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After years and years of issues with poor body image, an eating disorder, and such complete identification with my physical form that I felt completely defined by how I looked, I struggled with post-partum depression when pregnant and went from 128 to more than 180 pounds by the time my second daughter was born. After a series of heartbreaking crises that changed everything about my life, including the loss of a loved one, I completely broke down and had to take medication in order to "deal" ...
After years and years of issues with poor body image, an eating disorder, and such complete identification with my physical form that I felt completely defined by how I looked, I struggled with post-partum depression when pregnant and went from 128 to more than 180 pounds by the time my second daughter was born. After a series of heartbreaking crises that changed everything about my life, including the loss of a loved one, I completely broke down and had to take medication in order to "deal" with the every day. I felt little joy and this was reflected in my outward appearance and in the way I moved through the world.

As the medication began its work, life was easier to manage and some of the happiness returned. But things had changed for me, and I began to question WHO I truly was and what I was truly meant to do in the world. Within my core, there was the knowledge that more was required of me, but I was lost and floundering without either map or signpost. It was then I happened upon "A NEW EARTH" by Eckhart Tolle.

Since I started reading the book in March, things have begun to change for me in the most positive and beautiful ways. I have ceased taking medication to treat my depression, and am using healthy eating, exercise, and the inner, spiritual work for which I had such a thirst, to create a stronger, better version of the Real Me, the Being within.

Truly, I barely recognize this new person emerging! All my life, for various reasons, I disliked running and never made it a part of my exercise program. However, I decided to set myself a goal using that which had caused me so much anxiety and inspired within me so much dislike, and now I am using the Couch to 5k program to train for my first 5k! I am now on Day 3 of my 2nd Week and went from being able to run 30 seconds to 5 MINUTES! What a difference.


This body is of a 34-year-young-mommy to two daughters, ages nearly-3 and 1. I live in M-i-crooked letter-crooked letter-i ... (mississippi).




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Member Since: 9/16/2007

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My Goals:
a. Ideally, I would like to lose 30 lbs in the next 8 mths, improve my flexibility, be more confident in myself and my abilities, and to have an overall healthier lifestyle both physically and mentally.

b. To be the best wife and mother I can possibly be.

c. To live in the Now at all times and to begin meditation exercises every day.

d. Run my first 5k!




My Program:
I plan to follow weight watchers core system, keep track of my food and fitness goals through SP, and to exercise 5-6 times a week for a minimum of 30 minutes a day. In addition, free weights three times a week and possibly a day or two of yoga, along with various strength training exercises. More recently, I am doing the Couch to 5k program in training for my first 5k!

Besides the work on my exterior, I am using the practices in A New Earth by Eckhart Tolle.

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LEANNA64
5/8/2008 6:04:02 PM

Welcome to the Awakening Team. I look forward to getting to know you and sharing in this awesome experience together!



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