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I am 30 years old and have struggled with my weight my entire life. I am working on figuring this whole thing out with the goal to get in the 100s and live my life healthily and happily. I want to gain the tools and skills to resolve the shame that is holding me back from living my best and fullest version of myself. I want to feel a genuine freedom to express myself, to prioritize my own wellness, and to take the risks that life demands.

The lowest I have achieved was 220 and that was in 2010 and then again in 2011. Since then, I have gone through some big life transitions, losses, and gains. Currently I am working as an outpatient therapist specialized in dual diagnosis (addictions and mental health) and I am a full time student working on my 2nd and 3rd masters degrees in social work and public health. I can't go on in my career preaching integrated healthcare and trying to help people live longer and fight chronic illness if I am over here in the 300s, pre diabetic and with no energy whatsoever.

I welcome any support, camaraderie, and encouragement along the way. This community helped me get down to 220 before and I know in my heart I can see this through to my ultimate goal of becoming height-weight-proportionate and in the 100s and able to shop at regular stores for clothes and fit into plane seats and feel ALIVE everyday but it will be a lifelong process and a willingness I need to cultivate to commit.


Member Since: 1/22/2009

Fitness Minutes: 23,859

My Goals:
Develop a routine that is sustainable and rewarding to my mental physical and spiritual wellness.
Work towards becoming height-weight-proportionate.
Weigh in in the 100s.
Get back into running.
Have some fun and surprise myself.


My Program:
In the past I have dabbled with the Whole30 diet, with calorie counting, and endurance sports. I am most drawn to improving my consistency with whole foods in general and getting away from the processed, refined sugars, breads, and preservatives. I am a big salty/savory person and need to break the cycle.



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"I run because it's therapeutic for me. Because every time I run outside, around my home, I am reminded of the beauty of the world, of which I often forget. Yet at the same time, I am fully aware of beauty -- it simply saddens me because of reasons I have not yet conjured up. I suppose I am sad. But at the same time I am happy; and miserable; and joyful; and stressed out; and calm, and everything in between. I am everything. Every emotion, rigged in every format, and developed through every machine. I am numb but I am not."


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  • v CREATINGAMANDA
    Hey darlin! The fact that I just saw your comment from MAY today tells you how well I've been doing on Spark, huh? I'm actually back here today to close my account ... BUT I'm going to open a new, fresh one. I just need to hit the restart button, ya know? But you'll be one of the first people I add because I'm SO READY to do this again. And yes, I'd love to remotivate together. Let's do this.
    1531 days ago
  • v SILVER_WOLF1221
    stopping by to say emoticon
    1532 days ago
  • v ANGELCITYGAL
    I love your spirit. I've added you as a SparkFriend. Hope that's okay. I'm newly training for an event myself -- the Spartan Sprint, a 5K obstacle course race. It will be in December in Malibu, CA. Rah! emoticon
    1532 days ago
  • v CALLIKIA
    Thanks for the recommendations. Both are now in my Books wishlist on Amazon. ;) Glad to see you back, love!
    1561 days ago
  • v _SHARKBAIT_
    Can we please?! I need this, I need you, I need to finish what I started. Plateaus suck and I just quit trying after a month of being stuck. I'm IN!
    1621 days ago
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