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WBOYACK is a SparkPeople Motivator!
I've started the journey of “losing me” in September of 2008 and to date I have been successful in “releasing” 50 lbs. At first it was a journey to discover freedom; freedom from the health demons that stock me; freedom from negative and despairing thoughts of me; freedom from obsessions with food; freedom from worry; freedom from a hard heart. I am succeeding in finding freedom and along the way I’ve discovered that I’m really finding me as I lose me.
People look at my life and ask, “How do you have time for all that?” I don’t know. I just do. When I REALLY want something I do MAKE the time. I love that I am busy. I love my life. I love that I choose to home school my children. I love teaching voice and making a joyful noise with my students. I love that I teach Seminary and find great energy and power in my study of the scriptures. I believe that my scripture study and increasing understanding of gospel principles is what is motivating me to get back onto the "healthy lifestyle" horse and is keeping me there.
I've always struggled with my own self worth. As a teen, I didn't date and often compared myself to my thin, attractive, and exciting younger sister. In college I tried out unhealthy habits to gain a thin look, but my efforts added to the dis-harmony in my personal health. After my graduation from BYU, I met and married my best friend. However, I struggled to believe that my husband found me attractive. Many misunderstandings, trials, and painful experiences kept me trapped in the web of self loathing that was created by the Father of all Lies.
However, over the past couple of years I have been blessed with renewed hope; hope for myself, my husband, our marriage, my family and my health. I was brought out of darkness into the Light through a very uncomfortable situation that has reminded me that all things are possible with God; that I am a beloved daughter of God; that I can stand up and say enough.
About 8 years ago, I was successful in losing 90 lbs. that provided the opportunity to have my 5th and final baby. Recent events have reminded me that I have the power within me to be triumphant again. I have the tools. I have the wisdom to become healthy. I have the skills to be healthy. I can have the virtue to follow thru with my goals and win. The past successes have come because I have a righteous goal; I took responsibility for my actions and my health. I had a support group and a good friend to encourage me and that would lift the tired heart when I could not lift it for myself. I shared my knowledge and experiences and testimony of God's love with others. We depended on each other. I need to continue to renew these same tools.
I am aware that this journey will be hard. I don't find exercise fun. It hurts - at my size. I like food and it likes my middle. But I can do this. It is a righteous desire to be healthy and to learn to bridle all my passions. I have hope. Perhaps, in reporting to the masses on line, humbling myself and boldly admitting my weaknesses, I will make those weaknesses into strengths through the power and the love of the Savior.
I haven’t shrunk all that much, but my soul feels lighter and that counts for everything. Well… I guess 50# is nothing to be disappointed in. My goal here are to reach out to an even greater support group as I share with the world my ups and downs; my failures and successes; my discoveries along the way to better health… body, mind, and soul… so here I go again, freeing my voice by taking responsibility for who I am… Hello blogging world!!!!!
I will think possitive thoughts. I will become a healthy weight and control any approaching health issues. I will find time to exercise each day. I will make healthy choices in my food intake. I will spend time on strengthening my relationship with God daily!
Start weight: 350 9/15/08
330 - 10/13/08
320 - 12/1/08
310 - 12/16/08
300 - 4/17/09
walk, walk, walk
clean eating in season and within reseaon
feed my spirit daily
| Pounds lost: 39.8