karen, I have talked back to my GPS regularly, I admit. But, she never seems to take it personally, like I do when i have to "recalculate" my journey, especially my Spark journey. LOL. I then talk back to myself in very negative ways, so I could learn something from my GPS lady who just "recalcuates" without hesitation or recrimination! No negative self talk saying "oh darn" I messed up, just on with the business of getting there. Great lesson! Thank you for sharing as always.

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MADAMES 6/10/2011 7:59AM

    What a perfect metaphor, comparing the weight loss journey to a GPS journey!! You should publish this!


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LEEZAB 6/10/2011 7:49AM

  The recalculating theme is one I have to remember when I STRAY from the plan! Thanks for sharing that. Sorry to hear about your Aunt. It was a blessing to your mom that you and she were able to make the road trip together.

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Veggies In Your Blood

Saturday, May 14, 2011

My DIL had some complications in the second week of recovery from her double mastectomy. She developed a 4" blood clot in her leg. She is a 41 yr. old, healthy, active, working mom, not overweight. She wore the stretch stockings and did everything she was supposed to do, so doctors were surprised with this development.

They hospitalized her for 5 days because she seems to be among the 2% of people who do not respond to blood thinner injections. It took a while for them to find a medication that would work. Long, painful, scary ordeal that will take her six months to recover from completely.

Because of this, she has her blood tested twice a week to monitor the level of the blood thinner and be sure the blood clot is dissolving at the rate it should.

During her second week of blood testing, the doctor asked her if she had eaten salads and/or green leafy veggies. She had. Her doctor told her to either eat them every day or not eat them at all during this period of testing, because the Vitamin K in them was affecting the thinness of her blood!

Here is a link that explains this.

It sort of popped my eyes open! We know that what we eat has an effect on our body, we read it all the time. So yes, I knew that. But it was amazing to me that it really showed up right away in a blood test. Made me realize how much what we put into our mouths really becomes us.

Yes, we are what we eat.

"Dear Body, please forgive me for all the junk you have had to process! I didn't realize you took it so personally!"


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CHALLENGER15 6/30/2011 4:26PM

    This was amazing to me. I have a dear friend who is living a medical nightmare right now because of blood problems, vitamin k issues, etc....I am going to question her sister about this.

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    Your poor DIL has certainly been through the mill. I can relate to the testing she is going through. I had a severe vitamin K deficiency when I was young and had to have clotting times done all the time for years.

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GRYFFINSONG 5/23/2011 8:33PM

    I'm just reading this now, Karen. Hugs and healing wishes to your daughter-in-law!!! I had a double mastectomy in December of 2008. It's an interesting and scary road, and if she needs anyone to talk with or ask questions of please don't hesitate to point her to me.


Comment edited on: 5/23/2011 8:34:12 PM

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FISHINGLADY66 5/19/2011 7:03PM

    I hope everything is alright not. Sorry I'm late, I have been out of town.

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SILLYHP1953 5/17/2011 9:04PM

    Our bodies truly are amazing, thanks for reminding me! I hope she recovers from this quickly and completely.

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JUSTJO66 5/16/2011 1:49PM

    It is amazing isn't it how wonderous we REALLY are...... I'm glad your DIL is doing better. And okay, I need to ask forgiveness, too...... I have really mistreated my poor body over the years.......but yet, like a faithful friend it remains....still willing to forgive me.

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KAYYVAUGHN 5/16/2011 5:50AM

    Our bodies are complicated, and we do need to educated ourselves more on what to eat and not eat. Spark People tries to help us through articles and other means of communication.
Karen, I do hope that your DIL is better.
Take care,

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DGAIL51 5/14/2011 10:56AM

    Our bodies are so complicated and as much as we know, mysteries remain! It is always such a shock when something like this happens to a healthy, fit person. I have a 28 y/o niece that had a similar situation. I wish your DIL the best in this difficult situation. Donna G emoticon

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GOALIEGRANDMA3 5/14/2011 10:39AM

    My husband takes warfarin ( a blood thinner) everyday due to artificial heart valve. He gets his blood tested every month, and sometimes even 2 weeks or a week due to differences in his diet. In the summer when he eats more veggies from his garden it is affected the most.

