May 26th, 2012. One of my childhood best friend's bridal shower/bachelorette. Feeling good!
June 2008, probably around 260 pounds
Shared Fitness Tracker
March 22nd, 2012
My last update here was almost exactly a year ago - March 24th, 2011. I first signed up to SP in February 2010. The last two years have been a rollercoaster ride to say the least. I lost 35 pounds, gained 15, lost 5, gained 10, and on and on and on. Every time I thought I was committed, I'd encounter a setback.
I've been committed to it again for the last month or so, exercising almost every day, and my eating habits are slowly getting better. I sincerely hope this is the last time I have to say 'I had another setback and gained 10 pounds, then just gave up for awhile'. I'm tired of that. It's bullsh*t. I'm stronger than that. So here I am, once again, and this is IT. I'm not proud of the setbacks I've had, but I'm also not going to dwell on them, and it's not going to define my future success. Because I WILL succeed. A year from now, I'll look at my old pictures and then I'll look at myself in the mirror and think "YOU DID IT!!!"
OLD INTRO FROM WHEN I FIRST STARTED SPARK, FEBRUARY 12, 2010:
I've been overweight most of my life. I never kept track of my weight growing up, but I remember being 180 pounds at 13 when they made us weigh-in for Grade 9 gym class. When I finally got a scale, I weighed 260 pounds, and that was after losing a bit of weight over the summer of 2009. I joined SparkPeople on February 12th 2010, and it's motivated and helped me SO much. I've set goals for myself, big and small, and have things to work toward.
For me, this is as a journey - it's about making lifestyle changes that will last forever - eating healthier, being active, taking baby steps, and working toward the bigger picture. I've discovered that I actually enjoy exercising (something I never thought I'd say), and I enjoy eating healthy and drinking lots of water, especially knowing that I'm doing good things to and for my body. It took me a long time to get to this place, it's going to take time to change, and I'm ok with that. I want to feel good about myself, and know that I'm healthy and that I'll live a long, happy, healthy, fun-filled life. And being able to buy new clothes and look smokin' hot at the end of this journey is a pretty good motivator too! haha
I'm looking for inspiration and motivation to keep me going and I like the idea of being held accountable - people knowing my goals, my progress, etc. That's one of the many reasons why I LOVE SparkPeople! Feel free to add me as a SparkFriend, we can motivate each other!
I am DONE.....
-I am DONE sitting on the sidelines and being afraid to join in because I'm worried that people will judge me
-I am DONE shopping in the plus size section of stores, having limited selection and paying more for clothes because they're bigger
-I am DONE worrying about what people think when they see me
-I am DONE not being able to wear high heels because I'm afraid they won't support my weight
-I am DONE being inactive
-I am DONE over-eating and using food as a 'reward'
-I am DONE staying away from the pool and beach because I hate how I look in a bathing suit
-I am DONE looking at pictures of myself and feeling disgusted at the way I look
-I am DONE being the 'fat friend'
-I am DONE having no energy
-I am DONE not being able to play with my nephews for long without getting tired
-I am DONE looking at people - friends, celebs, models - and thinking 'man, I wish I looked like that'
-I am DONE not being able to buy sexy bras because I have to buy plus size ones - not because my boobs are big but because of back/side fat
-I am DONE not going out with my friends because it feels like I'm invisible and everyone pays attention to them and not me
-I am DONE feeling invisible and overlooked
-I am DONE with people assuming I'm lazy because I've overweight
-I am DONE not believing in myself
-I am DONE avoiding looking at myself in the mirror
-I am DONE with excuses
-I am DONE setting goals and never sticking to them
-I am DONE worrying that people are judging me when I go to the grocery store, and feeling like everyone's looking in my basket to see 'what the fat girl is getting'
-I am DONE avoiding changing rooms because a) I'm so used to things not fitting, and b) the (dreadful, unforgiving) mirrors
-I am DONE waiting, wondering and worrying when someone's going to ask me when I'm 'due' because my tummy's so big I look pregnant
-I am DONE waiting, wondering and worrying, PERIOD!
-I AM DONE BEING A FAT GIRL!!!
*I want my family and friends to be proud of my accomplishments
*I want to set a good example for my nephews and teach them that eating healthy and exercising are good, life-long things
*I want to feel not only comfortable naked, but feel sexy naked
*I want to feel beautiful and sexy in general
*I want to love myself
*I want to be confident
*I want to be happy and stop letting things like my weight hold me back
-Exercise every day in some form
-Drink 8+ glasses of water daily
-Tell pretty much anyone who will listen about my journey, how I'm doing it and why, and hope that I can get people to join me!
-Learn to love myself and have more self-esteem, a better self-image and more confidence
-Look hot in smaller clothes! LOL
-Revel in every success, big and small.
*Eat lots of fruits, veggies & whole grains, limit fat & sugar intake
*Drink tons of water and limit other drinks
*I have a flexible work schedule, so I try to break up my work-out periods throughout the day. I walk, do yoga, calisthenics, strength training, and I'm also my 2-year-old nephew's nanny Mon-Thurs, so I spend a lot of time running around after him.
*My name is Marie. I'm 28 years old and live in Ontario, Canada. I'm a writer and an author - my debut novel, Blue Sky Days, came out in January 2012, and I'm currently working on my second novel as well as a book of short stories, and I also freelance write for a few websites.
I love to read, listen to a wide variety of music (my favorite, in case you didn't guess from my screen name, is U2), take pictures, travel, and spend time with the people I love.