Thursday, March 15, 2012
Well, it's almost that time! We leave for Vegas in 5 Days (Tuesday!!) and will be married a week from today (Thursday!)! I'm proud to announce that I have managed to get my nutrition & workouts in sync and as a result....I have broken through to the 150's!!! It's been almost 2 years since I've seen that number on the scale!! My goal was to lose 10-13 pounds for the wedding. Too bad I can't really remember what I weighed when I said that :( But I'm confident that I'm going to feel great regardless. I've bought some new clothes & was happy to fit in to Jrs size 9 jeans! They're pretty tight but hey, they look good & I didn't want to buy some that were bigger & then have them be too big in a month. ;)
I feel like I have a case of senoritis, lol. I'm not really thinking about anything but this trip! I'm so ready to go, get married, have a vacation, spend some quality time w/ my friends and family & I don't think I'll want to come back! I won't be taking a computer so no sparking while I'm gone but I do plan to still eat healthy (don't really desire unhealthy foods anymore) & I hope to have the time to check out the hotels 'state-of-the-art' fitness center. See what in the world that means, lol. Can't wait to get back and share some pictures...okay, I CAN wait to get back - just anxious to share pictures ;)
Monday, February 20, 2012
I don't even think there's a way that I could catch y'all up on all these months but I'll try..
I got a puppy, moved in with my son's father, gave birth to the most beautiful little boy ever almost 7 months ago, packed up & moved out a month later, got engaged (to his father), moved back in 5 months later. Been here a couple months now & things are GREAT! We leave in 28 days for Vegas with a few friends & family and will be married in exactly 30 days!!
Okay, that's the highlights. ;)
With that said, let me move on to my goals & where I am in life. I weighed 160[ish] when I got pregnant. Was 207 when I gave birth & was down 33 pounds 11 days later. And didn't lose another pound.
Fast forward to today. After picking the date & place & the wedding becoming a reality, I've really been struggling to drop 10[ish] pounds by D-day. I started working out (again) and didn't notice the scale moving much. So last week I decided to switch to an 80/20 Clean Eating diet. Not knowing much about it, & finances being limited, it's really just included a Green Smoothie for breakfast, a fruit smoothie for lunch & some sort of healthy dinner. Scale's moved down 4-5lbs.
I've been watching a friends CRAZY bad-a** kids for 3 weeks now and that's been really stressing me out. It's 50+ hours a week &, up until last Thursday, it was her 3 year old all day & then her 6yr old twins after school. That ruined my exercise streak & Sparking altogether. Still been watching my food & getting in exercise here and there but I know it's sabotaging my goals. So I told her it was just too much for me & have cut back to just watching the girl til 12 & then have the rest of the day to myself. But I still have another job to go to & still have to get in my tanning (can't be as pale as my dress after all ;)) and spend some sort of time w/ the family. I'm just having a really hard time finding my groove. It seems when my exercise is on track, my eating's crap. When my nutrition is going good, my exercise is lacking. I Need it to all fit together right now in order for me to reach my goal of losing 5-8 more pounds in 30 days! (Really less then that so I can actually go buy a dress!!!)
With that said, ain't nuttin to it but to do it. So I'm gonna quit stressing myself about this and get to bed so I can start fresh in the morning ;)
So glad to be back and I look forward to seeing friendly faces! Here's a few pictures to share...
Monday, May 02, 2011
Don't want to do it but here's the update on last weeks goals:
* Begin every day reading my Bible - before phone, tv, internet, breakfast etc - *Mostly Done. Not always Before phone activity but I made it a priority first thing in the morning.*
* Blog at least once a day - being sure to stay honest w/ myself & others - *FAIL*
* H2O - at least 10 glasses a day (notice the increase ;)) - *FAIL*
* Workout at least 4 days a week...Sunday & Wed-Sat - *DONE. Got in Sun, Mon, Thurs & Fri but didn't hit cardio as hard as I should have.*
* Study at least 3 times this week - prepping for school - *FAIL*
* Tour 1st hospital Wednesday - *Done*
* Tour 2nd hospital Saturday - *Done*
* Make a decision on which hospital I prefer & figure out what I need to do from there - *Done*
* Log ALL calories - sticking between 1500-1800/day (cutting myself some slack on Easter when I may not know what all when into my mothers cooking - even so stick to healthy portions & quit eating before feeling full) - *FAIL*
* Weight gain of less the 1.5 pounds between now & Friday. - *Done- No Gain*
Let me just say that I guess it's good that I decided to post this because it doesn't look as bad as I thought it would.
I had a major set back this past week. I got a phone call last Tuesday from my child's father saying he had baby stuff for me. I met up with him to pick it up & it was all downhill from there. We spent 5 days rehashing everything &, I thought, laying it all out on the table. He asked if I'd get counseling with him so that we could work through our issues and be better parents for our son. I agreed - with one condition...That he was to be honest, upfront & no more lies.
Well, Saturday that all went out the window when I called a number he'd been texting and had a 2 hour conversation with a woman he'd been seeing (& practically living with! AND having unprotected sex with!!) while him & I were together. So much for him feeling so remorseful and wanting to change & be honest about everything. Hell, he'd just seen her the day before - Friday! He'd just told me he wanted to MARRY ME about an hour before this phone call took place!!!!
As devastated as I am, I think I knew he wasn't being honest with me. Hell, he never has been before. Why start now? So that was that. No counseling. No more communication. No more sucking me into his lies & games. I feel the best thing for me & this baby is for him to be completely out of the picture. I have no idea how I'll do it on my own but I know I absolutely won't be able to be successful while dealing w/ the stress & heartache he continually caused.
