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I am a 43 year old mother who is 150 pounds over weight. I want more children while I still can, but my weight is keeping that from happening. I have a beautiful husband who is so supportive, and I have a fifteen year old who is inspiring beyond words, as he battles Leukemia in the bravest way possible. I am a lucky mom who is head over heels in love with my family. I want to be as healthy as I can be for them, for myself, and god willing maybe one or two more babies before I get too old. Most of all, I want to set a good example for my son. If I can do it, he can do it too. It's more important than ever that he gets healthy. Otherwise, I may never forgive myself. It's time to get to work!

Member Since: 10/25/2012

Fitness Minutes: 900

My Goals:
My goal is to lose 150 pounds

My Program:
* to track my diet and exercise daily.
* to eat lots of vegetables, protein, nuts, and seeds.
* to limit my carbs, including fruit.
* to limit fatty dairy products.
* to cut out sugar and refined foods totally. I have a sugar and carbohydrate addiction. Yes, a real addiction!
* to practice portion control and keep my calories in check.

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I have been away for a long time. I have recently returned to try and get my weight headed in the right direction. After several failures, I had previously decided that enough was enough. I made a series of bad choices that rocketed my weight up to an unbelievable 302 pounds. My first mistake was in making the conscious decision to stop trying to lose weight. I had convinced myself that I gain more weight each time I tried. With each failure came a spiraling vortex of shame and guilt. Instead of telling myself to try again, I told myself that each failure solidified my idea of who I was, and that was a failure. If I could go back, I would say, at least you are still trying. Hang in there. Don't give up. It will be worth it... My second mistake was dragging my family into my vortex of shame. Now my son, who is battling cancer, has developed my same bad habits that I have. We eat loads of healthy foods, but we never watch our portions, and we pair the healthy stuff with sneaky servings o

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    emoticon for adding me as a emoticon I am glad we can continue this journey to better health together! Have a blessed day! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1419 days ago
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    well done on losing weight i found your page through the depression page i suffer from depression i first got it in oct 2005 i put on a lot of weight 34.6 kilo so i have lost 8.2 kilo so far but i have fallen off track so now i need to get back on and really get down hope you are still coming down i will be now i am back on track i have allowed myself 20 months so that is my goal so i hope i can do it. i am going to follow your plan of walking daily even if it is around the block i think this is how i got started in 2005 i was walking a hour in the morning a hour in the lunch time and a hour in the afternoon and i was very fit i cannot do this now i can walk for about 20 minutes i find it very hard but i am going to listen to what you said and walk daily even if it is only around the block.
    1445 days ago
    Hi Hanna,
    I came here from your post in the Depression Team forum. I wasn't sure how old your son is (he's 11? So is MY son!). Boys that age are wonderful I think. They still openly love their moms and are willing to open their hearts to others, like your fiance. He sounds like a terrific kid--congratulations to him for making the honor roll!

    Contrary to how you stated you feel in your first post your later posts give plenty of evidence that you *are* important. You love your son, he *loves* you and you help make him feel better. You chose a man who sounds wonderful, too, and has fallen in love with your son as well as you---way to go!

    I don't know what kind of chronic pain you suffer from, or where, but maybe instead of centering on food rewards (we all do it, it's not just you in that habit) how about some sort of activity? Like a minor league baseball game, or a movie/DVD or an activity at a favorite park or indoor recreation center?

    I hope you don't mind if I friend you! I'm Julie. emoticon
    1445 days ago
    emoticon emoticon emoticon to the Scrap & Craft to Lose team!!
    I look forward to getting to know you!

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    1455 days ago
    Hi Annazee!! I added you as a friend. I saw your post on the craft team thingy. When your sparkpage loaded I wasn't paying real close attention and read that you had 11 kids. I had to do a double take and upon closer review I now see you have an 11 year old. LOL

    I hope you are doing well today! Have a FANTASTIC weekend!!
    1457 days ago