Friday, September 26, 2008
So my husband, Aubrey was laid off this week. They let his entire department go.
So what now? Well, we stress out, Aubrey sends out his resume like a mad man, and I attempt to not eat everything that comes into my sight. Sounds good?
Before all of this crappiness happened, I signed up for a research study for GAD. I've gone to the first appointment, where I got to sit around for about four hours!! Whoo hoo! They did a physical, took about a gallon of blood, and I talked with a therapist. He determined that I probably do have GAD, as well as social anxiety. Um, can I say duh? We didn't get into the OCD or the agoraphobia, but they didn't have anything to do with the study. But anyway, I'll find out on Tuesday if anything in my blood disqualifies me and then I'll be taking the study medication and meeting with the doctor for the next couple of months.
Oh, they also realized that I have incredibly low blood pressure. Like way below normal. The doctor said that it should be fine and is probably due to the fact that I exercise for at least 30 minutes a day, most days of the week. But then, that could also explain some of my health issues. They are all symptoms of having low blood pressure, and could possibly be helped by taking in more sodium and caffeine.
I hope you all are having a much more fabulous week.
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
So I usually update my blog more often, but I have been pretty busy. Also, I get frustrated with my routine easily. I've been completely switching things up again. I'm trying to eat less calories, while still getting in enough protein. This is a gargantuan feat for me! I added up the calories for a particular day and only was going to have 38 grams of protein! So I added a protein smoothie, which brought me to 55. So I had to add a few more things to get above 60, which is my goal.
I feel like there are many days where I could cut calories easily, but I need to keep them in order to reach my protein goal.
My problem with protein? I don't like the taste of meat. YUCK, I can't even think about it. The only way I can eat it, is if it's disguised. Like breaded chicken or shrimp, I can't eat it if I tell that I'm chewing on meat. However, I try to stay away from popcorn chicken and shrimp, because the deep fried-ness of it all really does a number on my stomach now!
My stomach can only handle limited dairy and soy. I LOVE various kinds of beans, but when I eat them too often I get constipated.
I also love high protein cereals and bars from Kashi. But I also love other cereals that don't come with the protein punch.
Ok, so I've been whining about protein, so what's the solution? Get off my butt and stop complaining! So because I'm so darn picky, I need to remain active to make up for those extra calories. In fact, eating a little extra allows me to do more activities. I don't have to worry about my body going into starvation mode when I exercise extra hard one day, because I'm sure i'll be eating enough to cover it!
So I've realized I'm bad about getting enough protein in my day. What's been the hardest thing about this process for you?
Monday, August 18, 2008
Hello fellow Sparkies. I hope everyone had a good weekend! It was incredibly too hot. I thought with the 100+ degree days I was going to die! But it was also a learning experience for me. The entire weekend I ate whatever I wanted, whenever I wanted. And as you can tell from my blog title, I'm down a pound.
To explain, I did not eat a pile of junk food with abandon. Basically, I refused to let myself overly obsess about each and every calorie I was eating. I still tracked my food, but I tracked it AFTER the day was over. Instead of planning it the day before (like I usually do). All week long I've had cravings for doughnuts and Toblerone. Which is strange to me because I have never had a Toblerone in my life. I even went to the website to learn more about it. I was tired of just hearing "oh my gosh, it's like heaven in your mouth!" from people.
I didn't have a doughnut or a Toblerone this weekend. Once I gave myself the option, I just....really didn't feel like it. We went to my husband's family reunion on Saturday and I allowed myself to eat whatever I wanted there. That happened to include two big chocolate chip cookies and a brownie, in addition to the other food. They tasted pretty good! I still told myself if I wanted something later, i would have it and not obsess about the fact that I had already had some sweets. Later on, I really wasn't thinking about it.
