Please, get some help from people who are alive and can do something. We are a virtual unreality and can do nothing to really help. Do you have a therapist? Are you on meds? YOU NEED REAL HELP. PLEASE DO NOT CHEAT YOURSELF. IT IS OUT THERE FOR YOU BUT YOU MUST REACH OUT. All I am able to do is pray that you get the help you need.
Thanks for the comment on my Spark Page. I have still managed resisting the awful cookies my son helped me bake. Baking stuff you don't like is really going to become my secret weapon....that and Oreo cookies, which i also cannot stand 2430 days ago