He also has to be care not to eat too much grapefruit.

Best wishes for a speedy recovery for your dil. emoticon

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JENNY888 5/14/2011 10:27AM

    I wish your daughter the best of luck in her recovery. Thanks for the information.

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Oven Roasted Veggies

Friday, May 13, 2011

My main course for the last two days has been assorted veggies drizzled with olive oil and lots of chopped garlic, then roasted at 400 degrees for 20-30 minutes, depending on the type of vegetable and size of the pieces. Yummy.

I just add grilled chicken or browned lean beef or maybe a couple of boiled eggs to my meal. Lean protein and lots of veggies - a way of eating that really agrees with my body.

Having new sod put in so I've been in the yard for two days, watering, etc. Lots of deep knee bends, lol.

Friday has always been my weigh in day, so I'm officially logging weight now, too. Rolling right along.


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    I love oven roasted veggies too and often mix a bunch of them together and make a pan full.

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SILLYHP1953 5/17/2011 9:05PM

    That's how I've started preparing vegetables, so easy, quick, and healthy.

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DGAIL51 5/14/2011 10:57AM

    Yum-m-m!!!!!! I will try this today.

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JENNY888 5/14/2011 10:33AM

    I love roasted veggies. I went to a buffet Friday and the best thing there was the roasted veggies.

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PJSTIME 5/14/2011 6:20AM

    I like roasted veggies too really any kind of veggies. Your doing great Karen. Keep it up.

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STEPPYSUE 5/13/2011 11:04PM

    I just watched a cooking show where they roasted carrots and potatoes. Did they look good!

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FISHINGLADY66 5/13/2011 8:41PM

    emoticon to you. I love roasted veggies too. I could live on them, but I also need my protein. Deep knee bends are good exercise. emoticon

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GOALIEGRANDMA3 5/13/2011 6:53PM

    Veggies sound delish. It is so nice to see you active on spark again, or maybe I have just not been looking in the right place. Anyway, glad I found you. emoticon

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On the way.

Thursday, May 12, 2011

I was supposed to start my personal challenge today but I was so excited yesterday after blogging about it, I started early, lol.

All those freshly picked veggies I bought at the Farmers' Market were delicious in a large raw salad. Turnups, carrots, spinach, cucumbers, tomatoes, sweet peppers, etc. fresh from the earth. Didn't really need any dressing, just a little red wine vinegar. Yum.

I also did 20 minutes on my recumbant bike (for my knee joints). This morning I feel great, inside and out.


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    The salad sounds wonderful!! You are on your way!

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SILLYHP1953 5/12/2011 8:47PM

    I think we have a farmers market, but not sure, got to check it out. Good job on your personal challenge today!

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VINGRAM 5/12/2011 5:55PM

    Farmer's Market open here in KC......will have to check 'em out while I'm here!

SO GLAD YOU ARE BACK ON TRACK!!!!!!!!!!!!! vista emoticon

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JUSTJO66 5/12/2011 12:29PM

    Yummm, your salad sounds delish!! Kudos to you.......

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FISHINGLADY66 5/12/2011 11:34AM

    “The difference in winning and losing is most often… not quitting.” ~ Walt Disney
That's exactly what you have done, I'm so proud of you. emoticon

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JENNY888 5/12/2011 9:36AM

    You have inspired me this morning. I love the positive attitude.

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PJSTIME 5/12/2011 7:02AM

    Thats what we want to hear. Yea Karen. I love a salad too and I put everything in it but the kitchen sink.

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KAYYVAUGHN 5/12/2011 6:51AM

    You are really on your way. The salad sounds delicious.
What time is lunch today?

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