A few summers ago during a short spell of being in good control over food.
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Losing weight and staying thin after menopause seems to be so tough, especially when I have a history of compulsive/emotional over-eating. But, I did it before, and I can do it again! I used to be so thin and in-shape that people in the gym would come to me for advice. Now, every day is a struggle, and in the end (of the day) I blow it. Time to be in control of my life again, rather than letting food control me.
A part of me is so incredibly vain, which troubles me. It's the society we live in, of course, hugely affecting me. Honestly, if I could let go of the significance of physical appearance, I might become a Buddhist nun (which would require shaving the locks!). Vanity aside, there are more important reasons to get a handle on my compulsive eating issues: It's just not healthy. It's not a fun way to live life. I just want serenity every day, rather than a battle with food. Is that too much to ask?
I've spent my whole adult life at least 30 lbs overweight. Eight years ago I'd shot up to over 180 lbs and then lost 50 lbs and looked amazing. For two years I maintained it. Yes, I thought about food ALL the time--counting calories over and over and over, all day long-- but shoot, I think about food all the time now and how fat I am and how tomorrow I'll start doing better! So, my goals are: to stop the compulsive overeating; eat normal portions three times a day/every day; stop binging on chocolate--McDonald's McFlurries to be exact--several nights a week; lose 12 lbs and keep it off. All we have is this moment and I don't want to wake up at 70 or 80 and wonder why I'm still overweight!
I'm quite physically active and have been for 20 years, so not much to change there. Except, a year ago I lost 5 lbs without any thought in about 2 weeks when I was doing Bikram yoga (900 calories burned in 90 mins.!) So, I plan to add that twice a week to my busy schedule. Regarding food, I have to take one meal at a time, I think, and get into a routine. I actually eat very healthy, but end up overeating at night, and usually breaking down and eating something sweet. I come from a family where I learned to eat huge portions, and to eat all night long. I just don't know how to stop that permanently.
I am from the Madison, WI area, and high school world history teacher with a master's degree in Afro-American Studies.
For over 30 years I've starved myself over and over and over, joined Weight Watchers, chugged Slimfast, cut out sugar and dairy and wheat completely, been a vegan, eaten macrobiotic, lost 10 lbs in a week on the cabbage soup diet, read Dr. Phil and a gazillion other diet promises front to back, and recently lost 5 lbs in short order eating nothing but fat and protein on, but of course--the Atkins program (however, l was eating butter right from the stick...can that be good?). But, all this punctuated with horrible, horrible binges that sometimes caused me to vomit. The binges were justified by promises of starting the new and best yet diet in the morning! I'm excited to have found YOU, for now I think I can accomplish my goal of stopping this madness and finding the calm.
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