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Every Little Step

Tuesday, October 16, 2007

I have been holding steady at 213.2 for a couple of weeks but I got on the scale this morning at it had moved, ever so slightly, AND in the right direction. I've lost another 1/2 lb.

I don't feel like I'm depriving myself at all this time. I'm just eating and eating right, finally. It's helping my weight and it's really helping my blood sugar...so it's a win-win situation.

I've even began to get moving, doing lots of daily treks up and down the stairs (hey, gotta start somewhere) and walking to the mailbox a block away instead of putting it off until I drive by it. Every little bit counts, I guess. I plan on moving more after my check-up Wednesday (my doc had told me to take it easy for a while) and we see where I stand, overall health-wise.

I'm getting there, slowly but surely. I'm just 2.1 lbs from being 25% to my goal. Now THAT is something.


Back at it

Saturday, October 06, 2007

When I was diagnosed with diabetes 15 days ago, it felt as though my world had come crashing down around me. It felt like a death sentence of sorts.

But in two short weeks I've come to see it much differently. It is nothing more than my body FORCING me to do what I should have been doing all along, take care of myself. If sheer willpower isn't enough then diabetes will be!

I have been "back at it" here at Sparkpeople for 2 weeks, taking my meds like I'm supposed to, eating right, and the weight is starting to come off. I know that this time it will continue to come off, too. I want to live a long life and the only way to do that is to take care of myself, so that is what I'm doing.

Sometimes it takes life slapping us in the face with something like diabetes for us to do the right thing.

Now I am.


Lessons Learned

Saturday, March 17, 2007

I learned a very important few lessons this week....

First, that all is never lost in this journey toward health and weight loss. I had a weekend home with family that foundme over indulging in things that I knew would cause me to see the scales move in the wrong direction. I knew what I was doing and chose to do them anyway. I accepted that and remained accountable to myself so the movement of the scales upward instead of downward was not a surprise and something I took full responsibility for it.

But, knowing what I had done, I chose to get back on the wagon, eat right, exercise, make sure to get my fruits and veggies, fiber, protein, carbs (for energy), and all the other nutrients I need everyday. I also made exercise a bigger priority than I have in recent days (weeks?).

By Friday, the regular weigh in day for me, I stepped on the scales expecting a slight rise from last week...but that is NOT what I saw. I had managed to maintain my weight at exactly what it was last week. A week of maintenece...and that thrilled me beyond belief!

I know that I can't go hog wild every weekend but I learned a valuable lesson this past week. If I do go home to see family and choose to indulge, I can rectify it by not calling the week a total waste and continuing on that path....I can get back to "work" at it hard and heavy and counteract much of that decadence with eating right and some hard work in the exercise area.

All is NEVER lost...even if I had shown a gain, I can choose to continue on, work hard, take care of me and my body, and work toward my goals of health, fitness and weigh loss. THAT is the route to success.

Another lesson I've learned is that we can't be all things to all people...and some people are not what they at first appear. There are those that truly love and care for us just as we are, imperfections and all; and there are those who have some set of ideals of what you need to live up to in order to be their friend. And when you don't live up to those preconceived notions of what they want or expect from you, when you make a mistake then you are no longer worthy of being their friend.

Those are not the kind of friends I need. I can be the most supportive and kind woman there is...all I ask in return is give to me in return the same kind of support that I give to you. True friendship is a give and take, a place where you know you can be yourself without fear of judgment ...and not a place for being kicked when you're already down, harsh judgments and just being made to feel as though you are not living up to the other persons preconceived ideals of what you SHOULD be.

I learned this week that I do NOT need that kind of negativity or being attacked in my life. I need to surround myself with those who truly care about me and not about projecting their own agendas into my life...people I care about and feel good supporting and cheering on when they have accomplished something great, and being a shoulder to lean on when things aren't going so great.

THAT is what real, true friendship is about.

I am thankful to have that here in the form of two of my best girlies.

Thank you Nadine & Robin. You two are my rocks when I need somewhere to lean....and you both know that I will be yours when you need it, too.

All of life is a learning experience...and I am so happy to be learning so many great lessons everyday, as I grow healthier in body and mind.

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    Ok..you need to come back and re-read this blog.
Yes...you've had some major changes in your life in the past couple weeks, and that has thrown your schedule out of whack, but now it's time to make a new schedule, set a new routine and get back on track!
Yes...I love you, and I will support you no matter what.
I loved you at your heaviest, and I'll love you at your thinnest..and everywhere inbetween!
But I know that YOU want to be healthier and leaner...so I'm here to kick your butt into gear!!
So....get on it! Only you can make this difference!