Then yesterday I was nervous because family wanted us to go out to eat with them at a restaurant that should basically just be called "Don't come here unless you want a burger the size of your head, filled with lard." But then, I don't think that'd be a good marketing strategy for them! I ended up getting a side salad. That's it. They had some, I guess you call them, "meal-type salads." But none of them sounded good. I'd have to ask them to remove about 50 items before they would resemble something I would eat. What's wrong with adding more veggies to a salad? Nope, I had the options of bacon, ham, turkey, chicken, croutons...yuck, yuck, yuck, yuck, and not worth it (I'm a fan of soft bread, not crunchy). The only other options all made my stomach turn. I just can't handle the fat and the grease like I used to! I can't believe we used to eat out like 4-7 times a week!
The only hard part of the day was everyone mentioning how little I was eating. I don't really like my eating habits being a discussion topic! Has anyone else had to deal with this? I'm sure others have stories about the constant comments about their food, so I won't bore you with mine! It left me a little down, but even still I didn't feel like any of the sweets I'd been craving all week. Instead I came home, relaxed for a bit and tried a Healthy Choice frozen dinner.
It tasted good, but was soooo not enough food for the amount of calories it was! I usually eat the Weight Watcher frozen dinners and I pair them with a decent size salad. But I wanted a frozen dinner where I could eat just that. (That's the lazy part of me talking. You can lose almost 100 pounds and still be incredibly lazy, trust me!)
I thought the Healthy Choice would be a good...choice. Considering you get a main dish, a side dish, and a dessert. The only problem is that there is about 3 bites of each thing. I usually take 20-30 minutes to eat my meals. This frozen dinner? Took me about 7 minutes. I bought another one to try, but now I'm a little nervous that I'll be just as hungry after that one. But that's what I like about life, you can try new things. I'm so much more open to it now that I'm not being FORCED to, but that's an entirely different story.
Basically I just think it's funny that I lost a pound over the weekend. I didn't jump into a big pile of junk, but I ate more both days than I usually do and I didn't find time to hit the gym either day. Oh, and the other thing I did was I didn't measure anything. I KNOW! I can't believe I did it. But I've been on this road awhile so I was sort of able to eyeball the things I usually grab measuring cups for! I actually scooped ice cream directly from the carton into my dish instead of the measuring cup. Say WHAT?
I know I'm happier when I'm not obsessive. I already deal with OCD with other things, I don't need to be obsessed with my food! I'll be much happier in my healthy lifestyle, instead of the watch every single bite and don't allow yourself anything "bad" diet.
Wednesday, August 06, 2008
I don't know if I can really say I've reached my goals, when I'm still technically overweight. I also don't really like the fact that I'm still a size 14/16. But I can tell that if I'm not already at my body's set point, I'm getting there.
I know there are "tricks" that I can do to keep getting the weight off. Cutting out dairy, eat even fewer carbs, blah blah blah. I want to be at the weight I can maintain, while still eating the foods I want!
If I had a different body type I wouldn't give a second thought to my weight. If my extra weight was in my hips or butt instead of my stomach, I would be totally fine with the weight I'm at now! Mostly because I'd be a smaller size and I'd have the extra weight in the "correct" AKA healthier places.
But even if my body is not perfect, it can do so much more for me now that I am healthier! So why am I not at my goal? Because I want to keep setting new goals! I want to continue making healthier choices. Increase the amount of weight I'm lifting. I guess my goals are just different now. Maybe more weight will come off, but I don't know if I'm going to watch it as closely as I used to.
So I'm not necessarily celebrating just yet! =P
Edit : Ok, so maybe I'll do just a little celebrating anyway! I've reached one of my goals, now I'll just keep working on the others. I also wanted to edit the blog and add this comment that I left for someone :
I'm definitely thinking a fitness approach is what I want to switch to instead of just focusing so much on the scale. I can probably lose weight even if I'm not being as obsessed about it. Plus I'd be willing to try more foods instead of constantly switching the bag/box around to see how many calories it is. I want to become more consistent with my exercise and not JUST do it as a means to burn calories, but as something that is fun!
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