July 26, 2012: My 65th birthday
I have 2 pics in my gallery
ONCE MORE WITH FEELING!
I have to admit it and let the truth sink it: I have let myself go. Big Time. Yes, there were reasons -- but I can't use them as excuses any longer. Not when I have held on to 50 extra lbs for 30 years, pretending not to notice. Not when my closets are crammed with new never worn clothes many sizes too small. Not when I keep wearing the same old sad frumpy items over and over and over again, because they are the only ones that fit. Not when I know that at this weight I am more prone to illness ...
I have to admit it and let the truth sink it: I have let myself go. Big Time. Yes, there were reasons -- but I can't use them as excuses any longer. Not when I have held on to 50 extra lbs for 30 years, pretending not to notice. Not when my closets are crammed with new never worn clothes many sizes too small. Not when I keep wearing the same old sad frumpy items over and over and over again, because they are the only ones that fit. Not when I know that at this weight I am more prone to illness and joint pain and a future of shrinking physical resources and health. It's really a crying shame, the way I have allowed myself to get away with so much less than what I'm capable of, just coasting on illusions of how eventually I will turn things around.
I am 65 years old, and married, no kids. I still work part-time, making documentary films and writing travel articles. But I know I am under-achieving in many parts of my life -- and it's now or never time. Somehow, the physical part of what I need to do -- get really fit, and lose at least 40 lbs --is a first and most urgent step of transformation for me. If I can stick to this committment to myself -- (never been able to succeed in this department in my whole life!) -- then it will pave the way for other positive changes in my life. It's really about self-respect, and it's time I stocked up on some!
At the end of July, I will be turning 65. (say it aint' so). In August, I am going to Africa on a walking safari that will require many many miles of trekking each day. So my days of kidding myself are numbered! It's time for a new chapter, a new outlook, a new sense of pride.
My motto is: 'self respect on my death bed! " Now, I don't expect to be dead for many decades yet -- but -- I do expect more of myself in the self-respect department. Starting Today.
I am going to re-invent myself: big time. It is going to be a journey of discovery and challenges -- but I really believe it when they say that life begins outside of your comfort zone. I have waddled around in my comfort zone too long now, and now it's time for some big goals, and big dreams. Just to prove, if anything, that a middle aged woman can be a force to be reckoned with!
My birthday is 40 days away. Africa is 55 days away. I will be blogging every day (this is my first blog!) -- join me on my ride,
and hopefully I can inspire you on your own adventure!
| current weight: 167.0
Member Since: 3/8/2012
Fitness Minutes: 1,412
lst Q fitness goals:
show up, suck it up and just do it !
at least 30 minutes a day.
Cardio 3x a week
Strength 3 x a week
Yoga 3x a week
Keep it simple stupid
I am breaking down my workouts into 2 x 20 minute chunks. So I will do 20 minutes of Yoga and 20 minutes of strength one day and then 45 minutes of cardio on alternate days.
I was recently in Buenos Aires for work and came home totally determined to learn Spanish in 2013.
Spending 20 -30 minutes a day with Rosetta Stone progam -- now on 12 days so it's streak, folks! Adios!