Back when I was thinner....I haven't taken a picture of myself for over 4 years. This is all I got.
Another pic 4 years ago. This is where I'd like to be again. See I was happy....
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5/18/11..........Thanks to hardwork, determination and a little help from the doctor, I have now lost a total of 52LBS.....I am no longer pre-diabetic, I have begun to take over my life. First time in 4 years I weigh less than my husband......I have a little bit more to go but I have never been this proud of myself before. I am so DONE being the FAT GIRL. So DONE of being ashamed and hiding....Screw that! Time to live!!!!!
11/2010......I'm here, I'm back and I'm keepin' keepin on. What's that song? "Been down this road so many times...." Yep that's me. Today I may not be who I thought I would, I may not see who I want to see in the mirror and I may not do all the things I want to do but it's ok. It's ok to start over. It's okay to mess up. I've found that the biggest failures in life are also the biggest lessons. When I start to whine, when I start to give up I say to myself in the nicest way "Build a bridge and get over it!" Sometimes you have to be rude to your inner voice, sometimes it's the only way to be happy.
In The Beginning:
The thing in life that I hate the most is myself.
The need to find myself and to find the love I once had is why I'm here. I want to wake up in the morning and find peace in my heart. I want to stop avoiding the mirror, which oddly I find myself actually doing. It seems so cruel to be that person, it has taken me a long time to realize that that person is me. So now I am admitting it. I am addicted to food. I want food more than I want the relationships in my life. I want the comfort it provides me when I am the lowest of the low. I want the encouragement it shows me when I feel like giving up.
It means more to me than me.
So what now? Now that I have admitted my self-loathing, my addiction. Is that suppose to make me feel better? Make me want to change? I don't know yet. I'll tell you when I find out.
Thats all there is to it. And maybe find a few friends at the same time!
I live in Pleasant Grove, Utah and would love to find a walking buddy. Anyone in search of someone let me know. =) I'm newly turned 30 Married with no kids of my own. I'm going to school for interior design
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1393 days ago
HAPPY BIRTHDAY 2012!!!
Where are ya, Done Girl!? I hope no matter where you find yourself in life, you are definitely enjoying it this birthday!!
All the very best,
1396 days ago
Happy BELATED Birthday, DONE GIRL We are singing your song.
The Scorpio child is born to a father who didn't want a child, for whatever reason & this might never have been discussed in the home, but the sensitive little Scorpio child, who hates loud noises & over-stimulation, picks up on this & learns to not trust others. She is always asking herself "what do they want from me & what is in this for me?" She uses sarcastic comments to "get them first" since she is such an emotional person. This can certainly lead her to having a problem with obesity as food can be her "drug of choice".
Scorpio gets along with Pisces, Cancer, Taurus, Virgo and Capricorn. BUT, since Scorpio is insecure she MUST be in control of any relationship she is in and this can be difficult for others to take. IF she is sure she has a faithful partner, she will give all she has to a relationship.
Often, Scorpio supports the family. She does well working alone as she is NOT a "team player". She does well working in police work, as a detective, inspector, under-taker, or a businesswoman.
Scorpio never has an easy life as she is always in a struggle, but ever decision she makes is her own & she has no one to blame for her situation since she made it by her own chose. Scorpio is a natural athlete, so she doesn't have to be fat. She can make herself anything she wants as she can stay with and finish what she starts. She is never a victim as she rules her own life no matter how simple it is.
Like the other water signs, this sign is very sensitive and emotional. With Scorpio, unlike the water signs Cancer and Pisces, the emotions remain under rigid control. They may not even be apparent to those who are very close to you. When your emotions do erupt, they do so very violently, often with a strong burst of sarcasm and vindictiveness.
The strength of Scorpio is in the methods employed to meet every challenge. You approach everything with intensity and passion. Nothing is ever halfway because you put everything you have in your work; mind, heart, soul. You are one of those people who always gives 100% and sometimes more. Many born under the sign Scorpio become classic workaholics.
You may have an undesirable trait commonly found in the Scorpio person, holding a grudge for a very long time. The underside of Scorpio is often possessed with uncontrollable jealousies and the strongest passions. When offended the reaction is surely revenge. The higher side of Scorpio still dominates people and situations, but with much for the common good. This sign produces very few lukewarm people. You are either very bad or very good.
In Scorpio, the Sun is intense, skeptical and secretive. There is an intensity and a secretiveness in your makeup which results in an inscrutable persona most people cannot penetrate. This trait makes the Scorpio personality hard to detect. You like to remain incognito, and do so with your very secretive nature. You are a master at hiding your emotions. You neither flinch nor blush. It's hard for you to share your inner feelings with anyone.
You can be very critical and demanding, creating a forceful and dominating demeanor. You are strong-willed and determined, and you usually act with incisiveness. Your critical nature allows you to make shrewd and unusually accurate judgments at a rapid rate. You can penetrate the hidden agenda of those you meet. It is in your nature to protect yourself by knowing what your opponents are thinking and doing. You have uncanny intuition and accurate perceptions, making you almost psychic in understanding and making emotional connections with other people. Very few successfully earn your trust. Often, you experience difficulties with the authority figures in your life.
At home, you may be something of a tyrant, wanting everything done your way. You think you are always right and won't tolerate dissent. There is a tendency for you to impose your will on friends and family since you feel so passionately that your ideas are in their best interest. No one takes relationships more serious than you. Although you are highly attracted to, and attractive to, the opposite sex, in many respects you function well as a 'lone wolf' type.
1757 days ago
Belated Happy Birthday wishes to you!! Hope the celebration was DONE just right!!
1759 days ago
Happy Belated Birthday!
1761 days ago