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MINI-ME-2B 3/21/2007 3:55PM

    Um, I looked for this a few days ago & it wasn't there! I DID I DID I REALLY REALLY DID! LOL

I'm loving this attitude. I've had more than a few of those overindulgence weekends. If you enjoyed it, then it was worth it. And you got it out of your system. Knowing that we can have those times occasionally, and not letting it sabotage us, but moving on & staying on track, is what will get you to where you want to be!

And, for as long as you want & need me to be here, I will be!

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HAPPYWALKER 3/17/2007 11:52AM

    I love your attitude. You are very insightful. Getting up and dusting yourself off is the most important part of this lifestyle. We're never perfect at it. The most important thing is to keep your eye on the prize: good health and well-being with a gorgeous bod! Much success to you. Mary

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Better than Ever

Tuesday, February 27, 2007

I've heard it said so many times that so much in life is dependent on your attitude but never has it meant so much as it does now.

Not only am I finding that my attitude affects my weightloss and my drive and determination in that arena, but the more I read in "The Secret", I can see how it affects my everyday life in all aspects.


I'm finding it very strange that the more I am utilizing the Laws of Attraction, the more it is working. Right now it is small ways but I can feel that it's working for me on a much grander scale, too. There are big things coming my way and I can feel it, I sense it...I know it!!!

I've hunted high and low for a job for months, but I have sabotaged myself with thinking that nothing good is going to come my way in a small town like Hamilton. Yet, when I made the conscious decision to change my train of thought (something PERFECT is just around the corner) and began seeing myself there and being happy at that job, the phone started ringing. I've had two call backs just today....when I've gone months with none!

Life is good and it's only getting better!

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MINI-ME-2B 2/28/2007 11:04AM

    Life is how you look at it, ain't it? I now understand the phrase, "Perception is everything."

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Mess Up

Thursday, February 22, 2007

Confession time.

I have done REALLY good for weeks...no slip ups, planned splurges but no slip ups...until today.

I went to a really crappy job interview...it was more of a cattle herd of about 15 of us who were not interviewed but tested on a bunch of 2nd grade BS that didn't matter didley to the job at hand.

THAT is not what I was told when I was called back for this "interview". I was livid. After the "test", which if finished first, we were sent into the "interview" room and told how our score was (mine was perfect, duh! it was a stupid test!) and they'd call us if and when any openings came up that were within our qualifications.

Yes, I spent over an hour of my life for this crap...and it made me mad...and hurt. I NEED a job, not a big bunch of the runaround.

I need a job so bad it hurts and this load of crap I was spoonfed today just got the best of me.

So, what did I do...I came home and ate not one, not two, not even three or four, but FIVE chocolate covered cherries (total of 375 calories), followed up by a bowl of cereal (unmeasured but easily 1 1/2 cups with a cup of milk...another 350 calories) and I washed that down with a handful of sunflower seeds (about 1/4 of a cup...at least another 200 calories!!!)

Then I sat down and cried.

And I cried and cried so hard until I was sick...so sick that I threw up.

Then I went to bed for 3 hours.

Yea, I'm having a great day.


And tomorrow morning is my weigh in and I dread it. No amount of water can make this better. I'm just not in a good place right now (at this moment) and I am so dreading seeing what the scales say.

But it's all my fault...I knew better and I did it anyway.

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MINI-ME-2B 2/22/2007 9:13PM

    barb, calm down. it may not even show up tomorrow. and if it does, then it will be gone the next day. its only one day honey.

believe it or not, you're not perfect (cept to richie!). you're not superwoman. you are human. as are we all.

and we all make mistakes. and we move on.

and you will also.

hopefully, getting this out of your system helps. thats what the journal is for. don't dwell on it. don't guilt yourself. you did what you did and its over.

*hugs you* i do understand. took you almost two months to screw up. babe, that is GREAT. believe it or not!

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    OMG.... you are WAY too hard on yourself. I mean, you had a bad day, You did something you thought would make it better, OK, you were wrong, its not better. but.... come on, if youve done really good for weeks... you can do really well for the next few weeks (with this out of your system). Your body obveousely was telling you it needed something. Tomorrow is another day. Be happy with what you have accomplished, and continue-

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