Moving on. Here's a picture he took of me a few days ago.. 26 Weeks & 5 Days
I still haven't gained any weight on the scale. I can tell my weight is just repositioning though. I'm losing fat & gaining baby. I actually weigh only 1.5 pounds more now then I did March 4th. (I had gained about 6 pounds more but then lost weight through the stress & depression...and probably the crazy woman workouts I've been having.) This is the beginning of the third trimester and I entered it with almost an 18lb gain. My goal is to keep burning fat, growing baby & try to keep my weigh round-about the same. Definitely no more then a 30 lb gain by the end.
Moving forward. Good point, that's exactly what I need to do. I feel so incredibly overwhelmed, sad and alone that it's hard to for me to really pick up the pieces and just move on w/ my life. At the same time, I understand that all he put me through had an enormous impact on me...which means it had an impact on my baby. I need to take back my peace, tranquility & happiness so that my little one will reap the rewards. It seems a daunting task but I believe one day at a time, one good decision at a time, re-adjusting my focus & NOT ALLOWING COMMUNICATION W/ THE FATHER (yeah, that deserved major emphasis, lol) are all steps in the right direction. With that being said, it's time to set some goals for myself for the week.
~ NO Communication With EX!!!
~ Workout at least 3 days this week
~ Focus on food again. Fell off the eating wagon again so I need to hop back on, make good choices and LOG IT ALL
~ Dr's appt Friday
~ Hang shelves & baby name above crib
~ Do Laundry. (sounds bad but in my depression that's one thing I've completely let slide & I just don't fit in enough to allow that to continue any longer)
~ Start studying & preparing for school
~ NO COMMUNICATION WITH EX!! (did I say that already??)
~ Bible reading every morning
~ Spend some time w/ friends - not saying no when invited just cause I'm moping.
~ Set a time to meet with my doula to go over birth videos & get some reading material.
~ Talk about my 'relationship' less. I know people are tired of hearing about it & it really doesn't help me move on.
~ When I need to talk, WRITE. Then I can at least go back sometimes & see my progress.
~ DON'T TALK TO MY EX!!!
Okay, I think we get the point :)
So it's a new month, a new me & getting ever closer to the BIG DAY. Time to Crack Down & Get FOCUSED!!
Saturday, April 23, 2011
So I'm officially 6 months along now! Seems kind of hard to believe how quickly time has passed and I'm positive this last trimester is going to be no exception. I'm sitting at 26 weeks down (183 days) & 14 weeks to go (97 days...eeek!) :) Here's a picture for this weeks bump...
Good news time: I stepped on the scale Friday (as I do every Friday since they mark my week change) and the scale hadn't budged. So I'm looking at about an 18lb gain for these 26 weeks. This coming Friday marks day 1 of my 3rd trimester & my goal is to not gain more then 1.5-2lbs. The aim was no more then 10lbs per trimester with no more then a 30 pound gain overall. Unfortunately, I gained too much my first trimester (somewhere between 12-15lbs) and I've had to hit the gym hard this trimester to make up for that. So, since my January appt (about 4 months) I've only gained about 8 lbs.!! I'd call THAT a success! (And no worries about baby's health, he's already measuring 17 days Bigger then average!!)
In the nutrition field I'm also doing very well! I've gotten back to strictly counting calories & focusing on making healthy choices for both me & the little one. The results have been amazing! I just feel so much better!! Not always energized...hey, I am still pregnant!...but I feel healthier, happier, more confident knowing I'm making the best choices for the baby & it also feels good setting a good example for those watching. Hey, if the pregnant lady can still eat healthy (& exercise!), what excuse do you have not too ;)
Check in w/ my goals for this week...
* Begin every day reading my Bible - before phone, tv, internet, breakfast etc
* Blog at least once a day
DONE!! (Not on here but on blogspot.com)
* Enroll in summer classes
DONE!! (Begin May 27th!)
* Hit the gym at least 4 times
DONE!! (weights 3 days & cardio 4 days = 135 minutes & 1724 calories burned!)
* Water - at least 8 glasses a day
* Log everything that goes in my mouth
DONE!! (well, mostly. I went out to lunch yesterday & couldn't find the exact caloric info so I guestimated using SP info)
* Go to Church Thursday w/ DBG
* Turn to positive thinking/reading when ever I'm feeling down
* Keep weight gain to under 1lb
DONE!! (Even better...didn't gain anything!!)
With that said, It's time to make up some goals for this week!! Here's what I have so far (yes, some are a repeat of last week. But hey, that's how you build healthy habits, right?!?)
* Begin every day reading my Bible - before phone, tv, internet, breakfast etc
* Blog at least once a day - being sure to stay honest w/ myself & others
* H2O - at least 10 glasses a day (notice the increase ;))
* Workout at least 4 days a week...Sunday & Wed-Sat
* Study at least 3 times this week - prepping for school
* Tour 1st hospital Wednesday
* Tour 2nd hospital Saturday
* Make a decision on which hospital I prefer & figure out what I need to do from there
* Log ALL calories - sticking between 1500-1800/day (cutting myself some slack on Easter when I may not know what all when into my mothers cooking - even so stick to healthy portions & quit eating before feeling full)
* Weight gain of less the 1.5 pounds between now & Friday.
That's it folks :) Hope you all have a great week & a blessed Easter!!
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